So just record what happened to me recently, and think of it as a kind of memory.

It has nothing to do with fiction, this is my own diary.

On the morning of June 25, 2020

I learned that someone in the class was in love, and I thought it was normal to fall in love, but I really didn't expect it to be Zhang Yixiang and Tao Yirui.

That's right, this is the two "fairy couples" in the novel, although they show their affection every day, it is best to do their best with peace of mind.

Afternoon of July 8, 2020

I started a chat with a friend who had a little friendship because it was a front and back table. I am very puzzled by the act of kissing each other in love, and there will be no saliva from mouth to mouth?

He said that it is just a very normal manifestation in love, which can express the deep love of two people for each other. Among them, he told me that there were quite a few kisses in my class, and even completely subverted my opinion of some of my classmates.

Then he teased that surely you would do the same in the future, and I just smiled. Girlfriend is still too young for me, think about Zhang Yixiang and Tao Yirui, and in the end, they will definitely be separated because of life.

Life is like this, and meeting someone who likes you is already the greatest luck.

As for me, as I said in the afterword, I once met a friend who saved me from the darkness of loneliness, but in the end she left me. Perhaps, I am just a passer-by in her life.

On the morning of July 10, 2020

Because I didn't sleep all night last night, I plan to take a break between classes, because during the epidemic, so I don't have to do morning exercises.

At that time, several girls and representatives of the English class were handing out snacks that the English teacher had not redeemed. I didn't pay much attention to it until it came to us, and the class representative actually skipped me sitting in the last row.

I was resting with my hands on the table, resting my head on my arms and my eyes closed, and it looked like I was sleeping, and it was here that I changed my understanding of the class.

"Why don't you give it to him?" The classmates at the front table were puzzled.

"What for him? Wait for more to come out to him. ”

I couldn't see their expressions, my derivative personality desperately suppressed my anger, and I held back as much as I could.

What happened next made me even angrier and more surprised.

After they finished handing them out, there were still three packets of biscuits left, so they gave them to me as alms, but I didn't take them, but stayed in a sleeping position and listened to the movement in the class.

A very naughty classmate took the biscuits from my desk and said to the people in the front row, "Let's divide them together." ”

I wasn't angry this time because I knew what he would do.

With the arrival of the rainy season, a small ant nest appeared on the teacher's windowsill, and I usually went to feed the ants some cake crumbs, and I was happy to watch them eat the cake scraps at that time, and they were my second "friends" in the class.

As a result, the hippie-faced classmate took a book and killed a lot of ants, and there were more dead ants on the windowsill than alive, and the rest also came out to find food for life.

Returning to the topic of biscuits just now, although the classmate in the front row advised him not to take my things, he was also defeated by the temptation of food, and only left a small bag for me.

I didn't choose to touch the dirty stuff.

The empress who treats me like a pet and thinks she is high; the executioner who tramples on life; A traitor who devours friendship with desire.

July 20, 2020

Today is my birthday and the day of farewell for one of my dear friends.

I was quite pleasantly surprised on my birthday, because even I almost forgot my birthday, and I only knew that life was repeated day by day.

Although there was a little excitement, this state did not last for an hour, I found out that it was my birthday around 3 p.m., and my parents went out to prepare the birthday cake.

Leave me alone in the room to chase the fan.,I don't like that kind of fancy anime.,Or fierce battles and the like.,I still appreciate the daily life of the light novel adaptation of the drama.。

There are only a few anime of that type, and the drowsiness comes up when I look at it. I slept quietly on my birthday, and although my father, mother, brother, and others came to call me, I couldn't wake up so easily from sleep, so I slept until the next morning.

Let's talk about the parting of my best friend, this doesn't mean that people are cold, but that I was deleted on QQ.

Of course, this is not the first time, at first it was accidental, then I preemptively attacked, and the third time was this time.

The reason was that I joined a depression group, which was full of depressed patients, cutting their wrists at every turn, self-harming and so on.

I was sure I wouldn't be like this, but I found out I was wrong, and after a long period of confinement at home, the gloomy sky was also affecting my mood, and I began to wonder if I really had depression.

Because it's a close friend, so they're all honest with each other, and I also told her that I was a little depressed, and then I also gave her a picture of the horror of the group of friends, and then my words seemed to change, and I began to be weird and terrifying, and I habitually added the suffix "hee-hee-hee" to every message I sent.

From the moment she didn't let me find the scary pictures or stop posting "hee-hee-hee-hee", I knew she was starting to resent me, and finally deleted me as always.

I didn't pay much attention when she was disgusted with me, and I didn't realize the seriousness of the problem until I deleted me. It is perfunctory that can be felt by everyone.

Forget my QQ number, there are many ways to get it back, and I still use this tone of treating friendship as child's play on WeChat.

That's right, I'm angry. Since you chose to give up in the first place, why do you regret it now?

I didn't reply to her on WeChat, nor did I look for her on QQ.

But I still really want her to reconcile with me, and I didn't follow the rules.

Everything was revealed at the graduation ceremony to see if she really saw me as a friend.

July 29, 2020

She didn't come to me, I didn't greet her, it was our last chance to see each other, and I wasted it.

I didn't care too much about the classmates around me at the graduation ceremony.,I've been pretending to sleep.,But everyone seems to have forgotten about me.,Don't be such a classmate (except for Yu)

Finally, I graduated from junior high school and was ready to start a new life outside of my hometown.

Leaving this school that made me lonely and lonely.