It was late at night.

After finishing the chat with September Frost Leaf, Lin Feng closed the chat window and turned off the computer.

Then he continued to sit quietly at the table, thinking back to the conversation he had just had with his old friend, slightly startled.

The reunion of old friends should be a joyous event.

And seeing that September Shuangye was able to achieve such a high popularity on the live broadcast platform of Funny Fish TV after retiring, and successfully became famous in the anchor circle, as a friend, I should also be happy about it.

But it's ......

Lin Feng didn't feel happy at all.

No, I'm happy with my old friend's current state of life, there are still some.

But at this moment, there are more other more complicated and unspeakable feelings in his heart.

Regretful.

Dissatisfied.

Disappointed.

Maybe there are all of them, all kinds of feelings and thoughts are chaotic in his mind, making Lin Feng feel tired but not sleepy.

After thinking about it, he picked up his phone and broadcast a phone number and called out.

……

Toot-toot-toot-toot-

The phone is connected.

A pleasant female voice came from the other end of the microphone, and it seemed to be slightly gasping:

"Hello? What's wrong? Call me so late. ”

Lin Feng's phone call reached An Xin.

In fact, at such a late hour, the only person he could talk to was An Xin, who was a childhood sweetheart.

Lin Feng let out a "hmm", and then felt a little puzzled:

"What are you doing?"

"I'm panting—"

The girl on the other end of the phone took another deep breath, and then smiled: "It's okay, I just exercised at night~ Now I'm done exercising." ”

Lin Feng: "Huh? Are you still exercising even after you haven't slept so late? ”

The girl pursed her lips as if disapprovingly:

"What's the matter, didn't you call me so late that you didn't sleep?"

Lin Feng: "Oh......"

The delicate-minded girl quickly heard the depression in Lin Feng's tone, and her tone softened slightly, and asked softly:

"What's wrong, are you in a bad mood?"

"Hmm."

"You're a big idiot and you're going to be in a bad mood all of a sudden, so what's going on? Hey, yes, isn't tonight the premiere of Sister Xue's change of platform to Funny Fish TV, isn't it very smooth? ”

Lin Feng shook his head: "No, Sister Xue's premiere of teasing fish tonight is very good, and it has exceeded ideal expectations." ”

An Xin on the other end of the phone was slightly pleased: "Yes, that's great-oh yes, then why are you unhappy?" ”

"It's not that I'm unhappy—"

Lin Feng hesitated for a moment and slowly spoke:

"Yesterday I contacted Ye Zi to help cheer up Sister Xue on the side of the fish, and tonight I double-lined up with him for two rounds, and then chatted on QQ for a while."

"Leaves?" An Xin was slightly stunned when she heard this, and then reacted: "September frost leaves?" ”

Lin Feng nodded: "Hmm." ”

The girl was a little puzzled: "Haven't you always had a good relationship, you haven't been in touch for so long, and this time you can get in touch again and play a black game together, it should be a happy thing, right?" ”

Lin Feng shook his head, thought about it, and carefully said the content of his chat with September Frost Leaf tonight, as well as some of his own thoughts.

……

"Well, that's pretty much it."

After saying the words buried in his heart to An Xin, Lin Feng only felt that the whole person was a lot more relaxed.

There were some things he couldn't even say in front of the person in front of him.

But you can sue sù to the buns.

After so many years of childhood sweethearts, he has already subconsciously regarded the girl on the other end of the phone as the person he can trust and rely on the most, and he can't figure out many things, and his first reaction is to want to go to An Xin to ask for opinions.

This time was no exception.

With a sigh of relief, Lin Feng remembered that An Xin on the other end of the phone had been listening and hadn't spoken for a long time:

"Buns?"

A girl's voice came from the other end of the microphone:

"Well, I'm here."

"So...... Are you a little unhappy because of the leaf? ”

Lin Feng was silent for a moment, then nodded: "Well, it can't be said that you are unhappy, it's just ...... I feel a little mixed feelings, and a little regret and disappointment. ”

The girl asked softly:

"So, why be disappointed?"

Lin Feng thought about it for a while, and seriously gave his true thoughts and answered:

"I don't think he should have retired so early, if he wanted to, he could have chosen to play another season, another season or two."

"He's won the World Championship once, but it's not the World S-League championship, so if he can continue to work hard, he may really be able to get it-"

Before he finished speaking, he was interrupted by An Xin:

"But you might not get it, can you?"

"That's the risk."

Lin Feng wanted to insist on saying something more, but the girl on the other end of the phone had already continued to say to herself:

"One is to fight for another year, two or three years, to fight for a World S League championship, but at the same time to bear the practical pressure of declining professional status, low income, and hard training."

"One is to choose to retire before his career reaches its peak and has not yet slipped down, and transforms into an anchor, which is easy and has a good income to secure a life."

"In both cases, it should be easy to make a choice."

"Isn't it?"

Lin Feng was silent when he listened.

And An Xin continued softly:

"Not everyone can have the determination and courage to go forward."

"Because this is a gamble, I can't see hope and the future, but I still grit my teeth and insist on continuing to struggle for one year, two or three years......"

"It's too strong for a man."

"Moreover, for a former professional e-sports player, it is already very difficult to say goodbye to the arena where he has shed his blood and sweat, and to say goodbye to his dream back then."

"Leaf's words...... He shouldn't be in a good mood either. ”

Lin Feng was stunned.

Thinking of the conversation between him and September Frost Leaf on QQ before, as well as the other party's speechless silence several times, it finally touched his heart slightly.

Maybe......

It's true that he's too subjective.

There are some things, Ye Zi himself should also have his own hardships.

At this time, An Xin on the other end of the phone also seemed to be aroused by this topic, and sighed lightly:

"The lifespan of an esports pro is still too short......

"The golden peak is rarely more than two years old."

"If you want to watch your strength state slip from the peak and you can't do anything about it, it's really better to make the choice of retirement as soon as possible to make it easier for you-"

As he spoke, as if thinking of something, An Xin suddenly chuckled and asked Lin Feng rhetorically:

"By the way, what if you do?"

Lin Feng: "Hmm? What the? ”

An Xin smiled: "If the leaves were replaced by you, what would you choose?" ”

Lin Feng replied almost without thinking:

"Of course, I won't retire, and I will definitely continue to be a professional esports player."

The girl asked:

"Even if the state of strength has slipped from the peak, is it the same, and it doesn't matter if you watch yourself get farther and farther away from your dreams?"

Lin Feng thought about it and replied seriously:

"Then I'm going to keep fighting."

"If the strength of the state declines, then it is better to work harder to make up for it."

The simple and pure words represent the incomparably serious and firm faith and determination.

The girl on the other end of the phone paused, then laughed:

"Yes."

"You tenacious hot-blooded stupid, sure enough, this choice is your style~"

"Everyone has their own choices, and there is no need to criticize and blame what other people make—"

"As long as you know you're still following your heart and working hard for what you really want, that's enough."

"Isn't it?"

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The update is sent, tomorrow the plane will go to Changsha, and I will go to bed early at night, good night, friends, thank you for the red envelope!