I opened my eyes.

This is my parents' house, and it is May 2008, and this morning I am going to go to the Civil Affairs Bureau with Qi Xiang to go through the divorce procedures.

That time we were finally rescued, I lay in the hospital for a week, Shen Sibo was a little better than me, he came to see me before he was discharged from the hospital, brought me some egg rolls, said that she specially asked him to share them with me, he said that so long has passed, my dad has come out, we both almost hung up together, what else can she not let go.

But......

You don't know, Zhuang Ning. He said, "Actually, I and Duanduan ...... He didn't go any further, because Qi Xiang appeared at the door.

After Shen Sibo left, Qi Xiang sat in front of my bed: "Are you better?" "

He was like at the regular meeting on Monday, and before he left, he asked one last question, is there anything else you have to say?

"Okay."

He nodded: "Then take care of it." "That's a kind way.

Although I had been prepared, there was still a chill that slowly slid down my heart.

"My parents, please don't let them know the truth, they are old, and it is already sad to lose the third generation." He said slowly, "Let's show some affection to each other, too." "

When I first met this man, he was like that, calm and calm but also very self-seeming, far less patient and gentle to squander.

Now I look at him, as if I have returned to that moment, the moment when everything has not happened, we have not had so many noisy experiences all the way, he has not kissed me when my heart is broken, he has not rushed to pick me up in the pouring rain, he has not come to me in a crowded strange street, he has come sideways and whispered to me, "Hold on to me." "

He never asked me why I didn't try to be with him, I never fell into anxiety and comforted me in turn, I never had a shining and happy reunion for the rest of my life, and I never hugged each other when disaster came.

There has never been that painful possession, and there has never been all these years of calm and sweet togetherness.

I never said, as long as you believe, I can catch you.

"If I could explain ......"

"I'm not interested anymore."

"......"

"I came over that night, and the doctor told me the baby was gone, and you ......" He didn't finish, I know, he didn't want to embarrass himself too much - and I was sent in with Shen Sibo.

"When I met you, you were the only one in your heart, super persistent and tendonous. I want to be in love with such a girl, it must be a beautiful and terrifying thing, I have worked hard for a long time to achieve this goal, in recent years, I also feel that you have gradually fallen in love with me. "

He made a gesture to stop me from speaking, "I saw him when I took you to the Flower Garden Hotel last time, and I picked you up." I waited for you to explain, but you never had. Well, that's okay, maybe you're just catching up together, and I'm sure you still have that bit of proportion.

Until that day, I finally understood that we had been together for so many years, and it was not enough for him to appear for a moment, and even our children could not stop you from making mistakes, what else could I say. "

I'm speechless. The meaning of being speechless is sometimes not really a lack of language, it lies in an attitude, in the attitude that you want to change the state of things, but she is no longer there, the child has been lost, trust has collapsed, the perception of love has been dulled by unprovoked changes, these are irretrievable, irretrievable. So I'm speechless.

"Share." I paused for a while: "Do you regret it and hate me very much?" "

"No, no, I sympathize with you, Zhuang Ning, after so many years with someone you don't love, or don't love much, and you were forced to sacrifice your career for him, how can you not be wronged, and even ask you to face the person you love with his child, what a cruel thing......" He saw my face and sighed: "Okay, okay." He gently pressed my shoulder: "I didn't think to argue with you again, I'm sorry." "

When Qi Xiang left, he suddenly remembered: "Oh, and, if you really want to know, I'm not Niannian's father." Although it doesn't make much sense to say this now. "

"How do you ......"

"When Jiang Ling heard that you had a miscarriage, she felt very guilty and admitted to me that she had misled you. I told her it had nothing to do with it. "

After that, I moved back to live in the house, and as you can see at the beginning, I was educated by my mother every day.

And Qi Xiang, his father's old tyrant at home has relapsed, and he has been trained to be such a big person, he doesn't do things lightly, Xiao Ning is still pregnant with your child, no matter how much you quarrel with her about Jiang Ling's affairs, you can't let her drive out alone in anger - I won't settle accounts with you, and you still divorce her? I see you're going back and forth!

He just listened without saying a word.

This is still distressed his mother Qi told my mother, and my mother told me again, is there any exaggeration in this? Maybe there was, but the truth is, he didn't mention anything of me in front of his parents.

So on the contrary, the old couple came to say good things to me, Xiao Ning, you are good, don't worry too much about him, you are too young and vigorous, what is it to quarrel a few times, and there will be children in the future, if this is the case, divorce, there are few pairs in the world that can withstand our age, you say, is this the reason?

I was scared to see these two old men. After a period of time, the unit sent people to the county level to organize research, and I signed up for more than two months until I recently returned. Whoever sees me says, Zhuang Ning, why did you lose weight like this?

As for Licheng, according to my aunt, Mr. Xiao often visits Li Yun, who is still stubborn, but his temper has become very bad, and he is like two people before. The man was not punished, and a neighbor on the first floor told the police who came to investigate that Mr. Xiao did not look very happy to come down from the upstairs that day, but in this way he still patiently helped her move her old father's wheelchair out of the house, and then picked up the old man, she said, look, Mr. Xiao is such a good person, how could he lock his wife on the balcony.

Of course, these circumstantial evidence cannot be conclusive, the main thing is that there is no evidence, and the law needs evidence.

After a long time, I gradually couldn't help but wonder, was it a mistake at the time, and the incident at Duanduan was indeed an accident?

Now that I have finished grooming and gone out, Qi Xiang is waiting for me, and we drive to the Civil Affairs Bureau. Sitting on the bench and waiting, I looked at his side face, and I wanted to ask him, how is it doing?

Also, when I returned the ring, why did he ask me for an explanation for that day? I shouted to him, "Enjoy." "

He turned his face and smiled at me, "Huh? "

Seeing his relaxed smiling face, those who could say it to his back couldn't say a word.

I can't tell him that shortly after returning home from the county, I went back to the apartment with a view of the Ling River. According to the agreement, the house will be sold or kept by Qi Xiang, and then half of the market price will be discounted to me in cash.

He didn't change the locks.

I opened the door, there was no dust on the floor, there was a faint smell of plants in the room, and there was a slight smell of tobacco, what a spiritual thing the house was, where people lived for a long time, the breath was always soft, like a domesticated animal, and everywhere was gentle.

He didn't seem to leave. My heart was beating fast, if he would come back later and find me coming...... At this moment, there was a sudden click in the bedroom.

"Qi Xiang, is that you?"

The bedroom door is only opened by a crack, and from here you can see a line of interior reflected in the coat mirror, and Qi Xiang is standing far away facing the balcony. He didn't answer me.

We were silent, and I felt as if someone had put an arm in my mouth and pinched my heart down my throat: "Qi Xiang, I have something to say to you." "

He acquiesced, so I continued: "I was tidying up my old stuff at home yesterday, and guess what I found?" "

He still had his back to me and didn't speak.

"The exam review materials you gave me before." I said, hating the poverty and lack of imagination of language, how to describe to him how I sat in the middle of a pile of old papers, held them in my arms, flipped through the pages, rubbed and kissed the handwriting he left on them—these full and vivid emotions, how pretentious it would be to appeal to the mouth, so I could only whisper: "I miss you so much." "

Qi Xiang didn't react at all. It's a good thing, if he really turns around, I won't be able to talk anymore.

"Do you still think I don't love you? I ......" I exhaled and said slowly, "There have been many times when I have walked this way when I get off work, what will I do for you at night?" When they all came to the intersection, they suddenly remembered, so they had to turn around and go back. I went shopping and liked a tie, and after buying it, I remembered that no one could give it. When you encounter something happy or unhappy, I want to tell you right away......"

Of course, you can also say that this is habit, not love. But I have never regretted marrying you, I never feel unwilling or afraid to live with you for the rest of my life, I am always willing to stay with you, if you want to say that this is not, I don't know what else can be replaced. "

He didn't move. After a moment of stalemate, I pushed the door open, only to find that it was one of his coats, hanging on a hanger, and then I pondered it carefully, and it was the sound of the clock on the wall. Although I thought it was actually quite humorous, I was still disappointed.

Placing the key on the coffee table, I brought the door from the outside, and the moment the deadbolt slid into the hole, I seemed to hear a sound in the room.

A staff member stood at the door of the registration office, knocked on the door panel, and said, "Everyone, we are almost at the end of the day, and we will handle the last pair in the morning." "

The complaint immediately felt like the fur that had been passed by the static current, and the uproar suddenly began: "What's the matter, we have an appointment!" "

"What are your efficiency?"

Qi Xiang looked back, and then said to me: "Zhuang Ning, are you very lucky, we just caught up." "

He said it all. "Each other, each other." I got up, stood up and patted my skirt: "Go in." "

It was at this time.

A pair of lovers ran up to us panting, both of them were in their twenties, very young, very green, the girl looked very well-behaved, and was held by the boy, who asked me a little shyly: "Sister, are you also here to get married?" "

"......" I glanced at Qi Xiang: "What's the matter?" "

"That's right." The boy scratched his head: "If you're not in a hurry, can you let us go first?" "

Qi Xiang smiled and said, "Then are you in a hurry?" "

The child thought for a while: "It's okay to tell you, her mother doesn't agree, let's decide to cut it first, this morning she finally ran out while the family was not paying attention, and she might be arrested in the afternoon, let's tie it up first." "

Everyone around laughed. Despite my heavy heart, I couldn't hold back: "Is this a feudal society?" "

"Do us a favor, okay?"

I looked at Qi Xiang, he looked at me too, and then he said, "I'm willing to help with this." "

I said, "I don't have a problem either." "

"Thank you, thank you, sir, thank you, sister."

When the staff brought them in, they said: "It's not easy to see how many people can get married, and there are still people who are in a hurry to get divorced, really." "

At the door of the Civil Affairs Bureau, Qi Xiang asked me where I was going, and he gave it to me, and I said I didn't have to, let's make an appointment another day. Then I took a taxi and drove it as a formula and came home and met Aunt Shen, who handed me a postcard from Shen Sibo.

I emailed Shen Sibo in the evening, and he replied to me quickly.

I lived a peaceful life again, he said in the letter, I hope you are the same, before I came back this time, I didn't expect that one day we could communicate like friends, no matter what happened, Zhuang Ning, your friendship is a very important thing for me.

I sat cross-legged in my chair and watched him go on, and he told me that the story of him and Xie Duan was not as smooth sailing as I thought.

On New Year's Day in 03, his parents invited Mr. Li Yun to dinner, which was not a pleasant meeting. Shen Sibo didn't elaborate, just said that his mother inadvertently said something that stabbed Teacher Li's self-esteem, Li Yun didn't have a seizure on the spot, and then said to his daughter, you either have a relationship with him, or watch me get angry to death, we have lived so many years in poverty and clean, and we can't let people say that in order to climb the power and attach the nobles, we put our daughter together and send it to other people's homes.

Xie Duan was simply embarrassed, and Shen Sibo couldn't think about it after hearing it, so he could only continue to communicate under pressure, and it was inevitable that there would be a dispute in his heart--he gave up his childhood sweetheart for her, she gave up his best friend for him, and even Zeng Xiaobai could say about her, Duanduan, how can you do this--Could it be that if they all think so, can't the other party tolerate it and understand it a little more?

Love really can't stand such a mutual pursuit, the longest cold war occurred before the Lantern Festival, Xie Duan returned to school early and called Shen Sibo.

We had a hunch that his relationship might not last long, and that it would be impossible to disobey anyone, not her mother.

I can now imagine that the two of them in the locker room of the stadium might not have gotten that far if it weren't for the desperate distress.

Shen Sibo wrote at the end of the email, So, what you said in the car last time, forget it, without that phone, we may not be able to go on forever, don't let it trap you, I wish you happiness.

Jiang Ling called me and said that before she left, she wanted to ask me to go back to L for a big turn.

At this time, the weather has begun to get hot, L big is like a lively beach, Jiang Ling said: "I don't even know this place anymore, when I first entered this school ten years ago, everyone was still using BP machines." "

I nodded: "At that time, the IC phone downstairs was in short supply. "

"The Industrial Revolution put stockings on women workers in Britain, and the Information Revolution gave poor students access to mobile phones and laptops." She smiled: "The children are so happy now. "

"It's also very stressful, and it's hard to find a job."

"Then I'm willing to go back." She said: "It's good to be young, and it's also energetic to fall in love." "

I had a hunch that she was going to say something, and sure enough, she looked at me: "Qi Xiang told you no, I chased him back then." "

"Really?"

"The first time I saw him, in the exhibition hall of the high school, he was waiting there, thinking that he was the only one, idle and bored, jumping up and down to reach the door frame over and over again, as boys often do, practicing basketball. He was so young and very energetic, and when he turned around and saw me, do you know how he reacted? "

"Blushing?"

"No, no, he clapped his hands, nothing was the same, and walked out."

"Hahaha."

"Later, we met, I always followed him, and he didn't hate me, and slowly we got together." She restrained her smile and said: "But he has always been faint, in fact, I am quite unwilling, and then I was going abroad in my senior year, and he told me that his parents were not in good health, and it was impossible for him to go out, and I thought that as long as he forced even once, I would not go anywhere, but he didn't." "

She turned her face: "Look, when I know that he has been chasing you for so long, so persistent, how can I be willing?" "

I nodded. She continued: "Niannian's birthday is actually the end of August, I was two months pregnant when I arrived in Shenzhen, his father is a Chinese-American, I won't tell you which one, I'm afraid of scaring you." "

I laughed, she was so honest, it was so cute.

"I entrusted him to you that day, it was indeed an urgent matter, and I didn't think too much about it, until Nian Nian asked on the phone, saying that you asked about his birthday, and I thought that you might have misunderstood. Herein lies the problem. She said: "I actually feel a little happy in my heart, of course, this is a fact that is too easy to debunk, I didn't want anything, and I didn't know that you were pregnant." "

"Qi Xiang must have told you too, that has nothing to do with this matter."

"Yes, but I'm sorry I couldn't control my unwillingness anyway."

I wanted to tell her that she didn't really have anything to be discouraged about, and that the first time I saw him was on an October night, when the temperature was less than ten degrees, and he watched her downstairs all night. Is it cold?

But forget it, I'm a selfish woman: "I've had too." "

"Really?"

The gymnasium was in front of me, and I accompanied Jiang Ling around it, and the doorman didn't look like students, so he came out and asked, "Which one are you looking for?" "

"Master, we are students who graduated from this school, can we go in and have a visit?"

"No, you have to have a student ID, and now it's strictly controlled." The doorman said: "This place is empty, there is no one, and it is easy to have public security incidents." "

"Really?" Jiang Ling asked, "What happened?" "

"A student was stabbed to death in it." The master is telling a ghost story: "The case has not been solved yet, and there are two children who are playing by the swimming pool and one of them falls to his death, and there is a boy who is ...... in the dressing room on the first floor."

"That's not a case, master." I couldn't help but say, "People are what you want me to do." "

"You know that, too." The doorman looked at me: "Yes, but someone reported it, no matter what." "

"Who's so boring." Jiang Ling asked.

"Who knows, a boy."

My heart jumped: "What? Are you sure? "

"I'm telling you, girl, I was in the security office at the time, and I answered the phone, can I be mistaken? It's a male voice, I'm sure. "

"Is that the only one? Has anyone else called again? "

"No, that's it."

End

Three months later, I read in the newspaper that Xie Duan's husband was under a pseudonym, saying that he was imprisoned on suspicion of forcing a woman. I recognized the photo with the black bar for a long time, and I was sure that it was this person.

I was in the lobby of the office, waiting for Qi Xiang to watch "Kung Fu Panda" together, when suddenly someone behind me patted me: "Chairman Zhuang." "

I looked back, Wu Qian, there was his Wu Qian everywhere.

"What are you doing here?"

"I'm talking to your husband." He smiled and said, "Chairman Zhuang, why are you so nervous, don't worry, I will keep your affairs secret." "

"What's the matter with me?"

He leaned over: "Do you have to let me say it clearly?" Gymnasium. "

I glared at him, and suddenly I understood, "It's you, you followed me to the gymnasium, thinking I was in there with someone?" Just call the security department and report it? "

I was groggy and thinking about it, and I vaguely remembered that I had a call, and now that I think about it, I'm afraid it was my will, and I finally didn't dial that number.

Wu Qian stared at me, of course he was puzzled: "It's not you in there?" Then he raised an eyebrow: "Well, it's not you." "

I got up: "Do you think that if you grab my handle, you can even use this to threaten you in the future?" "

Probably because my face was terrible, Wu Qian was a little flustered: "Forget it, a misunderstanding, I ......"

Qi Xiang came out of the elevator at this time, and when he saw this, he quickly approached and separated me from Wu Qian: "Mr. Wu, please respect yourself." "

"Mr. Qi, misunderstanding, I'm here to find you......"

"If it's that lawsuit." Qi Xiang lowered his voice: "My personal opinion is to persuade you to turn yourself in, commercial bribery is not a felony, and your situation can probably be controlled within three years." "

Wu Qian's face was ashen, and he sat down, I glared at him fiercely, and then Qi Xiang took me away.

After I came out of the Civil Affairs Bureau that day, I didn't make another appointment, and he didn't make another appointment, and I put the divorce agreement in a drawer, and no one moved it.

I wrote him an email detailing the past and present life of the incident.

Do you remember that pair of assistants who hurt me in Shanghai that year? I wrote in the email that I forgave unrelated strangers, but not my former best friend, and I thought I had hurt them, hurt both of them, and no matter how beautiful the reason, it could not make up for the loss of humanity in that moment.

After sending it out, I waited patiently. After work that day, I saw the familiar silver Honda at the door of the unit.

On the way, I told Qi Xiang what happened, and I went to the door of the movie theater: "Can you add two more years to his sentence?" "

"Forget it, he'll be punished." Qi Xiang went to line up to buy tickets, I was holding his suit, his mobile phone rang in his pocket, I saw that there were too many people, so I picked it up first: "Hey." "

"Zhuang Ning, right?"

"Who are you?"

"You know, guess."

I took my phone a little farther away, and the area code on the screen came from Licheng: "...... Shoot the wolf? "

"Really smart, is Xiao Qi here?"

"Here, in line, you wait a minute."

"Oh, let's talk to you, it's fine."

"I'll ask you something."

"You say."

"Xie Duan's husband, is it planted?"

He was silent for two seconds: "He deserves it." "

"Is what is written in the newspaper true?"

"What you believe is true."

His words were very flawed and suspicious.

"I guess he's so cautious probably doesn't know that the girl is under fourteen."

The Sky Shooting Wolf laughed after a while: "This person wants to take advantage of the loopholes of the law, and naturally others will punish him in the same way." "

"That is, of course, the best punishment for a hypocrite." I said, "I've seen the look you look at Xie Duan at the wedding, Punisher, isn't it you?" "

He paused and smiled slyly: "Lawyer Zhuang, you have no evidence. "

"Rest assured, I'm on the Punisher's side. I don't care about the rest. As I spoke, I took out my glasses and put them on, Qi Xiang was passing through the crowd, and when he saw me, his expression moved slightly, and there was no smile on his face, but it was clearly in his eyes.

I smiled back at him and closed my phone.

Yes, that's already another story.