Chapter 16: Actually, I'm one of them

I fainted again.

This time it wasn't the effect of the drug, but my father's sudden appearance was too much of a stimulus to me......

When I woke up, it was already slightly light, and I was lying on a patch of sand, and the wind was blowing, and it was a little cold.

My mind is much clearer, but my body still doesn't listen.

I don't want to move, I have to think about a lot of things.

I remember vividly that the old man listened to my heart for a while, and then he said, I am theirs.

It dawned on me that my heart rate of 600 beats per minute was not due to a machine failure! Moreover, only their people can hear it!

Am I their man?

Am I the undercover agent they sent to our team?

Or am I bringing people here, but I'm actually doing something for them?

I feel that my brain is completely messed up, so I quickly comb it with reason-

My name is Zhou Dedong, I am a writer, I was born in the town of Juelundi in Qiqihar City, Heilongjiang Province.

I joined the army in 1987 and worked as a newspaper operator in a recruit company, an oil storage clerk in an agency, a driver in Inner Mongolia, a sheep herder in the Gobi steppe, a cook in the mountainous areas, a reporter in the regiment, and an electrician on the Sino-Mongolian border......

After retiring from the army, I worked as a salesperson in a village in my hometown, a secretary in a county company, and later as an editor at Girlfriend magazine......

Later, I went to Beijing to write novels and serve as editor-in-chief of Aphorisms and Youth Digest (color editions......

Later, I told stories to the audience on the Farmer Channel of Hebei TV......

Later, I arrived in Lancheng, where I was in semi-seclusion......

How could I be their man!

My father showed up.

When he left home, I was 9 years old, in fact, I was 10 years old, in the third grade of elementary school, and of course I remember what he looked like!

But why does he look as big as I am?

I suddenly remembered that we were trapped in Lop Nur for 10 days, and it had been 1 month outside, a difference of 3 times. My father came to the Northwest in 1977, and 36 years later, when I was 9 years old, and now I am 45 years old. And my father has only been in this ecstasy for 12 years, he was 33 years old that year, and he is exactly 45 years old this year!

God, are you kidding me?

I speculated a little bit, perhaps, I really have their blood in my body, otherwise, why did my heart rate of 600 beats per minute keep alive and well? Otherwise, why did my father come to the Northwest back then?

Someone was walking in the sand and coming towards me.

I turned my head with difficulty and saw my father.

He walked up to me, sat down on the sand, and looked at me with a kind look in his eyes.

I wanted to call "Daddy", but I couldn't.

He didn't recognize me a little anymore and asked, "Are you ...... Red light? ”

I nodded. Red light is my nickname.

My father looked at me silently, as if he had a thousand words.

I noticed that the clothes he was wearing were very old and old, and the seams were all sandy, and he looked very embarrassed.

The father said, "Your mother...... All right? ”

I said, "She's been missing for years. "I don't know if it's the effect of drugs, my voice is very hoarse.

My father didn't speak for a long time.

Finally, he pulled a bottle of water out of his pocket and fed me a few sips. I wanted to see what logo was on the bottle, whether it was Nongfu Spring or Robust, and there was nothing on it.

I said angrily, "Thank you." ”

Father said, "Your mother named you Boss Zhou, when did you change it?" ”

I said, "I changed it after I was discharged from the army." ”

The father asked again, "Then how did you come to this place?" ”

I said, "Now that I meet you, I feel like God made me here." ”

"I was also surprised," his father said. ”

I said, "Don't you be surprised that we look the same big?" ”

The father said, "I know this place, nothing surprising. I pinched my fingers a few days ago and calculated that your mother is a chicken, 1 year younger than me, and she should be 68 this year. ”

I said, "Who are they?" ”

The father said, "I can't say." It's our rule. ”

He's talking about – we.

He's my father, and if he keeps his mouth shut about me, I'll never know the mystery.

The father continued: "Originally, we have been living in a no-man's land, and for thousands of years, only one person has been left, and that is your grandfather. ”

I immediately realized that if they thought I was also theirs, then my father should have been my grandfather's own.

The father continued: "Your grandfather broke the taboo and should not be alive, but he had a great fate, fled everywhere, and finally ran to Kanto, gave himself a surname, and hid. ”

I said, "How can that old man tell that I'm one of theirs?" ”

"We don't have the same heart rate as humans," my father said. ”

This sentence startled me. That is, they are not human?

The father said, "If you are of pure blood, they will not carry you back, as soon as you smell it." Your grandmother is human, and your grandfather married your grandmother and gave birth to me, and I have only half of my blood left. In your generation, only a quarter is left. ”

After a pause, my father asked me, "Do you want to stay?" ”

It is absolutely impossible for me to stay in Lop Nur, haunt the ancient tombs all the year round, and live like a mouse for the rest of my life.

However, I didn't rush to make a statement, I said, "I want to stay or not, what's the difference?" ”

"You have been assimilated by humans, and even if you want to stay, they won't agree." Not wanting you to die is already a great favor. Unless you do one thing, maybe I can convince them ......"

I asked, "What's the matter?" ”

A fierce glint suddenly appeared in the father's eyes: "Kill all your companions." ”

I said, "Why kill them?" ”

The father said: "We generally don't let go of the people who enter Lop Nur, they break into our home, and we will never let people outside know about our existence." ”

I said, "We've gone into the Ecstasy, all the communication equipment is out of order, you're holding us back?" ”

Father shook his head: "No. You don't know us, and we don't know them. It's a mysterious place, and it's not just us. ”

They.

Although in the conversation, I am not sure whether my father is talking about "them" or "them", I guess it must be the latter. It sends chills down my back.

I said, "That is, you don't know how to get out?" ”

The father shook his head: "If you come, you can't leave." ”

I was desperate.

After a pause, I said, "You know what? I got your notepad from that year. ”

The father was a little surprised: "How did you get it?" ”

I said, "Someone crossed Lop Nur and passed through the Mourning Slope and picked it up, and it ended up in my hands, and I still remember your handwriting." Are the rumors of Shame Poe true? ”

The father said, "What rumors? ”

I said, "Whenever someone passes by there they kill each other." ”

The father said, "That's right." We won't, though. ”

I said, "You mean, we will?" ”

The father said, "Yes." ”

I said, "But we're stationed near the Grimace Slope, and nothing happens?" ”

My father said, "That's not really a bad fall. ”

I said, "Shame on the slope...... Where is it? ”

The father said, "You will meet you." ”

I said, "Can't you avoid it?" ”

The father said, "Can you avoid 50 years old?" ”

I said, "What do you mean?" ”

The father said, "I mean it very clearly. ”

I was in despair. Then I said, "In that notepad, you said you killed two people, is it true?" ”

My father said, "They wanted to kill me." ”

I said, "Why do they want to kill you?" ”

My father said, "We were on the slope of fear. ”

I said, "Were you awake at the time?" ”

"I felt like I was half awake and half confused," his father said. ”

I said, "Didn't you say that the slope of the Lost Courage is not for you?" ”

The father said, "Daddy only has half of their blood!" ”

I said, "So did you kill them or not?" ”

My father stared at me for a long time before he said, "Kill, one Mongol, one Korean." I came to Lop Nur to find my ancestors, and I had to do something to get them to accept me. ”

I said, "You really got your stomach cut open?" ”

"I was severely dehydrated, so it was probably a hallucination," my father said. I can't remember when that notepad was gone. ”

I said, "We have five people in succession, have you killed any of them?" ”

The father shook his head: "I am half human, I don't have their abilities. ”

I said, "What are they capable of?" ”

"Let me tell you this," said the father, "have you ever heard that your grandfather once forced his beard with a gun to retreat alone?" ”

I said, "Yes." ”

The father said, "Do you know how he did it?" ”

I shook my head.

My father leaned into my face and whispered, "He bit their heads to death in one bite......"

I shuddered.

My father straightened up and asked me, "Five of you died?" They seem to have killed only three. ”

My brain was spinning fast - Yi Wu was a suicide, they killed Li Zhao, Extra, Xu Erge...... Didn't they kill the police? Who killed that?

I said, "Which of us is going to die next?" ”

The father said, "You." However, they let you go, and you're fine. Hope you are lucky enough to make it out of Lop Nur alive. ”

I said, "What happens after me?" ”

The father said, "I don't know. ”

I said, "You know. ”

The father said, "Yes, but I won't tell you, or I will die next." ”

After a moment of silence, I suddenly asked, "What does the flower carved from the sand symbolize?" ”

The father said, "I don't know." ”

I said, "Don't you put one on every killing?" ”

The father said, "We didn't do it. When our people die, a flower carved from sand will appear next to us......"

This place is unfathomable.

I'm speechless.

The father said, "You will be able to move in a little while, this is not far from your camp, and you can see it when you stand up." ”

As my father said more and more, I gradually smelled a certain breath of childhood, which was my father's breath, which evoked many distant memories in me—

I was lost, dark all around, scared. A dark shadow came up to me, and when he approached, I was sure that it was my dad, and I started crying, and he carried me on my back and said, "Isn't dad coming?" Don't cry, let's go home. ”

Let's go home......

But the father stood up and whispered, "I have to go." ”

My eyes got wet all at once.

I know I won't see him again in our lives.

He added, "If you can go out and tell your mom, I'm still alive." ”

I nodded.

He thought for a moment and said, "You...... Don't hate me, do you? ”

I shook my head.

He jerked around and strode away.

I turned my head vigorously and looked at his familiar and unfamiliar back, tears streaming down my face.

He never looked back, walked down the sand slope, and was gone.

The sky is so blue, the sand is so yellow.

The world is empty.

Half an hour later, I staggered to my feet.

I found a line of writing left on the sand, which was of course my father's handwriting, and he wrote - you have one of our people on your team.