Chapter 1845: She Cried
Sarah...... Your name is Sarah! ”
When she awoke from this world, the name was carved into her soul and has followed her for hundreds of years.
In Hebrew, this means "princess, nobleman, noble maiden", which led her to understand that her birth was of great significance to the creation of her master.
Yes, at least the first time the two looked at each other, it should have been.
"Cry! Cry for me! ”
Born flawed and completely emotionless - the failure of the alchemical work drove Sarah's creator, Phillips, into a manic frenzy. Sarah's first feeling after coming into this world was not a warm embrace from her family, but an unreserved slap in the face.
She still vividly remembers that the slap was very painful, very painful, and it hurt so much that she was a little overwhelmed. However, the pain did not arouse any emotions in her, because she had no emotions at all.
So, the master went crazy.
For three days, Sarah followed behind her master, quietly watching the world and at the same time quietly watching him. Those three days didn't really mean much to Sarah, she just followed silently, and that's it.
The master was studying alchemy, so she was watching each other from the sidelines, in a daze; The master was too tired from studying, and she was so agitated that she fell asleep, so she also learned to lie on the spot; The master woke up, drank a glass of water, and then continued to devote herself to her research, so she also tried to pick up the dirty glass and take a sip.
Well, the water stinks.
So, yes...... In the first three days of her "birth" into this world, Sarah lived a meaningless life.
Except for the last moment on the third night—
"Kill me!"
This was the third thing the master said to her after giving her life...... Unable to refuse the order, Sarah, who was still ignorant at the time, picked up a sharp knife and slit the throat of her master with her own hands.
"Phillips?"
For some reason, these old memories came back to the depths of her heart, lingering in Sarah's mind.
Didn't you just follow Mr. McLean's suggestion, touching the black door and trying to sense the power inside the door? Where am I now? Why do you think of these things?
“…… Phillips. ”
Sarah suddenly felt as if something was pouring out with these memories—a very surging, very turbulent, and at the same time very oppressive feeling.
Sarah began to subconsciously call out the name of the owner, Phillips von Hohenheim.
The genius alchemist who created her and gave her a precious name, or perhaps the middle-aged man who could also be counted as her "father".
Every time I silently recited the name in my mind, the sudden feeling became stronger and stronger, and it kept stimulating Sarah's nerves that were getting tighter and tighter.
"Is this ...... 'love'?"
Suddenly, Sarah couldn't help but whisper to herself:
"Phillips, I miss you."
……
Is this love?
I don't know, and Maca doesn't know either.
There are many different forms of love, and it can be cheerful or sad. What form the relationship between Sarah and her creator Phillips should be, Maca naturally did not dare to assert.
So Maca just watched Sarah, with her eyes slightly closed, calmly, listening to her muttering and muttering to herself alone.
It wasn't until a moment later that Sarah Fu slowly opened her eyes again, withdrew her palm from the door, and touched her already wet cheek.
After continuing to be stunned for a long time, Sarah turned her head slightly, looked at Maca and said:
"I ...... Crying? ”
"It looks like that," Maca nodded, "and she's shed a lot of tears - remember to drink some water and rehydrate later." ”
"I'm crying......" Sarah said as if she was still immersed in the strange feeling, ignoring the joke behind Maca, "Phillips, do you see that?" I cried. ”
She touched her face again as she spoke. The red and swollen finger marks left by the slap back then have long since disappeared, but the hot pain seems to have never gone away.
His master left her only three sentences in his life, and three sentences represented three commands. Until now, the only order that she had not been able to complete, she had finally done.
"But," Sarah said after a moment's pause, "Mr. McLean, this doesn't feel good...... there's something like 'feelings,' it seems to be a little-"
"It's scary, isn't it?" "That's why Dumbledore said that it was probably the most powerful and at the same time the most terrifying force in the world—though it's hard to say if it wasn't the 'most powerful,' but other than that, I agree with the professor." ”
Hearing this, Sarah nodded, and then said:
"So...... Mr. McLean, is my soul now whole? ”
"Oh no, it's not that easy." Maca immediately shook her head and said, "Do you feel it again now, do you still feel that way just now?" ”
"Well......" Sarah closed her eyes and pondered for a moment, then said, "It seems that there is no more, and my heart ...... It was like a piece was empty. ”
"So, it's just an opportunity for you to get used to it. If I really want to complete the soul, I'll have to wait until I fully understand this room, and then see if I can do it. ”
"Really?"
Sarah blinked, then raised her hand and wiped her face with her sleeve, and then reached out to Kuroto again, as if she was a little greedy for the feeling she had just had when she had emotion.
"Wait," Maca snatched her hand first, "as I said earlier, don't get too caught up in it—'love' can also be a 'sin'. ”
"But...... I miss him. ”
Looking at Sarah's eyes that were a little dazed but still clear when she said this, somehow, Maca suddenly remembered Luna with similar eyes.
After a slight pause, he couldn't help but reach out and touch the top of Sarah's head, and said with a smile:
"Don't be in a hurry! Whether it's joy or sorrow, or even pain...... It's yours, it's yours, and sooner or later you'll taste them all. But even in the future, when you really have feelings as human beings, I hope you don't get too paranoid, because any kind of emotion is very precious, remember? ”
Before he could finish speaking, he turned his head to look again at the closed black door.
"Alright, anyway, let me see it for what it really is!"