Originally, I wanted to take the medicine and go to sleep directly, but I couldn't sleep at all after the medicine came up, and I even became more and more excited, and I couldn't help but code a chapter.

In the past two months, the number of updates has not been able to go up, because the last healthy left hand, and because of repeated bleeding in the elbow, the hematoma has accumulated and cannot be eliminated, and now it is really almost quadriplegic.

In recent years, most of my daily life has been on my left hand, but now that I have half of my arms and one leg and my right leg is completely disabled, it is really much more difficult than ever to stand up.

Two days ago, my half-crippled right hand was bleeding again, and I found it difficult to brush my teeth, shave my beard, and wash my face with my left hand, because both hands could no longer reach my face.

Today, I played the Eight Factor, and the swelling of my right hand began to decrease.

But with each hemorrhage, it is accompanied by more hematomas and more crippled joints.

Now I can still code words with both hands, but I don't know how long I can hold on.

If you think about it, it is not unreasonable for hemophilia to live past the age of 30, because every bleeding makes the body worse, especially when you are getting older and your recovery ability is getting weaker.

On the first day I was born, my right arm was a little deformed and I couldn't fully straighten it, and the elbow of this arm was the first place to start bleeding.

But at the age of 10, I was able to make my PE teacher think I was the best candidate for the PE committee when I was not bleeding.

But at the age of 12, my first semi-crippled left ankle made me have to endure inhuman pain every day to go to school, and finally dropped out of school at the age of 15.

By the time I was 16 years old, I had a severe bleeding in my right knee that made it impossible for me to bend my right leg anymore, and it was difficult for me to leave the room again.

At the age of 25, his right shoulder was bleeding repeatedly, he could no longer lift his chin height, he could never lean to the right when he slept, and he basically said goodbye to computer games.

I'm 30 years old this year, and my last left hand can't be straightened anymore, and I can't use my strength anymore.

Now it is deformed from birth, and the right elbow with the most bleeding is the healthiest, but the right shoulder is ......

I really don't know how long I can live, and I thought that the powerful boss in Macau passed away a few days ago, I couldn't help but flip through the concert videos of Anita Mui and Leslie Cheung, and the two of them said "Close, you are my fan" directly amused me.

Well, I started to think cranky, thinking that every year, so many people die every day, it seems that I should close my eyes a little earlier.

Of course, I'm not really going to kill myself, but I'm just ready for that day to come, after all, people will usher in that day sooner or later, especially for me, this day may not be difficult to accept.

If there's one regret, it's that I really want to see the day when China's semiconductor industry can completely get rid of the United States.

I want to see the day when HiSilicon and SMIC can compete with Texas Instruments and TSMC.

Can you see it in 2025?

I feel like I'll make it to 2025.

Well, now I have the motivation to live positively.