Some people live in confusion all their lives.

Shi Potian is such a person.

For as long as he can remember, he didn't know who his father was, and when he grew up a little, his mother was gone, and in addition to being accompanied by a yellow dog every day, the first half of his life seemed chaotic like a primitive man.

But that doesn't mean he's stupid!

There are some things that he should know, he knows in his heart, and what he shouldn't know, he can choose to forget.

This is an 'ordinary person's way of self-preservation'.

It's like before he sees his own father again, he never thinks there's anything wrong with the 'adoptive mother' who raised him.

Although the 'adoptive mother' barked at him one by one, and rarely gave him a good look, nor did she teach him to read and write, Shi Potian could still tell whether a person was really good to him or not.

This is an innate human gift, and his adoptive mother cares about him, or at least really cares about him, afraid that he is cold, hungry, injured, and cheated.

Such a woman may have a knife mouth, but Shi Potian definitely can't hate her, let alone the other party raised him since he was a child, and even in a certain number of years, in Shi Potian's world, she is the only one who accompanies her.

Although when he grew up, sometimes at night, Shi Potian also thought about who his real father was and why he abandoned him and his adoptive mother.

That's just a momentary thought.

Even if she didn't, she didn't really care.

But why, why did one day, a man and a woman suddenly pop out and break into his home without saying a word, and in front of him, forcing his adoptive mother to death?

The resentment in Shi Potian's heart is clear to no one.

The mountains are edgeless, and the sea is boundless.

This kind of malice that almost distorted his emotions made Shi Potian unacceptable.

After seeing his adoptive mother die, the first thought in Shi Potian's mind was to kill the 'dog man and woman' in front of him to avenge his adoptive mother!!

But on the contrary, the other party said that they were their own father and mother!

How ironic!

The adoptive mother called him a dog mongrel, but when everything happened, in his dog mongrel's heart, the man and the woman were really replaced by the word dog man and woman!

For more than ten years, the knowledge of the outside world has told him that his father's fate is difficult to disobey, and his father is bigger than the sky, obviously his father is wrong, but when he is a son, he must not refute it, because this is filial piety, if he does not follow it, he cannot be regarded as a person.

Malicious.

At that moment, the world seemed to be full of malice towards him.

He wanted to kill the dog man and woman to avenge his adoptive mother, but the worldview he had developed was preventing him from doing so.

Suffering.

It's very painful.

The pain deposited in the bottom of his heart condemns Shi Potian's conscience day and night, making every day of his life as if he is tormented in hell.

There are even times when Shi Po naively feels that being a person is really tired.

If only he were a dog.

You don't have to think so much about it every day, and there won't be so many people who bind you and tell you what is right and what is wrong, what should be done, and what you can't do even if you should do it.

If he were a dog, he wouldn't have done so many things against his will that he would have felt disgusting.

That's it, suffering, surviving.

Day after day.

Shi Potian didn't know when such a day would be a leader, he could only freeze his heart, pretend to be strong on the outside and continue to live like an obedient dog.

A dog, an obedient dog, just listen to the master and do things, without using his own painful brain to think.

When is a day like this going to be a head?

I'm sorry.

Shi Potian didn't think about it that much, he just survived day after day, and forced his brain to stop thinking, so that his conscience didn't have to endure the torment anymore.

As for why you want to live?

Shi Potian never thought about it.

The only thought I am afraid is that my adoptive mother wants him to live well before she dies.

"Live well....."

In the city of Emperor Wu, Shi Potian was lying in his own small courtyard, surrounded by a bonfire, and in his eyes were the stars reflected in the sky.

"Monkey, do you remember, your master said that there are two things in this world that are always worth holding on to."

"yes, I want to think about it."

Next to the fire, the monkey leaning on the wings of the chicken scratched his head, the master taught too much knowledge on weekdays, he had to think about it.

After thinking about it for a long time, the monkey squeezed his eyes at Shi Potian, and continued to turn his head and roast chicken wings.

As a monkey, although he now has the appearance of a human, the master said that he lacks a human heart.

Seeing this scene, Shi Potian sighed silently in his heart.

That's nice.

envy the monkey's heartlessness, and even more envy his fatherlessness and motherlessness, at least without these, you don't have to think so much.

But since the monkey didn't say it, the words that were held in Shi Potian's heart, Shi Potian still wanted to say it.

"The same is the stars shining in the endless void above our heads, they represent the direction of our future exploration, your master said, in those stars in the sky, every moment may represent a new world, and in these unknown worlds, everything can happen."

"Because they're unknown?" The monkey asked in a whisper.

"Well, the unknown means beautiful, no matter how bad things are, as long as there is still this unknown, there is still room for redemption."

"Uh.... It's so profound, I don't understand..... Do you understand? The monkey blinked, not understanding why his friend was saying this to him.

"Got it."

There was silence, and only after the stone broke the sky for a half sound did he spit out these two words.

After another half-sound, the chicken wings were cooked, and the monkey sprinkled spicy pepper on them, sniffed the aroma of the chicken wings, and showed an intoxicated expression on his face:

"Come on, come on, the chicken wings are cooked and ready to eat."

As the words fell, the monkey sent one of the chicken wings to Shi Potian as if it were offering a treasure.

For the monkey, Shi Potian is one of his few friends in Emperor Wu City, and he may also be the best friend.

At least Shi Potian is not like the kid surnamed Yang, who lived like his father at a young age.

It may also be because the other party, like himself, is a child who has no father.

Seeing the monkey hand over the chicken wings, Shi Potian looked at the smile on the monkey's face, was silent for a while, and squeezed out a wry smile on his face.

I took the chicken wings and ate and chewed them in a big gulp.

Even the belt bones, you can't eat the taste of it at all.

When the two of them were satisfied with eating, they lay on the lawn together, looking at the starry sky overhead, and the monkey suddenly opened his mouth:

"Brother Dog, you said that the master said two things, one of which is the exploration of the unknown, because that represents hope..... What is the other one?"

"It's a different ....."

When Shi Potian heard this, he wiped his left chest with his oil-stained hand, and then spit out in his mouth, and said in a somewhat vague voice: "I don't remember either, that thing may have been gnawed by a dog." ”

After saying this, Shi Potian turned around and turned his face away from the monkey.

And the monkey looked at this, scratched his head thoughtfully, and his eyes flashed with inexplicable brilliance.

......

......

The next day, it was still dawn.

Early in the morning, the monkey broke into Lan Li's yard in a furry manner.

There was a banging knock on the door, accompanied by the monkey's distinctive magnetic voice:

"Master, master! Wake up and exercise in the morning! You haven't taught me how to do it in today's morning class! ”

Lan Li, who hadn't woken up yet: "??? ”

"Master! I have something to ask you! ”

Silent.

One second.

Two seconds.

Three....

"Master! Did you wake up? ”

"Roll !!"

A roar of suppressed anger sounded from inside Lan Li's dormitory, and the anger contained in it frightened the monkey outside the door and shivered, and subconsciously took a few steps back.

When he was far away, looking at the still closed gate in front of him, the monkey couldn't help but mutter:

"Today, the master's wake-up gas seems to be very big....."

A quarter of an hour later.

When Lan Li appeared in front of the monkey neatly dressed, listening to the monkey's almost idiotic question, he couldn't help but pull out his 'ring ruler' weighing thousands of catties from behind him!

"Master... What are you doing? ”

"You ask as a teacher, there are two things in this world that cannot be disappointed, one is the night sky above our heads, and the other is what?"

"Huh? Isn't it worth protecting? ”

The monkey looked surprised.

Hearing this, Lan Li grinded his teeth, the anger in his eyes was almost distorted, and then he swung the hijacking and smashed it at the monkey's head:

"Go back and read your Chinese textbook! Take a good look at me! It's in the essay on the first page of the Chinese textbook! It's been three years since the books were given to you! And you came to me and asked me the answer to my question? I'm going to kill you, an unfilial loin!! ”

An angry blow knocked the monkey to the head.

When the monkey was finally beaten away, Lan Li returned to the house with a difficult heart.

Inside the bedroom, it seemed that there was too much movement outside, and the sleepy-eyed Zixuan propped up half of her body:

"Woo.... Who is it? So noisy? ”

"Monkey, come and ask questions."

"What's the problem? It's early in the morning...."

"A brain-dead problem."

While speaking, Lan Li closed her eyes and took off her pajamas, and touched the bed:

"He asked me what else in this world besides the starry sky was worth guarding for him."

"Hmm.... Starry sky? Wish? ”

"Hmm."

"The answer to the next sentence should be, 'The conscience of the heart, because that is the sign that you will never lose in life'?"

"Yes, I wrote this thing in his book, and the book has been given to him for ten years, who knows that this scoundrel has never done it once!"

"It's excessive..... Forget it, wake up and clean him up, it's only five watches... The rooster hasn't crowed yet. ”

"Alright, sleep, sleep, sleep..."

As he spoke, Lan Li hugged Zixuan and fell asleep again.

Hope and conscience or something, it was just Lan Li's two sentences copied from his memory, and he gave an interpretation according to his own meaning.

Originally, it was not a 'compulsory question', it was just an after-school hobby, and whether you look at it or not depends on the monkey's own will.

You can't stop the monkey from hitting the muzzle of the gun by himself!

As far as a monkey is concerned, he doesn't read the knowledge written on the table of contents of the language book, and if he can't be killed, he can be regarded as Lan Li's kindness from the bottom of his heart!

This fight, Lan Li didn't feel anything.

But the monkey who turned around, after turning this sentence from his language book, scratched his head aggrievedly.

"It's actually written right here? Why didn't I see it before? ”

Look left, look right.

Seeing that no one was looking at him, the monkey breathed a sigh of relief in his heart and silently stuffed the book into his clothes.

"Like hope, what is worth guarding with everything is the conscience in your heart that will never be extinguished, because it is a signpost that will never be lost in you and life.

Hope, conscience.

Is that all? ”

muttering like this, while the sky was still dark, the monkey walked with his six relatives and went to talk to his dog brother.

A quarter of an hour later.

The monkey pushed open the half-open door of Shi Potian's house, and looked at the dog brother who was still lying on the green grass, and a smile appeared on his handsome face:

"Brother Dog, wake up, wake up, I found what you said in the book!"

Shi Potian: "......"

"Look at it, isn't this sentence, is this sentence about conscience and Taoism?"

Shi Potian: "......"

"Look at it, I'm okay with you, if you can't remember, I can help you find it!"

Seeing that the monkey looked like a treasure, Shi Potian's already frozen heart seemed to beat twice.

Don't get me wrong.

It's not that he's moved by the monkey, it's that he's simply pissed off by this idiot!

"Conscience? Didn't I say that? That thing has been eaten by dogs a long time ago! ”

"Huh? Can this thing still be eaten? ”

"What do you think?"

"What dog, so powerful? Tell me, brother, I'll see if I can find it, and let it spit out your conscience again....."

Shi Potian: "??? ”

"You let me try, if I can't do it, won't there be a master?"

Shi Potian: "......"

"Alright, you can go about it yourself, it's getting cold."

"Don't, tell me."

"Monkey ....."

"What's wrong, Brother Dog?"

"You...."

Shi Potian wanted to let the monkey have a snack, but after thinking about it, he held back and just patted the monkey on the shoulder.

Conscience or something, that thing should be fed to the dogs.

Isn't it quite happy that the monkey is like this right now, living without heart and lungs?

At least much stronger than him.

The two quarreled, and when they saw that Brother Dog didn't want to deal with him, the monkey left the book for Shi Potian, and ran away happily.

Situ.

Shi Potian looked at the departing figure of the monkey and did not speak for a long time.

A fresh breeze blows through the pages.

The words that Lan Li left on above appeared in Shi Potian's eyes.

But then, Shi Potian actually let out a low roar that suppressed anger:

"Lord Castle, what you said is right, and it really makes sense.

But my conscience.... Drives me to get revenge.

I.....

Do you really want to do it? ”

In the night, Shi Potian's wailing voice is like a lonely walker in the dark, and the light that belongs to him may never come......