No.204 Transforming darkness into light
This cold Lalaye mansion is filled with a strange and evil fog......
I know that the treacherous and growing fog is a trap designed for me by an outer god named Nyaratotip who has been targeting me. In this infinite darkness, I ......
I miss my time at Neo-GUTS. Although we have to face endless disasters, we are with everyone every day, fighting together for the future, and we are blinded in a kind of ignorant joy, and I really hope that those days will not end.
But I'm ..... I knew that was no longer possible, and I must admit that I failed.
The power of Ultraman Tiga, the wisdom of the primevals, and the rationality of human beings are nothing in this storm. I think that even if I continue on this path, I may not have a chance to defeat Nyaratotip and save the planet.
I failed.....
I failed.....
I failed......
Saving the planet, I want to leave it to my companions. While everyone should have their own pursuits, I hope they don't get discouraged by me, but I have to go first.
But looking back on my life, it seems that I have always been a failure.
From the moment I was born, when I was sensible, I thought I would always be happy, but why did my father have unwarranted malice? I don't understand, what was the reason for my birth? Was my birth ...... Is it really because of suffering?
When my mother was still alive, it was the only time I felt the warmth of the world, right? But her mother died after giving birth to her younger brother, and her father's malice intensified. What about my hopes? Is there still light?
Never mind......
The meaning of life, listening to others talk about money, power, a good life or something, but shrouded in the shadow of a miserable childhood since childhood, is there still the meaning of living?
Even so, we have to live, and the meaning of life will be found one day......
I am drunk and dreaming of life every day, but I still can't see the brilliance of hope, maybe Mu Yanxue's existence gives me some motivation to live, right? But even so, nothing has changed until he meets Ah Xuan.
Ah Xuan, what do you say? Becoming friends with him is like a dream now, but because of his existence, I can live well.
Until that day......
Yes, it was the day when I was called by Ultraman Galaxy to become Ultraman Tiga.
I learned my fate on that day, and I think that's why I was born into this world, right? But I don't want to accept that fate, the world is already dark, it's enough to keep Ah Xuan and Yanxue like that, what fight against the dark shadow to save the world, forget it.....
But we have been imprisoned in an infinite spiral of life and death...... Everything is a designed program, and there is no escape.
The deaths of squad leader Chi and Jie Yu made me understand this. If we don't rebel against fate, there will always be a day when disaster strikes, so I joined Neo-GUTS and was determined to rebel against the unspeakable god who ruled our fate.
But endless death .... Endless grief..... Endless catastrophes......
I...... We have done our best, no matter the wind or rain, even if our comrades are killed, we still insist on fighting, but endless wars, eternal sorrow.
I didn't want to be an Primordial at all, but I had no choice, but after becoming an Primordial, knowing the deepest meanings of the world, and having the strength to resist the outer gods, I couldn't find hope, and I was free from the small happiness of human beings......
But you have to fight no matter what, and you can't give up no matter what!
If you give up, the world will be destroyed, if you give up, there will be no happiness, and if you give up important people, you will die.....
It's so painful, so sad......
The hope that is kindled is swallowed up by greater despair, then there is greater hope, and then it is shattered by despair, and so on, like the cage of life and death.
So, does hope really exist?
At the driver's Laleier mansion, the cold wind is blowing constantly, and the soul and body are returning to nothingness. Now it seems that Nyarrathotep is setting up a bureau, and it has been set up since the super ancient times.
Disasters are noble.....
Disasters are noble.....
I brought the disaster upon me.
It was I who brought misfortune to everyone.
I am the disaster.....
From the moment he obtained Ultraman Tiga, the Black Shadow summoned the Flame Garura. Twenty years of peace were shattered, and the Cataclysm brought about the first massacre in Shimmer City, in order to make me accept my fate.
The second time, while participating in the test of the electric punch system, Sfia struck and cast a shadow on people's hearts. Again, it was me at the Luoguang Mountain Proving Ground, and it was I who brought them.
Determined to attend Neo-GUTS' training, he meets Phineas, High-Altitude Senpai, and Jay-woo, but is deceived by Nyaratotip's lies. The high-altitude senior sister is in danger, Jie Yu is also dead, and even Fei Ge has suffered injuries.
Ghouls, those races too......
After joining Neo-GUTS and going to the North Pole, it was because of his conceit of inspiration that he almost killed the whole team. On that day, I also realized that I was insignificant, and that as long as I was the ruler of the past, we could not overcome.
So what are we fighting for? And why can you muster up the courage to fight?
Disaster will not give you the answer, it will only come forever......
And because of me, let the zigera flower bloom, and plunge the whole world into a crisis of destruction. Because of my peculiarity, Nayarathotep set his sights on my brother, almost killed him, and was almost devoured by the madness of Epoztel.
Too much, too much! I don't even want to think about it anymore!
But Yogsothoth has arrived, once again in Shimmer City. Was this disaster designed by Nyaratotip to make me an Ancient? Because of what? Is it easier to control with that unspeakable power, or is it simply just fun?
In short, it's because of me, it's all because of me......
Then, there is the script of "The King in Yellow". Nayarathotep let the troupe see the script, and then Karksa came......
In that battle, it was the most damaged battle. Shimmer City was destroyed, and the rest of the people fell into madness, Qiu Xuanming's father died tragically, and even his own younger brother .....
Endless calamities, endless sorrows, and hopeless ......
It's tired, but those disasters continue. Climb to Innsmouth and fight to slay the father Dagon, but also know the desperation of the divers.
Yes, their leader is dead, and even the stele has been destroyed, eager to lead this Cthulhu to give them hope, but Cthulhu is gone, and in Lalaye, there is only Nyaratotip, who came to design himself......
Nyaratotip is keen to deceive and not to believe what it says, but are those disasters really not caused by themselves? And to watch a civilization flourish and eventually lead to destruction, isn't that noble to Nyaratotip?
So did the disaster inspire me a sense of sublimity? I think it's nonsense, yes, there must be, all cataclysms are terrifying, and of course there is a sense of sublimity.
But it is human nature to feel sublime from the catastrophe, and that doesn't mean I like it, and it doesn't mean that I want it.
I fear it, that's why I feel it's sublime.
Because I'm afraid of it, I want to stop it.
But no matter how hard you try, even greater disasters will come! No matter how hard they try, they will cause an even greater disaster.
In a trance, I understood the thoughts of the super-ancient Tiga, and in the face of disaster, the true nature of human beings was exposed, and no matter what, they could not be saved. And is it necessary to insist on the human body and human reason?
Backed by lies, after a real catastrophe erupts, it is vulnerable and can fall at any time.
Only death.
Only the sublime.
There is only the one unchanging, the great being above the truth......
There is a disease in this world, and there is a disease in this civilization......
Differences create suffering, disasters create surprises, and disasters cannot be overcome without destroying humanity.
Eliminating human nature and insisting on the mortal body is nothing but a stubborn inertia, and only by becoming the Great Being can we change all this.
As the embodiment of Yogsothoth, sit on the throne of Nyaratotip and become the eternal ruler of the old days......
I threw myself into the darkness with this thought, but suddenly I saw that in the ruins caused by my own catastrophe, there was a man's head, his eyes closed, and his whole body had been buried by the rubble.
It was dead, it was crushed by the collapsed house, and its dead posture could be seen through the gap in the pile of ruins, kneeling on its knees, its entire upper body prostrate forward, its body was pressed and deformed, and it looked a little weird.
Feeling heartache, right? Of course...... So to be a great being.......
"Let go of me! I can save one more! I can save one more! ”
At this time, I saw the ruins in the distance collapse, and the huge concrete mass was sinking down, and the beautiful figure that was turning in...... Is it a high-altitude senpai?
Ah, this is Shimmer City, this is the script for "The King in Yellow.....
I saw another person dragging the high-altitude senior sister to death..... It was Ah Xuan, the two of them were pulling on it, and finally the high-altitude senior sister on the ruins was dragged to safety, and the high-altitude senior sister who had just brought out a child from the ruins knelt down and cried, saying that she could still save one and save another......
"People are scared, they are confused, they are selfish, but they also believe in hope. That quality, that courage, that everyone has, is the light that belongs to the unique human being. ”
Yes...
Oh, yes......
Light from Humanity......
Although human beings are selfish and small, they still believe in hope and will not give up, even in the midst of disaster.
Disasters are indeed noble, because they are uncontrollable, full of unknowns, and fearful enough to destroy human reason, which is why disaster movies make people despair.
But disaster movies not only make human beings realize their own insignificance, but the most wonderful thing is the brilliance of not giving up between human nature. Those glories are nobler than disasters!
"I believe that one day, this land will be prosperous again, and I want to see daisies bloom in every corner of the city."
"Xiaofan, don't give up..... Just like a strong daisy flower, it can bloom with pure white color no matter what difficulties it encounters. ”
Oh, yes...
In the face of disaster, everyone did not give up, they believed that the disaster would pass one day, so they kept fighting, didn't I keep fighting for this?
More noble and more shocking than disasters is the unique brilliance of human beings.
Maintaining a mortal body is not blind stubbornness, and human reason is not supported by lies, nor is it vulnerable to attack!
Why did I forget this?
Why was you deceived by Nyaratotip's lies?
How is it possible to throw yourself into the darkness?
I'm Ultraman Tiga.
I just hope!
There are still years to cherish, how can you give up?
Firm in the heart, never give in to the darkness! It was only a moment of interruption, and the clarity was restored in front of the eyes, and the whole fragrance of the flowers emitted a terrifying thunderous roar, and the indescribable darkness was also collapsing.
Disasters are noble, and civilization will eventually perish, but above it is the splendor of human reason, and although it will eventually perish, civilization will flourish again. They don't make the same mistakes, so it's your mission to protect them from disaster!
Above the fog and black earth, in a place darker than darkness, I saw the dust falling with the sun, and the flowers that scattered the land.
Gradually come to that light until all the darkness is transformed into light!