Yan Nanwan heard this, and she didn't know what to say for a while.

How much self-blame she must have for killing her mother with her own hands, she knows.

Because of her, she killed her mother, and that feeling of guilt has always fallen on her heart, lingering for a long time. Sometimes I even wonder if everything would have been fine if I hadn't made those choices in the first place.

What's more, he killed his mother with his own hands, and the pain is even deeper than her!

"It's me who I'm sorry for the two of them. Xue Yu's face was full of self-blame.

Yan Nanwan didn't know how to comfort her, and turned around and said nothing.

Yan Nanchen patted Xue Yu's shoulder and said, "The past is gone, live in the present." ”

Xue Yu nodded, talked to the three of them for a while, and went back to the dark room under the treasury.

Yan Nanchen and Yan Nanwan should not go out for activities, so they can only let Li Guang go out to buy some food.

"Boss, what do you want to eat?" Li Guang asked, "Why don't I go to the July Mansion to buy some food?"

Yan Nanwan shook her head and said with a smile: "You go buy some vegetables and come back, and I will cook it myself." ”

Yan Nanchen and Li Guang both looked at her in surprise, and Yan Nanchen asked, "When will you cook?"

"I would have done it a long time ago, but I didn't say it. Yan Nanwan blinked with a smile, "Look at me showing off my skills today." ”

Li Guang heard that he could eat the food made by the boss himself, and immediately went to the market to buy vegetables.

Yan Nanchen looked at her: "I can do it myself, and I go to Fenglan's yard to eat and drink every day, you are embarrassed!"

"Brother, I'm your own sister, why don't you hurt me at all?" Yan Nanwan pursed her lips.

Yan Nanchen laughed: "If I don't love you, do you think you can do whatever you want like now?"

Yan Nanwan naturally knew that Yan Nanchen was secretly helping him in everything today, but he still couldn't see that he was in control of everything, so he only said: "Whatever my brother says is right, but doesn't my brother want to be a sister-in-law?"

When it comes to Han Yuxiao, Yan Nanchen naturally thinks about it, but the overall situation is undecided at the moment, if he only cares about the love of his children, how can he have a good look in the future.

"Nosy. ”

Yan Nanwan knew that she had poked Yan Nanchen's heart, and laughed proudly.

Let you always talk about me, and it's rare for me to say you once.

Li Guang bought a lot of vegetables and came back, and after Yan Nanwan asked Li Guang to send the dishes to the kitchen, she asked Li Guang to accompany Yan Nanchen, and she was alone in the kitchen.

Looking at those dishes, I remembered the time when I first married Xue Yan, and she often cooked to coax him. It's just that now time has passed, and those days seem to be like a dream, as if they don't exist anymore.

After cooking the meal and having dinner with Yan Nanchen and Li Guang, they all went back to their respective yards.

Yan Nan couldn't sleep when he lay in bed at night, although he hated Xue Yan, he still loved more after all.

On the day of his wedding, listening to what he said, the decision that had been made in his heart was shaken again.

Lying on the bed tossing and turning, my heart was also irritable, so I simply sat up from the bed: "I'm annoyed!"

She sat on the bed with her knees crossed, looking at the moonlight outside through the window, thinking about her past with Xue Yan.

I don't know since when it was not his wish to snatch the throne, but it became hers. From the beginning, the two seemed to think differently.

At first, she didn't approve of him taking the throne, and even wanted to draw a line with him. Later, she fell in love with him and began to help him wholeheartedly, plan for him, and take his wishes as her own. And in the end, it turned out that he didn't want to fight for the throne anymore, let go of all hatred, and just wanted to grow old with her.

But what?

The emperor actually killed her mother and made the two enemies, even if everything was thought out in the end, but what happened happened, who can deceive themselves and say that nothing happened?

What's more, she was poisoned, and her life was short, and she was finally powerless.

Yan Nanwan carefully recalled all the things that had happened after being with Xue Yan, and the more she thought about it, the more distressed she became.

She picked up the clothes at the bedside and put them on, opened the door and went out.

With light work, he landed in front of a ready-to-wear store.

Seeing that there was no one around, he flew and fell into the courtyard.

She had something on her mind, she was unsteady under her feet, she stepped on a small branch, and made a slight noise, which alarmed the people in the house, and the candles in the house lit: "Who is it?"

Yan Nanwan listened to this voice and didn't hide it: "It's me, your master." ”

The door of the house opened immediately, and an old man stood at the door wearing a thin undershirt, looking at Yan Nanwan standing in the courtyard, his eyes were hazy with tears, and he didn't speak.

Yan Nanwan looked at it, sighed, and opened her mouth first: "Don't cry, you're old, don't cry at every turn." ”

The old man nodded again and again: "It's good that the master is alive, it's good to be alive." ”

Yan Nanwan smiled: "Go and get me a man's robe." ”

The old man hurriedly ran into the shop in front of him.

Yan Nanwan saw that he was a lot older, so he was wearing a thin undershirt, and he had a certain figure, went to the house where the old man lived, and took a coat to put on the old man: "Although it is late spring, it is still cold at night, and I am a lot older, so I can't even take care of myself." ”

The old man looked at the robe on his body, and listened to Yan Nanwan's words, and his heart was moved, it was really the master of his family, and it was good that the master was alive.

Changing into men's clothes, Yan Nanwan said to the old man: "It's good that you know about my life, don't tell others." ”

The old man nodded.

Yan Nanwan dressed up again, she was completely a man, and when she came out of the ready-to-wear shop, she walked leisurely in the market and went to Chunfeng Building.

Hearing Li Guang say that Xue Yan has been in Chunfeng Building all along, she wants to go to see him, but she doesn't know how he is doing?

Although it was night, the Chunfeng Building was still full of people, so it was not lively.

As soon as she walked in, a girl greeted her: "Childe, it's here!"

Yan Nanwan smiled and didn't say anything.

"Childe, will we let a few of us accompany you?" a few girls pestered her unrelentingly.

Yan Nanwan smelled the rouge on the tip of her nose, and she was very uncomfortable, but fortunately Cuiyu came over: "Does this son have the girl he wants?"

Yan Nanwan said: "Give me a private room and find two interesting girls to come over." He took a piece of silver from his waist and put it in Jade's hand.

Cuiyu glanced at the silver in her hand, smiled and nodded: "Childe, please come with me." ”

When she arrived at the private room on the second floor, Cuiyu accompanied Yan Nanwan and talked for a while, and then two girls came.

"Then I won't disturb Childe's Yaxing. Jade smiled and got up.

After Jade went out, she closed the door with her hand, stood at the door, stared at the door for a long time, and then left.