He originally planned to pick up Tang Wan from work in the evening, go to a hotel called "Music Kitchen" for dinner, and then go to Haiyun Street for a walk. If Tang Wan was not tired, he would take her to the disco for a few more hours, and finally, send her home.

He was particularly depressed when he stood on the sidewalk opposite Tang Wan's company. In a large duffel bag at his feet contained all his current belongings—a few changes of clothes, toiletries, a Sequoia brand cigarette, a multipurpose Swiss Army knife from online mail order, and a few bits and pieces.

The thought that he would leave the city on the westward train early tomorrow morning made his heart very sour.

He had lived in the city for twenty-three years, and he was as familiar with the city as he was with the clothes he was wearing. He hated the increasing number of tall buildings in the city, which were becoming more and more glittering and pretending to be deeper. And when he walks into these buildings, he often feels breathless. There are so many people coming and going in the mall, the service lady has a mushy smile on her face, and most of the goods on the shelves are golden and ruined. He had been to Tang Wan's company several times, and a large office was divided into many small partitions, and Tang Wan, like everyone else, lived in that small space.

He had a miserable look on his face.

Tang Wan said with a smile that night: "What's so strange about this, do you know how many people want to get that cubicle, and how many people's dreams are to be able to work in the cubicle." He shook his head and said nothing, knowing that what Tang Wan said was the truth, so his heart was a little gloomy.

He and Tang Wan are people of two worlds, he doesn't know if he can work in the cubicle, whether he is the so-called urban white-collar worker, but he knows that Tang Wan's salary is very high every month, and he only needs to sit in front of the computer to work. She can dress herself up every day, put on the most fashionable clothes, and after work, go to beauty salons and gyms, go to bars and discos. This way of life really tempted him at first, and with Tang Wan's encouragement, he also tried to enter such a life. But it didn't take long for him to understand deeply that if it wasn't your world, you wouldn't be able to enter it anyway.

This is a real world, and it sets the trajectory of life for everyone, and you need to pay too much hardship and suffering to overcome this order of life.

Tang Wan tried to introduce him to her circle of friends at first, but every time he would always behave inappropriately, Tang Wan didn't take it to heart, but he couldn't bear it at first.

"We live in different worlds, and our encounters are just the occasional intersection of two straight lines." He said bitterly, "Maybe I'll never get into your world." "What's the matter, everyone has their own way of life, as long as they're happy." Tang Wan still smiled and said, "Since you can't enter my world, then I'll enter your world." "What is his world?

He took Tang Wan to that rooftop for the first time, standing on the high place of the city, and the scenery of the city was in full view. The pattern of the city is obvious, the eastern part of the city is backed by a small mountain range, and as far as the eye can see, it is full of high-rise buildings, which in the afterglow of the setting sun, like a group of brightly dressed noblewomen, swaggering the charm of the city. The intertwined roads are like taut streamers, white and majestic at all times; In the northwest part of the city, old tube buildings and old bungalows are piled up in one place, and after the vicissitudes of wind and rain, they have shed their colors and show different shades of gray colors. Those alleys and alleys crisscrossing them are like blood vessels, chaotic but extending in all directions.

Pointing to the alleys, he said, "That's where I grew up." His father was an alcoholic, and his memories were of returning from a drunken night, the crisp sound of knocking over a porcelain basin in the yard, and the endless quarrels and battles he had with his mother. At that time, whenever his father beat his mother, he would use to slip out into the yard alone, listen to his father's curses and his mother's cries, and timidly curl up and crouch behind an old gardenia tree.

The gardenia tree had grown in the yard for as long as he could remember, and until he was sixteen years old, it was full of foliage taller than he was. The gardenia tree is one of his fondest childhood memories, and he remembers the strong fragrance of white flowers dotted among the green leaves on summer mornings that permeated the yard. On summer mornings, he often picks a lot of gardenias and hides them in his school bag to take to school, and the proudest girls in the class smile at him because of the gardenias.

Tang Wan doesn't like gardenias, because every summer morning, at the intersection of the street, there are always some suburban women selling this cheap flower. Everyone in the city can buy a few flowers for a few cents, pinned to the collar or chest. Tang Wan is a person who seeks to be different, so she disdains to let gardenias appear in her life. If she wanted flowers, she would ask him to accompany her to the florist to buy expensive carnations, calla lilies, lilies, and flowers that he couldn't name.

The difference between him and Tang Wan is manifested in many details of life.

The gardenia tree disappeared the year he graduated from high school, and when he returned home, he saw that there was only a large pit left in the place where the gardenia tree had been, and there was still some unswept dirt around it. My father sold the gardenia tree for 300 yuan, and in the evening he bought two catties of pig's head meat and a bottle of Yanghe Daqu, and was pouring himself a drink in the hall.

He remembered that he should have been full of anger at that dusk, but in fact he just stood on the edge of the pit, silently sad for a while, and then went back to the house.

My parents have been laid off and at home for more than half a year, and the family is living in poverty. Flowers are really a luxury for the poor, and they are far less realistic than three hundred yuan, or two catties of pig's head meat and a bottle of Yanghe wine.

After graduating from high school, he began to wander the streets. At that time, his idol was to become a street hero like Black Three. Hei San is a popular figure in the northwest city, and he takes a group of street teenagers to dance guns and sticks all day long, helping some business bosses solve some problems they can't solve. During that time, he followed behind Hei San and began to practice boxing, and after two years, although his body was not much burly, he trained a body of muscles, standing wherever he went, his arms were slightly stretched, and people could easily feel the existence of a kind of power.

Hei San was sentenced to death at the public trial on the National Day in 1997. When he stood in the prison van parade through the street, he lost his former heroism, and he needed to use two armed policemen to hold his arm to stand firmly.

That time, he learned that Hei San was responsible for several murders.

Black Three is a thing of the past, and the new street boy soon takes his place.

In the year when Hei San was shot, he understood that there are no real heroes in this world, and the behavior of heroes under certain conditions is actually a deep helplessness. He began to keep a low profile, and before that, his name was enough to inspire awe in the hearts of many teenagers who had just debuted.

He needs to find a new life to fill so many boring hours every day.

He changed jobs a lot, but each time he didn't last long, and there were always various reasons for him to leave the place he had just familiarized. He delivered gas at the gas station, and after only two weeks, a customer lost money and came to him. He was moving materials at the construction site, and on the fourth day, he burst the bridge of a middle-aged man's nose; He worked as a security guard in a community property management, and when everyone worked together to catch the two thieves, he let the two thieves go without permission...... He didn't hide these after he met Tang Wan, but Tang Wan didn't care about it. Tang Wan knew that it was impossible for him to take the customer's money when he delivered gas, and he blew the bridge of the guy's nose at the construction site because the man saw that he was a newcomer and bullied him, as for the two thieves who let them go privately, because those two thieves used to be his buddies.

Outside of the larger social order, almost everyone has their own set of rules of conduct, and sometimes the two are contradictory, but you can't simply judge good and evil from that.

Tang Wan is a different girl, her gaze can go beyond the surface of things to the essence, so she will fall in love with him without hesitation despite the opposition of her family and friends.

And he always had some doubts about Tang Wan being able to fall in love with him. Of course, he didn't doubt Tang Wan's feelings, but felt that all these plots that should only appear in fairy tales, how lucky he was to be able to make it a reality.

But his love with Tang Wan is not destined to be smooth sailing like ordinary people.

Tang Wan's family knew about his existence and tried their best to oppose Tang Wan's association with him. Tang Wan didn't comply, so her father went to her company to pick her up every day after work, and locked her at home during the break.

Tang Wan is a smart girl, and she often comes up with some elf and weird ideas to get rid of her father. Tang Wan's relationship with her parents was very stiff because of this, and as soon as she returned home every day, she locked herself in her room.

If Tang Wan's parents were the kind of unreasonable and rough people, he might not take it to heart, but he saw with his own eyes a pair of old men with gray sideburns looking gloomy in front of him, and after some righteous accusations, the old lady begged him to let his daughter go, while Tang Wan's father kept smoking on the side, and his back seemed to be stiffened a lot in an instant. At that time, his heart was extremely conflicted, he couldn't bear to break the hearts of a pair of old people, and he didn't want to lose Tang Wan because of this.

It was Tang Wan's persistence that made him make up his mind.

Things developed as he expected, Tang Wan's parents seemed to be more determined than him, and they resolutely did not agree to someone like him becoming their son-in-law. They are all people of status in this city, and they can't let him, a person who hovers at the bottom of society, to destroy the image of the society they have worked so hard to manage.

The development of the story is in line with the imagination we get from the film and television drama, and the successive events that drive him to the edge of the cliff.

He was living in a rented bungalow, and after the knock on the door in the middle of the night, several dark figures stood in the darkness outside the door. The days of street hustling made him not afraid of anyone's malicious provocations, but that night he was faced not with fists, but with a stack of bills.

The banknote was his reward for leaving Tang Wan.

It was windy that night, and then the bills fluttered in the wind. He stood by the door, anger welling up in his heart. If it was his enemy standing in front of him, he would not hesitate to rush at him and throw his old fist.

But those black shadows represent Tang Wan's parents, and his anger has nowhere to vent.

Another late night, when he returned home after breaking up with Tang Wan, several uniformed policemen were already waiting for him in the alley. Tang Wan's father has a lot of energy in this city, and he only needs to use a little power in his hands to kill him.

On that occasion, a deputy chief of the local police station issued a stern warning to him, and some of his misdeeds on the streets were brought up again. The director said, "If you are persistent and do not regret it, then you have only one place to go." He knew where it was, and he clenched his fists in anger as the uniformed man left him behind. But he still couldn't find a way to let his power out, and, for the first time, he felt that the power he was fighting against was too strong for him to resist.

Tang Wan didn't know all this, she still called him happily, and she took escaping from her parents as a game. When he was with Tang Wan, he couldn't help but think of what her father said: "Tang Wan is only twenty-three years old now, she is still young, she is used to living a life of worry-free food and clothing, and she doesn't know the hardships of life yet." Now love is extremely important in her life, so she chose you, and once one day, she truly understands that life is not a storm, she will definitely regret today's choice. The old man from the military had a straight back, and his eyes looked at the young man in front of him like a torch: "If you really like Tang Wan, you should want her to be happy, but her happiness is not something you can give." The meaning of happiness was originally extremely simple in his heart, and two people who love each other can create a feeling of happiness when they can be together. But he now knows that maybe he was wrong, and that happiness is not as simple as he thinks. And finally one day, when he packed his simple bags and was about to leave the city, the sour taste in his heart made him at a loss.

- is about to leave his beloved girl to go to another country, how can he leave the thoughts in his heart?

——The journey is long, but the journey does not know the end, what kind of confusion should he have in his heart?

He pondered on the side of the street, when it was dusk, and the blood-like sunset set set the western sky as gorgeous as brocade, and the sunlight became extremely soft, and splashed lightly on the city, on the people. The building in front of him was unusually tall, and at this moment, some shadows were slowly approaching him.

He was distracted by his thoughts, but suddenly he heard a crisp voice calling his name - Tan Dong Tan Dong! He looked up and saw a girl in the middle of the road hurrying towards him.

The girl was slender, her skin was as white as jade, her long hair hung naturally down on her shoulders, and she was wearing a beige professional skirt, which looked refreshing and pleasant. This girl is naturally Tang Wan.

Every time he saw Tang Wan, he would have a faint pain in his heart, even when the two of them were the happiest, he still couldn't get rid of this pain hidden deep in his heart. He heard that when you feel heartache for someone all the time, then you are undoubtedly in love with her.

Now his pain was born again, and this time the pain was different from the past. Because tomorrow, he will leave the city, the girl he loves. He became impulsive in an instant. He ran towards the girl.

The four-lane road is not very wide, but the rush of cars after work is like a rushing river.

He was only one step away from Tang Wan, and he saw that Tang Wan couldn't wait to stretch out his arms to him.

With a screeching sound of brakes, a black bullet van stopped out of thin air in front of him, and Tang Wan disappeared from his sight. He suddenly felt a wave of dizziness, only to feel the fear in the sky coming down.

The van swallowed Tang Wan.

He thought he couldn't lose the girl he loved before he left the city.

He let out a low roar and quickly turned in the direction of the front of the car. He saw Tang Wan lying on her side on the ground, her eyes closed and she didn't move. The white-faced driver turned over in a trembling manner, as if he had been frightened stupid, and he didn't even have the courage to come forward to investigate.

He didn't hesitate, hit the driver's nose hard with a punch, turned around and rushed over and hugged Tang Wan.

- Tang Wan, Tang Wan, wake up!

- Tang Wan, Tang Wan, you can't die!