One

My name is Yun Jin'an.

I heard that the name was given to me by the man, and I don't like it anyway, the name sounds like a girl's name.

In particular, that man likes to call me all the time.

Me: "......" is annoying.

I'm a boy, okay?

By the way, that man was my mother's younger brother, and my mother asked me to call him uncle, but I didn't want to.

He never corrected me, but frowned slightly when he heard me tell him to feed, and then ...... Pinch my face hard!!

Now you know why I don't like to call him uncle, right?

Is he worthy?

It may be that I am so repulsive to this name that even my father, queen and mother call me the fourth and the fourth in the future.

I was originally the third prince of the Yun Kingdom, but because the queen adopted a prince later, I had an extra brother, and my ranking changed from three to four.

Whenever I think about this, I start to get irritable again.

That man loves to call me every time he looks at me frowning, and the cloud is annoying!

I think you're the most annoying one in the world!

Two

I still had a good childhood.

My mother and father doted on me very much, especially my mother, I could do whatever I wanted, I just rolled in the mud with my friends every day, skipped school, and even fought and brawled, scolded the fierce elders, and robbed women...... Ahem, far away, I haven't done the last one.

If it weren't for that man, maybe I would have done it in the future.

At that time, I listened to the bewitchment of the companion reading, saying how magnificent and luxurious the green building there was, and the girls there were all as beautiful as the queen mother, and even spoke gently and softly to you.

The queen is really good-looking.

I couldn't help but sneak with them towards the Qinglou.

I walked to the door, and suddenly felt empty under my feet, and was picked up by a person on the back of my neck.

Then I saw the man.

I've never seen him look so ugly, and maybe I've seen him so brightly most of the time that I'm afraid he'll change his face a little.

In my heart, he scared me even more than my father and the emperor.

"Shouldn't you be reading at this time?" The man asked faintly, "Why are you there?" ”

Why should I tell you?

I thought about it, and I said it too.

"Do you know how lucky you are compared to those you can't read?" He picked up the shelf next to him and hit it, I didn't hide at all, and I didn't cry even when I was beaten, but I was angry in my heart, and I couldn't help but say the deepest and deepest words in my heart: "Why did you beat me, even my mother didn't beat me." ”

His angry face was deformed, "If I don't teach you now, who will teach you in the future?" ”

"Even my mother doesn't care about me, why do you care about me?"

These are words that I have kept in my heart for a long, long time.

From childhood to adulthood, since I was born, everyone has held me and loved me, even the queen mother is gentle and polite when she sees me, just this man!!

Every time she calls me by a girl-like nickname; Skipping class and beating Mr. wants to scold me; I didn't study hard, I didn't do my homework, I want to talk about it; Now you don't even care where I go???

"I'm the prince, you are the younger brother of my mother, and you can only be regarded as my minister." The more I thought about it, the more angry I became, and I said what I regretted the most in my life.

As soon as this sentence came out, he didn't get angry anymore, and seemed to be annoyed that he hit too lightly, "You are my sister's son, I don't care about you, who cares about you?" ”

Then there was a beating.

I hated him even more.

Three

And so I under that man's stick for three years.

Luckily, I'm about to be liberated.

The man was going to the border to kill the enemy!!

Great, it's better not to come back for a year and a half, then I'm happy.

I didn't even send him before he left.

To celebrate his departure, my friend and I stayed up late and drank in the restaurant for three days and three nights.

I thought I would wake up in my own bed in the palace, but who knows, I actually woke up on the floor of the restaurant box with a sore back.

The other friends were all picked up by the family maid.

Because we had a seven-day room, none of the restaurant maids found out that I had slept here for a full day.

I was so hungry that I didn't have the strength to eat, and I felt a trance in front of me, so I fainted.

Wait until I wake up...... Another day passed, and I was still in the box.

No one found out I was here.

I struggled back to the palace, and looked at the imperial doctor with sadness, and the imperial doctor said that it was okay that my foundation was good, and if I replaced it with a false one, I might have died a long time ago.

I was forced by that man to have a good foundation, once I went to eat he would follow me as soon as possible, and even in the palace he would explain the imperial chef who cooked for me.

By the time I saw my mother again, it would be another day later.

She didn't seem to think that it had anything to do with not seeing me for six or seven days, she wasn't worried about me at all.

I shouted at her, "Why don't you ask me where I've been?" ”

The concubine wondered, "Don't you like others to take care of you?" ”

I suddenly sulked, and I felt very aggrieved and aggrieved. "If I don't like it, don't you ask?"

If that man was there, he would have known where I was, wouldn't even let me stay in the restaurant for a day, and would have educated me when he came back.

I said in a muffled voice, "Mother, you don't worry about me at all. ”

The concubine blinked, "I'm sorry, I'm also a mother for the first time." ”

That man was also an uncle for the first time.

I was even more aggrieved, and whispered, "Then I'm also a son for the first time, can you love me more?" ”

The concubine scratched her head, "You also know, I don't love people, all my love is on your father." ”

Yes, all the love of my mother is poured out on this man who does not love him at all.

She has been spoiled since she was a child, and she never seems to know what it means to be human, maybe that's why my uncle is willing to care about me.

They never ruled me because they loved me.

That man was because his sister was in charge of me.

Those slaves and maids listen to me because I am the prince.

My mother will only care about me if I can help him attract his father.

Even my father and grandfather felt that I had no qualifications and began to give up on me.

For the first time, I realized that the world was like the same with and without me.

I'll always be the one who is the most superfluous.

Four

The man is back.

He returned in triumph.

I heard that he defeated a lot of border barbarians, and as soon as he came back, he was named a general.

I couldn't help but dim my eyes when I saw his high-spirited appearance in the restaurant.

Also, people are the hottest people now, how can they care about a prince who is not even valued by his own mother?

Maybe you can remember me now.

But when he gets married and has a child of his own, will he still remember to keep an eye on me?

Probably not.

I laughed at myself.

Also, even my mother doesn't care about me, why should he care about me.

Just as I was secretly touching my tears, I suddenly felt weightlessness again that I had not seen for a long time, and when I turned around, suddenly tears flowed unconsciously. "Uncle."

"Huh? If I haven't seen you for three years, you'll come with me again? He didn't hear this sentence of his dream uncle, and said coldly, "It's useless to cry." ”

I realized that I had walked to the door of the original green building again.

This time it was an accident!

Uncle didn't care if I was an accident or not, he grabbed me and beat me, and I actually felt that I was right.

Maybe it was because I didn't say anything irritating this time, I didn't do any action, he stopped after a few hits, "What's wrong with you?" ”

I shook my head, and my mouth unconsciously scolded him, "You are a general now, I definitely can't beat you." What else am I rebelling against? ”

He felt that I was not in the right state, so he carried me to the roof, and he didn't know where to take out the medicine to apply to me, "I thought you were going to pick me up." ”

I've go!

I said stiffly, "Who knew you would be back today?" ”

I regretted it after I finished speaking, and when I saw his expression that he seemed to be used to, I couldn't help but stab him, "Did my father kiss you?" Also, it's time for you to get married, you're so old! ”

"I'm not going to get married." He said suddenly.

I couldn't help but ask, "Why?" ”

My uncle looked at me very seriously, "If I get married, who will care about you?" ”

I couldn't help but snort, and my eyes went up, "Who wants you to care?" ”

Uncle said, "You are my sister's son, of course I have to take care of ......"

"If I weren't your sister's son, would you still care about me?"

This sentence was almost meaningless, and he immediately nodded straightly, "Of course not." ”

My tears fell, "You are all like this, you never just love me to take care of me, I will never pay attention to you anymore." ”

The first time I saw my uncle, I panicked, and my hands holding the gauze were at a loss, "No, An An, of course I love you, but only if you are my sister's son." ”

He didn't seem to be able to explain the reasoning, but I was convinced by such a lame reason.

"I'm coming back now and I'm not going to go again. In the future, I will take care of you, and I will definitely teach you very well. You can rest assured. "He doesn't speak very well, because he seems to use brute force more than he can speak.

For example, I was always beaten to death by him the day before, my nose was bruised and my face was swollen, and the next day I could still hang around like no one else.

However, I saw him punch one of my fox friends, who didn't come to school for three days.

He suddenly said, "Actually, your mother also loves you, but she doesn't know how to love." ”

"She has been spoiled since she was a child, by her father and mother, grandfather, and even when I was born, I was asked to spoil this sister, and I am the one who is not seen at home, and no one will even see if I have come back." He said the longest thing he said to me in his life: "Because I have suffered from being neglected, I can't leave you alone." ”

I realized so late that I had been pushing someone who was so good to me all these years.

I threw myself into his arms and said hard again, "Obviously, you are afraid that your future child will be bad, so you don't dare to have a child now, and use me as a test subject." Don't keep pretending I'm good for you. ”

Uncle: "If you like to think so, just think like that." ”

I couldn't help but hit him, "Can't you coax me?" ”

"Who will coax me if I coax you, obviously I am also a child." Uncle sighed.

I paused, then tried to stand on tiptoe and patted him on the head, "Now coax." ”

He paused, and his eyes seemed to be red, "An An." ”

"I've said it all, don't call me An'an, I'm too girly!! I'm not a girl!! ”

Five

It never occurred to me that I was just getting up from sleep.

My uncle was gone again.

I heard my mother say that he was temporarily transferred to the border by his father.

Because there are suddenly more mysterious barbarians at the border gates.

I was a little panicked and a little angry.

Obviously, he said that he would never leave again.

Even though I knew it wasn't for him to decide, I kept blaming him.

My mother probably saw that I was angry and said to me, "Actually, your uncle came to see you before he left, and he left after watching you fall asleep." ”

I was immediately a little comforted, but couldn't help but say, "Then why didn't he write to me?" ”

The mother concubine was surprised, "Your uncle can't read and hasn't read much, how can he write?" ”

I was taken aback, and felt like this sentence was like thunder hitting me, "How come?" ”

The mother said, "At that time, the family was poor, and I could only study for one person, so I was the only one to read." ”

But I know how bad the mother's handwriting is, let alone her writing?

No wonder my uncle scolds me every time he sees me not studying.

He's always taught me what he thinks is the best, just a little rougher.

The next time I come, I'll have to call him Uncle again.

It doesn't matter if he didn't hear it last time, this time I want to be upright and upright, and even let everyone hear that uncle.

Six

I still haven't had a chance to call.

This time, all I called was his body.

At my uncle's funeral, I watched my uncle's mother and father wipe their tears as they walked towards the concubine, and they were still asking how the concubine was doing.

My father also looked at it as if it were a matter of routine, and then hurried away under the pretext that he had something to do.

For the whole funeral, I was the only one left.

I numbly picked up a piece of cloth and wiped his body, from his feet to his hands to his head, when suddenly his clothes were blown by the wind, and a piece of paper was blown out of it.

There are still blood stains on it, I don't know if it's his or who's, anyway, it doesn't affect the look.

The two words on it are crooked but still exceptionally clear - An An.

I put the paper away and watched him in a daze for a long, long time.

I didn't cry from start to finish.

Seven

My mother was shocked to see me return.

The mother concubine said, "Haven't you always hated your uncle?" How did you hear that you stayed for a long, long time? ”

I didn't speak, but I accidentally blew out the bloody piece of paper from my sleeve, and she saw it and said, "This is from your uncle, he said he was going to write to you." ”

Then why didn't you tell me?

I didn't ask this, but if I did, my mother would definitely say that she had forgotten.

When the mother saw the word An An, she suddenly burst into tears, "Alas, I didn't know what to teach you at the beginning, your name was still given by your uncle, saying that it can make people laugh and read it, the name is safe and quiet, but it is easy to feed." ”

Hearing this, the emotions that I had endured for so long in the afternoon suddenly collapsed.

No one will call me An An again.

Eight

What about hate?

I don't know anything, neither literature nor martial arts.

What am I going to fight with those who are at the border?

I went back to the life I spurned before, except for not going to the Qinglou, I had to go home at sunset, and I didn't rob the people's daughters some principled, I did everything.

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