I am not afraid of death, because on the way to meet you.

The sun is warm and the clouds are lovely.

The wind must have blown gently and it was full of sweetness.

- Ye Wanfeng

I thought I would never fall in love with anyone, but time has passed, and after all, it's just what I thought.

Because of my family, I have had a very cold personality since I was a child.

What my father did, I couldn't accept, let alone agree.

For him, every woman around him is true love, and every love is vigorous.

Amusing.

It's ridiculous.

It is precisely because of this that I am extremely resistant to women and love.

I don't need love, I don't need love, and I don't fall in love with anyone.

But no one knows, maybe in my heart is a desire to be loved.

I never admitted this until I knew her.

But some people just intruded into my life at a certain inadvertent moment.

Without warning, without any precautions, snooped into the most hidden side of my life.

No one has ever seen it.

Ironically, I thought I was only paying attention to her because I had discovered her secret.

The truth is, liking someone really doesn't know where to start.

I love talking to her, I like being in the same space with her, even if I'm looking at her quietly.

I don't know when I started to see her as the most important part of my life.

An integral part of it.

I'm thinking-

If you really like it, if you really fall in love, don't resist, because I don't want to have any regrets.

Any.

I get drunk when I drink, and when I get drunk, I fall into a state of confusion.

It's a strange phenomenon, and because it's so weird, I haven't even seen a doctor.

And the state of being confused does not mean that I am not awake, I know what I am doing, but I can't defeat it with reason.

Only once, the only time I drank and I didn't get drunk.

That was the night I took her to the Civil Affairs Bureau, probably for the first time, and she didn't suspect me.

All the way to the drive, all the way to the apprehension.

She wants to go home, and I'm spoiled.

She refused, and I was coquettish again.

I figured I could keep her around.

Even though I know she doesn't like me as much as I like her, not even a thousandth.

Years old is probably only ...... for me So let's lose my favor.

You can't even talk about liking, let alone love.

But—

It doesn't matter.

As long as I like her, as long as I love her.

In this life, I just want her to stay with me.

Year after year, month after month, day by day, stay with me.

Looking at her, I feel so happy.

I thought, I'm just spoiling her like that.

One day, two days, a year or two years, even if I can't make her like me, I want her to get used to me.

Accustomed to having me by my side, then she won't be able to leave......

However, in our tenth year of marriage, God played a huge joke on me.

She passed away.

Maybe she didn't know, but I did everything I could to keep her.

Even if I spend the rest of my life in exchange for being able to spend an extra year with her.

Really, really, really......

Unfortunately, Heaven did not hear my prayers.

She left me anyway......

I think there will be an afterlife in this world.

Then we'll see you in the next life.

You must remember that you promised me that I would go looking for you, and I would definitely ......

No one is thinking about you. It's you for the rest of your life.

Years old, see you in your dreams, good night.