It's been a long time since that day, and I haven't seen my dad much, and there are officials in Lingcheng who have fallen from power, and he always has to be so busy for a while.

This time it is a big fish, Deputy Mayor Zhang, who is in charge of urban construction, this person is also young and promising, born as the secretary of the provincial governor, and was sent to Lingcheng in his early forties to serve as the leader of the municipal party committee, for three years.

In the spring of '02, an anonymous letter was sent to the Provincial Commission for Discipline Inspection, and as soon as the latter began to investigate, their secretary was invited to the office by Zhang's old leader. The provincial governor, who is close to the sixtieth year, slapped the table - what is this, the people around me, as soon as they go down to make a little performance, some people start to get restless? I've seen the report materials, they are all some unnecessary things, Xiao Zhang is in an important position, it is inevitable to offend people, you cooperate like this, it makes people panic, and no one dares to do things in the future? If the people complain about the inefficiency, you will stand up and bear it for me!

The secretary of the Commission for Discipline Inspection withdrew from the governor's office and found the leader of the provincial party committee overnight.

The number one has been silent for a long time, checking, must check, but we must also respect the opinions of the old comrades, and some things are carried out, but do not put them on the table.

As a result, the case went underground, and it took more than a year to investigate. During this period, the provincial leadership was changed, and the governor retreated to the second line.

Before being supervised, Vice Mayor Zhang also delivered a speech at this year's urban construction work conference the day before.

For a time, the middle-level and above cadres in Lingcheng were all in danger, and in the second month of Deputy Mayor Zhang's shuanggui, Uncle Shen was summoned by the Commission for Discipline Inspection to talk and be investigated.

During that time, I was in the second round of graduate school revision, and I soaked in the library and self-study room every day, knowing nothing about this matter, and by the time I knew it, it had already come to an end.

It is said that Vice Mayor Zhang has been in office for three years, and the gifts given by Uncle Shen during the New Year's holidays are about 50,000 yuan, which is by no means the first among the cadres under investigation.

When my mother told me this, it was obviously a relieved tone, yes, after all, it has been a neighborhood for so many years, and everyone is sad who is planted in whose hands.

She asked, "Have you seen Sibo at school recently?" "

"No, what did I see him doing?"

"I heard he's going abroad?"

It's like there's a slowing down ** in my heart, and suddenly someone whips it:

"You ask me, I'll ask who's going, right?"

"Don't give me yin and yang weirdness."

"What's wrong with me, I'm still reading." I held the real question of the economic law: "Come to dinner at night, what dishes do you cook?" "

After the general election of the student union of the college, a group of people went to Jiayuan Xiaoyin for dinner, and I teased the younger students: "It's good, I'm going to retire soon, and I will take me with you for dinner, and I will often have to come back to you in the future." "

"Senior Sister Zhuang, you are the emperor." They gossiped and opened the wine bottle: "The emperor is full." "

"I said in advance, just one bottle, too much."

Xiao Chen, who was burned by a hot water bottle back then, said: "Zhuang Ning has never been an unhappy person. "

"Lian Po is old." I patted him on the shoulder: "After this, you and I will withdraw from the rivers and lakes, and it will be up to them young people." "

The young people fainted one after another, and Xiao Chen smiled: "They will give you face and call Senior Sister, and see if you are panting." "

Having said that, no one really tried to persuade me to drink.

Watching them cup after cup, I had the heart to persuade: "It's not me who swept your ......" and then thought about it, forget it, do you really think of yourself as a person from the past? Don't mention it, just half a year ago, someone wanted to tell you, Zhuang Ning, don't be confused, do you listen?

The little ones were looking at me.

"It's okay, drink, I forgot what I was about to talk about." I said, "When people are old, they just can't remember." "

They burst into laughter.

When I went down to settle the account, the proprietress was still the same as before, and smiled at me: "I haven't been here for a long time." "

"Busy."

"Graduating soon?"

"Isn't it?"

I used to be in this place, enjoying my first lunch in college, and it seemed that it was only a matter of a moment, and now I am hunched over the counter and chatting with each other. There are so many changes that come and go, and some things remain the same.

On this day, I went to the library to return the books, borrowed two new political exercise books, and went downstairs to go directly to the borrowing office, but when I stood on the cloister and saw the patio full of autumn sunshine, and the milky white carved benches were placed next to the sunflowers, I immediately couldn't move.

I walked through the shelves in the art lending room, and I was so hungry and thirsty that I wanted to take everything I saw. My euphoria ended in a book in the corner.

It has a golden, warm cover, and the dignified and demure girl on the cover is named "Amelia".

I borrowed this Fielding work from Xie Duan at that time, and after reading a small half, I threw it back to her, she was very surprised, not good-looking?

I can't say it, I don't like it anyway.

I liked perverse, dramatic, infatuated and passionate, rather than this kind of uneventful and tedious childlike relationship, and I didn't like the heroine in this story, where morality is solid and kindness is never flawless.

She endures, endures, endures, I said to Xie Duan at the time, if you want me, I will slap it.

But Xie Duan liked it, and she always whispered to me about Booth and Amelia's love - he took her away from her mother, and they resisted temptation, overcame difficulties, and lived happily.

Is there such a thing in reality? I gently set aside everything I was holding and pulled the book off the shelf.

But there was someone behind this "Amelia" and this row of bookshelves, and we didn't pay attention to each other at first, until I heard the phone vibrate, and then a familiar voice: "Mom? ...... I'm still in school...... Yes, it's almost ......"

As he spoke, the sound of footsteps went out.

I followed the past, trying to see clearly in the gap between the high and low of the books, but I was always one step late, and I was really helpless: "Shen Sibo! "

There was a huge reading room, and I couldn't see where he was, and I didn't know if he heard him. I thought, forget it.

Someone from behind me called me, "Hey. "

When I turned around, he was still like that, delicate and gentle, standing in front of the wind-rolled white curtains, smiling at me.

"I heard you're going abroad?" Desks and chairs are arranged in the corridor to facilitate students to read, and Shen Sibo and I sat face to face, I asked.

"Hmm." He said: "Come and go through the formalities and return the documents." "

"Uncle Shen, is he okay?"

"I'm not in a good mood, but it's fine." He replied, "How are you now, where are you looking for a job?" "

"Didn't look for it." I showed him the cover of the book in my hand: "Prepare for graduate school." "

"It's good."

"I haven't seen you much when I've been home lately."

"Went out for a while."

"Oh, when are you leaving?"

"Next spring, maybe."

After that, we were silent for a moment. I think he would have been disappointed if he had been waiting for me to mention her, not that I didn't want to, but that he had nothing to say.

"Two days ago, I went to Jiayuan Inn." Shen Sibo opened his mouth and said, he probably didn't know what he wanted to express, so he said this.

"I've been there recently, too." After a few seconds I laughed, "How fast." "

He also curled the corners of his lips, and after a while: "If she ......"

I waited. He lowered his eyes and smiled at himself, it was a gloomy expression, meaning, why bother.

Then he looked at me again and said, "So, I'll go first?" "

"Okay--hey!"

Shen Sibo had already taken two steps out and turned back again.

"I probably won't have time to send you." I got up: "Right here, I wish you a smooth journey." "

"Thank you, goodbye."

I put all the books in the crook of my arm, nodded to him, and left in the opposite direction.

Two months later, one day I woke up in the middle of the night by Suma.

I was on fire: "What are you doing? "

She stared at two big eyes, bloodshot: "You still ask me?" You just shouted 'to sum up' five times, I don't care what you say, hurry up and finish it, otherwise I won't be able to sleep? "

"......"

This is my state for a while, the sprint stage, day and night are constantly doing questions, sometimes in the dream, the mind can not stop the car, tired and anxious, wash your face every day to sleep, have a face of acne, and do not like to dress up, so when you enjoy New Year's Day, you say to take me back to dinner, I am still unhappy.

At noon on the 31st, I called him: "Hey, where are you?" "

"In the house here."

"Which house?" I immediately remembered, "Delivered, so fast?" "

"Just got the key yesterday."

"How?"

"It's not a big place." He said: "However, I am standing on the balcony now, and I can see the Ling River. "

"Really?" I was a little confused: "You can put a chaise longue there." "

"The walls are all made of glass."

"Another freezer."

"Get another bookshelf on the wall."

"Get two more pots of greenery."

We both sighed contentedly at the same time.

At this moment, there was a "bang", like something falling to the ground, and I heard a lot of movement here:

"What's wrong, what's wrong?"

He was separated by two seconds: "In the hallway." "

"Oh, are you alright?"

"I'll take a look." He said, "See you later." "

I put on light makeup, and then I opened the cabinet door, and found that all the clothes that could be worn out were all worn for Qi Xiang, and some were worn many times, I silently squatted in front of the closet for a long time, Zeng Xiaobai asked: "Zhuang Ning, what are you doing squatting there?" Do you have a stomachache? "

"You just have a stomachache." I said, "I'm depressed." "

"What's wrong?"

"No clothes to wear."

"Huh." She smiled: "Who told you not to go shopping for months." "

"I'm not free." I was furious: "I want to read, I have to go to class, I have to eat, I have to sleep, I have to fall in love, Mom." "

"Who are you throwing tantrums with?"

I said, "Me and myself." "

"Don't worry, he won't dislike you. And," she leaned on the rail, looking at me, "when did you become such a little woman?" "

"I don't know what you're talking about."

"You've been tossing from putting down the phone until now." She looked at her phone: "For an hour and a half, don't you usually take a nap at noon?" "

"It's too late." I sighed, "Who starts sleeping at two o'clock." "

"Me." She lay down on her back again, was silent for a while, and said, "Zhuang Ning, do you remember that time?" "

"Huh?"

"In the past year, one of our dormitories has turned on his back and dressed up for your appointment." She said lightly, lifting her upper body as if trying to find a comfortable position: "Time is so fast, I'm going to graduate." "

I drank a big cup of strong coffee before going to self-study, sat in the classroom and insisted on completing an English mock question, and when Qi Xiang found me, I had collapsed, with a small dictionary under my arm, and I was sleeping soundly.

He called me up, and I gathered my things wistfully, and followed him out, and it was dusk, and as I went down the stairs, I looked up into the distance, and there was no light, and the gray clouds piled up towards the horizon from sparse to dense.

I was still stunned, and suddenly my head buzzed, and my eyes were blinded, if it wasn't for Qi Xiang's eyes and hands to support me, I would have fallen very badly.

His voice was tight: "What's wrong?" "

"Don't speak." I held his arm: "I'm dizzy. "

Qi Xiang opened the car door and sat in, handing me a box of ice cream: "Are you okay?" "

"It's just too tired, it's fine." I took it, broke the visor with my other hand, took a picture, and then turned to glare at him, "Look at my eyes." "

He glanced at it, "Why bother. "

"I didn't even do a resume, I didn't look for any job, and I didn't want to do it anymore."

He didn't persuade me again, just asked, "Sure?" "

"Hmph, basically, it's going to happen." I opened the lid and scooped a spoonful: "By the way, what's the matter with that noise at noon?" "

"The next-door neighbor, the old couple brought some sundries over and fell."

"So scary? Why didn't you let your children come? "

"It's gone."

"...... What's going on? "

"Get sick."

"Oh."

Qi and I share a consensus that we can keep silent as much as possible about the calamities that happen to others, and that excessive curiosity and talk will inevitably have a tendency to be entertaining and unkind.

I changed the subject: "Aren't you glad that your mother didn't listen to your opinion and insisted on buying it?" "

"A little."

"You, don't always think you're right."

He smiled: "Do I have it?" "

"Not yet?" I said, "Haven't you always been like this since I knew you?" "

"How much better can you be than me, little girl?" He turned to look at me and said, "Who is it that kept me from coming off the stage when we first met?" "

"Hey, hey." I said, "I know, it's just like in an idol drama, you must think I'm very different, and you like me, don't you?" "

"I owe it? Of course I'm angry. "

"Oh? And what about later? "

"Later." He paused: "Later, which paragraph are you referring to?" "

You see, if you want to hear this person talk about how he is attracted to you, what makes you different, etc., you are always dumbfounded.

I can't help it: "Stingy." "

He smiled and ignored me, and I fell asleep in the passenger seat, stunned. Until I was woken up by the sound of ticking outside the car window.

"It's raining, it's raining again."

The exam venue is in the third middle school of the city, the first political course is over, and during the intermission, the Yonghe soybean milk next to it is full of candidates.

Of course, I was among them, asked for a braised pork rice and sat in the corner wearing headphones. I never answer the answer with others, I pass the exam and prepare for the next one wholeheartedly.

I thought it would be necessary to talk about what I was doing when I sat there at noon and read English.

Qi Xiang took a bottle of water handed by the other party and unscrewed it: "Thank you." "

"Where, I really want to thank you, Xiao Qi." The old man opposite him said, "Come early in the morning and do us such a great favor." "

Qi Xiang smiled: "It should be." "

"Thanks to ...... last time"

"Teacher Zhao, don't be polite, is it done? It's all neighbors. "

"Okay, you're welcome."

Qi Xiang looked around: "If you don't decorate, just move over?" "

"That's what happened." Teacher Zhao explained: "Our house is for my brother's child, he is still in high school, and he is still early to use it, and there are too many things at home, so there is no place to put his feet, so I will put some of them here first." "

"Sit, Xiao Qi, sit down." He then beckoned Qi Xiang: "I'll clean up briefly, let's leave immediately." "

"Don't rush, take your time." In order to show that he was really not in a hurry, Qi Xiang casually took the top old photo album: "Can I take a look?" "

"It's all old photos, just look at them." Mr. Zhao watched him turn to the first page, and on the black-and-white photo, a little boy holding a model of a warship: "My son." "

His voice was calm. Since there was no sympathy for others, Qi Xiang did not show sympathy, nodded, and turned the pages one by one.

Teacher Zhao put the miscellaneous items into the sorting box and asked kindly, "Don't you have to accompany your little girlfriend on weekends?" "

"She's taking the exam today." Qi Xiang turned to the last page, this is a large photo of about 12cm*15cm, Lingcheng No. 1 Middle School 00 high school three (9) class graduation souvenir. Teacher Zhao was surrounded and sat in the front row, and two rows behind him, stood me at the age of seventeen.

Normally, Qi Xiang would not be able to see me at a glance, unless he had seen an identical one in my house.

He laughed, what a coincidence.

"Zhuang Ning is your student?"

"What? Do you know her too? "

Qi Xiangxiao: "Yes, I know her." "

"And you've been in touch with her lately?" Teacher Zhao asked, "Is she okay lately?" Are you feeling better? "

"What happened to her before?"

"This little girl, last year, when? Oh, Lantern Festival, the mood is not good, there is something in my heart. Teacher Zhao said, "I drank a lot of wine, and thanks to a male student here who was her neighbor, he sent her back." "

Qi Xiang slowly put away his smile when the other party said, he should also be recalling, where was he during the Lantern Festival last year? **。 He probably quickly remembered that a week after the holiday, he called her, she said she wouldn't answer anything, and when they met again, she became lingering and well-behaved.

"That male student, is his surname Shen?"

"You know him, too? How is he now? "

How about Shen Sibo, I can answer this question soon.

My phone vibrated back and forth in my pocket. I unplugged my headphones and reached out to pull it out while facing the real question.

It's a somewhat familiar number.

"Hey, who's that?"

"It's Zhuang Ning, right?"

I forgot for a moment whose voice it was, and my anxiety made his voice change somewhat: "Who?" "

He paused: "I, Zhuohe." "

This person and I have been in contact with me for a long time, and when we meet at school, I just nod, and the former enthusiasm is like falling into the mud, and picking it up is no longer the same thing.

"You, oops, I'm sorry, I'm sorry......" I'm still polite here, but he doesn't have any intention of greeting me: "Shen Sibo was just taken away by the procuratorate, do you know?" "

It started with a traffic accident.

The boss of a development company in Lingcheng collided with a muck truck that ran a red light when he was about to leave the city, and both sides were injured to varying degrees.

This is a very ordinary accident, both parties have not woken up, the reporter interviewed the traffic police and the masses, learned that one of these two is a rich man who drives drunk, and the other is an old driver who drives all day and is fatigued, and he can't run away from responsibility.

He pondered, from which angle to cut into the article when he went back? The importance of obeying traffic rules, or take it to the next level and explore efficiency and fairness?

At this time, the boss opened his eyes, dizzy for a while, touched his pocket violently, and cold sweat came down, regardless of the hanging bottle hanging on his arm, he jumped high: "Where are my clothes, what about my own clothes?" "

The nurse touched his forehead: "It's burning again, give another injection." "

The reporter kept an eye on it, squeezed out of the noisy crowd, and found the boss's little wife in her twenties, who was holding the on-site items returned to her by the traffic police, waiting in the corridor outside.

The uncrowned king was a young man, very handsome, with a telephoto camera around his neck tilted to that point, and he talked to the girl without a match. She soon found out that not only did he graduate from the same school as her, but even their hometown was just across the river.

But this did not affect the little reporter when she left to go to the bathroom, without hesitation, touched every pocket of the suit on the back of the chair, and finally pulled out a notebook from the inner pocket.

It is densely packed, full of codes, dates, and payments.

The little reporter looked at it quickly, and he understood that he finally didn't have to chase those trivial social insights in the future. He put it away, straightened up, said hello to the young woman who came back to him, and left.

Prior to this, Vice Mayor Zhang had always insisted that he had only accepted gifts, not bribes, which was very critical in the identification of crimes, and even the demarcation between administrative punishment and criminal punishment.

This notebook opened up a stalemate. also led to the escape in the first review, a group of Lingcheng officials involved in the case. Among them is Uncle Shen.

I don't know if Uncle Shen had expected this, otherwise I can't explain why he hurriedly arranged Shen Sibo's going abroad, and couldn't even wait for the Spring Festival of this year.

But this did not escape the sight of the working group, and on the day of Shen Sibo's departure, Uncle Shen was called away in the morning, and before leaving, he whispered to his wife that no matter what, send Sibo away first. Then he said to his son as usual, you go to the airport first, and Dad will see you off when he is busy.

Shen Sibo may be a little suspicious, maybe not, he just kept silent until the moment before boarding the plane at the airport, and there was no trace of his father, but he waited for the case handling personnel of the procuratorate to ask him and Aunt Shen to go back to assist in the investigation.

He said to Zhuo He apologetically, you may have to give it away for nothing today.

Zhuo He was his only friend to see him off, but he was left alone at the airport, and by the time he thought of calling me, it was already half an hour later, and he was in the taxi.

"Isn't your dad from the Commission for Discipline Inspection?" Zhuo He said, "Zhuang Ning, can you go and inquire?" "

My heart was so confused that I could only think of one sentence: "I'm taking the exam, I still have to take the exam in the afternoon." "

I went to the English test in the afternoon, and I did it quite quickly, and I even checked it again, which was faster than any previous simulation, but when the invigilator announced that I had stopped writing and left the exam room upside down, I stood twice before I could get up.

Just ended, there were people everywhere, I found a flower bed to sit down, drank saliva, turned on my phone, there was a text message from Qi Xiang, I was waiting for you at the main entrance, and I came over.

I was facing the school gate at this angle, and I saw his car parked there from afar, but I didn't want to move when I was tired, as if I couldn't lift the strength to walk over for such a short distance, typed a few words on my mobile phone, and deleted it.

The flowing crowd, we are like two still islands, and finally they come together to find me.

"How are you sitting here?" He asked.

I said, "Take a break, tired." "

It's really tired, physiological, and my brain is blank.

"If you're tired, go home, and I'll send you home."

In the car, my phone rang again, it was still Zhuohe, I took it out to take a look, pressed mute and threw it back.

Qi Xiang didn't look at me, but asked, "Why don't you take it?" "

I curled up in the passenger seat, not wanting to answer.

I'm really a little angry, call me at this time, what can I do? Shen Sibo and I are not even friends, I haven't talked much for a long time, I just want to live my life now, I just want to do a good job in the exam, talk about love with Qi Xiang, go to his house for a meal when I have time, and accompany his father to play forty points.

Why do you want to disturb me with such things?

What does the Shen family's affairs have to do with me, I was tired and thought coldly, besides, don't talk about me, my father can't help him. They can only carry it themselves, why don't they carry it themselves?

Ten minutes later, my phone beeped twice, and a text message lay quietly on the screen:

"Sibo just contacted me, he and Aunt Shen have gone back, it's okay, you have a good exam, I wish you all the best."

Takuwa may have known that I didn't want to answer the phone, but he didn't reproach me for my neglect and indifference, and he didn't even point them out, as if I had been with him in the midst of the situation, worried and anxious about our old friend.

When did you become so powerful? Zhuo and classmates. It's amazing. I don't even have the strength to reply to you, I don't know how to act like a hypocrite.

Qi Xiang was a little silent today, and when I had the heart to take care of his abnormality, Nissan had already driven to the intersection of Tuanjie Road and Jixiang Street, and my community was at the end of the former.

I hurried up and chatted with him: "I did okay today." "

"Yes."

"Why don't you ask me?"

"Didn't you say it on your own initiative?"

"Is there something on your mind? You. "

"Don't call me like a little girl, okay?" He smiled, the kind that eased the situation: "Don't be cranky. "

"Then why didn't you talk all the way?"

"You said, you're tired."

I couldn't fault it at all: "Oh. "

"Go back and take a shower, have a good rest, and talk about it after tomorrow."

"Look, you're still in trouble."

At this time, he had already entered the community, and Qi Xiang braked suddenly: "Yes, I have something." "

With one hand still on the steering wheel, he leaned over to me: "Then comfort me first, come." "

I laughed and pushed him: "Stay away, stay away, okay, I won't ask." "

He also laughed and restarted. When I passed by Shen's house, I looked inside, it was dark early these days, and when I looked through the window of his house, it was deeper and quieter than twilight.

I entered the house and found that the lights were not on in the room.

"Mom? Mother? I shouted twice, changed my shoes, and reached for the switch.

"Don't open it." My mom was in the corner and startled me.

"What are you doing?"

"Quietly, come here, tell you something."

I went over, she sat on the sofa, and whispered, "Something happened to your Uncle Shen." "

"I know."

"You know? How do you know? "

I shrugged, and she didn't ask more, and continued to say in a breath: "Your Aunt Shen just found it." "

"...... What are you here for? "

"What else can I do? Intercede with your dad, don't say that your dad doesn't have this right, but he does, he can do this...... Is it? "

With that, both she and I were silent for a while, until I asked:

"Then we're going to hide like this?"

My mom sighed, "Or else? Neighbors for so many years, what do you say to your face? "

"But it's not ...... either"

As soon as I was halfway through my sentence, there was a knock on the door of my house, "bang", and then the doorbell was also ringed, sharp as an alarm, and it was very lively for a while.

And my mother and I sat at opposite ends of the sofa, silent in the thick shadows, like two desperate sufferers being chased on TV.

Someone outside the door was talking, listening carefully, it was Shen Sibo's patient persuasion: "Mom, Uncle Zhuang and they are not at home, you go back first, and we will discuss it later, okay?" "

"I obviously saw Xiao Ning come back. You call, you call her - hurry up! Aunt Shen's voice rose high, and my mother gave me a panicked look, and I pounced on my bag like an American football player, pulled out my phone, and pressed the silence before it rang.

There was no light on all sides, I was lying there, the screen was a familiar number, it lit up, it went dark, it lit up again, like a person, one side was silent, but it looked at you.

It finally stopped, and fell silent.

Aunt Shen delayed for a while before she was persuaded by her son to leave.

My mother leaned back on the back of the sofa, sat up straight at this time, and said to me: "Call Xiao Qi and ask him to take you back to school, you have been like this all night, and you won't take the exam tomorrow?" "

"What about you?"

"I, I'll wait for your dad to come back, I can't help it."

I dialed Qi Xiang: "Where are you?" "

"Almost home." He asked suspiciously, "What's wrong with your voice?" "

"It's fine." I coughed, "Can you pick me up?" "

He didn't say anything more: "Okay, you wait for me." "

I went to my room to pack up the books and materials I needed tomorrow, and when I was done, I stuffed some of them into my bag: "Mom, when will my dad come back?" "

"Who knows."

"What will happen to Uncle Shen?"

"Who knows." She paused: "If Shen Sibo looks for you, don't promise anything." "

"I know." I said, "Gone." "

That is, when I opened the door and walked out two steps, someone shouted: "Xiao Ning!" "

I tried to pretend I didn't hear, but the person behind me didn't give me the chance, she stepped forward and grabbed my arm, and my books fell all over the place.

Shen Sibo was not around, and when I turned around, I was startled by her, her haggard appearance was hung up and dried, and her eyes were red.

"Shen, Shen Bo......"

"Xiao Ning." Like a missionary fanatic, she came over, eager and a little embarrassed: "Can you do Auntie a favor?" Tell your dad, huh? "

My mother has already come out of the house: "Mother of the Shen family, the child doesn't understand anything, don't embarrass the child, let's go to the house and say, okay?" "

But Aunt Shen, she is like a hungry beast that is easy to catch its prey, she only stares at me:

"Your Uncle Shen loves you so much, doesn't he? When you were a child, you couldn't learn to ride a bicycle when you were old, or did he teach you, oh, and when you were younger, you fell down the stairs and there was no one at home, or did he take you to the hospital, right? You're crying so sadly, Sibo takes his villain book and reads it with you, and you don't cry. Isn't it? Do you remember? "

How could I forget, with a bandage on my head and Shen Sibo reading a picture book, I used to think that nothing could beat such a picture.

"My dad hasn't come back yet, I, I've got something to ......"

"Xiao Ning, don't go." She grabbed my wrist again, turned into a broken repeater, and wailed, "Tell your father, huh? "

"Aunt Shen, Aunt Shen." I couldn't pull it hard, and almost pleaded: "I'm sorry I have something, I'm okay." "

"Mom!" Shen Sibo rushed over from a distance and intervened between me and his mother: "Why are you? --You let her go first. "

"No, Sibo, you also help your mother say, Xiao Ning liked you so much before, you also liked her, you told your mother before, didn't you?"

"Mom, Mom, don't do this." Shen Sibo went to break his mother's hand: "Zhuang Ning, you go first." "

"......"

The boy's chin was blue in a circle.

How long ago was that? --"Shen Sibo, can I touch it?" "

"Why are you so nervous?" His smiling voice, the tingling of my fingertips.

"Let's go." He looked at me and said, "Count me in." "

My mother dragged me out of reach of Aunt Shen and said softly, "Xiao Qi is here, you hurry up and go with him." "

I looked over, Qi Xiang closed the car door with his backhand, and walked towards me, calm and neat, as if all the panic and reversal could be corrected by him in an instant.

The young man approached, put his arm around my shoulder, and smiled at the group. Then he saw the books on the ground, he picked them up one by one, patted the dust and stuffed it back into my hand, and then said to my mother, "Aunt Zhuang, if it's okay, I'll take her away first?" "

"Okay, okay." My mother turned to the Shen family's mother and son and said, "Come into the house and sit down." "

This farce came suddenly and very tightly, only three or four minutes before and after, and ended in time, and both of us survived being watched.

That's the only thing to be thankful for.

And what about the rest? The rest, of course, is not a big deal. The reason why others are others is that no matter how sympathetic you are, you will never delay for too long for his pain, and it will not even affect you to eat one less meal.

Shen Sibo is now my other person, and I must not forget this in the first place.

And I felt the need to explain to Qi Xiang: "You heard it just now? "

"Partial."

"Uncle Shen, it's Shen Sibo's father, something went wrong, Aunt Shen wants to find my dad to see if he has a way." I said, "We've always had a good relationship. "

"Hmm."

"Is there anything else you want to know? They ......"

"To be honest, I don't care about them." Qi Xiang took my words: "I just hope they don't affect you. "

"You mean my exam?" I assured him, "No, how come, I know the severity - you don't believe it?" "

"I believe it." He looked at me: "What will you do after the exam, have you thought about it?" "

"Get a good night's sleep." I said, "By the way, I'm going shopping, I'm going to buy clothes." "

"Two people did it."

"So, playing cards?"

"Forget it." He smiled: "Let's eat first." "

After that, Qi Xiang sent me back to school, and there was no one else in the dormitory, so I took a shower and went to bed.

I slept for no more than three hours, and soon began to dream, not the kind of nightmare that was clear, with clear clues, and you could tell what you were afraid of, but slimy like a ball of vinyl, lacking the most basic logic and explanation, but its horror was not ambiguous at all, and before I struggled to wake up, someone whispered in my ear, this is your retribution.

I opened my eyes suddenly, and found that I had a headache, my hands and feet were paralyzed, and my whole body was like a sponge, which was constantly being pulled, and my skin was like severe burns.

I was lying on the edge of the sink, and I could only hear my own breathing, falling and falling together. I was scared and angry, but the latter was completely overwhelmed by the former - don't punish me like that, I didn't mean to, really, do you want me to say I'm sorry? Okay, I'm sorry, I'm sorry -- but they were sorry for me first, right? -- Well, it's nothing, I don't defend anything, I was wrong about that, I don't defend it, just don't punish me like that.

If you've never woken up in the middle of the night from a nightmare and found yourself sick to death, when you're alone in this space, with darkness and silence weighing down on your back, you won't understand why I'm so weak.

I eased up, went for a pill to take, and climbed back into bed, keeping my eyes open until the wee hours of the morning.

For the exam at half past eight, Qi Xiang will pick me up about an hour early. But I got up after six o'clock, and I couldn't sleep.

The faint twilight in my face gave me courage, and I was ashamed of my compromise in the middle of the night to the strange forces, and I was wrong? Hmph, where did I get it wrong. Isn't it gastroenteritis, I put a whole bottle of stomach medicine in my bag.

Although my head hurts now, I don't have much worry about myself for almost the whole night without closing my eyes, and anyone who has studied at a Chinese university knows that it is almost the norm to stay up all night before the exam, and I feel refreshed as soon as I go to the exam room. I have to carry the day over.

So when Qi Xiang saw me, except for a little black under my eyes, there was probably nothing too abnormal.

He sent me to the gate of the third middle school, there were still forty minutes before the exam, the school gate was locked, and there were a large number of candidates standing in the cold wind.

He said, then you take the exam well, don't be nervous. I'll pick you up in the afternoon.

I said okay.

After he left, I rested against the wall, and someone was chanting next to me, and while I opened the plastic bag, the thick smell of the filling of the vegetable buns wafted over.

I just squatted on the ground with my mouth covered in full view of everyone.

Everyone around looked at it, and the one who ate the bun was startled and patted me gently: "Classmate, classmate, are you okay?" "

The intense burning sensation in my stomach spread all over my body, and I pressed my forehead, took out a napkin to wipe my hands clean, and then took out the medicine and swallowed a tablet. I'll have to carry it anyway, I don't believe it anymore.

In the morning exam, I was confused for a while, and finally I fell on the table.

"Classmates." The invigilator pushed me: "What's wrong?" Under the weather? "

"Oh no." I gritted my teeth and said, "It's okay. "

She walked away, and when she came back, I lay down again, it was a female teacher, and she didn't say a word, but beckoned another to come over. They discussed a few words, and the older one said to me: "This classmate, no matter how important this exam is to you, don't joke about your body, you can only write about this situation until the bell rings at most, isn't it?" It's better to hurry up and hand in the papers and take a look. "

You know, before he said this, I still had hope in my heart, maybe I could just take a break and finish this exam paper, but someone came and said, no, really, I don't have any strength at all.

There was a big hospital across the street from No. 3 Middle School, and the doctor took my stomach medicine in his hand: "You can eat this?" "

"Hmm."

"You people, how can you diagnose yourself blindly, does ordinary gastritis cause fever? Does it cause muscle soreness? You have a typical gastrointestinal cold, you know? What should I do if I take medicine blindly and am delayed? "

I nodded.

"It's not a big deal, after I go back, I have a good rest, pay attention to the mental aspect must be relaxed, and take the medicine on time, and I will be fine soon."

"I always relied on the kindness of strangers." In "A Streetcar Named Desire", Vivien Leigh said.

When I can see it as a setback rather than a disaster, I can always think of this line, of the girl who handed me a cup of hot water.

You know that once people's long-term desire is frustrated, it will inevitably produce some self-abandonment, when I leave the examination room, I don't want to move, I think that's it, I don't believe I can just hang up, hang up.

It was this little female teacher on duty who volunteered to accompany me across the street to the hospital, queue up, and pour water from the lounge to give me medicine. I didn't even have time to know her last name until she walked away. However, because of such a narrow encounter and untraceable encounter, her enthusiasm and kindness have always made me feel more precious and grateful in the days that followed, but at that time I was so depressed and upset, I was afraid that others would sympathize.

"It's okay, you can take the test again next year, right?" She watched me swallow the Huoxiang Zhengqi capsule prescribed by the doctor, and sure enough, she said so.

I nodded, wishing I could be alone.

I can't bear the concern of strangers, I think, what about my parents, what about Qi Xiang, they must be worried, anxious, disappointed, I can't stand this.

The little teacher left after a while, and I sat there alone for a few hours, watching the news scrolling on TV, and gradually tilted to the side and fell asleep. There is central air conditioning, and no one comes to disturb me, I actually slept a little peacefully, and when I woke up, it was the time when the light was green, and the sun went down outside the big glass window, and the lights were not yet bright. The cleaning staff mopped the floor not far away, and there was a slight squeak from the water-stained mop sliding over the tiles.

My head still hurts, but my spirit is a little better, and my stomach is not so bad. The wall clock on the wall pointed to four fifty.

I knocked on the car window, Qi Xiang turned his head in the driver's seat and saw me, he was slightly surprised, leaned over to help me open the car door: "I didn't see you come out, where did you come from?" "

"Just the school, you haven't noticed, there are so many people."

He must have felt confused, but he didn't pursue it, and after chatting a few words, I saw that my mood was not high, and he probably understood a little: "Didn't play well?" "

I replied after a while, "Tired." Can you take me back to my dorm? "

"If you're tired, you can't go to sleep right now, I'll take you to dinner."

"I don't want to."

"Don't be so willful." Qi Xiang looked at me: "Isn't it just an exam, it doesn't matter, as long as you take the exam, no one will blame you." Be obedient and go get something to eat. "

I felt even more uncomfortable: "You let me be by myself, it's fine, really, you must have wanted to be by yourself sometimes, right?" "

He was silent.

I think that sharing is understandable, and being alone is not a difference. But I didn't think about it, what would happen to me if he was badly injured at the moment, but asked to "stay with himself", I would definitely feel unneeded and hurt my feelings.

On the way back, I leaned back in my seat and pretended to sleep, Qi Xiang glanced at me from time to time, my eyes were not completely closed, and I was quietly watching his side face in the faint light.

Do I love him? Why can't I share it with him? Do I love my parents? Obviously, I don't have to answer that, but I can't share it with them. Nothing else, it's really unnecessary.

When I get better, I will go to make a resume, and hurry up to apply for a job, so that I may have found it when the results are lower, and I can tell them that it is a few points short, but it doesn't matter that I have found a job, and I am satisfied, and I may not be willing to study if I am admitted.

It's up to me to comfort them, and no one has to worry too much about me. When I think about it, I feel a little relieved.

Downstairs in the dormitory, Qi Xiang handed me a paper bag containing the cake he stopped to buy when we passed by the pastry shop, and then helped me unbuckle my seat belt, and I grabbed his cuff when he withdrew his arm:

"Do you believe me, I'll be fine tomorrow."

He smiled slightly and said, "Okay, call me for something." "

It was raining heavily in the middle of the night, and when I woke up, I could hear the sound of thunder.

I'm lying in the quilt, sleepless, I'm angry, haven't you punished me enough? So, okay, come on.

When the thunder is really near, I'm scared, no, no, no, no, no, I still want to live well, I want to do bad things without punishment, yes, who doesn't want to. The lightning grew brighter and brighter, and I wrapped the quilt tightly.

After the New Year, I started to look for a job, but it was not very smooth, the large-scale recruitment and civil servants were concentrated in the autumn and winter of last year, and the career system did not start again, and most of the market were scattered small units, or the requirements for work experience were very high. I voted for a few, but there was always one side that was not satisfied.

And the weather in the early spring of Lingcheng is like this, just after Chinese New Year's Eve, it will coax you to warm up for a few days, and when you are happy, you think that spring is really coming, and when you wake up, it will give you cold back to before liberation. This time the spring cold has been long, and the lotus root has been broken and even wants to talk until it is clear, and the feeling is simply boundless.

Qi Xiang was always not very happy to see me, and asked me if I would like to go to Shenzhen with him, where he had a two-week official business. The weather forecast was in the south on a sunny day in the twenties, and I was a little tempted to tell my mother, who asked, "Then where do you live?" "

"He has classmates there, and I live with his classmate's girlfriend."

"He's on a business trip, who are you going to play with?"

"I'm playing by myself, I'm such an adult."

"What about the school?"

"Classes are suspended."

My mom thought for a moment, "I'm too lazy to care about you." After asking so much, she was embarrassed to say so. After a while, she called out to me again: "Xiao Ning, remember to bring sunscreen, the ultraviolet rays are strong over there." "

"Know, know, really, more and more verbose."

"Say what?"

"No, no."

"Also, your grades are coming down soon, you check over there, or will we check it for you?"

I chuckled in my heart, and immediately folded a lot of joy: "I'll check it myself, don't worry about it." "

I called Qi Xiang, and he answered after a while, and I said, "Hey, my mom agreed." "

He smiled, "Oh, thank her for me." "

"Hey, you're drinking?"

"Hear that?"

"Hmm."

He pretended to be annoyed: "I've tried my best to be sober, you cooperate a little." "

"Hmph, why are you drinking?"

"Socialize."

"Important?"

"Of course." He changed the subject: "What are you doing now?" "

"Go back to the dorm and pack your things."

Suma and Zeng Xiaobai didn't know what they were discussing, so I pushed the door and went in and they didn't say anything more.

"Speak ill of me?" I asked with a grin and opened the cupboard door.

"That's it, what's the matter?" Zeng Xiaobai also smiled and cocked a pair of long legs: "What is this for?" You're moving out now? "

"No, hang out with Qi Xiang."

"Yo, where are you going?"

"Why should I report to you? You two are so happy to talk about it, and you don't take me. "

Suma said, "Oh, we were just talking about going out for dinner together in the dorm room before graduation. "

"Gather, let's go tonight."

Neither of them is a good match, and I kind of understand.

Tucking a long-sleeved shirt into my bag, I turned to me and asked:

"She's back?"

Xie Duan was assigned to the freshman dormitory, and we passed through the corridor, and when we saw the little girls in the freshman year, we felt like old fritters.

It wasn't that she didn't hesitate at all before she came, she didn't contact any of us, or did Suma just happen to meet us, would she like to see us?

Also, do I want to see her?

Do I still resent her, or am I afraid of her a little more? The friendship between women is not necessarily as delicate as love.

"End-to-end." "End-to-end." At the door, Zeng Xiaobai and Suma shouted at the same time.

Xie Duan was lying on the table reading a book, and turned his head to look this way when he heard the sound. Her hair was cut short, almost as long as mine, and her face was still so fair and clean, and she looked so surprised when she saw us, that I even wondered for a moment that she couldn't be, amnesia.

But she quickly got up, ran over, and hugged each of us with tears and laughter.

I can't even remember what kind of intense feelings were behind those gritted teeth and had only one expression left. The four of us sat in the small restaurant like we had done a few years ago, and I was so happy to see that she looked so peaceful.

"You don't contact us either." Suma said to Xie Duan.

Xie Duan smiled, if there was a change, she was more gentle and silent than before.

She plans to postpone her graduation for half a year until the fall. Teacher Li has already helped her connect with the job in Licheng, and if it goes well, she can go back to work directly.

"How nice." I said, "I haven't found it yet." "

"You're going to graduate school." Suma is the most comfortable one in our dormitory, and I originally had this opportunity, but I was let go of my blind confidence.

"How did you do on the test?" Xie Duan asked me, "You must be fine." "

I said, "Well, we don't talk about these things." "

"Zhuang Ning, she is going to be stupid when she is happy, and she will go out with Brother Qi the day after tomorrow." Zeng Xiaobai took chopsticks and pointed: "Are you going to do something after graduation?" "

"Do what you do, eat your sweet and sour fish."

Xie Duan put down his chopsticks: "Oh, speaking of which, I may end this year." "

We looked at her puzzled, she smiled slightly, and said, "Get married." "

"......" Finally, Zeng Xiaobai said: "Duanduan, you have become humorous." "

"It's true, I made an appointment with you in advance, I'm going." She turned her face to me and said, "Zhuang Ning, you have to go." "

On this day, Zhang Yu and his family came to the airport to pick up the plane, Hao Tiantian was petite, but she was really a powerful girl, she helped me carry my luggage, and then threw a big travel bag "pia" into the trunk of the taxi with one hand, and the whole car trembled.

Of the few people, I was the only one who spoke out in admiration, and her boyfriend and my boyfriend were very calm.

"What is this?" Zhang Yu said that this is a curly-haired, white young man: "Let you see her work another day." "

"What does Senior Sister Hao do?"

She laughed, "What do you think I do?" --Share, don't prompt. "

"...... Teacher? "

"Wow." Hao Tiantian shouted: "Your girlfriend is amazing, you can guess accurately." "

I was actually joking, guessed the most unlikely, I didn't expect it. Qi Xiang threw the last piece of luggage in it and closed the car cover: "That's, I don't look at anyone's." "

Teacher Hao didn't pick up his stubble: "To be precise, it's a career development trainer." "

The program is jointly developed by the Psychological Counseling Center, the Department of Social Sciences and the Department of Physical Education.

She still lives in a bachelor apartment at the school, and the outward bound training ground is just across the wall, and the equipment is five or six meters high, which looks like a row of high-voltage wires in the twilight.

"Would you like to give it a try?" We put our things down and looked at me looking at the back window, Hao Tiantian asked.

"Okay, is it dangerous?"

"It's fine with me, but the other trainers aren't there, so I can only do your protection, you two." She said to Zhang Yu and Qi Xiang: "I can only wait on the sidelines and watch." "

Hao Tiantian went to the locker room to change equipment, and Zhang Yu stepped on a row of suspended tires on the side, falling crookedly. Qi Xiang and I turned to the back smashing platform, which was an iron bench with a ladder on one side, and I was more than half a head above it, and I said, "It's not high, it's easy." "

He raised his chin at me: "Go up and try it." "

"Can you catch me?"

"Isn't this what builds trust, and if you believe me, I'll be able to catch it."

I climbed up the stairs, and the front didn't really feel very high, but as soon as I turned around, the back was empty, and the fear of weightlessness came immediately, and I asked twice:

"Are you ready?"

His voice was a little lower: "Do you believe me? "

I shuddered, took a deep breath, and made up my mind several times, until Qi Xiang laughed: "Okay, don't force it." "

I turned around: "No, no, no, it's not that I don't believe you, it's too scary." "

He said, "Oh, it's not high, it's easy." "

I crouched down and covered his mouth.

The thick sunset sun squeezed in between us, and now I was a little taller than him, and it was interesting and novel that I could look at him from above, and I could put two hands on his cheeks and caress his hard features.

Qi Xiang was very cooperative, and his expression was unmoved: "Is it fun?" "

"Hmm."

"Can you come down after enough fun?"

"I can't." I leaned forward, staggered, and kissed him on the lips.

Hao Tiantian is on summer vacation, idle is also idle, at night we generally have group activities, but there is no time to enjoy the day, she will accompany me everywhere to play, Shennan Avenue, Happy Valley, Window of the World, or take me to eat her favorite snacks, double skin milk, mango fishing, and once led me to drink the famous herbal tea, I was indeed thirsty, and saw that she drank very sweet, and also poured a big sip in one go, half a second later, back to taste, so bitter that I wanted to knock my head on the counter, and my tongue was knotted.

We went to Xiaomeisha on the weekend, except for the crowds, everything else was almost the same as the imagination of a person who I had never seen since I was a child and was full of countless YY to the sea.

It's a pity that the temperature is still a cut away from swimming in the water, so they can only turn around on the beach, and the four of them are like children, taking off their shoes to wade through the sea, chasing and fighting, and lying back on the sand to eat barbecue, drink beer, and play cards when they are tired.

Hao Tiantian and I went to buy cold drinks and came back, and heard Zhang Yu say, "...... Just two days ago, she called and said that she wanted me and Tiantian to be her godparents. "

He took out his mobile phone and handed it to Qi Xiang: "Do you want to see the photos taken when you were in 100 days?" MMS, I haven't deleted it. "

I happily accosted, "Who, who?" I'm going to see it too. Hao Tiantian slapped Zhang Yu on the arm and glared at him.

Qi Xiang took it, and a drooling baby on the screen looked at the camera with a blank look. I fell on Qi Xiang's shoulder, and we both laughed.

"It's so cute, it looks like her." Qi Xiang returned the phone to Zhang Yu.

Zhang Yu stuffed it into his trouser pocket and said to me, "It's just an old classmate." "

After playing for a while, it was getting dark, and we discussed where to eat, but before we could figure out why, suddenly a drop of water fell on my head.

"It's raining, it's raining." The rain here is not as delicate and lingering as the mausoleum, from sparse to dense step by step, it is not, it is out of control in an instant. But by the time we got to the tile, it had almost stopped.

In a moment when the rain was pouring down, the four of us ran away. I asked Qi Xiang, "Have you seen them?" "

"No, there are too many people." He helped me block the crowd of tourists next to me: "It's okay, I'll contact them later." "

"I'll call Sister Tiantian."

"What a fight." He took it and pressed it off, I held the phone, he held my hand.

I didn't turn my mind for a moment: "What are you doing?" "

"Don't fight." I couldn't see his face, and he didn't look at me. I saw Zhang Yu looking around ten meters away.

"Hey, Senior Brother Zhang is over there, Zhang--" I was about to squeeze over there, Qi Xiang sighed, and scooped me into his arms from behind.

"Don't shout what you shout." He hugged me and whispered, "Can't you just let the two of them be alone for a while, you little light bulb." "

How did that game start? This place, because it is unfamiliar, has so many possibilities, how do you know where a small street of the old days will suddenly appear, and where there will be a pool of flowing water in a chic way. There's a bookstore around the corner? Maybe. But is it possible that it suddenly opens up to be a large square?

You and these landscapes are accidental to each other, and what is inevitable, stable, and already exists is dwarfed for a moment. I was gradually soaked in this interest, so I stopped to play with a little chow chow while Qi Xiang walked alone for a while, stopping to wait in front of me, and I looked at the city behind him, and suddenly became interested in playing the role of someone else.

I took a few steps to catch up with him, and when he was about to catch up, I trotted a few paces, then slowed down again, turned around, and walked backwards with my hand in my pocket, while looking at him with a wry look: "Sir, why are you following me?" "

I think at this moment, Qi Xiang probably has the kind of subversive desire to be wrapped in strangeness, otherwise he usually wouldn't pay attention to me as naïve, and now he has a bright smile in his expression: "This young lady, the earth is round, and being followed is opposite, maybe you are following me across the world." "

"I saw a woman next to you just now, where did she go?"

"I don't know, I'm looking for it too."

"It's better to be like this, I'm familiar with this place, you can follow me."

"That's not good." He said solemnly, "She might be upset." "

"I don't ......" I can't argue, that's the subtlety, you can't speak for yourself: "She won't." "

"How do you know?"

"I just know." I walked slowly uphill, it was a long uphill climb, the moon was soft, the green trees rustled on both sides, and I asked:

"What do you like about her?"

He replied, "Clever and persistent." "

This time it was easy: "What about not liking?" "

"Too persistent."

"When did you like it?"

"Earlier than she knew."

I keep asking questions, it's not good, it's not fair, it's like having two mes at the same time, but only one him. So he asked, "What about you, talk about your boyfriend." "

"Do you want to hear me compliment him?"

"Compliment him, complain about him, give him advice, anything, he's not there anyway." When he said this, he lived like he wanted to tempt people to cheat.

"I'm not going to fall for you."

"What are you doing to me?"

"You know it yourself." It's funny, I'm eating my own vinegar: "You don't even ask my name first?" "

"Your name?"

There was a 7-Eleven convenience store across the street, and I casually said, "Eleve."

。 "

Eleve

, she is supposed to be a lonely woman in the local home, but I played it very badly, and I obviously didn't know where to turn when I got to the intersection. After looking around for a moment, I took the lead and turned to the right, enjoying that he might actually recognize the way, but he pretended to be a real lost man, and walked with me without questioning.

There was a small theater over there, and the audience was waiting at the door, and the poster read "A Tiger's Love Opinion".

The plot is very popular and very simple, a stray cat, after several adoptions, it is a symbol and a narrator, it is a **** in love, opportunists, cancer patients and couples in mid-life crisis.

It's a sharp and warm story, this cat can't be tamed, it can't be controlled, no one can stop it from leaving, but at least everyone has felt the softness and warmth of its fur at their fingertips.

Not long after we went in and sat down, the girl on the stage held the cat and asked her lover, "When did you fall in love with me?" "

As soon as she said it, I covered my face offstage, it was too familiar, the clichés in love, I couldn't run away. Qi Xiang looked at me, I smiled at him ashamedly, and he smiled, reaching out and holding my fingers. The boy on the stage replied:

"The time that belongs to it is the soil of blurred boundaries, and there is no clear boundary marker, which determines my love for you, in this line from nothing.

It is nothing more than a thumping heart at a certain moment, a deep love at a certain moment, tossing and turning at some moments, and a deep flow of the sea at some moments.

It's just that once it exists, it won't give up an inch of land, until I miss you at all times, all times. "

The chant of the female voice begins to cut in, followed by the male voice, repeating, superimposing, and intensifying. Nian Bai went down weakly, whispering, but it became the background, and this scene was about to end. The audience began to relax, and I sat in my seat and stretched my neck and waist, and turned my head to become Ele again

"My boyfriend, he never answered that question properly. "

Qi Xiang smiled: "Every time we meet, it's not very pleasant, and the first time I offended her." "

I reacted, "Huh? "

The light was faintly projected on the side of his face, and he seemed to be really talking to a stranger he met on a narrow road: "I still remember her expression at that time, she was so angry and very aggrieved, looking for a chance to compensate, but she almost injured her by mistake - just pounced on her, she was nothing, I was scared out of a cold sweat a few degrees below zero";

"Okay, the eight characters don't match, I decided to stay away from this girl in the future";

"Later, I saw her again after more than half a year, I didn't delay for a second, I recognized her, in the school's debate competition, she was in front of the teachers and students of the whole school, and the opponent was speechless, beautiful, sharp and incredible." He finally turned to look at me: "I don't think I have any other choice." "

The little couple on the stage lingered into a silhouette, the light gradually dimmed, and the staff began to exchange props back and forth.

The lights are bright again, the scenery has changed, and the tiger cat is patrolling at the lover's feet, no longer in his arms. I watched for two minutes and stood up in a panic: "Let's go, let's go." "

"Now?"

"Well, I don't want to see this story end badly."

Coming out of the small theater, it is not early, and I am ready to take a taxi back to Shenzhen C University.

"What did you just say your name was?"

"eleve

。 "

"Yes, Eleve

。 He raised our finger-interlocked hands: "Don't let your boyfriend know about tonight." "

"Of course, you don't have to tell you, girlfriend." At this point, I couldn't hold back my laughter, leaned on his shoulder, the taxi stopped slowly, I was about to step forward, he suddenly pulled me tighter, bowed his head and asked, "Would you like to go back with me?" "

He didn't have a title, he was asking me, or was he asking Eleve

？

Zhuang Ning felt that he was not ready.

But eleve

No, eleve

It's a woman I met in a strange place.,A woman who can do whatever she wants.。

On the bed in the hotel, Qi Xiang brushed my hair: "In this place, will you feel wronged?" "

He's asking me if he's out of that game.

We have been together for so long, it is not without opportunities, although there are various obstacles, such as the elders are separated by a wall, such as in the car, but really to do it, these are not big problems. But I always think that for the first time, it is better to be in a familiar place, in a relaxed environment, with a comfortable and fluffy bed.

This is a girl's hypocrisy, and he still remembers it.

"Don't ask me." I say.

Anyway, my "non-refusal" is not my own, it is eleve

Yes, it's Eleve

Want this man. I'm more relaxed when "she" is "she", "she" is an experienced woman, and there is no need to be afraid of anything.

Qi Xiang saw it, he leaned down and whispered, "I'm going to do it with my girlfriend, and the others please leave for the time being." "

I closed my eyes: "I don't. "

Without saying a word, he pushed my shoulder strap onto his arm and kissed my collarbone to the earlobe, and in a moment I started panting and pushing him.

"You like that too?" Qi Xiang's breath was also unstable: "I thought only Zhuang Ning liked it." "

He knew my body so well that he stripped me of my identity little by little, until I surrendered: "It's me, it's me!" "

Qi Xiang smiled, he got out of bed, and turned off all the lights in the room.

I was unwilling: "I'm still her, isn't it all the same?" "

He walked back and kissed me: "How can it be the same." "

Qi Xiang held my hand and placed it on his belt buckle when a bell rang in. Our clothes were on the circle chair next to us, and he scooped them up to take a look at them and sat up.

"I'll have to answer the call, soon." He patted me, "Good." "

He took a deep breath, pressed the call button, and his voice was very steady: "Hello, yes, I'm Qi Xiang." "

I put my arms around his waist and my cheek against his back, and as he spoke, the palm of his left hand gently rubbed the skin of my forearm: "I'm out of town right now...... It doesn't matter, you say...... Not so good, is it? Is there any hope? ......"

His hand stopped on my arm, and for about ten seconds there was silence in the room, and then he said, "Okay, I see...... Where, thank you so much...... Yes, it's a long way to go...... Get in touch again. "

He threw his phone to the bedside and pulled out his cigarette case to bite out one.

I didn't realize it was about me: "What's wrong with you?" "

He took my hand and then took my arm away from his body. Wearing only a pair of trousers, he stepped barefoot over the carpet and pushed open the floor-to-ceiling windows.

"Share." I was really scared: "What's wrong?" "

There was no light in the house, but outside it was a city so bright, the darkness was like diluted ink, we could see each other's expressions clearly, his lips were straight, his eyes were sharp, that was what he looked like when he was working, and he didn't usually bring it back to me.

And when I heard his question, I couldn't stretch my face when I thought about it.

"Zhuang Ning, can you explain to me why I didn't take the exam the next day?"

"......"

I didn't answer because on the one hand I was surprised that he learned about it, and on the other hand, I was a little bit of a loss, but I still felt that he was a little overreacting, and my dad was justified in blaming me so much, and he, shouldn't he at least respect my choice? Do I need this explanation?

But he was waiting, and I thought, forget it, he cared about me anyway: "I was a little uncomfortable, and then I didn't want to take the test, ha, it's okay, can I still find a job, right?" "

My brisk attitude did not appease him at all, but he was provoked by me: "You just gave up like that? Do you know how much you took in English and Politics? It adds up to more than one hundred and seventeen, and as long as the professional class plays normally the next day, there is basically no problem, and as a result, you give up like that? Because of such a little thing? "

I felt a tingling in my heart: "Why are you excited? I'm not excited myself...... It's not your exam, why are you so important? "

"Because I've seen how hard you revise up, Zhuang Ning, how desperate you are to take this test, I see it important because I know how important it is to you."

I was with Qi Xiang, there was always friction at first, there were quarrels in the middle, and there were disputes with each other, but I have never seen him like this, he can quickly control himself even if he occasionally starts a fire, and I almost have no experience in dealing with his anger: "But I really ......"

"But it's not as important as Shen Sibo, am I right?"

For the first time, I heard him say those three words. I snapped to my feet: "What are you talking about?" "

"Sometimes, I really can't do anything about you, I obviously feel that we are all moving forward, and when I look back and see that you are still standing in place, that person is really so worthy of your nostalgia? There is a question I never ask, I feel very embarrassed, but Zhuang Ning, I, Qi Xiang, which point is not as good as Shen Sibo? "

Before he said the last word, I was so angry that I wanted to pounce on him and bite him twice, trying to throw everything I could catch on his head and make you wronged me! But as soon as his voice fell, I started crying, and he asked me if he was as good as Shen Sibo, and I was so distressed that I couldn't cry well.

If things get to this point, I'm just sad and angry, and I know that I can still explain it, and I even expect Qi Xiang to coax me like usual, and I'll know later that this is just the beginning.

He really approached and handed me a wrung wet towel: "Wipe your face." "

I took it and wiped my face, I felt better, I even had an infatuation, and I would explain it later, how would he feel guilty, I decided to forgive him in advance, sniff, and took the initiative to take his hand.

He gently pressed my shoulder: "Sit down first." "

I sat back on the edge of the bed, and he sat down across from me—or more appropriately, leaning against the armrests of the circle chair. He had a few seconds of contemplation before he spoke, "I have something else I want to know." Last year, during the time I was in **, did anything happen? "

You see how stupid I am, and my first reaction is to blurt out, "How do you know?" "

He didn't answer.

Only then did I realize that I was still holding his fingers laughingly, and I let go, and my heart was cold. Qi Xiang looked at me, and his tone turned out to be calm: "I'm tired of thinking about this all the time, you say it Zhuang Ning, as long as you say it, I will accept it." "

The imbalance between demand and supply in this world is really everywhere, since there are people who urgently need to defend how far the other party has slipped away I don't listen to me, and there are people like me who really want to be asked for an explanation, and the language is destitute.

When the drama conflict reaches its peak, it is often the protagonist who is really wronged, but I, what should I do?

Tell a lie, just lie Zhuang Ning, say that you got sick, were hit by a car, and were struck by lightning. Driven by the instinct to avoid harm, it was so difficult to make up a lie, and even I thought about how to start - something called me to go that day......

But as soon as he spoke, "I don't want to say it. I was made desperate by myself: "I don't have much to say. "

It's not a stubborn or a scoundrel, I really don't know, how can I make myself less shameless, do I lie when I know what I did wrong, or do I beg him to forgive me after telling the truth?

A year and a half ago, maybe a year ago, I could have confessed and said, "That's the way it is, if I were you, I wouldn't be with myself anymore, and if you want to leave, leave."

But now what.

If I were still Zhuang Ning at that time, I wouldn't have cried so much for his words just now. But even if it were possible for me to tell him about the change in my mind little by little, that possibility would not have arisen at such a juncture.

I watched him stand up, and before he could open the door, I could finally speak, "Where are you going?" "

It sounded like he was smiling, "Do you still care about this?" "

Not long after he went out, it began to rain again, this time not only as a pour, but also on a long line.

I called his mobile phone, but no one answered several times, I went downstairs to the front desk to ask for two umbrellas, looked around for half an hour, and finally turned to the back door of the hotel, and I didn't see him.

From this side it was a safe passage, I put away my umbrella and leaned to the side, and sat on the stairs, my forehead and shoulders drenched, my jeans clung to my skin from ankle to knees, I was very weak, but I couldn't shed tears at all.

When I went back to my room, I took out the cold medicine that my mother had stuffed in my bag, took one tablet, and then went to the bathroom to dry up the wet clothes and put water in the shower. I was scrubbing the tub and thinking, he's not going to come back, isn't we're going to end there?

Half of me woke up from the cold, and the water in the bathtub was estimated to be less than 30 degrees, so I stood up and shivered all over, and took the hot water again. It was raining lightly outside, but Qi Xiang hadn't come back yet, so I groggily climbed into bed, reached out to touch my phone, and was confused before I touched it.

From the time he left until I lay in bed and fell asleep, it was about half past ten to one o'clock in the morning. Next, we might as well talk about what happened in more than two hours from the perspective of sharing.

He didn't go far, he told me afterwards, but I didn't think it was right, if I had taken the elevator up to the twentieth floor, I would have found him at the hotel's Observation Café, although he was in no mood to see the view or drink tea at the time. The waiter led him to the smoking area, but he did not light a cigarette from beginning to end.

I can't describe that little part of his mental activity, but can only summarize it in key words, disappointment, and anger, which he later said only briefly, and did not want to mention more, at least not his sadness and badly damaged self-esteem, and he did not hear it when I asked him.

Qi Xiang returned to the room at about twelve o'clock, he looked at his mobile phone, and there were several missed calls. As soon as he entered, it was quiet, dimly lit, and the coat I had put on the bed was gone.

Of course, it was in the bathroom across the wall, along with its owner, who was lying in a vat of hot water, tired and having just taken his medicine.

In fact, there are still many traces to be found, such as my bag is obviously still there, but from the moment Qi Xiang entered the room and met him quietly, he was already preconceived psychologically, that bad-tempered and willful girl, I don't know where the negative luck has gone.

You're so stubborn, he said, and it's like you can do it.

Qi Xiang stood there and called me back, but the phone started ringing in my bag. Before he went downstairs, he even pushed open the bathroom door and glanced at it, and if the door was opened even fifteen degrees, he could see my jeans hanging there.

He went to the front desk to inquire, and sure enough, the reception at the front desk was very impressed with me, the young lady, she just asked for an umbrella here, and she hasn't seen her back yet.

Qi Xiang sat in the hall and waited for a while, during this time, he gradually became agitated, the rain gradually decreased, and the water in the bathtub upstairs was slowly getting colder, and I was on the verge of sleep.

He went upstairs again, the room did not change at all, he could only dial Hao Tiantian, this girl was sleepy and dull at first, and she didn't know the words very clearly, ah? You said Xiaozhuang, no, she didn't say she wouldn't reply, I'll stay here with Zhang Yu, what's the matter? Did you quarrel? Her voice gradually became sharper, oops, what should I do, do you want me to help?

If Jiao Zhuo Fang was just a claw, at the moment when Hao Tiantian said no, it immediately turned into a row of fangs, Qi Xiang said that he could hardly remember answering what the other party was, and the person with the phone closed had already walked to the corridor and slammed into the door with his backhand.

"Bang". Counting from the time, I was completely awakened by this sound.

I lay on the bed and woke up, the dream has not stopped, this rainy night is really vast, I seem to have passed half of my life, and I am still in it.

For a moment, the rain seemed to be falling into the house, and I sniffed it, and its cool smell was just around the corner.

I rolled over. I was almost awake by this time, my eyelids were heavy, my limbs were weak, but my heart was beating faster and faster, until the other half of the bed sank in, and someone came from behind me and held me in his arms, and the clear breath of the rain seemed to fall from the sky, it was really a good rain.

"Coming back?" I asked very lightly, very lightly, not for anything else, the effect of the drug had not yet fully passed.

"Hmm." The wet part of his body was slightly cool, and the rest was very hot. I reached out to touch his face, but he held it, unable to move, and he said, "Where did you just go?" "

"I didn't go anywhere, I looked for you, didn't I find it?"

He didn't answer, he bit my ears and neck from behind, and I used my strength in my hands, I never knew I was so soft, through the layer of cotton cloth of my T-shirt, repeatedly outflanked, twisted, and then waited for him to put his free hand on my bare waist, even I felt a slight tremor in my body.

Qi Xiang stood up, I lay down with him, like an obedient little girl, raised his upper body, and then raised his arms, the T-shirt was entangled around his wrist, and immediately disappeared, he clasped my hands, unbuttoned his shirt one by one, while he lowered his head, kissed along the diagonal line from my chin to the back of my right ear.

Now under the palm of my hand are the hard muscles of Qi Xiang's youth, this is his back, this is his arms, this is his chest and lower abdomen, and he holds my hand, over the rest of his body.

Then he parted me, stroked me, kneaded and peeled me, and finally he tried to enter.

Except for the moment when he slammed to the end, I was almost deaf in pain, and I could bear it at other times. I pinched his forearm and struggled to adjust my breathing, trying not to touch the new wound in my body. And for Qi Xiang, this wound was accepting him and pushing him, he leaned down to kiss me, and suddenly reached out and pulled it, the sheet spread over his head, the darkness was overwhelming, I was besieged, crushed, grinded, and split again and again in the four sides of no light, panicked but unavoidable.

I was confused for a moment, is it this person? Who is he? I called his name, but there was no answer, from a soft probing to a hoarse, I began to push him hard, and if I didn't get a response I was about to collapse, and then he lifted the covering. In the moonlight and the cool air, both sides gasped for breath, and my face was full of cold tears.

I was able to see his face clearly, every line was familiar to me, but it seemed to have been stolen by someone, usually his eyes were not so black, his lips were not so red, I think I was also very bright at the moment, but I couldn't see it. Qi Xiang looked at me, the rhythm slowed down, he lowered his head, and my tears rubbed against his cheeks.

It wasn't dawn yet, the sky had just rained a dark red, and the two of us had a short sleep just now, so I woke up first, and I woke up with it.

"What do you want?" He asked me.

"Go to the bathroom."

He let go of me, and I took his arm to get up, and sat for a while before getting out of bed, and when we came back, we each examined the marks left on each other's bodies, and the most frightening thing was the little purple and purple moon on his forearm.

I said, "It doesn't hurt, does it?" "

"I didn't feel it at the time." Qi Xiang hugged me and sat on his lap: "What about you?" "

"It's fine."

He looked pretty bad: "That pinched me like this." "

"It must hurt, otherwise I'll try it for you." I defended: "But I've been in pain since I was a child. "

"How do I try this?" He laughed: "But if it makes you feel fair, I hurt too, you ...... tight"

I pounced on him and covered his mouth: "Go, go, let's not discuss this." "

He took my hand down: "Then discuss something, you say." "

"Were you in a hurry when you couldn't find me just now?"

"Can you ask a constructive question?" Qi Xiang replied, his attitude was quite uncooperative. He briefly told me the process before, he went downstairs to leave the number at the front desk, and asked me to call when he saw me, and then he went out to take a taxi and went straight to Shenzhen C University, and went to the train station again without seeing anyone, but there was no train to Lingcheng that night, and he even went back to the small theater where we watched the drama. But he didn't mention worry or anxiety, and he described it very objectively.

"But I couldn't find you before, I'm in a hurry, is this constructive?" I said, "Qi Xiang, I didn't take the exam, I really didn't feel well, and many people can testify to this." As for last year's Lantern Festival......"

"Last year's Lantern Festival." Qi Xiang took my words: "I am **, at that time, SARS broke out, even me, several colleagues were quarantined, some people were sent to the hospital and never came back, I saw each other's fearful expressions every day, when do people feel that everything that exists is worth cherishing?" That's just the time. "

I thought, what does he mean?

"Everything that exists, including you." He said: "Xiao Ning, we have been very happy this year, haven't we?" "

I nodded: "I'm not ...... anymore"

Qi Xiang hugged me and lay down: "You want to say, you are not Zhuang Ning a year ago?" "

I looked up, "...... How do you know? "

He laughed and put my head on his shoulder, and I took a bite on his collarbone.

The second time he entered me, it was a moment when the sky was shining, and after a long and intense scene, we slept very well on the carpet. Then came the hand-to-hand encounter before lunch, which almost exhausted my strength, and I lay down in the headless futon and kissed my back from behind: "What do you want to eat?" "

"I don't want to eat, I want to sleep."

He grabbed me by the waist and dragged me up. We chirped all the way out of the elevator, and met our colleagues in the lobby, who stopped talking, and I walked slowly forward to wait for him.

When I came out, I was sitting on the edge of a nearby flower bed, a cubic cut of marble with one side next to the steps. He stretched out his hand to me at the end of the stairs, and as soon as I touched it, I changed my mind, took it back, and smiled: "Look, is this one and a half meters high?" "

"Don't mess around."

"I'm bullying that no one here knows me." I stood up and turned my back: "Qi Xiang, are you ready to catch me?" "

A year later.

"Did you really jump? He caught it? Zeng Xiaobai turned around in front of the mirror: "Is your waist a little big?" "

"yes." I replied, "I said we, not your waist." "

"You're really fast." Suma said next to him, "I didn't even put the wine on the table. "

"Obtaining the certificate is purely temporary." I said, "Forget it, we're both lazy and busy." "

"The old man didn't object?"

"If you are against it, carry it, and carry it until when it counts."

"Zhuang Ning, you are honest." Zeng Xiaobai touched my stomach with gloves: "Are you?" Well? "

"Mess around, worry about it."

"I'm sorry." Zeng Xiaobai grinned: "We, aren't we?" A dormitory for more than four years, why haven't I seen you? "

"I'm embarrassed?" I said, "I'm a married woman, so come with me." "

When I first received Xie Duan's invitation call, I agreed to her request to be a bridesmaid, and then I called Zeng Xiaobai and Suma, and the three of us discussed the specific matters: time, transportation, where to order dresses, and so on.

I was excited, Qi Xiang sent me a text message, there is something to do in the evening, you can eat by yourself, good.

With a snap, the little flame in my heart was half extinguished. I just remembered, damn, I'm married myself, who else to be a bridesmaid.

Now I'm sitting there watching the two of them try on beautiful bridesmaid outfits, with little pink dresses, gloves of the same color and small shoulders, I am really angry, I got up and called Qi Xiang, I said, "What are you doing?" "

"I'll tell you." He took the phone away from his ear, and I heard someone shouting excitedly: "Come on, come on, Zheng Chu, I'll let you out a thunderbolt today, and kill this cup first." "Bang, bang, bang, cups and plates.

"Socializing again?"

"Not really." He asked, "Is the wedding fun?" "

"It's not started yet, Qi Xiang, I suddenly thought

......"

"Hey Xiaoqi, what are you hiding here, come here!" There was a middle-aged man's voice, which squeezed between us, and Qi Xiang smiled at the other end: "Mr. Ren, you first, I will do it immediately." Then he whispered, "Then let's do this first, and get back in touch." "

"You drink less......" It was like a knife cutting off the noise on that end, I closed the phone, and there was a sour piece in my heart.

Outside the window is the still young Lihu Lake, like a well-intentioned monster who has finally come out, beautiful and a little inappropriate, but very calm. I watched. There was a knock on the door.

"Come in, oops, wait a minute." Zeng Xiaobai was in a hurry: "Zipper, zipper." "

"It's me, Xie Duan."

Suma went to open the door, Xie Duan flashed in with the hem of the wedding dress, and locked the door with his backhand.

I turned around, and for a moment I couldn't make out that she was really beautiful, with light makeup and sparkling eyes.

"Duanduan, oops, Duandu."

She may have come at a trot, gasping a little: "I'll just work with you for a while." "

"I don't need you to accompany you, you're busy with you." Zeng Xiaobai rushed her out: "We'll accompany you in a while." "

"It's fine." Xie Duan sat on the sofa and took off his high heels one by one: "I just happened to rest." "

After speaking, she actually lay back: "Oh, I'm really tired." "

The three of us looked at each other, and then at the weary bride, who had never been so unreliable, lay there, rubbing her knuckles and rubbing the corners of her forehead.

It became quiet in the room.

I don't know how long it took. Someone came and knocked on the door: "Duanduan, Duandu? "

Listen to the voice, it's her mother.

Xie Duan held my wrist: "Say I'm not there, say I'm not there." "

The one outside paused: "Duanduan, I know you're inside." "

Zeng Xiaobai asked with a mouth shape: "What should I do?" "

Where do I know.

I can only lean down: "Oh, Duanduan, everyone is waiting for you." "

She burst into tears and rolled over.

Zeng Xiaobai went to open the door.

"Auntie." We greeted her.

"Hello, let's go over together?" She said to her daughter who was nestled on the sofa, "Duanduan, come and go to the hall with your mother, waiting for you." "

I replied, "She, she's probably a little uncomfortable." "

Teacher Li looked at me quietly, then turned his head: "Duanduan, you have to be responsible for your choice." "

Xie Duan remained motionless. The mother and daughter confronted each other like this.

Zeng Xiaobai tugged at me and said softly, "Why don't you avoid it first?" I thought so, and said, "Auntie, if you don't tell us, we'll wait outside." "

Teacher Li Yun nodded slightly, and we had already walked to the door, Xie Duan suddenly sat up: "Don't go!" "

After two seconds, her mother began to sneer: "It's like I forced you, Duanduan, don't be so ridiculous." "

We still retreated, in Xie Duan's tearful eyes. Suma was the last one, and brought the door from the outside.

"What's going on?" Zeng Xiaobai said: "Can I eavesdrop? "

But she didn't do it either, but silently followed us aside. Someone passed by in the corridor and suddenly retreated: "Senior Sister Zhuang? "

I looked up and saw something familiar, and he said, "I, I, shoot the wolf." "

"Oh, long time no see, why are you here?"

"I've come back here to develop, and there is no place for me in Lingcheng." He smiled: "I heard that you and Xiao Qi? "

"Hmm."

"Really, I didn't expect that." He asked, "Which side of the wedding are you?" "

"Bride, she's my roommate."

"Oh? What a coincidence. "

"Then why did you come?"

"Me too." The Sky Shooting Wolf smiled: "Count her half a colleague." "

Xie Duan was assigned to the community by her mother, and I can't think of how they do colleagues. I said, "Do you know the bridegroom?" "

"I can't talk about acquaintances, but when I met for the first time today, I heard that he was a middle school teacher."

"Oh, how are the people?"

"I don't know." He laughed: "How can I ask so much, after all, I don't live with him all my life - you all stand here and talk, bride?" "

"Touch-up inside." I said, "I'll go in a moment." "

When Xie Duan appeared at the wedding scene that day, she was still radiant, without a trace of crying, and her willfulness just now may be the last burst of hope. Did she hope that he would suddenly appear and take her away?

But she was disappointed.

She was destined to be disappointed, I sat in the banquet and looked at her, Uncle Shen's case was pronounced half a year ago, and he was convicted and sentenced to six years in prison. Two months later, Shen Sibo flew from Lingcheng Airport to Germany to join his aunt there. Hearing Zhuo He say that he didn't want to leave at this time, but his mother must insist, she gritted her teeth and said, what can you do with us here? Filial piety or burial? It doesn't matter if your father loses power, when you get ahead in the future, you can watch it, and everyone will forget what happened in our family.

I used to love Wu and Wu, and I couldn't help but think that Aunt Shen was a woman who didn't have much insight. When the time comes, she can still think things so clearly.

Zhuo He asked me, do you have anything you want me to convey?

I thought about it at the time, and I wished him happiness.

Zhuo and look at me. I said, don't call me hypocritical in your heart, I'm serious.

Now that I look at her, I have the same desire in my heart, part of which can be explained in big words, forgiveness, affection or something, and part, which is the secret concern of my heart - that if they are unlucky, life will punish me again.