Chapter 1915: "I Am Not Human"
It's actually a nice thing to be able to sit down for a while to have a cup of tea and chat for a while after a full meal. Especially in today's situation, it can be called a "luxury".
However, it must be said that the more severe the situation in which no one knows what tomorrow will bring, the easier it is for people to unconsciously be honest with each other in a rare and relaxed atmosphere.
Now, after convincing Sarah, who wanted to leave her seat after the meal, Luna only took a short time and began to talk about some of the little things she had experienced when she was at Hogwarts in the past.
The past events she mentioned were not necessarily ups and downs, and even others sounded a little dull and tasteless.
It's just that in the crowd sitting around at this moment, either they were also experienced people, or like the Gaufeen sisters, they simply didn't go to a magic school at all. In the face of too much heaviness and depression lately, Luna's mundane topics have become more and more attractive.
“…… Oh! Sarah, I remember Professor Snape getting a Boggart in his first-year class, and he was tossing it almost for a semester once a week. In fact, we had a similar class in third grade...... Guess what happened to that boggart when it saw me? ”
"What?" Sarah asked, somewhat absent-mindedly.
"It's mistletoe!" Luna stretched out her arms and pulled in front of her, gesturing, "That's—what a big pile of mistletoe!" It didn't tell me, but I knew there must be many, many hooks in there! ”
“…… What the? ”
When Sarah heard this, she couldn't help but be slightly stunned, and then repeated with an inexplicable face.
"Fly Hook!" Luna bent her fingers, "A black parasite with three eyes and thousands of teeth!" ”
As she said this, she suddenly shrugged her shoulders again and said:
"Alright! Actually, I didn't really see it, it was all my dad told me...... Oh, yes! Sarah, I'm actually trying to ask, what happened to your Boggart at that time? ”
Seeing that Luna turned around and asked about Boggart, Sarah couldn't help but be slightly recalled.
I remember that she had enrolled at Hogwarts almost exclusively to get close to Maca. Therefore, although she did study hard in order not to reveal her true identity at that time, she only needed to study by herself because most of the content in the first grade, so she didn't care too much about the time in class.
Even so, she still remembers Snape's first Boggart class.
After recalling it a little more, Sarah didn't want to fool the past, and said directly:
"It becomes me—another me."
"Another you?" Luna then asked with interest, "Why is that?" What do you fear the most about yourself? ”
"Yes, I'm afraid of myself," Sarah said calmly, "because you think, wouldn't you be afraid if a 'monster' that shouldn't be in this world suddenly appeared in front of you?" ”
At this point, she shook her head slightly.
"Unfortunately, the Bogut didn't know it at the time, and it wasn't actually my fear — it was just that I kept telling myself that I should be 'scared' of myself. Even though, at that time, I didn't even know what fear was. ”
"What do you mean?" Hannah, who was sitting across from her, listened and couldn't help but ask a little confused.
"In other words, I proved that Boggart can actually be deceived," Sarah smiled, "and if I deceived myself into believing something, then Boggart would be fooled as well...... But actually, it wasn't that long ago that I could really understand what emotions like laughter, sadness, and fear were. ”
Finally, she picked up the tea that Luna had poured for her, took a sip and said:
"Actually, I'm not a 'human'."
……
Sarah can be a "person" who is very good at disguise.
Since she gradually integrated into human society, except for the head of the Hohenheim family and a few people, most of the others only regarded her as a little girl.
And in order to hide her true identity in front of people, she even didn't understand human emotions, and insisted that she remembered the reasonable expressions and actions she should show in all situations.
However, Sarah can also be a very honest "person".
Especially now, when she finally made up for the defects at the soul level to a large extent with the help of Maca, and truly possessed emotions, she rarely used the disguise techniques that she had worked so hard to learn.
After all, for her, real emotions are hard-won "treasures", and now that she finally has them, why hide them again?
After saying the phrase "I'm not human", Sarah seemed to have an interest in small talk, and suddenly began to talk about her long past with everyone present.
At the mention of Phillips, she had a sad look on her face; She couldn't help but giggle when she told the story of the generations of the Hohenheim family; And in the end, when talking about Maca's help to herself, she unabashedly showed a grateful and happy look.
It's actually a pleasure to have an honest conversation with someone—at least Sarah feels more and more relaxed as she speaks.
It's just that Sarah's story is obviously not so happy...... It can even be said to be very sad and painful. Listening to this, everyone couldn't help but be touched by the emotions she revealed one after another, and they all fell silent one by one.
After a while, Sarah's narration and emotion finally came to an end, and Ursula on the side finally couldn't help but say:
"I used to think that my life was scary enough, but ...... Miss Hohenheim, it's really hard for me to imagine what it's like to live without emotions for hundreds of years. ”
"Well," Sarah shook her head, "there is nothing special about it—it's like being born blind and often envious of normal people with sight, but they don't understand that the eye can really see, so ...... You know, they won't have a tangible goal to envy. ”
As she spoke, she suddenly looked at Ursula again, and then said:
"So, now I think, rather than a situation like yours, Miss Goffeiin, might be more frightening and sad—"
"Because I once had, I will understand the horror of 'loss'." Luna whispered thoughtfully.