At the end of July, a typhoon hit Shanghai.

I watched the rain marks on the window pane, gradually forgetting to be reserved, and unrestrained into a dripping water curtain.

No amount of majesty could reach me, I yawned, rolled over and thought happily, God bless those who are running in the rain, and I, I need to sleep a little longer.

I had insomnia last night, and I couldn't sleep in the morning when I couldn't wake up at night, so I just got used to everything.

It's only eight o'clock on the weekend morning, but someone comes to knock on the door, and the little monk knocks on the wooden fish, light, but endlessly.

I went over and unscrewed the lock, and I didn't see anyone turning around and walking back.

"Sister, let's go, go shopping?!"

I staggered and fell back on the bed: "Miss, it's raining." "

"It's okay, I've looked at the forecast, the showers will clear today, and the sun will come out in a while!"

"I don't go out of ten suns."

"Really?"

I clutched the blanket and shook my head.

She turned her face: "Then you are miserable, I am going to sue my parents!" "

"Go, go, don't send it."

She paced to the door and said very angrily, "I, I OVERHEARD, SOMEONE KISSED SOMEONE!" Oh, it's a good secret, I'm not interested in knowing the details, but my parents, and ...... Two uncles......"

She couldn't continue, because my hair was messy and I screamed at her: "Little KGB! Don't talk nonsense! "

"Is it a real felling, a real felling?" She tilted her chin at me: "Thick, thick." "

I thought about it for a moment, and without saying a word, I began to change my clothes, and half of the change beckoned to her: "You come here." "

"Why?"

"Come here." I was very sad and said, "I can't deduct it, do me a favor." "

The little girl saw that I had given up my stubborn resistance, so she came upside down: "None of us will tell my mother...... Yes! "

She screamed because I pounced on her and covered her with the quilt: "Grow, threaten me - don't move, pinch me obediently." "

She rolled all over the bed: "Help! Help me! Zhuang, Zhuang Ning followed Qi...... Ah! Follow Qi, Brother Qi...... Oops, oops! "

I didn't notice that the shoulder strap slipped down like crazy, and I was just about to drill the sheet to catch her when I heard a sound, and when I looked up, the person in my sister's mouth was standing at the door.

He was obviously stunned at first, and then he couldn't cry or laugh, but there was something else, otherwise these two emotions would probably not be enough to make him stand there and not move.

I still grabbed the quilt with one hand, glaring at him like a string, yes I wear very little, at least my shoulders are all outside, it's okay to be erotic, erotic and idiotic, it's more terrible.

"Extinguish, extinguish, help!" Great-sister weakly stretched out a hand from the sheet and swiped it in the air.

Qi Xiang took a step back, his face turned away, and his voice was very calm, but it was surprisingly slow, and it seemed that these two sentences also had to be considered: "Breakfast is cold, you move quickly." "

Younger Brother Zeng was very happy that morning, because Qi Xiang took an hour longer than usual to defeat him, and he probably felt that victory was finally out of reach, although he was only winking at him for now.

When it was close to noon, the sky was really clear, and my sister Zeng said, "Mom, I'm going to Xinhua Bookstore." "

Her mother was playing mahjong and said casually: "Wait for your dad to come back and drive you." "

"No, I have my sister with me."

Mrs. Zeng glanced at me, and when Sister Zeng jumped out first, when I changed my shoes, she left a group of friends and said behind me: "Xiao Ning, I believe you, if she has anything, you can call me and tell me." "

There were a lot of people on the subway, and I said to my great-sister: "Don't take it as an example, I'm busy, I don't have time to accompany you." "

She put her arm on my arm, got closer, and exchanged little secret gestures to tell me, "Well, I'm ready this time, I've got it all." "

"What?"

"That's it."

"What?"

She moved away and told me with her mouth, flicking her tongue, opening her mouth into an O shape again, repeating, T-AOT-AO.

I quickly pressed her head down and looked around, but no one noticed: "You, you, you're too ......"

"What does it matter?" She smiled: "Where are you and Brother Qi?" Would you like one? I bought the strawberry-flavored one. "

I fainted: "I--follow--him--"

"Alright, alright." She waved her hand, indicating that she was not interested in listening to rotten adults like us, so don't waste each other's time: "I may be a little late for the evening, do you have a place to go?" "

"How late? You make it clear. "

"I don't know."

"I'll wait for you until five o'clock at most, and if you don't come, I'll go back by myself."

She muttered, dissatisfied: "So early? "

I ignored her. I was very conflicted, what she wanted to do, confused and wrong, her mother couldn't stop her. It's her own life, and I don't encourage it, but it's best not to interfere either.

But her mother said she was only fifteen years old. She trusts me and calls me my sister.

I'm struggling.

When she arrived at the station, she couldn't wait to rush down first.

I watched as the crowd slowly poured towards the door, and a seat was empty, and I went over and sat down, and the bell rang for the door to close, and the green-haired monster was pulling her away.

I brushed the ground to my feet and ran out.

The subway door closed behind me, almost clinging to the corner of my clothes.

I followed them from afar, while despising myself in my heart, look at you look at you Zhuang Ning, are you ashamed? Are you like an aunt from the neighborhood committee? You salted egg superman, you?

As soon as I thought so, my pace slowed down, and I looked around, and said to another self, who said that, I just got off the subway and went shopping, Shanghai is opened by your family? You will take care of me wherever I go.

Cut.

Hum.

In this way, I fought for a long time, until I found an important problem-not only did I lose people, but I also lost my way.

Speaking of which, it's not a big deal, the signs are everywhere, I have a normal IQ, I speak clearly, there must be no big problem when I touch the subway station, and I can take a taxi if I can't touch it.

But what happened next proved that life treats me really not ordinarily kindly.

It didn't stall the vehicle and crash into the sidewalk, and it didn't let the building next to me suddenly topple over.

It just made me realize in the next minute, the wallet was not strapped, and the glasses were not strapped. Called Luo Ting for help, she said, huh? Make no mistake, I'm on a business trip.

Then it didn't take long for it to start raining, and the rain was out of control for tens of seconds.

I started running two more steps, and then I thought, whatever it goes, girl, I still have a change in my pocket, and I'm going to find the next stop on foot, and you have the ability to show me the knife, and you have the ability to show me the knife horizontally.

I walked forward like this, and if there was an eaves to avoid, I avoided it.

The whole world that could be grasped by the eye was only two meters in radius, and the rest of it was chaotic, and the sky was dark.

In this dark moment, I don't know how to liquidate the first half of my life, I only feel that the memories are full of unwillingness, the disgrace of fate, I think on the side of gloom, give me such a chance to self-pity, God really treats me well.

In front of a certain shop, there is an old beggar with limited mobility, and there are a few coins in front of him. I went over and squatted down and discussed with him: "Uncle, I want to take a car, I'll give you five yuan, can you find me three?" "

He looked up at me, who was drenched in soup, and before he could say a word, there was a sound of brakes behind him, the sound of the door opening and closing, and then someone shouted from afar:

"Zhuang Ning!"

I thought I probably heard it wrong, so I ignored it, and the uncle spoke:

"Little girl, I call you."

I said, "No." "

Before he could finish speaking, the man had already taken a few steps behind me, and as soon as I turned my head, the tip of my nose almost rubbed against his trousers. I looked up and was dizzy.

The young man in front of him was slender, his hair was wet with a layer of water droplets, he took my arm in one hand, and pulled me up without much effort: "As for it, Zhuang Ning? "

In the back seat of the taxi, Qi Xiang wiped the rain from his face with his hands and did not say a word.

I tugged at my neckline to keep it from sticking to my body: "How did you get here?" "

"Luo Ting called me and asked me if I knew Zhuang Ning, saying that you got lost and didn't bring your wallet, please let me save you."

"...... I called her. "

The master answered in the driver's seat: "You don't know, I took him along the subway entrance to find you a few streets, tsk, little girl, you are so blessed." "

I muttered, "Thank you." "

"Why didn't you call me?"

I deleted your number, big brother.

"I can find it, I can find it as soon as the rain stops, I have a good sense of direction."

He looked at me, paused and said, "If you can, are you cold?" "

I shook my head.

"Trouble your master, go back the way you came."

"Hey, don't go home, I have to wait for Zeng Xiaomei." I'm going to cut out the more adult part and get it to a simple point.

After listening to this, Qi Xiang didn't express any opinion, just nodded: "I'm more curious, how did you get lost." "

"...... Don't you care - where are we going? "

"Find a place." He carried the soaked fabric on my shoulder: "Dry it." "

"1403。" Qi Xiang looked at the room key card in his hand and reached out to press the elevator button.

I retreated to the door: "No, I'll find a McDonald's." "

"Don't be willful, you'll catch a cold."

I looked at him, he looked at me, and sighed.

"If you're not at ease." He handed me the key: "You go in by yourself, I'll wait for you in the hall." "

As soon as he said this, I immediately stopped going, he came out without an umbrella, and it was raining, and it was too much to ask him to sit here and wait for me for a few hours.

"I'm not worried."

"That's good." He didn't say anything more.

When we were in the elevator, I asked, "I didn't see you go to the front desk, where did you get the key?" "

"This is a hotel owned by Bank Z."

"What does that have to do with you?"

He smiled helplessly: "Zhuang Ning, you must emphasize so anytime and anywhere, you don't know anything about me?" "

"？ What did you say? "

"Nothing."

There is a dryer in the bathroom, and the summer clothes dry very quickly, and I wash my hair and take a shower and get dressed, and it only takes half an hour before and after. I unscrewed the lock, and it clicked, which was very noticeable.

I walked out in a daze, but Qi Xiang didn't hear anything, and when he got up, he said to me: "There is medicine and hot water on the writing desk, I just went down to buy it, you can take half a tablet to prevent colds." "

I was suddenly a little moved, this man looks very self-conscious, it turns out that he can also be careful and proper.

As a result, in order to alleviate this uncomfortable emotion, I did a stupid thing - I wanted to make a joke, but as soon as the words came out, they changed, and the tone at the end of the sentence was raised, and it sounded suspicious and wary for some reason: "This medicine is fine, right?" "

Qi Xiang stopped at the bathroom door: "What do you mean?" "

Indeed, this may be associated with social news such as males with ill intentions drugging single women in an attempt to do evil.

This time he was really a little annoyed: "Zhuang Ning, do you have paranoia about being killed?" "

"That's not what I meant." I said wryly.

"I don't care what you mean." He said coldly: "Do you like to eat or not?" "

Then he closed the door.

I finished taking the medicine and turned on the TV to watch it, while worrying that a naked man would come out later.

Not really, he came out of the bathroom neatly dressed. Ignore me and take the remote control over and change the channel.

I didn't sleep well last night, and I tossed again, and now I lie there, I can't help but feel sleepy, and I asked in a daze before the drowsiness hits: "What time is it?" "

I didn't hear his answer, and I fell asleep.

I have been so peaceful, calm, sweet and soft for a long time, and my sleep has recently been a simple house that is sloppy and sloppy and does not protect myself from the wind and rain, but now it has become a gentle country for me alone.

When I was about to wake up, I listened in a daze, the room was very quiet, and the only sound was the slight humming of the air conditioner when it was changed. There was a slight warmth on my forehead, and I squinted my eyes to see that between the two heavy curtains, a line of bright gold was reaching in front of me, and I tilted my head slightly, and it disappeared again.

The room was not lit, and it was soft and dark, not thorough, just right to make people sleepy.

Qi Xiang leaned on the other bed and watched TV, the characters on the screen were full of expressions, but there was no voice, and the mouths were closed in vain, which was very funny.

"Do you understand? Such. I asked, touching my phone and holding it up to my eyes, just after four o'clock.

He didn't turn his head, and turned up the volume: "It's okay, I'll buy a disc and watch it again when I go back." "

"Pretty huh?"

"Not bad."

There was a woman's scream on the TV, I twisted my eyebrows, kicked off the blanket and got up to go to the bathroom, and took a closer look at it when I passed by, it was a very wonderful old mystery film, dubbed, no subtitles, and it was hard for him to stick to it until now.

I turned my head to look, Qi Xiang was very engaged, I stopped, looked at the screen with a sincere expression and said, "I'll tell you, the murderer is this reporter." "

He leaned over and glanced at me, and I smiled and went into the bathroom.

I sat down on the toilet lid and checked myself, and I was completely sure. Indeed, when I woke up, I didn't even change my sleeping position except for an extra thin blanket. I stroked my hair and thought, this man, probably, is not so bad.

Thinking so, he knocked on the door outside.

"What are you !! doing?"

"Your phone is ringing, miss."

"......" unscrewed the door, and my phone shook in front of my eyes, and I looked impatient as I supported the door frame.

"Thank you." I immediately lost my breath when I saw him like this, so I took it and took a look, my great-sister's.

Pressing the answer button, I crackled and said, "Yo, you still know how to call me, it's sweet, right?" I didn't wait for you a long time ago, I went back a long time ago......"

She interrupted me: "Sister, I'm sick to death, woo. "

I froze, "What's wrong?" "

She snorted vigorously and spoke with a bit of a big tongue: "My head, dizzy." "

"Are you drunk?" Oops, this unconscious little girl.

"Not ......"

I waited for her to say.

"I, I ate a little, a little ......" she slurred and slurred.

I held my breath and already felt that something was wrong: "What did you eat?" "

"Uh......" she sounded like she was going to vomit.

"Don't throw up! I'm going to spit it out when I'm done! What did you eat! I spoke sharply, the great-sister on the other end couldn't see it, but Qi Xiang stood still and looked back at me.

"A little, a little, medicine." The last word she said was like a gossamer.

"Holy!" I didn't realize I was saying foul language: "What medicine, where are you!" "

"I'm here, woo, I'm ......" she trembled over there, crying, "Sister, don't tell my mother." "

I was holding my phone, my lips were trembling, and I regretted it very, very much at the moment, I didn't stop her.

A hand took the phone from my hand, and I looked up and grabbed my shoulder, signaling me to calm down.

"It's okay, you now, concentrate, tell me where you are? ...... Okay, I know...... Do you hear clearly, stay there and don't move, drink plenty of water, lock the door tightly, don't open the door to anyone until we arrive, if there is any situation, Zhuang Ning will call, understand? Very good, good girl. "He cut off the call, shoved the phone back into my hand, patted me, and then he went to call the front desk to call for a taxi.

And I stood there and watched him, slowly, calmly flowing back to him.

We found Sister Zeng in the women's bathroom of a bar called "do it", and in order not to make Qi Xiang look like a pervert, I asked him to stand behind me, and as soon as I knocked on the door, the little girl was hysterically shouting inside: "Get out!" Get out of here! "

"It's me, open the door."

I heard her frantically unlocking, and about ten seconds later she opened the door and hugged me: "Woo, sister, I'm scared to death." "

I patted her and saw that she was okay: "Let's go, let's go first." "

Just then, the green-haired monster pushed the door out of the box next to it, and saw us going around in a circle and was about to go back.

I shouted, "Oh, it's him, it's him." "

The green-haired monster slipped faster, but it was still a step late, his hand twisting the box door was held down by Qi Xiang, the latter smiled slightly, his expression was slightly different from usual, and he was joking again: "I have something to ask you, you run so fast, what should I do?" "

"Why?" The boy was fierce: "Who are you...... Ouch! "

Qi Xiang was in the air and threw his coat over: "Go out and wait for me." "

Inside, it's a cold street with ancient trees. My great-sister sat on the stairs at the door, looking like she was going to vomit again, and when I patted her on the back, she couldn't vomit anything.

"It's better now." "At first my heart was beating so fast and I was sweating a lot," she said. "

I replied angrily, "You deserve it." "

She held her head and was silent for a while: "Sister, I want to drink milk." "

"Would it be okay for you to drink Yunnan Baiyao?" I said that, I walked to the convenience store across the street and bought a few boxes of drinks. When I inserted the straw and handed it to my great-sister, there was a knock on the door behind us, and Qi Xiang walked down the steps to us.

"Hey." I threw him a bottle of water: "It's fast." "

"What do you think?"

"It's not too heavy, is it? I don't want to get involved in a criminal case. "

Great-sister also looked back at him.

He unscrewed the cap: "I didn't have time. "

"Huh? Slipped? "

"He said without doing anything, amphetamines, and the dose is very small. Not a big problem. "

It's a term that's familiar to me: "What is it?" "

"Haven't heard of it? Add a prefix you must have heard, ******, commonly known as **. He looked at my shocked face: "Of course it's not, this is an ordinary medicine, and there are many Western medicines, and you may have taken them." "

"Shouldn't this drug be strictly regulated? Where did he come from? "

Sister Zeng weakly replied: "His family has a small pharmaceutical factory. "

Qi Xiang nodded: "The latest development of a weight loss capsule has this ingredient in it." "

"...... Really make use of resources. I said, "What is this called, I can't stand it." I almost got scared out of the problem, taking drugs, selling drugs, I think this is if I run into a gang...... Sister, I'm not married yet, am I wronged? "

"Injustice." She obediently agreed.

I was very satisfied, but she added: "Brother Qi, did you hear it?" My sister said she wasn't married yet. "

Enjoy it all and don't speak.

"Sister Zeng, are you in good spirits again?"

"No, no." She hurriedly waved her hand: "I'm dizzy, I'm going to vomit, I'm going to vomit." "

Sister Zeng didn't tell a lie, she was fine, but her little face was still pale along the way.

The result of our discussion was to be sympathetic to the fragility and kindness of motherhood, and not to let her go back to scare her mother for the time being. So Qi Xiang called Zeng's house and said that he had received us and invited us to dinner.

Nothing was eaten. My great-sister was sick to her stomach when she smelled the food, and we could only have a glass of juice per person, slowly shaking on the road.

"Is it that there are too many high-rise buildings in Shanghai, blocking the wind?" I fanned the wind with my hands, and I didn't have anything to say.

Qi Xiang paused: "Homesick?" "

"What's the matter, I haven't been out of the mausoleum much since I was a child, and I don't know how happy I am to leave." I turned to him and said, "Do you like it there?" "

"I can't talk about whether I like it or not." He thought for a moment and said, "To be exact, it's a preference without a choice. "

"I don't love it at all." I don't know who I'm angry with: "I wish I could stay away from it." "

Before Qi Xiang answered, Zeng's sister said sadly: "I speak Chinese, I don't understand." "

I realized that we were speaking the dialect of Lingcheng, and the quiet appearance of that city appeared in front of my eyes, the morning light, the twilight, the Linghe River, home and the road to be walked every day. How did these views offend me? Between me and it, I don't know who has failed whom, and I have wronged it and myself.

There is a Western restaurant on the street, floor-to-ceiling glass, and a young man on a white sofa helps his female companion cut steak and hands it back to her, smiling warmly and with clear eyebrows. I took a look, and my great-sister said next to me, "Wow, that's so gentle." "

"Huh."

"Sister, are you hungry?"

"It's fine."

"Shall we go to dinner later?"

"Okay."

I cooperated with her questions and answers, and I even felt the opening and closing of my lips, squeezing out one word at a time, full of shape but lifeless. It seems as if my mind has just slipped on a clip and I still haven't been able to get up.

I was still listening to the conversation between the two of them. The former is mischievous and the latter is teasing.

"Brother Qi, are you really in for a treat? Then you're welcome. "

"Your sister Zhuang saved me a plate today, yes, you must not be polite."

I listened, but I didn't know what they were talking about. I was still stunned until I reached the intersection, the green light was on, and there was no one around, I whispered: "A person I know, he also ......"

He is also so gentle, he likes someone else, the girl in the class, Zhuo He said, they have been together for half a year.

I thought that the pain that had been suppressed was violently attacked.

You've had a moment in a while when your nerves seem to be cut and you don't know where you're or what you're doing. Later, my sister said that she had already walked to the other side, and when she turned around, she found me still standing there.

She went on to say, "You are like a ghost, and all of a sudden, your eyes are gone."

She looked at me in confusion across a stream of traffic, then turned around and paused for two seconds, then he walked back, took my hand, leaned over and said a few words to me.

Sister, you're like a little kid - that's how she described it - obediently being led over by Brother Qi, I'm stupid, what did he say?

Go, there are so many people, I can't hear clearly.

Of course I didn't tell the truth, really, I was embarrassed to tell it.

At that time, there were many people and cars. His voice was clear.

He said, "Hold on to me."

I woke up quickly, and it was too unsightly to be entangled in the middle of the road, and as soon as I reached the opposite side, I broke away: "Thank you, Senior Brother Qi." "

My great-sister looked at me with a smile, probably thinking that this sister was really hypocritical.

Qi Xiang didn't have an embarrassed look: "You're welcome." "

"You don't exist when I do, really." Sister Zeng said that it didn't look like she had just been drugged, but she was shrewd.

I walked in front of her: "Don't talk nonsense. "

"I don't." She was dissatisfied: "Sister, you see I will tell you everything. "

When she said this, I remembered: "By the way, you and him, do you have ......?"

Sister Zeng shook her head and said that the green-haired monster classmate came up to kiss her, asked her to take the pill, and said that it would be higher for a while, but she went to the high bathroom, and we all know the rest of the matter.

She didn't shy away from sharing it at all, and her voice was not low, and I breathed a sigh of relief and felt blushing again.

"Actually, I like him a lot." She sighed old-fashionedly: "But he is too much, he doesn't love me, he just loves my body." "

I don't know whether to cover her mouth or Qi Xiang's ears first: "Miss, you should be restrained. "

"Hmph."

I hesitated, but decided to hate it again, and to be a preacher: "Some things are better to share with the people you love, it's wonderful." "

She muttered, and suddenly asked, "Then are you with the person you love?" "

I was still brewing for ten years and a hundred years of educating people, and I was suddenly interrupted by her: "Huh? "

"Your first kiss?" The little girl winked at me and winked at me.

The party is next to her, and she is mindful. I should be grateful that this little girl of ego is willing to waste her time and do a supporting role to fulfill others. But at this time, I was only very embarrassed and embarrassed, and turned my head to look at Qi Xiang, who was also looking at me.

"Oh, that's it, just an accident, really."

I sat cross-legged on the bed watching a late-night soap opera, dangling the remote control, yawning with my cheeks in a daze, and the mermaid lady with her tongue curling her tongue on TV guarding a table full of kimchi lyrically, oops, how can China have such a delicious miso soup as ours.

Listening to the movement outside, I thought, well, I must have slept.

I climbed out of bed and tiptoed open the door with a change of underwear, the hallway was unlit, and the varnished floor was glowing in the moonlight. The oxygen pump in the tropical fish tank downstairs is working, and there is the sound of running water in the quiet night, the mellow and regular cracking sound of bubbles, and other than that, it will make a sound, only below.

The alert is dismissed.

I tiptoed to the bathroom, wondering, what am I nervous about, what am I nervous about? Qi Xiang didn't show any unpleasantness, did he? Of course, he didn't appear to be happy.

Nonsense, can you be happy in exchange for you.

I'm not wrong, of course, in front of people...... How else can I answer, yes, yes, the first kiss is with the person I love, like words?

Are you stupid, you won't get off the hook?

I'd like to take the opportunity to make it clear.

Yes, to make it clear, people are not doing much, and they hide in the room as soon as they come back, and they are out!

Alas, I don't want to, but I don't know why I'm scared when I look at someone Qi along the way, he and he obviously didn't say anything, why is it so scary.

Don't mention it, isn't that just a change, a change, a change......

The word "state" rolled over for a week, and remembering that he didn't use an umbrella to pick me up in the rainstorm, buy cold medicine, and take me across the street, my conscience was stirred, and I swallowed that word back. Originally, I walked through the door of the room where I was sharing, but I thought about it and took a step back, squatted down and looked inside from the crack in the door, there was no light, but it was okay. I clapped my hands and prepared to stand up.

The next scene I would love to describe as a thriller, or at least a suspense, action movie can also make do with it - the door opens in an instant, and there is a soft "click" at the same time, and I recall afterwards that it was the sound of the wall light switch being pushed up.

Qi Xiang put one hand on the doorknob and looked at me condescendingly, with the light on his back.

I was frightened and ashamed for two seconds, and then I successfully transitioned to anger, what is this, hiding behind the door, it's really obscene, I didn't realize that my posture at the moment is more obscene than anyone else, I think he actually knows that I'm avoiding him, lurking here to catch me, it's interesting, isn't it.

Thinking about it later, indeed, I was very prejudiced against him at that time, and there was some frustration mixed with it, why did I seem so two-hundred-and-five every time I met him? Of course, there is also this phenomenon in the face of Shen Sibo, but it is emotional force majeure. But Qi Xiang, at that time, I regarded him as an irrelevant outsider in my life.

There is another reason, which is immediately followed. At the moment, Qi Xiang said to me, Zhuang Ning, you are endless. Afterwards.

I got up, I didn't understand why I was gone, he obviously didn't mean to joke, he was really annoyed, I messed with him.

For a long time, I had such a misunderstanding of Qi Xiang, I thought he was experienced, and he had been in love at least ten times and eight times, and the flowers were easily brought in, although he couldn't stick to it.

For him, the relationship must be an easy game with a blood-locked patch and a full set of strategies, and he can play better than me.

Why.

Probably because he is young and old, indifference and introversion are the norm, and no one wants him to be in love. Probably because he's pretty good.

So I'm not worried about hurting him, and I don't know, how he moved his heart to a person, and there will also be times when he doesn't know what to do, take her every word seriously, and I'm afraid that I take her too seriously, and she hurts her self-esteem, and she will be stuck there and don't know how to advance or retreat, she has been avoiding him before, and she ran to provoke her in the middle of the night, and there was a little light at the door, and he sat there watching her footsteps tiptoe past, and turned around, and the whole person was lying there, not knowing what to think.

So he was finally provoked.

This is something that I finally understood, but I don't know if it was too late by the time I did.

I said, "Hey, you're interesting, I'm sleepwalking, you have to take care of it, you ...... you"

Halfway through the conversation, I heard a "click", it was the sound of the doorknob being released, it bounced back into place neatly and happily, and then there was a dull sound, and the door slammed back against the wall, and then came back, and Qi Xiang reached out and grabbed me. The door hit my arm, and my screams were blocked in the middle of the way.

There was a faint smell of smoke between his lips and tongue, exactly the same as last time.

Six years later, I have to say that it was one of the most exciting kisses of my life, full of drama at the right time. And when I looked at and recalled it with a positive and soft gaze, what I saw was that this gentleman was being whipped in my underwear six years ago.

If I were a bystander, I would also think this scene was really funny, the tall and straight young man, with two hands fixed on the girl's head, she was like a kohlrabi that had been bent backwards, she couldn't make a sound, and she left her arms to gesture, and a little bit of fabric was drawn on his shoulder, and it was strange that he could feel it.

In fact, I didn't notice much of the movements in my hands, almost all of my senses were in my lips, they were entangled, grinding, and never letting go, and everywhere was his breath. My tinnitus was terrible, as if I had returned to the night more than a month ago, and a thought gradually appeared from the darkness, and I autonomously and selectively stripped out the fragments of consciousness.

Before it could give itself a clear fix, I let out a vague scream, causing the strength of the milk to break free of Qi Xiang - it was Qi Xiang who let go of me first.

We looked at each other, lowered our voices and gasped for air.

I now understand why as soon as I saw him, I was subconsciously ashamed, I wanted to hide, I opened my mouth to stammer, and I was delusional.

Because, last time I took the initiative.

I was unconscious when Qi Xiang came over that night, and he helped me outside, and I was drunk and fighting with him.

"Enough is enough, I'll send you back to school if enough."

".........%*%￥"

He leaned closer to hear clearly, and I said, "That's enough for you."

I was in a state where I could spit on him at any time, and it was useless to persuade him, so he let go for the time being, and stumbled forward as I pleased, but as long as I was closer to the lane, he dragged me back.

In this way, I walked back and forth within a meter of him, and in the blink of an eye, I saw him light a cigarette, and without saying a word, I reached out and took it from between his fingers.

I am still grateful to Qi Xiang for torturing me by not saying that good girls don't smoke at that time, and he only shook one out again and lit it. I choked and coughed, and he gave me a symbolic pat on the back. As my air smoothed out, I lifted my face and pursed my lips to spit a wisp of smoke at him.

He looked at me and smiled.

To be honest, under the predicament of alcohol and despair, I roughly knew whether I was a person of heart or not, a woman, the most innocent woman, and she would also know which actions were dangerous, and it was possible for morality to kick you behind and kick you out of the ranks of good girls.

But at that time, I just couldn't restrain myself. The pigeon's eyes that I described were spinning in my heart, and I was terrible. It's okay to be a man who doesn't hate you.

Qi Xiang looked down at me, probably thinking, this girl, she is obsessed with being bad, who is she bad for? The phone calls are all skewered, and the one who should be there is not there, she is broken in vain.

But maybe because I was young and not ugly, he still cooperated.

......

What more can I say. When you wake up, you accuse others of taking advantage of others, and it is certainly easier to be a victim. I don't even know if to give myself or a slap in the face.

He looked at his hand, and I had broken a handful of hair between his fingers as I struggled.

Qi Xiang later told me that he had tried to communicate with me before, if I didn't dislike him, could I try to get along? He wanted to say that he actually liked me a lot, and he had a good impression from the first time I saw me.

It was only when he saw this handful of hair that he thought, forget it, she is like this, she is like this, what is the point of making herself look like a rapist.