It's snowing today.

The first snow of the year.

It's still been cold lately, and there are fewer and fewer people to see on the streets.

Maybe they've all left the city.

Nothing happened at school today, it was still a quiet day.

However, the class came to transfer students, and at this time it was really because of the college entrance examination, after all, the score line here is relatively low.

It's almost the final exam, but I won't do more and more questions, maybe I'll be kicked out of the key class next semester,

But.... A year off school plus no effort,

Of course, I guess that's right.

If I can continue to stay here like this, for those who work hard every day,

Isn't it unfair?

Hard work doesn't always pay off, but sweat doesn't deceive.

However, even if I'm not in the key class now, Xiao Ran will be fine.

The first in the class, the teacher's focus on the object of concern should not be in trouble.

Although I don't know how much effort she put in when she was so stupid before.

Anyway, it doesn't matter if I don't have me, the almost two years that have passed have proved that I am nothing more than unfounded.

But think about it, just in case she is bullied again, she will become a mad dog and bite each other, and warn others like a bad person.

I'm still stupid,

Like a fool...

......

.....

Well, be honest with yourself in your diary.

Ultimately

I'm just being self-satisfied.

I thought it would make me feel a little less guilty about the stupider thing I had done.

I thought that this would protect my daily life as usual.

I thought that I would not encounter the same thing again....

But, in fact,

I spent three years of high school in silence and loneliness, feeling like I was out of breath.

So, it turned out that before my daily life....

It's broken down a long time ago.

(The handwriting trembles here)

I used to think that I was very good, that I could do a lot of things, and that I could not let my parents worry about it.

But in fact....

That's not the case.

(There are traces of tears wetting here)

Not only did I not do anything, but I did too much wrong.

Grab him by the hair and knock him down the pit of the abandoned house with his knees, no matter how much he begs for mercy.

Actually, I didn't want to be a hero! It's not protection at all! Not even for any justice!

I'm just innocent....

(Here the diary paper is vigorously cut by the tip of the pen)

Vent your anger and anger at yourself who could only grit your teeth and cry behind the warehouse that night!

I can't wait to use my own strength to do something in a hurry!

To prove something, to tell yourself that you are not so powerless, to tell yourself to stop thinking about Xiao Ran crying in front of the hospital bed,

And then.....

(Here the torn paper is re-flattened)

In exchange, of course, it is to pay for their own actions.

Everything in life has changed differently.

At the end of a year of sabbatical, on the first day of school, I knew it in the eyes of many people looking at me....

In the past, I was happy every day, there was nothing to worry about, and I slowly worked hard to rejoice in my growth.

Never again.

But maybe instead, I always felt that I hadn't changed much before, and I was dissatisfied with my age and greedy for maturity.

At that time, I felt my growth very clearly.

It turns out that the seemingly identical and empty truth in the book is true.

It's not that you can slowly become the person you want to be by repeating it day after day, but only what you have experienced,

Will it grow....

And the boy really didn't grow up slowly, the boy really grew up overnight.

Obviously, I got the maturity and calmness that I always hoped for、I can keep my mind and smart when I encounter anything...

Why...

What I envy now is that

What about the children who used to simply want to become heroes and work hard every day...

It felt like I was getting farther and farther away from him since he waved goodbye to him.

Growing up isn't just about getting something new...

Grow..... Isn't it as good as I thought...

If only I could go back, if only I could go back to the happy days before,

If I could continue to be carefree and happy and smile in the sunshine every day, Xiao Ran is not not talking now, or is as stupid as before, always wrapped behind me.

If I hadn't gone out with me that night, or if I had been a little more greedy, if Aunt Qin hadn't been sick in the first place...

If....

If... My daily life.... If only I could do it again....

I sure!

I..... Certain....

(The handwriting trembles here, but it is not continued to be written.) ）