At the end of 1978, Xu Jinge's "historical problems" were rehabilitated, and the relevant departments concluded through investigation that Comrade Xu Jinge participated in the uprising that year and made a certain contribution to the peaceful liberation of Beiping, and that Comrade Xu Jinge had received a lot of unfair treatment due to the interference of the wrong line××......

Fang Jinglin and Xu Jinge met again after 30 years of breakup, and the meeting place agreed by the two was quite nostalgic, and it was still the "Wanchun Pavilion" on the middle peak of Jingshan.

The peak of Jingshan is not high, the altitude is only 88.7 meters, Xu Jinge climbed this mountain many times, he was still young at that time, it took only ten minutes from the foot of the mountain to the summit, now it is not good, he has rheumatoid arthritis during the prison period, the joints of the two legs are like rusty bearings, faintly making a "squeak" sound, only half of the climb is panting like a cow.

Xu Jinge rested three times, and it took forty-five minutes to climb to the top.

Thirty years in a flick of the fingers, the scenery here is still the same, when the People's Liberation Army pressed the border, Beiping City was in chaos, from here, the frequent take-off and landing of planes on the temporary airport in Dongdan Park brought a sense of horror to the defenders...... Now, Xu Jinge stands on the "Wanchun Pavilion" and looks southeast, the area around the temporary airport has been a green park, looking to the west, only to see a fiery red glow in the sky, the dark mountains are faintly visible, and a peaceful and quiet atmosphere envelops the city of Beijing.

At this time, as in the twilight, the scene of that year is vivid, as if it was yesterday, as if thirty years have not passed away. Xu Jinge had mixed feelings, he still remembered that he looked at the Shenwu Gate in the twilight and recited Nalan sadly: "The jade tent is empty, and the golden bamboo has been blown." Looking back on the east wind, it has become a ......"

Back then, Fang Jinglin climbed to the top along the path and said casually: "If you don't prosper, how can you be ......?"

The past is like smoke.

A voice came from far and near: "I still remember the traces of the military base, I don't know where the bell rang, don't tell the nonsense." [1]

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Xu Jinge turned his head in shock, only to see Fang Jinglin wearing an iron-gray Mao suit, walking towards him with a cane in his hand, Xu Jinge quickly stepped up and stretched out his hand, and the hands of the two were clasped together after a gap of thirty years.

In contrast, Fang Jinglin looks even older, people in their sixties already need crutches to walk, it is hard to imagine how he reached the peak, and ten years behind bars seems to have seriously destroyed his health.

"Brother Jinglin, it wasn't for you to run in many ways back then, my life was suspended, this is the second time you saved my life, I owe you a favor." Xu Jinge said emotionally.

Fang Jinglin smiled faintly: "Each other, each other, if it weren't for your brother Jin Ge raising his noble hand, I'm afraid I wouldn't have been able to get out of the interrogation room of the Secret Bureau alive, you don't have to thank me." ”

Xu Jinge looked at the bell and drum tower in the north, and said in a low voice: "Of course I want to thank you, in the prison that year, every day in the prison, prisoners were pulled out for execution, I was ready to go to the execution ground every day, put on the cleanest and neatest clothes, and waited and waited day by day, waiting very irritable." You know, I don't really care about death, but I don't like to wait, especially passively waiting for death. I have to admit that in fact, I still have some fear in my heart, every day when the sun sets, my heart will be lighter, a voice is telling me, Xu Jinge, you have lived another day, no matter what happens tomorrow, at least you are safe tonight. Brother Jinglin, I have been waiting for this kind of day for nearly a year, every day may be the end of life, and new hope will appear every day, and this hope can only come from after the sun sets, when I knew that I could survive, I thought of you, I only know you in the Communist Party, except for you, no one can excuse me. ”

"Brother Jin Ge, I'm sorry for this matter, I promised you back then, as the negotiator of the Beiping Underground Party City Labor Department, that as long as you lay down your arms and accept the peaceful reorganization, we will treat all the rebels equally, and we will not blame the past. Brother Jin Ge, I broke my promise, this has been a piece of my heart for many years. ”

"Brother Jinglin, don't say that, I can't blame you, you have done a lot for me, no one can surpass history, I remember that we also discussed the rise and fall of history here, at that time we were very conceited, we all thought that we had mastered the truth, in fact, now it seems that once you and I are integrated into the background of history, who can control their own destiny?"

Fang Jinglin turned his body to the west and stared at the blood-red sunset: "Yes, all the disputes in history, including the change of dynasty, are nothing more than two forms, revolution and reform. Which form is better? For thousands of years, the princes of Gon have different opinions, from ancient times to the present, ancient and modern Chinese and foreign. When I was in prison, I also thought a lot, which is ridiculous, the prison building plan, the prison rules system, the labor reform, the reward and punishment regulations, and the living standards of the prisoners were all formulated by me, but I did not expect that one day I would also become a prisoner, living in a prison house approved by myself, implementing the prison rules I had made, and I could only smile bitterly when I was so hungry and dizzy, because I also participated in the formulation of the prisoner's ration standard, and at that time, considering that the prisoners in the detention center did not participate in labor, this standard was sufficient. I didn't know that when I was in prison, I found that this ration was indeed less, and I should have raised the standard of prisoners' rations a little more, and formulated various prison rules and regulations to be more perfect and humane...... I finally figured out that, from the perspective of the history of social development, both revolution and reform must conform to the common values and morals of mankind, follow humanitarian principles, and attach importance to human dignity. ”

"Brother Jinglin, I am also wondering why China's history in the first half of the 20th century was full of violence, and apart from the eight-year war against aggression, why couldn't the other struggles be resolved in a more gentle way? Today you kill me, tomorrow I kill you, when is the time for retribution? Neither war nor violence can solve the problems of humanity, but only bring bloodshed, death and suffering, and in the end, it hurts the vitality of the country and the nation. Xu Jinge helped Fang Jinglin down the steps of the "Wanchun Pavilion".

"Brother Jin Ge, you were a ruthless professional killer back then, why did you become a non-violent person after twenty-five years in prison?" Fang Jinglin asked half-jokingly.

Xu Jinge also replied in a joking tone: "Put down the butcher's knife and become a Buddha on the spot." ”

"Brother Jin Ge, how about finding a place to have a few drinks?"

"Glad to be there. If you want to drink, you should bring in our mutual old friend, who has been drinking a lot over the years. ”

Fang Jinglin stopped suddenly: "Are you talking about Wen San'er?" Why, you still don't know about him? ”

Xu Jinge asked in surprise: "I haven't seen Wen San'er for half a year, what's wrong with him?" ”

"He died two months ago, from a cerebral hemorrhage, if he had been found earlier, he might have been rescued, but unfortunately he had no one around when he became ill, so he collapsed in his own house, and was found by his neighbors on the third day."

Xu Jinge sat heavily on the steps: "Damn, they all blame me, there have been too many things recently, so I haven't contacted him, I should have gone to see him earlier......"

"After I resumed my duties, Wen San'er came to see me twice, and each time he helped me with some housework, of course I didn't care, so I gave him some cigarettes, alcohol, clothes and other things. Wen San'er is a good brag, he bragged everywhere with the things I sent, saying that he and I were related. After he died, I was informed by the sub-district office of the Lianyun Society, and they really thought that Wen San'er and I were relatives. I asked the secretary to help him take care of the funeral, and the ashes were stored in the Laoshan Columbarium for a period of 30 years. Fang Jinglin added.

Xu Jinge sighed heavily and said: "Wen San'er saved my life, I have always remembered it in my heart, always thinking that one day my situation will be better, and I will repay him well, who knew that he would go so soon, I feel very sad in my heart, and I always feel that I owe him a lot." ”

Fang Jinglin said: "He, like us, is a small person who can't control his own destiny, the difference is that he has the ability to resolve pain, as the saying goes, no heart and no lungs, and spent a happy life in a muddy way, really, he lives happier than you and me, and is always immersed in the myths he made, I think, the most glorious time in Wen San'er's life, probably after the victory of the Anti-Japanese War, he had his own foreign car, and he regarded himself as an agent of the Secret Bureau, saying that he was an anti-Japanese hero, Although he later also paid for bragging. ”

"Do you think Wen San'er is living a happy life?" Xu Jinge asked.

"At least there is no such heaviness as ours, his thinking is simple and clear, but close to the most primitive things in life, he knows what he wants or doesn't want, and he can quickly draw his own judgment, in fact, most of the people in the old era are like this, they have no concept of what doctrine or theory, and they don't even think about it, they just want to live a stable life, be able to have children, come to this world plainly, and leave this world plainly, what politicians have to do is to toss them as little as possible."

Xu Jinge stood up: "Brother Jinglin, let's go down the mountain." ”

Fang Jinglin picked up the crutches and said: "Let's go, let's go, the living are like passers-by, the dead are returnees, heaven and earth are a reverse journey, and the same sorrow is ...... the eternal dust" The two supported each other and walked down the mountain.

When he walked down the steps, Xu Jinge glanced in the direction of the West Mountain, and saw that the sky was blood-red, and the autumn sun was sinking in the west......

Completed on December 6, 2005

[1]

From Nalan Xingde's words "Huanxi Sha Xiao Wula", Nalan Xingde was saddened by the scene of the Jurchen tribe fighting in the process of unification at that time, and heard the bell in the distance, and the purpose of Buddhism to be indisputable touched by him, Nalan Xingde believed: It is better for future generations not to make the question of the rise and fall of history clear, because if it is clear, it will be sad.