Chapter 191: The Big Pit
"Me?" After a short period of confusion, Shuanglian also showed a slightly wry smile. Shuanglian's state seems to have improved a lot, and that blankness is just because of Zongtian's somewhat strange answer.
"That's right, after all, I'm the result of what you've done."
"Do you think I'm doing the right thing now?"
"I don't know."
I don't know if Shuanglian is still haunted by such a dream, but the answer given at this time, even she herself is full of confusion.
"So, let's talk?" Although such words were also inquiring, Zongtian sat directly on the only chair in Shuanglian's room without receiving any reply.
"Okay." Although there is some helplessness, Shuanglian really wants to talk about it.
"So where do you start?" Since the conversation started because of the sky, the responsibility for the topic naturally fell on him, not to mention that Shuanglian was still a patient at this time.
"You must have changed your mind now, right? Or do you still want the Spirit King to ......" Before Zong Tian finished speaking, he had already received some answers. Because before the dead word was spoken, Shuanglian couldn't help but shrink her body. Although Zongtian had indeed heard of Shuanglian's previous well-behaved past, this appearance still made him feel weird, after all, in his memory, Shuanglian should be a capable person who was so cool that he was a little cold.
"Actually, my mind hasn't changed much, after all, that blindfold only suppresses emotions." After calming down for a long time, Shuanglian slowly spit out such words.
"Not much has changed." Zongtian repeated these words with some playfulness, and what he got just now was really only a few answers, and that kind of answer seemed to mislead the direction of his thinking.
"Mother is indeed the founder and guardian of Ling Cheng, but these can't make up for her past sins! If that is what I did......" Shuanglian's somewhat excited words turned into a shiver at this time.
Such words couldn't help but make Zongtian feel a little headache, and the reason why the Spirit King gave Shuanglian that blindfold finally surfaced at this time. Everyone will have contradictions, just like many opposing idioms in Chinese, but the contradictions of Shuanglian are so extreme.
At this time, Shuanglian has become the one who used to be, and she is also the real her, and she should be a good person in simple terms, but this good person has one, maybe she shouldn't have something, that is, the eyes that see through everything. Because she can see through it, but she can't see through it, the distress will only keep accumulating in her heart. is the so-called troubles are all caused by self-inflicted, but Shuanglian's troubles are directly her essence, and it is a little difficult for her not to be troubled.
"So, your mind hasn't changed, but that blindfold gives you the courage to make a decision."
Although Zongtian at this time seemed to be more like repeating Shuanglian's words just now, I have to say that he was much more straightforward at this time.
"Yes." For such a straightforwardness, Shuanglian also made such a reply after taking a deep breath.
"Let's turn the conversation back to before." The contradictions in Shuanglian's body are naturally unsolvable, so this topic can only be stopped at this time, "Do you think I did the right thing?" β
"I don't know." Shuanglian's state seemed to have returned to before, she just looked at the blank ceiling with a little blankness, "You just seem to have let things go back to a long time ago." β
Yes, if it is only from the surface, Zongtian has not actually solved any fundamental problems, whether it is the contradiction on Shuanglian's body, or the contradiction between the Spirit King and Ling Cheng, but after the washing of time, how can people be unchanging?
"I don't think that's how it is."
"What do you mean?"
"Probably, you can more or less accept those things that you originally thought were cruel." Although Zongtian's words were somewhat vague, Shuanglian still understood what he meant. That's right, if it was her before, she couldn't say anything about her mother, and now she can describe it euphemistically, which is a big step forward in a sense.
"But isn't that a legacy of those tastes?" But even after knowing this, Shuanglian prefers that it is not because of his own changes.
"I asked Xiangyin, anyway, she herself claimed that there would be absolutely no sequelae from that thing." Zongtian directly threw out the fact that "even if her words are a little unreliable, it is more likely that you will change." β
Although it can continue to refute, Shuanglian chose to remain silent at this time.
"Growing up can sometimes happen inadvertently, and while you may have a bad hand at the beginning, you have to straighten it out."
"So, you're just trying to prove you're doing the right thing?" Just when Zongtian was talking, Shuanglian suddenly gave a scathing question.
"Yes and no." "At least at this point, I feel right, and I'm talking to you for this purpose, I'm convincing you, and you can tell me I'm doing wrong." β
"Well, I'll admit I was just a little upset just now." Since Zongtian has spoken to this point, Shuanglian can be regarded as completely relaxed, and at this moment, Zongtian seems to have seen the free and easy figure in the discussion square again.
"Go on."
Zongtian was a little stunned, and he was only sober up when he heard such words.
"Ah, go on." After a slight hesitation, Zong Cai remembered what he had said before, "That's right, bad cards." β
"yes, I have a bad hand." Shuanglian even smiled at this time.
"But I don't think it's too bad, it's just that the combination is a little bad."
"Since you all admit that it was bad, what was wrong with me and my mother deciding to make it better?"
It turned out that it was not only the Spirit King, but even Shuanglian herself had such a will, but that should be just a will, after all, Shuanglian's character was the biggest barrier to prevent her from doing so.
"It's wrong that you've changed too much."
"Really?" Although the contrast between herself and before and after is indeed a bit big, in Shuanglian's own opinion, it seems that she is just shouting out her heart.
"That's a lot, right? At least in one thing, you're a little too paranoid. β
"Where is the paranoia?"
"You value what you see so much that you forget what you should know best." Zongtian threw out a puzzle at this time, and Shuanglian, who had become good-tempered, actually guessed it.
"I'm sorry, I'm sorry." Shuanglian's appearance made Zong Tian feel embarrassed, "I may have taken it too seriously to come up with such a completely subjective puzzle. β
"I think it's quite interesting." Shuanglian actually smiled again, "What you see and know best, what do you mean I have myself?" β
"Clever." I didn't expect Shuanglian to understand this kind of puzzle at all, and he said it casually, without the slightest rigor, "I mean you value the talent of seeing through others too much, and ignore your kind nature. β
"Do I have one?" Although such a question was asked, Shuanglian also knew the answer as soon as she opened her mouth. Of course she has, after all, she has completely left her emotions behind, but as she would do it, it seems to be the source of her conflict.
"Of course there is, and have you considered that if it can be achieved, it seems that it would be a better option to throw away the shrewdness that can see through everything."
"Do you mean to just let me be an innocent person?" Although such words did come from Shuanglian's mouth, the embarrassment made her uncomfortable.
"At least I think it's a lot cuter."
"Of course, the heroic feeling you had before is also very good." It seems that the other party's eyes make Zongtian uncomfortable, and this is not a disobedient word, but it is also blurted out unconsciously.
"You just know it." After all, those things that have happened must have been decided by myself, but it seems to be just human nature to win a wave of approval, but Zongtian naturally doesn't want things to develop there.
"Knowing is knowing, but haven't you really thought about the good side?"
"It seems like there really isn't." After thinking about it carefully, Shuanglian gave such an answer.
"That's good."
Although Shuanglian did answer truthfully, Zong Tian's words surprised her, she thought that Zong Tian was just asking for a wave of approval at this time.
"It's because of your partiality that it may be irreparable." Zongtian suddenly became serious at this time, "What if what I'm doing now happens after the execution of the Spirit King?" β
Just a little imagination, the chill carried through Shuanglian's heart, and at this time she suddenly felt a little naΓ―ve.
No, no, not some, it's childish and terrible.
She is probably really wrong, like a child who has not experienced hardships, although she does have a sincere heart, but what can be exchanged for the result? Maybe it's just going to be a tragedy. Maybe she was wrong more than once, and after thinking he was getting better, he was still a little paranoid. If you are not good, that is, you can make yourself better, which doesn't seem to be wrong, but what is really good? Is that what she became? Can she stay good when she gets better?
People like to take shortcuts, but those will always make people go farther, like if you tell a young man that there is a pit there, he will definitely go to see it.