"The twelfth day of the sixth year, the seventh month, and the twelfth day of the sixth year of leaving the greenhouse.

I lost my rabbit.

I didn't fall asleep that night because I didn't grab anything when I reached for my hand to the bed.

There was supposed to be something there, and it always was.

The night was quiet, as if the last bit of sound had been lost, and I didn't even know who to talk to.

It should be cold tonight, is it snowing outside?

I was about to ask a question, but it occurred to me that no one would answer. ”

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"The sixteenth day of the seventh month of the sixth year of leaving the greenhouse.

Today I met two wanderers, the older one is Yanagihara and the younger one is called Al.

It may be hard to believe that they picked up my rabbit and had no intention of throwing it away.

It was a very special coincidence, especially when I saw it with my own eyes.

My instincts told me I should meet them, and I met them.

During the conversation, I invited them to join me in my work, and offered to let them stay in my home for one night, which would be the best shelter in the ruins.

Yanagihara was very cautious, and I thought it was a little funny to look at her guarded appearance.

However, perhaps due to Al's physical condition, she agreed to my proposal.

We talked a lot that night, and I almost told me what I had planned for the concert.

I know I shouldn't have been, after all, they're people I've only met today, but God knows how long it's been since I've said so much.

I was so excited that I lost sleep for most of the night. ”

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"The sixteenth day of the seventh month of the sixth year of leaving the greenhouse.

I slept soundly in the second half of the night yesterday because Al picked up like my rabbit and she was a very sweet girl.

And I found out that Yanagihara actually could play the drums, which made me even more sure that my instincts were not wrong, that they were the people I was destined to meet, and that they would make my singing more complete.

They would continue to wander with the rabbits, and it was good to hear that they were going east, because I probably wouldn't have had the opportunity to take the rabbits that far.

I'm going to open up to them, and I don't have to worry about whether my decision is impulsive or not, because I'm deliberate, well, about three seconds.

Sometimes the relationship between people is like two antennas, as long as the signal is matched, the subsequent communication will be unimpeded.

Yanagihara and Al have a big appetite for me, I'm sure of that.

I'm going to take them to my 'treasure trove', and I hope they don't like it being too dirty. ”

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"On the fifteenth day of the seventh month of the sixth year after leaving the greenhouse, I used my spare time to draw a sketch of a toy for Mecha Superman to give to Yanagihara while she was away. Ha, her expression must have been funny at that time. ”

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"On the sixteenth day of the seventh month of the sixth year after I left the greenhouse, I couldn't fix an electrical appliance, which made me almost crazy, and I had a very irritable temper, which I never denied. It wasn't until Al grabbed my palm and looked into her eyes that I calmed down again. I promise, this girl has the cleanest eyes I've ever seen, but unfortunately it lacks a bit of vitality. ”

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"On the twentieth day of the sixth year, seventh month, sixth year after leaving the greenhouse, I drove her around the ruins while Yanagihara was sleeping, I had long wanted to try this big guy, feeling the wind blowing in my ears, I knew it didn't disappoint me.

Unfortunately, I was finally found out by Yanagihara and asked her to grab her braids and lift them off the car. This guy never allows anyone to touch her car, that's why I would say she's a fetish. ”

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"On the thirtieth day of the seventh month of the sixth year I left the greenhouse, after the rehearsal, I sat on the edge of my bed reading a book, Yanagihara was wiping her gun, and Al was fiddling with the camera she had picked up earlier. There was no sound in the room, but for some reason, I didn't feel the uneasiness I had before, but rather comfortable, as if I could stay calm as long as I sat like this.

Probably sensing my gaze, Yanagihara glanced back at me, and I smiled at her. But she seemed to have misunderstood what I meant, and immediately hid her pistol, and then looked at me like a thief.

So, a woman who is too possessive is not liked, and I have little interest in her old pistol. ”

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"On the seventh day of the sixth year, eighth month, sixth year after leaving the greenhouse, today I accidentally discovered a secret of Yanagihara, but I decided to keep it a secret for her. After all, everyone has their own secrets, don't they, and I have them too, there's nothing to say, it's just that Yanagihara's secrets are indeed a little different. ”

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"The ninth day of the sixth year, the eighth month, the ninth day of the sixth year of leaving the greenhouse.

Today I have a rare memory of my life and wrote this note, just like those famous people in history.

My life has been lonely, please believe that this is not my self-pity, but a factual statement.

I have very little company in my life, and most of them are just passing by.

Thankfully, my father gave me a warm childhood, but it was so short that I didn't even have time to remember it. I only remembered the sweet and sour jam of each weekend, and a few words that were once hoarse and gentle.

It's not that I don't want to remember that time, it's just that the next six years are so long.

Life alone is like years, and it makes my memory almost completely occupied by that time.

In the rubbish dump, I watched 1,236 days and nights of snow, counted 26,586 stars, and memorized the shape of each building in the ruins. When it comes to numbers and patterns, my memory is always clear. My father said I was a genius, and I don't deny that.

But he also said that I could change the world, and I was skeptical of that, because I never wanted to change the world, but the world forced me to change.

If I wasn't lonely, I would like to walk the streets of the greenhouse with the children of the neighborhood. If I had not been lonely, I would have liked to eat at the living room table with my father and mother. If I wasn't lonely, I would also like to be accompanied by someone day and night.

If I hadn't experienced what I had been through, maybe I would have been an ordinary girl, maybe I could have been smarter, and I would have grown up to be an engineer and follow my father's footsteps.

It may be a bit of a pretenty to say this, but everything I've been through tells me that I'm really lonely.

What a pity that I have lived alone in what should have been a good life.

Oh, but who can say clearly, maybe this is an inevitability, I have to go through this, and then make some changes.

I'm bound to go through this, because that's my destiny.

I believe that the world will not torture a person for no reason, so I believe in my concert, so I believe in Yanagihara and Al.

I believe in them, and they are my necessity.

They are the reason why I need to endure these tortures, so that one day I can meet them, so that one day my voice can be heard by everyone.

So at the end of the end, I want to say one more thing: Yanagihara, and little Al.

If you can see this letter.

I would like to say.

All the things you deserve to put up with me.

I'm glad I met you. ”