Chapter 123: The Nearing End
The poison island guy was slightly stunned, and his eyes were also condensed, but then he laughed a little helplessly, and his smile was slightly far-fetched:
"Is it true that you can read minds? Xia Ran? I knew I couldn't hide it from you...... But seriously, it's really rude for a girl to behave like this. ”
"Really? Shall we do it all over again? I'm pretending I don't know anything, and you're going to start a conversation, okay? ”
Xia Ran was very understanding, so he proposed this way, after all, the other party had just made a supper for himself, and he had to repay it.
He didn't explain that he really couldn't read minds, purely because he knew that the character of the poison island girl was very special, and his memory was relatively deep, plus some weirdness in his previous performance, as well as his mood swings at the moment-
Combining this intelligence information, it is natural to be able to guess what she is worried about.
Moreover, Xia Ran didn't think that the poisonous island boy had come to attack him at night and was ready to throw himself into his arms, so naturally he would not be blinded by appearances, which would affect his thinking ability.
It's just that this kind of performance that seems to be an unpredictable prophet, in the eyes of the preconceived Poison Island guy, is a clear proof that he has been read by his mind.
Although she had known that such a thing would happen, and she had made mental preparations before coming, this beautiful girl with long purple hair still felt uncomfortable at the moment, as if she was seen through by the eyes of the person in front of her, and there was no privacy at all.
She finally understood Saya Takashiro's feelings, and it was difficult for that tsundere girl to be able to endure it, instead of not being able to control her temper...... But also, if that's the case, wouldn't she be no different from those who don't understand the situation?
Identity, status, origin, background......
These are just the "rights" before the disaster, just in the short period of these days, the most powerful people in the world have almost disappeared directly, all the rules have also changed, and the previous society is directly finished.
If you still dwell on what you used to have, such a person is not qualified to live at all, and the world is very simple now, basically divided into the living and the dead, and the most important thing is "power".
As for how does this "power" manifest itself most intuitively?
Naturally, it depends on whether you can kill more zombies, capture more resources, and better survive.
Ordinary people can rely on a large number of people, elite and well-equipped weapons, etc., to form the strength of the group. And the person in front of him has immeasurable power in his own right, which is a completely different concept.
Saya Takashiro also said to others in private that if you want to continue to survive, you must know how to rely on others who have power, rather than everything according to your own nature, because only you have to adapt to the environment, and there is no reason for the environment to adapt to you.
Thinking of this, the poison island boy shook his head gently.
Then she sat down directly on the chair next to her, reached out and stroked her long purple hair that hung down, and let out a long sigh:
"Since you know my intentions, classmate Xia Ran, I'll get straight to the point...... I'm not afraid of killing, you know, right? What I'm afraid of is that I actually think that this kind of world is not bad......"
Xia Ran didn't ask why such a world is not bad, just listened silently, pulled the supper next to him by the way, picked up the fork and ate it without a bite.
"Because I almost killed a man with my own hands before, and that should be ...... Well, one night four years ago, because it was so profound, I remember very well that there was a man who wanted to attack me, but I had a knife in my hand. ”
The poison island girl seemed to be caught in a memory, his eyes were misty and trance-like, and his voice was very soft and soft.
"So I didn't hide, but deliberately led him to a corner, and when he couldn't wait to pounce, I broke his shoulder blades and thighs so hard that the sound of bones shattering mixed with his screams, and I actually felt so happy that I couldn't help but tremble."
"And then?" Xia Ran bit his fork and asked vaguely.
"And then? Then, in the name of legitimate self-defense, I evaded the accountability of the police, and in fact I was already over-defending...... But considering the situation at the time, I was still a junior high school girl, and I fought against that perverted pervert by myself, so the police naturally sided with me, did not hold me responsible, and drove me home. ”
Poison Island smiled self-deprecatingly.
"It was at that time that I realized that I had a strong tendency to violence, and that there was an unforgivable dark side hidden in my heart...... It's like in the world now, it's not that I'm more decisive than them, I'm more adapted to fighting, but because I'm so excited and excited when I kill those things. ”
"Oh." Xia Ran nodded, his expression flat.
“……”
“……”
The poison island boy stared at his face for a long time, and then asked in a strange tone, "Don't you want to say something?" At least give us your opinion? ”
"Comment? This one...... I'm still a little hungry, can I ask you to make another one? ”
Xia Ran thought about it, so she pushed the empty plate towards the purple-haired beautiful girl with a serious face, "I think the taste is okay, it's very good, but it's better to be lighter...... My taste is lighter. ”
“……”
“……”
The poison island boy looked at him, and then suddenly burst out laughing.
She stood up a little helplessly and took the plate, and her expression became crying and laughing: "It's not easy for me to make up my mind to come and talk to someone......"
"I know."
"I'm really worried about this, classmate Xia Ran."
"I understand."
"Aren't you going to say something, then? Shouldn't something be said to comfort me? The poison island boy looked at the young man in front of him angrily and funny.
"I don't think you need to, do you think you're doing something wrong?" Xia Ran frowned slightly, feeling a little depressed, could it be that the other party just let himself express his opinion and said this, not about supper?
"Huh? I think ...... It's not good to kill like this, right? Do you think I'm still saved? Poison Island was slightly stunned.
"Hey, are you insinuating me?" Xia Ran tugged at the corners of his mouth.
"Huh?" The poison island guy was a little dazed, but then he reacted, the person in front of him really killed I don't know how much, whether it was a human or a zombie, he was really small compared to him.
And the other party has no psychological burden at all, she is still smiling all day long, so in comparison, she can't help but hesitate, wondering if she is a little too hypocritical.
"Let's put it this way, first of all, we must make a premise clear, that is, if you want to survive, you have to fight, desperately adapt to this environment, if you don't kill them, they will come to kill you, and they are no longer life, there is no consciousness, they are purely moving corpses."
Xia Ran thought about it and said with a hammer palm.
"And the same goes for those people, if you don't want to die, you can only kill them, lest they come and hurt you. And the most important thing is that no matter what you think or what kind of concept you have, the nature of this behavior will not change. ”
It's all the same anyway, it's not that if you have a state of sad sympathy, self-doubt, and self-denial, killing isn't killing.
In that case, why make yourself uncomfortable? As long as you know that you have done nothing wrong, you should be the object of killing, why should you feel guilty? Xia Ran is really difficult to understand this kind of thinking, and thinks it is purely hypocritical.
Poison Island's eyes widened in surprise, but he quickly calmed down.
After being silent for a while, she smiled softly, her expression seemed to relax, she probably muttered to herself as if she had figured out something, and seemed to be talking to Xia Ran:
"Yes, maybe it's really me thinking too much, no matter how you think about this kind of thing, it won't change its nature, as long as you have to, you should do what you think is right, and if it's right, why ......"
Squeak –
It was at this moment that her words were interrupted as the door to the room was suddenly pushed open.
A pink-haired ponytail poked its head out from behind the door, glanced here suspiciously, and then had a suspicious expression on his face: "...... What are you doing in your room together? ”
"Do you want a supper?" Xia Ran smiled, not at all guilty.
"Hmph, no need, I came to you for something to say, I think it might be necessary......" Saya Takashiro snorted, pushed open the door and walked in generously, and said so.
"What's the matter?"
"Don't you know how to read minds? Don't tell me you don't know......" The two ponytails clasped their hands on their chests.
"Are you sure you want to?" Xia Ran asked meaningfully.
“…… I mean, tomorrow we'll just cross the river to my parents! Saya Takajo gritted his teeth, "Don't waste time, integrate the forces of both sides as soon as possible, it will be good for everyone." ”
"Oh? Wasn't you very opposed before? ”
"What's the use of me objecting, will you give up this matter if I oppose you?" Saya Takashiro glared at him, "It's all destined to happen anyway, it's better to solve it as soon as possible, so that it can reduce unnecessary losses." ”
"Are you sure you can convince your parents?" Xia Ran couldn't help but be a little surprised when he heard the meaning of the other party's words.
"I'm their daughter after all, what I say has some effect......" Saya Takashiro pursed his lips and sighed, if the forces of the two sides were to merge, naturally there would only be one voice.
However, she didn't expect the person in front of her to accept the solicitation of her parents and become her parents' subordinates...... That's not realistic at all, it's only possible the other way around.
However, her parents are not very talkative people, and all she needs to do is try to avoid conflict, because if a fight breaks out, there is absolutely only one result - she becomes an orphan.
"If you have faith...... So let's go get some weapons tomorrow morning and head straight away. ”
After thinking for a long time, Xia Ran finally nodded and said in a harmonious voice.
He was going to take the protagonist group and his party directly to the policewoman's friend's house to get guns and weapons, but because he went to the hospital, and then grabbed time to farm monsters, he couldn't make it.
Saya Takashiro's proposal is also very good, if he can avoid conflict and directly expand the size of the team, he will naturally not refuse.
After opening the personal information page and glancing at the detention time, Xia Ran felt that maybe the time of his departure was very close......
However, this time and efficiency, it seems that there is no way to add all attributes to the small bucket, which is too unfriendly to obsessive-compulsive disorder......
(PS: There are a lot of things in the New Year, and there are always disputes over some trivial things in the family, and I can't talk about it well, and I feel bad after the quarrel, so I will look at us the next generation coldly, and vent our dissatisfaction on us...... I really can't understand this kind of behavior, or is it because the juniors can't talk back, so they feel very authoritative and accomplished by doing this? I just want to be quiet, but it seems that if they are in a bad mood, they must also make my mood bad, alas...... )