No one likes to be a loser, especially an adult male, admitting failure is a very painful thing, and people will want to "run" when they encounter pain.

Denial, finding reasons, concealment, all these are ways to make suffering less obvious or non-existent at all.

He Ping's illness was on his own, and his body could not hide this pain, but He Ping wanted to make him look normal, healthy, and successful in other dimensions of life.

Mu Chun closed his eyes gently, and there was only a slight murmur in the ward.

Birth, old age, sickness and death, life and death, human nature.

But it's not that it's human nature that can be easily talked about, and it's not that it's human nature, and everyone knows how to deal with these words.

It's easy to say, but when a person is in it, sadness, fear, overwhelm, fear and even shame will emerge, as if being pushed into a pool filled with black water, the surface of the pool is calm, but under the surface, there are whirlpools, these whirlpools have countless bloodstained arms, white bones exposed, skin ulcers, they greedily grab everyone who is pushed into the pool.

From now on, you are no longer a normal person.

A patient who gets his medical certificate, when he walks out of the hospital, even if the sun is as sunny as the day of first love, he will only feel cold and pain.

From now on, the warmth of the sun has nothing to do with him, he needs wisdom and energy to face the next life, and then he will see faces, the faces of colleagues, leaders, wives, children, and old parents.

He will find shame in the shame of being disgraced, and he will not be able to face any of these faces.

Life began to move away from that person, and there was nothing but weakness.

The original era may have been better, but in this era, getting sick is a shame for many people as if they have done something wrong......

As a doctor, Mu Chun, like every ordinary person, has no privilege in the face of birth, old age, sickness and death, and he understands He Ping's pain and all the efforts he has made to make life go on.

Such efforts should not be blamed, whether appropriate or not.

Mu Chun began to tell the story he hoped He Ping would listen to, in the story, a celebrity went to visit her in order to fulfill the wish of a female fan, listened to the hearts of female fans, and because of a certain feeling of sympathy, revealed to female fans some things about his illness, and female fans didn't know why they framed the star for saying that he was domestic violence and did unreasonable things to her.

Celebrities naturally can't admit it, but I don't know if it's because female fans are too smart or scheming, so they threatened each other with "I'll tell everyone you're sick".

"I didn't tell her I was seriously ill." He Ping sighed, "But I shared some death-related thoughts with her, and I think as you said, I just revealed some emotions, and she sensitively captured them." ”

"So that day he went to the police station to look for you, and then told you, I know your business, I know your biggest secret, that secret that I don't want to tell anyone." Mu Chun said slowly, with a hint of strangeness in his tone.

He Ping couldn't help but shudder, and his shoulders trembled slightly.

"How do you know? Yes, Xu Dan is very smart, much smarter than she seems on the surface, I even think I don't know her at all, speaking of fans, I can't know the situation of a fan, but she emailed me, left me a message, sent hundreds of messages, she said she wanted to commit suicide, she didn't want to continue her life, if I wasn't supporting her. After He Ping finished speaking, he smiled awkwardly at Mu Chun.

Indeed, it seems that she is a very weak girl, it is understandable that she likes He Ping, but this matter is too incomprehensible, why did she like He Ping and frame him again?

Mu Chun wrote down all these doubts and recorded them in the notebook in his heart, instead of getting simpler, on the contrary, it became more and more complicated, and there were so many strange things hidden in this suicide live broadcast incident.

And the leader of all this seems to be Xu Dan alone.

What exactly is the purpose of this girl?

Is it because she really likes He Ping, and then pursues the idol unsuccessfully, if He Ping didn't lie, it means that He Ping only sympathized with Xu Dan before visiting her and kept some contact with her.

Maybe it's not that simple, gradually, did He Ping also use words or some body movements to express his concern for Xu Dan?

These questions are not easy to ask, Mu Chun tries to sort out this information, if it is not a question that has to know the answer, Mu Chun will put them aside for the time being.

Thinking of this, a simple and logical inference surfaced.

If Xu Dan really fell in love with He Ping, and later knew that he could not be with He Ping, or He Ping clearly rejected her love, Xu Dan did all kinds of things out of love and hatred, and even at the expense of his own reputation, accused He Ping of aggression and domestic violence...... She knew how bad these accusations were for a celebrity, ruined and riddled with lawsuits.

If the strong ~ crime is convicted, it is a felony.

"So she's in love with you?" Mu Chun asked.

He Ping fell back, leaned on the pillow, and shook his head, "I can't tell, maybe yes, but maybe not." Remember the first time we chatted at this hospital? I said I didn't feel sorry for Bai Lu, I don't love Xu Dan, I didn't do anything unruly, maybe no one will believe it. ”

"Do you know what happened to Xu Dan in the past?" Mu Chun asked again.

"Yes, she told me that she has been living in shame and wants to die, she is a girl with a strong smell of death, how to say it, but I also have selfishness." He Ping replied helplessly.

"I understand that many times the pain of another person alleviates the pain of the patient." Mu Chun said.

A light suddenly flashed in He Ping's eyes, "Why is this?" People are really interesting, I really took care of Xu Dan for this reason, because she is even worse than me, how can people be like this, gnaw on other people's wounds to save their souls, like gui. But it's better than painkillers. ”

"It is also human nature to forget one's own pain in the pain of others, it is not something that cannot be understood, but it is not easy to talk about it, because there are many things that cannot be said by individuals in civilized society, but those things that cannot be said do not mean that they do not exist or are unreasonable."

Mu Chun told He Ping about Bai Lu's drunkenness, and tears fell from the corners of He Ping's eyes.

Finally, Mu Chun also reminded He Ping that if a person has not done the things accused by others but admits it for some reason, he may have covered up other people's crimes or covered up more terrible truths, and from the perspective of the overall legal system and personal feelings, it is still necessary to weigh carefully.