Chapter 61: The Degree of Fear
Mu Chun was very serious, he didn't drink a sip of coffee when he was serious, and he seemed to talk to himself to the ceiling.
"What are we going to do to prepare?"
The current atmosphere of the physical and mental department is really very similar to what Liu Tiantian said, it is simply a detective agency.
"Of course, you will be prepared for unemployment, and if you don't treat this patient well, you are not suitable to be a psychologist."
Chu Sisi was anxious, his eyes were red, "What do you mean?" Am I not going to have another chance? There is no hospital that stipulates that a doctor must treat the first patient, what kind of rule is this? ”
"My rules."
"Although you are the director of the physical and mental health department, you can't just set such harsh conditions."
"In this case, you must be able to do a good job, if you can't do it well, it naturally means that you are not suitable for the physical and mental department, you can go to other departments to try, anesthesiology, anesthesiology is also a good department, you can cooperate with the surgeon all day long, and the work is relatively simple. Or the injection department, of course, the injection department does not have a doctor. ”
Suddenly, Chu Sisi held back his tears, grabbed the book, and flipped through it.
"Don't read when you go to work, if you want to read, ask for leave to go back and read."
"What the hell do you mean? Are you going to drive me away? ”
"No, Miss Chu, I'm very embarrassed, the office is just such a place, although the floor is paved, but you always sit here, it's very inconvenient for me, and it's inconvenient for many patients for a female doctor to grow, for example, Xiaolin's matter is like this, if you weren't there, I might have been able to ask him if he was a boy, you know? Sometimes it's a hassle. ”
Chu Sisi understood what Mu Chun meant, in the final analysis, Mu Chun just wanted to drive her away, but the more Mu Chun was like this, the more stubborn Chu Sisi became, she didn't cry or refute Mu Chun's words in the room, but gently picked up the book and walked to the corridor to read.
When Liu Tiantian came up to get the drink, he looked at Chu Sisi in surprise, and asked Mu Chun what was going on, Mu Chun chatted with Liu Tiantian about hypnosis with a smile, and also told Liu Tiantian that if she learned hypnosis in the future, whether her boyfriend was loyal or not could be easily tried.
Liu Tiantian listened to it with relish, and did not reluctantly go downstairs until noon.
At this time, Chu Sisi had already read most of the book, and she also noticed a lot of Howard Hughes's strange behavior, such as taking a bath many times a day.
Chu Sisi saw someone post on the forum that he had to take a bath 7 times a day, and some people said that he had to wash his hands many times a day, because he had been using soap, his fingers had begun to be red and swollen and molted, but he still couldn't help but wash his hands with soap constantly.
The site was later shut down because the server was not renewed.
After Chu Sisi got help, most of his symptoms were alleviated, because he had Mu Chun's email and knew where he was in class, so Chu Sisi never went to the forum again.
Today, reading Howard Hughes's autobiography, reading and reading it, she recalls many of the odd behaviors she has seen on the forum, ritualized behaviors and incredible repetitions.
Is it all because of fear?
Mu Chun once said so.
Chu Sisi suddenly thought that she should go to this forum again, she had never told Mu Chun that she was the helpless girl who emailed him every week, and Mu Chun naturally didn't know about her existence.
But will Mu Chun admit that this forum was founded by him?
Chu Sisi took advantage of Mu Chun's lunch and quietly turned on Mu Chun's computer.
The forum still shows the wrong address. I can't find anyone on the forum at the time, and it's not so easy to ask when it started to be out of operation.
This kind of thing is easy to leave to one person.
Chu Sisi sent a message to Liu Yiming, "Do me a favor, I want to see when a paralyzed server started to stop." ”
Liu Yiming promised to tell Chu Sisi about the situation of the server a day later.
Starting with the story of Howard Hughes's life, and rereading the email written by Mu Chun many times, Chu Sisi had some clues about how to treat Li Nan.
Although she couldn't talk about confidence, she still counted the days in the next week, hoping to wait until Li Nan appeared again.
His unkempt hair and yellow-blackened nails were not as difficult to accept in Chu Sisi's heart as they were when they met for the first time.
Although it looked terrible, he still maintained politeness and revealed self-cultivation.
Maybe it was originally a high degree of education, or maybe the family conditions were also very good, and if I didn't go out for two years, everything only relied on delivery services, and if the family conditions were not good enough, it was difficult to maintain daily life.
Even if you only eat instant noodles, the cost is not small.
"How's the preparation going?"
Mu Chun asked listlessly.
"It's rare for a teacher to ask me about my readiness."
Chu Sisi's face flushed.
"Don't worry, he'll come."
"Why? How did the teacher know that he would come? ”
"Because, ah, he longs to return to normal life, a man who has kept a terrible consciousness in hell. This is also the most unbearable part. Doctor Chu, if you had to choose, in the torment of hell, would you rather be a sober soul or a soul who is confused and doesn't know anything? ”
"It should be the latter, for example, when extracting a tooth, no one wants to extract a tooth without anesthetic."
Mu Chun clapped his hands, "This example is really good, great." This is Li Nan's current situation, he is tormented in hell, but he can't get out, he wants to push open the door of hell and return to the sun, but where the door is, he doesn't know, and he doesn't know how to push the door open. ”
"So what can we do to help him?"
"Hey, this is your patient, okay? I'm going to add 7 ice cubes to my coffee, would you like Dr. Chu to have a cup too? ”
Chu Sisi shook his head.
"Then please ask Dr. Chu to make me a cup of coffee with 7 ice cubes. I think that sometimes, I need to stare at the rim of the cup to make my own coffee, sometimes the foam is a little high, or the foam is a little low, I feel uncomfortable, my body is like a worm crawling, and sometimes I feel like I have been hit by something in my chest, and I feel stuffy. ”
"What's that like? Do teachers have times when they have to do something in a certain way to feel at ease? ”
In Chu Sisi's opinion, the current Mu Chun really doesn't look like such a careful and demanding person.