"You're right, I was really able to relate to the word extreme. I admit that there is nothing to veto, nothing to be embarrassed about, I used to be naïve, that is, extreme. ”

"After my father left, he was withdrawn to death, he didn't like to talk to people, and he consciously alienated the crowd."

Huang Xiaobei smiled, "But if someone is willing to talk to me, I will still happily chat with them." ”

"You know the dog skin plaster, right? If others are willing to approach me, I will stick to them like a dog's skin plaster, and I can't get rid of them. ”

Speaking of this, Huang Xiaobei turned his head to stare at Karl and smiled bitterly: "But you should know what kind of reputation I have in the academy, right?" ”

Carl nodded.

Huang Xiaobei shook his head bitterly, "And what is the general fate of dog skin plaster, you probably know." Hehe, tear it off, and then throw it away, don't spit before leaving, I have to thank others for their great kindness. ”

Huang Xiaobei's gaze was gloomy.

"So I'm really disgusted with my old self, I hate him very much, he's so cheap."

Carl nudged his frame thoughtfully, he didn't have any dominance in this conversation, he was just a quiet listener.

What's more, in front of such a Huang Xiaobei, he didn't know what to say, or, he was right.

Who doesn't hate their past self?

We're all the same.

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Seeing that Carl didn't speak, Huang Xiaobei clapped his hands and laughed.

"By the way, the sympathy you just mentioned, I have to say, this is a very interesting thing, just imagine, what kind of sympathy will everyone have for a person like me who is a dead father? It's hard to say, come, I'll give you a good performance, so you can see what kind of sympathy I can get. ”

Huang Xiaobei stood up, and under Carl's stunned gaze, he rubbed his chin and said with a delicate girl's appearance.

"Alas, Huang Xiaobei is really pitiful, he wasn't good in the first place, and now his father is dead, what do you think will happen to him in the future? I guess I'm going to go to the construction site to move bricks, right? ”

Huang Xiaobei patted his chest and laughed until he was exhausted.

"It's possible to pick up the rags, too."

A treacherous face of a villain appeared on his face.

"Doesn't he know how to play the guitar, and don't he eat when he goes to play cotton for others."

"Hahaha! Hahaha! ”

The overwhelming laughter came from the depths of his soul, in all shapes. The colored figure appears from his crazy facial features and distorted body.

He was smiling, smiling at everyone who had ever fooled and ridiculed him, and he was smiling so happily that he could not see the slightest sadness, even immersion.

"Hahaha! Aha! ”

In the end, with that sharp laughter, Huang Xiaobei's face appeared with a lot of faces, each face was different, but each face was laughing unscrupulously.

Laugh at the same person.

Carl watched quietly, quietly looking at the seemingly optimistic person in front of him, frantically mocking his former self and laughing at him.

The wounds of the past were torn open by his own hands, bloody, bloody.

He doesn't seem to be Huang Xiaobei, he seems to have become one of those faces, laughing with those people, mocking his former self.

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A group of people gathered in a group and laughed uncontrollably at the man who was squatting on the ground in the middle, holding his knees.

The ridiculed person could only shrink his body, bury his head in his knees, and tremble.

Laughter poured into his ears, and shrill voices hung around him.

"Look, look at his stupid look."

"Poor ruthless."

"It's so pitiful, that pitiful look is really hilarious."

A person squeezed into the crowd, looking at the guy who was ridiculed by everyone, the man was slightly stunned, and laughed along.

"Right? He's stupid, doesn't he's ridiculous? Hahaha, I think too, I think too! It's ridiculous, this guy is ridiculous, it's fun to look at him like that. ”

Questions were raised.

"You look like him?"

The man rolled on the floor laughing.

"Because he is me, because he is who I used to be! Why, can't I laugh at him? Can't I bully him with you? ”

"Yes, of course."

"Hahaha, ahahaha!"

Huang Xiaobei didn't mind laughing at his past self, and even he bullied his past self more ruthlessly than others.

He spat on him, he picked up a stone and threw it on his head.

He would just hug his knees, bow his head and tremble, and dare not say anything.

"Hahaha, look at his stupid look."

"Hahaha, it's ridiculous, it's ridiculous, you know that you squat on the ground, you know that you bury your head in your knees, it's useless, you're so unproductive."

"Die, die!"

Carl grabbed Huang Xiaobei's hand and stared at the crazy guy in front of him, Carl said in a deep voice: "Senior, it's okay, your past is not as unbearable as you imagined, I think you should calm down." ”

Huang Xiaobei shook off Carl's hand that was grabbing him, "What's wrong?" Can't I laugh at my old self? Is this a kind of growth, come, you can also laugh and laugh at that fool, I don't mind, on the contrary, I'm still very happy. ”

"You're torturing yourself."

Huang Xiaobei was stunned for a moment, then lowered his head and smiled.

"Yes, torture yourself, when you say that, I think he ...... It's a lot of pity. ”

You're so pitiful, even I'm laughing at you, hehe, pitiful to the extreme.

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Huang Xiaobei, who calmed down, sat back on the ground and said with an indifferent look.

"It's not unreasonable to say that I choose to be alone and lonely, everyone will run to comfort my father when a good student dies, what about me? What do I get? ”

Karl looked at Huang Xiaobei quietly.

Huang Xiaobei nodded and clapped his hands, "Okay, I admit that things are not as bad as I imagined, in fact, after sending my father away, when I went back to school, there were people who came to comfort me." There are, and indeed there are, a few people who can play together, but they probably all belong to what your old man calls a defeated dog, and the others ...... Hehe, what else, most of them choose to turn a blind eye. ”

Huang Xiaobei smiled and nodded, "Well, it's normal, very, very." ”

"It's probably not much to say in the first place, and it's a bit of a waste of time to run to comfort you, and it's not as valuable as the game we use to talk about gossip."

"You see, this is what I have in the past, what I have gotten, I think I am at fault alone?"

Huang Xiaobei stood up and patted Carl on the shoulder, "Isn't it pitiful?" Do you think I'm pitiful? Am I completely the difference between heaven and earth with a proud son like you? So, don't trouble me again in the future, okay? I don't really have anything that interests you. ”

The smile on Huang Xiaobei's face made Carl's tall body tremble.

"Senior, it's not that you don't care about you, it's just that they don't know how to care about someone who has just lost their father, after all, their comfort may cause you excessive sadness to a large extent, and people shouldn't be as you just guessed."

Huang Xiaobei interrupted Carl's words impatiently, "Wait a minute, wait a minute, please don't be in a hurry to refute my words, let me say, didn't you just say be a silent listener, okay, then let me say." ”

Carl nodded and stepped aside.

Huang Xiaobei took a breath lightly and spit it out again.

"I understand that you suspect that everything just now is my fantasy, the so-called blind eye and ridicule are all the conjectures of my poor fellow, and you must also want to tell me that this world is still very beautiful, and life will leave us with touches everywhere, but that is for you."

"For a man like you, of course life will be good to you, and I ......"

Huang Xiaobei pointed to his eyes and sneered, "You know? I can see some things, but all I see is not what I want to see, but what I don't want to see, which is what I used to see, you know? ”

"That's the dirtiest side of people, the most hypocritical side, you can still see their shining points, but I can only see them ugly, I also doubt that what I see is true, I also think they are not so bad, but the horror, they are what I see."

Huang Xiaobei, who was extremely gloomy, smiled, "That's what they really think." ”

Turning his head to look at Carl, Huang Xiaobei stretched out his finger and tapped Carl's chest, mocking the handsome man in front of him.

"Stop talking about good guys and bad guys, so naïve, and besides, do you think you're a good thing? Yes, you do look good, but what do you look like behind the scenes? Benevolent leaders? Ahh Of course, I'm the same, I'm not a good thing, I'm not polite to tell you, you're dead, Lao Wei is dead, I won't even shed a tear. ”

Huang Xiaobei smiled coldly, "Because I've seen through it a long time ago." ”

"Junior brother, don't blame me for speaking badly, because that's it, why do you all have masks on your faces, why don't you all have a good thing."

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Carl was not angry, because Huang Xiaobei's words were very interesting.

He's right, I'm not as good as I seem, and I have a dark side, such as not being willing to accept the leadership of someone worse than me, or losing something that belongs to me.

Everyone is like this, and who dares to say that they don't have a dark side?

I feel a little sympathy for him, and it's no wonder that he used to be so extreme, because he and I see two worlds entirely.

I can look at the world selectively with my own magic eyes, but he can't, he is just passive, passively looking at the ugliness of human nature, looking at the horror of the world.

He didn't want to see those ugly things, but those things appeared uncontrollably in front of his eyes, and he could only look at them.

Carl couldn't help but sigh in his heart, he really didn't know how he spent all these years, and he really didn't know why he still seemed so optimistic on the surface after going through so much.

Perhaps, he is the one with the most masks on his face.

At this point, it is not difficult to understand why he was so extreme before, he was already sad and sad about the loss of his father, but he saw the real thoughts in people's hearts, and there was really no room for maneuver.

No wonder he gets so angry when I peek into his heart, because what he hates most is probably seeing other people's hearts.

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"Senior, because of your past experience, because of the warmth and coldness of the world you have experienced in the past, you stubbornly shrank yourself into a ball, like a turtle with its strong shell to protect yourself. You don't want to communicate with people, no, you don't want to communicate deeply, you treat all of us as a common guest in front of you, and you expect to die alone. ”

Huang Xiaobei covered his ears and said with a look of shame: "So I said that I was a bad pen before!" Look at these words, how ashamed to die alone, hey, although tonight is my own public execution of myself, but please don't follow me to execute me, it's a shame. ”

Carl pushed his sunglasses and said quite seriously: "Senior, you didn't want to go back to your uncle's house before, or you hesitated to go back, I want to ask you, do you think he is just as ugly?" Or, is he one of the ones who laughs at you? ”

Huang Xiaobei did not speak.

After a while, he shook his head and said, "It's because I know he's not, that I want to forget my former self, forget the fool I used to be." ”

Huang Xiaobei looked a little unnatural, "And to be honest, I now regret being so impulsive just now, you know?" I thought about those words in my heart, and I never said them. ”

Huang Xiaobei laughed at himself, "Because of that kind of words, I still feel very naïve, I look like a person who has nothing, jealously roaring at people who have everything, why do you have everything, why do I have nothing, cut, it's so naïve." Huang Xiaobei pursed the corners of his lips with disdain.

Carl leaned his back against the railing, the evening breeze blowing his blonde hair.

"It's much more comfortable to say it."

"Hehe, if you don't say it, you will slowly forget it, I said that I am a person who follows the crowd, according to the words of the eldest lady, Huang XiaoM is passive, and always passively accepts everything."

Huang Xiaobei looked at Carl resentfully, "If you hadn't taken the initiative to mention it and take the initiative to peep at me, I would have planned that nothing had happened before, and I would have been by my uncle's side." ”

"But this is also a knot in the end, if you don't solve it, it will be with you for the rest of your life." Carl stared at Huang Xiaobei.

Huang Xiaobei suddenly became much more serious, "So, since you have made me think about it, then I will not continue to deceive myself." ”

Carl raised an eyebrow, "And what exactly do you think now?" ”

Huang Xiaobei lowered his head and lit a cigarette, and said slowly: "I may have thought this way before, I should be alone, and my uncle's home is not suitable for me, so I shouldn't have that kind of thing." ”

"It's none of his business, it's just that I don't think I should go back, I shouldn't trouble him."

After Huang Xiaobei was silent for a long time, he hesitated: "Of course, that was before, as for the present..... There's no way, people all influence each other, I can only take one step at a time, see how my uncle is, see how much he can influence me, if it's really good, forget all about my previous self. ”

"People always have to look forward, and I don't understand that."

Huang Xiaobei stood up and patted his buttocks, "Let me tell you this, after seeing so many things and experiencing so many things, the former me, the naïve guy before, just thought about being alone, and I wanted to be alone anyway, and I would get used to it anyway, so I would be lonely and old again, and I wouldn't have too much contact with the crowd." ”

Huang Xiaobei stared at the slowly burning cigarette in his hand and muttered in a low voice, "And I have too much contact with others, and I will still get hurt if I don't do it, I don't hide it, I used to really want to be an arrogant strong man or something." ”

Speaking of this, Huang Xiaobei naturally deflated, "So I said that I used to be a fool, what kind of shameful idea is this, and I am still an arrogant strong man, and now I want to be an arrogant strong man, I am afraid that I will be hung up and beaten by my uncle." ”

"So you're trying to re-embrace everything?"

"I said that I am a passive, active this kind of thing has never been suitable for me, I don't understand anything else over the years, but I see how thorough the thief I see."

"Are you going to passively accept everything again?"

"It's not you...... Okay, okay, it's okay to passively accept everything. Huang Xiaobei said with a little red face, and then said: "Also, I forbid you to reveal everything I said to you tonight, and also, you must not do anything superfluous, I like to accept passively, but I don't like the kind of person who has a plan, especially you!" ”

Karl breathed a sigh of relief, changed the subject without a trace, and smiled slightly.

"Senior, didn't you notice? The people around you are actually very active towards you. ”

"Huh? You mean uncle, right? Well, his old man simply took the initiative not to want it, and the old guard also made do. ”

Carl smiled happily, "What about the others?" There's a girl who seems to be very active with you. ”

"Shut up! She's just taking the initiative to make fun of me!! ”

Looking at Huang Xiaobei's much more normal appearance, Carl nodded in his heart.

Although I am still tired of the past, I can understand in the end that I have not been spinning in the maze of the past.

Not bad.

Carl glanced at Huang Xiaobei next to him, who was complaining loudly to a certain girl, and looked at his hateful look, Carl turned around slightly.

The moment he turned around, the expression on Carl's face instantly became much more solemn.

It was not unreasonable for the Demon Party to come to him, and it was not unreasonable for the principal to personally recruit him into the academy.

Senior, I can't see through you more and more.

Carl, who was expressionless, reached out and pushed his sunglasses again.

The dark blue magic eye emitted a faint light.