The other one in her body was snickering, snickering, and rejoicing.

This is a kind of thought that Bai Lu can't accept and can't talk to people, it's a kind of unkindness, a dark idea that lacks morality, and it means distortion and even moral corruption.

So she couldn't say, but she couldn't get rid of this thought.

"Doctor Mu Chun?" Bai Lu suddenly turned her face to look at Mu Chun.

"Huh? I'm here. Mu Chun replied.

"I don't think you're normal." Bai Lu said.

"Abnormal? I'm fine. Mu Chun looked at his left shoulder, then at his right shoulder, and finally at his shoes.

Bai Lu was amused by Mu Chun's cute and helpless appearance, "You used to be confused and often spoke strangely, why don't you speak now and become elegant?" ”

Mu Chun touched his head embarrassedly, "Isn't this your husband back, shouldn't I be a little more restrained?" ”

"Huh? What nonsense. Bai Lu couldn't cry or laugh, just felt that Dr. Mu Chun seemed to have become serious and reliable, why was he suddenly unserious and out of bounds.

When thinking about it secretly, Mu Chun seemed to be regressing on the elegant road again, Bai Lu only heard Mu Chun complaining, "Yes, why did Teacher Bai Lu get married, it's too much, it's too uncomfortable, if you want me to say, it would be great if Teacher Bai Lu didn't get married." ”

"Huh? Can a doctor say that? Bai Lu asked.

"Then don't I be a doctor, how can we say that we are not just doctors and patients, right, not to mention that I am not in the Garden Bridge Community Health Center now, the love should be said or said, otherwise you will think that I am different from before, that is, I am depressed, I, if I can express my true thoughts and will not be ridiculed and looked down upon, I think my true thoughts are quite reasonable." The more Mu Chun spoke, the happier he became, and patted his shoulder with his hand, looking like a serious nonsense.

"So what is Dr. Mu's true thoughts?" Bai Lu didn't ruin Mu Chun's interest, and asked cooperatively.

"Well, I'm still not going to say it." Mu Chun suddenly flinched, shook his head and turned away, leaving only his back to Bai Lu.

Mu Chun made such a fuss, Bai Lu suddenly didn't know what to do, and for a long time, Mu Chun raised his head and lamented for a while, and shook his head in frustration for a while.

"Doctor Mu Chun, what's wrong with you? Then I won't ask you what you really think. Bai Lu said.

Mu Chun suddenly turned around, with countless expressions on his ordinary face, and he had an embarrassment that he was about to shed tears at any time. Bai Lu was a little stunned, and hurriedly comforted, "Doctor Mu, just say it if you want to, don't say it if you don't want to say it, don't scare me." ”

"Teacher Bai Lu is really a good person, why did he get married??????? I think that He Ping's matter is not necessarily all bad, since that's the case, right, then it's okay for Teacher Bai Lu to like others, life should also be exchanged at an equal price, and it should also pay attention to fairness, isn't it, at most, it's flat, you see that your husband does such a thing, then you don't have to worry about your own affairs? Everyone's wrong, even. Mu Chun sighed.

Burst!

Bai Lu couldn't help laughing, wasn't this exactly what she was thinking? How could anyone say it so easily, such a thought in Bai Lu's heart was simply a demon-like existence.

Obviously, I am greedy for drinking and afraid of loneliness, I always feel that my husband is not around, and I do those foolish things.

This kind of thinking is so tempting, it seems to erase one's mistakes in an instant.

It's like an eraser, erasing the past little by little that I don't want to recall.

There is no longer any need to dwell on how to face He Ping, because he also made mistakes, and he was also wrong.

But is it really something that can be said? Can this kind of mushroom grown in a corner really be brought to the sun?

This Mu Chun, this doctor, why did he say it directly, and what he said was so relaxing.

His thoughts came out of Mu Chun's mouth, and Bai Lu didn't know what to say for a while.

"So now, let's take a look at He Ping's problem, since everyone is even, what do you think? Husband and wife, do you want to believe him? Once you believe his words, it means that he didn't cheat and didn't commit those foolish things, right? Mu Chun kindly reminded.

Bai Lu fell into deep thought, and after five minutes, Bai Lu spoke, "Has he found a lawyer?" What did he say to you that day? ”

Mu Chun told Bai Lu about He Ping's denial that he had an intimate relationship with Xu Dan, and Bai Lu's expression was a little disappointed.

"Life always has to move forward, Mr. Bai Lu, go and see him, maybe he has something he hasn't told me and is willing to tell you."

Mu Chun waited for Bai Lu to nod and left the ward, and five minutes later, Mu Chun saw Fang Ming, whose face was like ashes.

"Mu Chun, do you know how to drive?" Fang Ming asked while taking off his white coat.

"Huh? I will. Mu Chun replied.

"Okay." As he spoke, Fang Ming took out the key to the Ford car from his pants pocket and handed it to Mu Chun.

Although it was a cold winter, the heating in the surgical inpatient unit was not cold at all, and it was like spring all year round. However, Fang Ming's hands were as cold as the bowl he took out of the refrigerator.

When Mu Chun touched Fang Ming's finger, he thought he had touched the key.

"Doctor Fang, what's wrong with you?" There were also nurses and patients walking around in the corridor, and Mu Chun's voice was very quiet.

Fang Ming shook his head, "Let's talk about it in the car." ”

He looked extremely tired, so tired that Mu Chun felt that he was even fighting his strength to speak.

Mu Chun started the Ford car, Fang Ming checked the seat belt once, and then looked out the window.

The car is extremely cold, Mu Chun looks forward to the heating being faster and heating up faster, but how can it be so easy, unlike air conditioning and refrigeration, the heat in the heating system of the car air conditioner is not generated by the air conditioning system, but by the engine coolant. After the engine starts, it does not stop running to do work, and a large amount of heat is generated in the process of operation, which is quickly absorbed by the coolant of the engine to achieve the purpose of cooling the engine, and the air in the compartment continuously flows through the heat exchanger under the action of the blower, so as to continuously exchange heat with the coolant flowing through the heat exchanger, so as to achieve the purpose of heating.

This process is not rushed.

Mu Chun knew that if the car was warmer, it would be better for the other party to feel better, no matter what happened to him, it would be better to be warmer.

"I didn't expect you to drive." Fang Ming suddenly spoke.

What kind of logic is this, I look like someone who can't drive?

"Ah, I'll learn it in college." Mu Chun replied.

"I also learned it when I was in college, and I was still taking his classes that year." Fang Ming looked at the sycamore that was rapidly retreating outside the car window.

The sycamores that surround the sea in winter, after dropping the last batch of dead leaves, are like a dry giant old man, tired, lonely, and the uneven thickness of the branches stubbornly want to let them rush, but they are so quiet that they can't even see the slightest shaking when the wind blows.

"He? Is that the patient you just received? Mu Chun asked.

Fang Ming didn't speak, closed his eyes, put his hand on the air conditioner outlet, and looked at the windshield in a daze while warming his fingers.

"Doctor benefit time. The psychosologist will help you solve your problems for free, is your friend sick? Mu Chun asked mischievously.

Fang Ming took a deep breath, closed his eyes, and saw Mu Chun selling cuteness like this, so he had no choice but to nod.

"It's too difficult, it's really difficult, he just divorced two years ago, married his beloved girl, the girl is two circles younger than him, and the daughter who can do it can do it has a child after getting married, and the youngest daughter is now less than two years old.

Two years ago, everyone still envied him for his imminent retirement, he was really a big winner in life, he studied abroad with a full scholarship, and after returning to China, he first engaged in medical school teaching, focusing on scientific research, and then joined an overseas pharmaceutical company. You know, the year-end bonuses for biopharma companies over the years can be piled up into a small hill in bed. I haven't seen many special results, but it's a lot of hot money.

Colorful life, talented people, two years ago divorced was already an executive of a pharmaceutical company, this life is simply living a few lifetimes, two years ago I also went to Los Angeles to attend his wedding, the bride and Lin Chiling are as beautiful, the wedding is very fashionable, there are many business celebrities and people in the entertainment industry to attend, at that time he looked very good, still shrewd and capable, talking and laughing is also polite, envy and respect.

Speaking of which, when I was studying, I had a headache learning pharmacology courses, and I didn't dare to have any interest at all, if it wasn't for the original professor who was pregnant and waiting to give birth, and he happened to come back to take over the pharmacology course, I would have to retake it if I couldn't figure it out. ”

When Fang Ming talked about his time in college, his gloomy mood seemed to be slightly better, and his face also had some energy.

After driving two streets, there was finally a little heat in the carriage.

Mu Chun listened carefully, and at the same time had to drive seriously, he drove very slowly, hardly any irritable mood, but he couldn't tolerate the slightest distraction.

Fang Ming shook his head and sighed, "You drive more steadily than me, it's a pity not to be a surgeon." ”

Mu Chun said with a smile: "Isn't life a pity, I'm quite used to it." Surgeons will also encounter a lot of confusion, such as the patient's family does not understand the treatment plan, the patient thinks that the doctor did not give him a good enough treatment plan, or the patient feels that his ideas are different from his life, the doctor does not know as much as the patient, speaking of which I also practiced in the surgical ward for more than half a year during the general practice internship, it seems that many things are staged every day, but not everything can have a perfect ending, and some will disappear naturally with time. Some of the sheets are gone with the replacement of new ones. ”

"It's true, the hospital is such a place, time is in a hurry, every doctor can tell a lot of stories, but many stories we don't have enough time to stay, we rushed to the next operation, took in the patient, okay, accepted the patient, 15 good beds, afternoon surgery, remember not to eat anything in the morning, have you ever eaten, well, good.

Discharge summary, admission record, and discharge summary The time of the hospital is very fast. Actually, I like the Garden Bridge Community Medical Center, although the outpatient clinic is also very hard, there are always a lot of patients, there are many elderly people who can't speak clearly, and there are family members who always trouble you, but after leaving the ward, it is indeed a little farther away from the birth, old age, sickness and death of human beings.

I sometimes envy you, Mu Chun, I really envy you, no blood, no scalpel, no IU, no respirator, no rescue, no entanglement in the face of life and death. Fang Ming rolled down the window a little and put some cold air into the car.

"Why did he return to China for treatment?" Mu Chun asked.

Fang Ming didn't seem to have thought about this question yet, frowned, and turned his face to look at Mu Chun, "I haven't thought about this question, and I haven't had time to ask the professor, I've been paying attention to his condition, I'm very nervous, I don't think I can handle it." ”

"Really?"

"The value of tumor markers increased across the board, especially A-199, which was more than 10 times higher than the normal value. T shows that there is a space-occupying dry stirring in the middle of the pancreatic body, and the mass compresses the pancreatic duct, and the bile duct is not involved in T, so the professor does not seem to have obvious jaundice reaction, he feels that there is deep pain after meals, and he studied medicine, although he has been engaged in drug development later, but he is still relatively sensitive to his body, and he quickly went for an examination, indeed, it does not seem to be late, and it can even be considered as a mid-term if optimistically, the professor himself knows that there are indications for surgery, so after the examination, he booked a ticket back to the sea, It's here today.,I'm going to be called by name to receive it.,Fortunately, I'm really attached to Zhinan today.。 ”

Fang Ming tried his best to say a very serious illness lightly, it didn't sound so desperate.

Mu Chun heard it very clearly, and also understood why Fang Ming's hands were so cold in the hospital before.

"Pancreatic cancer?" Mu Chun said.

"Yes, pancreatic cancer, even if you are not a medical student, you should know that pancreatic cancer is more than lucky, and there is still no particularly effective way to treat this disease and our current treatment technology.

Although it is possible to partially remove the tumor and then undergo radiotherapy depending on the specific condition, it is not known if the tumor will be completely removed if it is lucky. It is not a bad idea for patients to consider chemotherapy and radiotherapy instead of surgery, and then surgery to reduce the complex. But but"

Fang Ming, who was unusually calm, said a few "buts" in a row, and finally choked up to the point that he couldn't speak.

After snorting, Fang Ming said again, "Please listen to me, this is my job, let you listen, it's quite annoying." ”

"Yes, it's very annoying, anyone who hears it will be worried, you are a doctor, and a professor is a student, you have always had a good relationship, you must be even more worried." Mu Chun stepped on the brakes and waited for the red light.

"But I guess the professor himself is more worried, he is a very strong and decisive person, this time he came around the sea alone, I am afraid that he did not tell his newly married wife about this, for fear that his wife will worry." Fang Ming said.

"So he came to Zhinan Affiliated Hospital to find you, and I hope you can keep it a secret for him, right? Don't tell your former colleagues or classmates, it will be easier for him, a very strong person, he will not give up hope easily, he will cooperate with the treatment, Dr. Fang. Mu Chun slowly drove the car into the parking lot, closed the window, pulled the handbrake, and opened the car door after everything was done step by step.

Fang Ming got out of the car with a smile, and seemed to have returned to his usual coldness and steadiness. "Our inpatient department is also going to be built, and in the future, there will be more and more patients, so Dr. Mu will have to work hard."

The sorrow just now was all put into his coat pocket, and he couldn't find it at all if he didn't pay attention to it.

"If there's anything you need me to do, just tell me." After walking to the second floor, Mu Chun patted Fang Ming's shoulder.

This scene happened to be seen by Liu Tiantian, and he chased Mu Chun all the way to the fifth floor, "Huh? Teacher Mu Chun, Director Fang Ming is not a confused person like Dr. Zhang, aren't you afraid of walking so close to him? ”

"Scared? Afraid of what? Fang Ming is a very good doctor, and besides, he now understands the work of psychosomatics more and more, why should I be afraid of him? After Mu Chun finished speaking, he changed into a white coat and made himself another cup of coffee.

Liu Tiantian spread his hands, "Okay, okay, Teacher Mu Chun can handle anyone, and now even Director Fang Ming has become your good friend." By the way, Lawyer Zhang Mei is here, it seems that she went to Dean Jia's side first, and now Dr. Chu's office, don't say I didn't remind you, she is not in a good mood, I guess things are not going well with Shen Fan. ”

After Liu Tiantian finished speaking, he took a bottle of yogurt from the refrigerator and tiptoed out of the outpatient room.

Mu Chun stretched his waist and turned on the computer to print some documents. I thought about it again, whether he still missed anything in Zhou Ming's matter, and if there were any important parts that he didn't think of.

Well, there should be no key points missed, but whether Zhou Ming will not have [pica] in the future, Mu Chun is not sure.

This is the mood of a psychosomatic doctor, how much effect can be achieved with the best effort? Sometimes you can't see it in the moment.

Psychosomatic treatment is different from surgery, and it is different from internal medicine, and there are many parts of it that everyone can understand, but there are many times when psychosomatic doctors themselves may not be completely sure.

Just as the neuroscientist Damasio in the book "Feeling Everything Happens" in the book "Feeling Everything Happens" discusses the human mind, behavior and brain, consciousness, feelings and emotions in great detail, curiosity and discussion of such problems is a gift to human beings, a person fully understands the relationship between emotions and the body, feels the occurrence of emotions and the problems being solved, and realizes that he feels emotions, maybe a person can really get better from the predicament.

Mu Chun closed his eyes, wanting to rest for a while, and then he seemed to hear a very soft voice.

The voice said, "Will the human world be free of mental illness?"