“……？” Qi Jufei was puzzled, "Why do you want to do this?" ”

"Because I hate them." Nguyen Zhenxiong said, "Do you know why I can remain a child? Because I was disabled when I was very young. But my disability was not born, it was caused by my mother. But I don't blame her, she's also a miserable person. If you want to blame Ruan Tianming, blame Ruan Tianming. ”

Qi Hufei was confused.

"When I was born, Nguyen Tien Minh had not yet made a fortune. My grandfather's family was a big family in Jinshui City, Ruan Tianming had nothing at that time, and no one in my mother's family agreed to them being together, not even to join the family. Ruan Tianming eloped with my mother, and the two of them fled all the way to Fenglai Town.

I was born in the town of Fenglai. Although I was poor when I was a child, I lived a fairly happy life. Except for my mother, who occasionally told me about the prosperity of Jinshui City, Ruan Tianming would suddenly go crazy and beat me and my mother, shouting that one day he would go back to Jinshui and kill those who looked down on him.

Later, Ruan Tianming slowly made a fortune, and there were more and more women around him, and the relationship between him and my mother became worse and worse. They often quarrel and sometimes get into fights. My mother was beaten by him every time, and her nose and face were swollen, and she hugged me and cried.

Once I went to beg Ruan Tianming to stop looking for women and stop beating my mother, but I was beaten by him. Later, Ruan Tianming simply brought other women to the house for the night, saying that a man like him should have three wives and four concubines.

My mom was already depressed at the time, and she couldn't speak at home, so she could talk to any lover who came to her. Ruan Tianming is getting more and more excessive, and sometimes he will take his lover to do something wrong in front of him.

My mother finally couldn't stand it anymore and took me back to Jinshui, but was chased back by Ruan Tianming halfway. She was locked in her room and not allowed to eat or drink. In the evening, I secretly went to bring her something to eat. She hugged me and cried for a long time.

When it was almost dawn, she said, "Zhenxiong, Mom is leaving, do you want to come with me?" ”

I thought she was going to escape, to go to Jinshui, so I nodded.

We climbed up the window. I was scared because the windows were high and I didn't know how she was going to get down.

Then she jumped off with me in her arms.

At the moment of jumping, she regretted it. I will always remember the look in her eyes, full of love and remorse.

She nudged me hard in the air. I landed on the awning downstairs and rolled down to the ground again. I'm not dead? But it hurts the place where it shouldn't be.

I was lying on the ground and couldn't move? Next to it is my mother. She collapsed in a pool of blood. I saw her eyes open until someone lifted me into the ambulance.

Was I discharged from the hospital later? But my side of the story is gone. I don't blame my mom? She's a wretched person. It was Ruan Tianming who killed her. I wanted to go to the grave to say something to my mom, but she didn't have one. Nguyen Tien Minh didn't bury her in the cemetery? I heard that the corpses were thrown into a ravine and fed to the wolves.

Ruan Tianming took me to many places to see doctors, and after I was sure that it couldn't be cured? He gave up.

Later one of his lovers took my mother's place? I entered the door of Ruan's house and became my stepmother. She gave birth to my younger brother Shaoxiong.

Since then, Nguyen Tien Minh has been cold to me. In their eyes, am I a useless guy? To live is nothing but a waste of food.

Actually, I've always wanted to die? I also want Ruan Tianming to die. Every day I think about it, I plan to set a fire and burn down the whole house. But I didn't have that courage.

I grew up in pain.

I hate Ruan Tianming, and I hate myself.

I am cowardly, inferior, and incompetent......

I often wonder? On the day I jumped off the building, I just died with my mother.

More than three years ago? I walked into the desert, into the depths of the Flaming Mountain? I thought I would be burned to death by fire, but I didn't expect to meet the scorching immortals. Did he find out that I was born with fire virtue? And my physical defects have become my strengths? Help me keep my child? He took me to this little Cuiyun Mountain and asked me to follow the Rakshasa as a teacher and practice the true fire of Samadhi.

I thought I would be born again, but I didn't. The shadow of hatred and low self-esteem has always hung over me. Every night when I close my eyes, I see my mom lying in a pool of blood......"

Nguyen Zhenxiong stopped at this point, and his soul became dark.

"Since you hate the Ruan family so much, and you have already become a monk and cultivated, why did you come back to help your brother avenge and kill so many people in Fenglai Villa?" Qi Jufei asked.

Nguyen Tien Hung said: "He is my younger brother, and he is the only person in the entire Ruan family who will not look at me coldly. Maybe in the eyes of others, he is a bully, but in my eyes, he is my only relative. ”

"But you burned him to death."

"Sooner or later, people will die. He doesn't cultivate immortals, and with all his past actions, he can't cultivate immortals, he can't become a Buddha, and if he goes to hell, I'm afraid he will be plucked out of his tongue and nose, soaked in an oil pot, and will never be able to live forever. Anyway, he has been kicked off by you, after Ruan Tianming died, he lost his backer, did so many bad things, offended so many people, and couldn't live. Just die, die under the true fire of samadhi, your soul will be destroyed, there will be no pain, and you don't even have to go to the Huangquan Road. ”

"It's not easy to be a man, it's rare to practice, do you just let yourself go into the abyss of no return?"

"Do you think I can achieve positive results? I've lived in pain all my life. The hatred in my heart is hard to quench, and I will never be able to become enlightened. Besides, I know very well what my master, the Wind Rakshasa is, is. At that time, the jade-faced Rakshasa had such a great opportunity, and it took thousands of years to finally achieve the right result after guarding the Flame Mountain, and my master Wind Rakshasa thought about eating people every day, and he would never be able to get to that day. ”

"So you just chose to self-destruct?" Qi Hufei shook his head and sighed, "I understand." You have been waiting for such an opportunity for a long time, just as you have always wished, to burn all the people of the Ruan family with a fire, and also burn your past and your hatred. But you can't do it yourself, and burning your own family for no reason doesn't alleviate the sin and pain in your heart, so you've been waiting for an opportunity. You know that if you do too much injustice, you will kill yourself, so you indulge Ruan Tianming to do evil, never dissuade him, and are even willing to help him, just to let this opportunity come soon.

Today finally made you wait, you took this opportunity to burn everything related to you, and in your heart you pushed it all on me. ”

Ruan Tianming did not deny it: "You guessed right. But I didn't expect you to be so powerful, what is that magic weapon you used to block the flames? …… Forget it, don't ask. I'm dead anyway, so give me a good time. ”

Qi Hufei said, "I can let you go to reincarnation." ”

Ruan Zhenxiong said: "It's boring. Reincarnation and then a lifetime of pain? It's all meaningless living, and meaningless death, life and death, the cycle repeats, what's the point! ”

"But you have entered the door of cultivation, don't you want to become an immortal one day in the future and live with the sky?"

"Live with the sky? Hahahaha......" Ruan Zhenxiong smiled, "How many people dare to say that they can live with the sky?" Practitioners say that mortals have many desires, and their minds are blinded by fame and fortune, and they cannot see through the red dust. But you don't want to think about it, immortality, that's the real wishful thinking, the real big desire! With the same life as the sky, this is lower than the probability of Erha next door becoming the president of the sacrifice country. If you have such a desire in your heart, can you be liberated? ”

Qi Hufei was suddenly speechless. He didn't come to talk to Ruan Zhenxiong, he came to do something.

"If you are already dead, and if you seek to die again, you will be destroyed, and you will disappear forever between heaven and earth. You have to think about it. He reminded again.

Nguyen Zhenxiong said: "If it can really disappear, then it is the real liberation." If you are afraid, you will be afraid, and you will never be able to get rid of it! ”

Qi Hufei was stunned for a moment, and unconsciously remembered the dark death.