Yu Shubai closed the computer, and the sky outside was already slightly bright.

It was already past the time to go to bed, Yu Shubai opened the curtains, looked at the sky outside for a while, and finally took the sleeping pills from the drawer and swallowed two with water.

In addition to the bottle of Valium, there were several bottles of clonazepam lying in the drawer.

Closing the curtains, Yu Shubai fell on the bed.

It may be that she is too dependent on sleeping pills during this time, which makes it difficult for her to sleep peacefully even if she swallows the medicine in the past few days.

Yu Shubai has depression.

In the third year of junior high school, her father's esophageal cancer spread, and physiotherapy and chemotherapy did not work, and he returned to the West in half a month. A month after her father's death, her mother remarried to a wealthy businessman who was quite famous in Beijing.

Yu Shubai was thrown in Guangzhou like this.

During that time, Yu Shubai almost didn't know where he was or if he was still alive. The letter left by her father was a well-known asset company in the business world at that time, but it was a pity that her father did not have time to deal with the company's affairs before returning to the West.

The current letter company is in the hands of Yu Shubai's mother.

Her mother married in Beijing, she stayed in Guangzhou by herself, and her mother left her house in Jiangjing.

Yu Xubai's high school entrance examination results came out, and he entered the best middle school with the first place in the city.

But she was depressed.

may be that when she was hit by a relatively big impact in her life, no one carried it for her, not even a few words of comfort. When she was in a trance and couldn't find a sense of reality, she had to watch her mother marry someone else and leave Guangzhou.

She was the only one left in the city.

Yu Shubai's depression was diagnosed before the start of the first year of high school. With the report in hand, she tried to call her mother, but it wasn't serious at the time, she just subconsciously wanted to grasp the last straw, hoping to pull herself.

But the phone was connected, and her mother's attitude towards her made Yu Shubai swallow this matter alive - what's the use of telling her? You're on your own.

dragged on like this, until now, her mother still didn't know that Yu Shubai had depression. And Yu Shubai has also become accustomed to going to the hospital for examination, and when her emotions are not right and she can't overcome it, she goes to a psychiatrist for counseling.

It's not that she didn't think about ending herself like this, just like her father, maybe there won't be any pain.

survived the summer vacation of the third year of junior high school, the first year of high school started, and on a weekend, Lin Hanyu was accidentally pulled to the e-sports offline game to watch the game.

That was her first exposure to e-sports, the first time she met Journey.

In that offline match, MTL won the championship in four rows. Yu Shubai listened to the cheers that exploded in his ears, surrounded by the sound of shouting MTL.

Soon after, MTL's call became Stars.

In that game, Journey Star also won the solo championship.

At that time, she only felt that the person standing on the stage was very dazzling.

Unexpectedly, the person on the stage later became a ray of light in her long years, at least in the most difficult three years.

At the end of the offline competition, Yu Shubai was still immersed in the call of the sky, and was unconsciously pulled backstage by Lin Hanyu. I don't know what kind of method Lin Hanyu used, anyway, when Yu Shubai was pulled into the backstage, there was no obstruction at all.

So when Stars' figure appeared in front of her and smiled at her, she was completely confused.

Lin Hanyu often comes to offline competitions, and he has long been on the road. Looking at Cheng Xing in front of him, Lin Hanyu generously asked Cheng Xing for autographs, and even got the signatures of the captains of other teams.

Because he wanted to sign it, Lin Hanyu directly forgot Yu Shubai in place.

Yu Shubai stood there, the whole person was confused, and he didn't know what he was going to do at all.

Maybe she looked a little stupid standing there, or maybe it was too much contrast with Lin Hanyu, Cheng Xing didn't know when she walked up to her, and her voice was very good: "Little sister, did you also come to me for an autograph?" ”

Yu Shubai shook his head, not even daring to look at him.

I don't know if Cheng Xing didn't like to see people in the first place, or if he was a little frivolous.

When Yu Shubai was stunned, he actually reached out and touched Yu Shubai's head, and said with a smile to Yu Shubai's panicked look: "Little sister, it's still a little cute." ”