"And then?"

"No, then it's just counting everything in the house over and over again."

Li Nan smiled, his hair still hadn't been cleaned, but his face and hands looked much cleaner than the first time he came to the hospital.

"Started washing your face?"

Mu Chun asked.

"Well, I'm starting to wash my face."

Li Nan's voice was very small, such a big man didn't wash his face, and he was still conscious, which was really a little unreasonable.

"Sometimes I really wish I was evil, I used to go to a forum, and there were a lot of people in my situation, but everyone's situation seems to be different, I see someone who has to walk in a figure 7, and if he makes a mistake, he has to walk through it again."

When Chu Sisi heard Li Nan say this, her heart suddenly beat wildly, and she reached out to cover her face, for fear that the expression on her face would reveal some terrible information.

"What's wrong with Dr. Chu? Uncomfortable? Li Nan is your patient. ”

"Oh no, I'm fine."

"It's okay, I'll go downstairs to the nurse's desk first to see what new patients I can wait for, and this one will trouble Dr. Chu first."

When he was about to go out, Mu Chun didn't forget to smile at Chu Sisi, and there was no kindness in this smile.

"So you said that forum?"

Chu Sisi didn't know where to start, so he simply continued from what Li Nan said just now.

"Well, a few months ago, the server suddenly went down, and I couldn't go up anymore, and I only saw this forum at the beginning of the year."

"Have you tried to post some of your situation on the forum and ask everyone what is causing your situation?"

"No, it's been a long time since I've been in the habit of posting and talking on the forums, and this thing is ...... for me There are difficulties. ”

The voice of the last sentence was so light that Chu Sisi couldn't hear it clearly.

She stood up and walked to the windowsill to close all the windows tightly, while the sound outside the window interfered with her hearing what Li Nan said.

"You didn't post, so you're just watching what people say on the forum?"

"Yes, that's pretty much it, I read almost all the posts and replies to the comments on the forum, and for a while, I almost lived on these posts."

"Live?" Chu Sisi bit his little lip, and his right hand placed under the table firmly pinched the corner of the white coat.

His hands were sweating, and finally his forehead began to sweat.

Li Nan is an observant person, he saw Chu Sisi's nervousness, so he comforted: "It's okay, I'm fine, I'm used to it." ”

"But it's impossible to get used to it completely, right? Almost ruined life. ”

Li Nan was a little surprised, how could Doctor Chu suddenly be emotional and say such a thing.

Doctor, shouldn't they all be cold?

Originally, I didn't have much hope, I just thought that maybe, there might be a chance, and I almost tried my best to go out, whether I could go out next time, whether I could still come to the hospital, I'm afraid it depends on God's will.

A patient like myself, who can't find the cause in a book, is so embarrassed for a young doctor.

Compared to Mu Chun's peace and ease in his seat, this Doctor Chu was really more nervous than the patient.

"Yes, it's impossible to get used to it, keep repeating, and those things will change, this time is to lift the quilt and put it down 21 times a day and then get up from the bed, and in a few days it will become a day before getting up to open your eyes and close your eyes 21 times, it's easy to count wrong, wrong to count again, sometimes the whole body is like an ant biting, but I can't resist, I dare not do it.

Why do people become so timid? ”

"I don't know."

Chu Sisi muttered to himself.

"What? Dr. Chu, I'm sorry I didn't hear clearly. ”

"I said, I don't know."

I don't know how to help Li Nan, I don't know how to respond to what Li Nan said, I don't know anything, my mind is blank, Chu Sisi feels that it is too difficult, the matter of treating patients, when I really sit on this chair, everything becomes too difficult, it is completely different from what I imagined.

Why can Mu Chun be so relaxed in this chair, it seems that everything is logical.

"yes, but I'll feel better when I talk to you, and I don't know why."

"Really? Then come here often to chat. ”

Li Nan embarrassedly squeezed out a little smile.

Chu Sisi saw a handsome face through his unkempt hair, he should have been a very dazzling boy before he was sick.

But now, he is a person who is nervous all the time.

Li Nan has a description that is particularly good, "I only wake up every morning for a moment that is free, half a minute later, when my consciousness is completely awake, my brain is like occupying 99% of the memory, everywhere is stuck, struggling." Only when you have just finished something will you relax for a moment, and soon these strange thoughts will come back. ”

So his room is his prison, there are obstacles everywhere, he is not free, not a moment free. But he couldn't leave, he willingly and helplessly locked himself in his room.

"It would be nice if that forum was still there, I went to that forum again in the past few days, and found that it still hasn't been restored, then there should be hundreds of people posted on it, and everyone's situation is quite similar. I'm a chemistry student, and I don't know a lot about a lot of things, especially words, and I don't really feel it.

To hide from Dr. Chu, I looked for a lot of books to read, and bought more than a dozen of them, and I thought that since there would be so many people on the forum who had similar symptoms, maybe there would be books that wrote about me.

Later, I found Mr. Chu Xiaofeng's book, and he said that this kind of repetitive behavior can be treated with talk therapy, and I should go to the psychologist in the hospital to have a look.

That's why I came here because it's so close to where I live. ”

"I wonder, what is that fear like for you? Do you think those things are really going to happen? ”

Chu Sisi plans to talk to Li Nan about his heart according to the method in her father's book first, maybe she can find some good entry points, as for what to do in the future, she hasn't thought about it yet, at least talk about it, maybe ask the teacher.

"No, I can't tell, it's a very strange state, and I have a strong sense that something terrible is reminding me of something terrible in my head."

As soon as he finished speaking, Li Nan shook his hand again and denied what he had just said, "I should say that there is a voice in my head that keeps pressing the siren, just like a fire alarm, and keeps saying that terrible things will happen." ”