I held an umbrella and walked on the way back to Julong Pavilion, thinking about the betrayal of the Qing Xuan Dao Sect by Senior Brother.

Fools like him deserve to die!

I don't know why a person like him, who lives so chicly, has such perfect conditions in all aspects, and is definitely the protagonist of this world, would join the cult.

As a trick, I really don't know what he thinks.

Is it because everything is too perfect and you want to find something exciting and deviant to do? If that's the case, I'm mistaken about him. Originally, I thought that although he was hypocritical and arrogant, he at least had a fairly smart brain, but now he actually chose the devil's path. According to me, he is looking for his own death, and he deserves it!

This drizzly evening, just like my mood now, is gloomy and troublesome.

It's all that guy's fault, especially when my sister wants to go to him with everyone, although I don't think that hypocritical thing will be bad enough to hurt my sister, but it still makes my heart can't calm down, and I always feel that things won't be so simple.

I couldn't help but naturally think of the time I met him at the small waterhole more than two months ago, and I knew that something had happened by looking at his expression at the time, but I didn't ask him, although I also knew that if I asked, I would never get an answer.

He was probably already in the Demon Path at that time, right? That's why I returned to Shuijing Peak, but I didn't go up the mountain to see the master.

Although he has fallen into the devil's path, at least he still has humanity.

It wasn't until I got back to the dark lab that I put away my paper umbrella, took off my warm coat and lay down on the bed, my mind still thinking about it.

Speaking of which, what did that guy join the cult for? I really can't figure it out, didn't his previous wish to be the number one hero in the world? I remember this wish he was in..... At what time? When did you tell me?

Oh, I remember, it was in the courtyard of Zhengyang Peak Academy, and he told me about his dreams for the future.

But why did he tell me about it then? It seems that our relationship used to be good, but when did it start to get as bad as it is now?

I just can't sleep when I toss and turn, and my mind is just thinking nonsense.

I simply sat up from the bed, lit the dim oil lamp, poured a glass of water, and sat down at the table with my face in a serious daze.

Try to recall that when I first came to Shuijingfeng, I was quite puzzled when I saw such a snot ghost. Because of that, according to the general routine, it should be the first time I worship the master as a teacher, and then the other junior brothers and sisters affectionately call me "senior brother", not like the "second senior brother" who represents a pig demon, how ugly it is for the second senior brother to be called like this. I wonder if something has gone wrong in my life, and I have switched from my brother's life.

As soon as I came to Shuijing Peak, I had a very good relationship with my senior brother. After all, at that time, he was the only one in the entire Water Mirror Peak (the master was not a person), so it was no wonder that he was very lonely, and at this time, he said that he was going to live in a child two years younger than him, which naturally made him very happy, as if I was my own brother, he played with me all day long, and slept with me.

How was I feeling at that time? I've forgotten it, probably not to hate it, at that time I would take my master, and then run around the mountains with him, and after leaving the palace, I felt very fresh about everything. I will also instruct him to do all kinds of chores, because I am an adult at heart, and he is just a child, so wouldn't I be playing him around.

However, it is precisely because I, as a junior disciple, always stands in the posture of an adult to guide him and teach him, so he often messes with me, and the balance between us is a little out of harmony at that time, right? If I had been the senior brother from the beginning, and he was the second junior brother, then there would have been a lot less friction and contradictions between us. If our seniority is reversed, it is estimated that I will be treated like a junior sister and a junior brother, and I will also be very good to the senior brother as a second junior brother.

Later, it seems that it was only after the junior sister came to Shuijing Peak that there was a bit of a big trouble between me and the senior brother. The reason for the trouble is very simple, everyone wants to win the heart of the junior sister, although they are just children, but it is easier to have a competitive mentality. But it's just been fighting for a while, and when I'm used to the existence of my junior sister, I don't have the idea of fighting, and I even feel that taking care of my younger sister is very troublesome and blame each other.

Later, when I came to the age of studying in school, my senior brother and I were the best among our peers, which naturally aroused jealousy. At that time, there was not much difference in cultivation between children, and it was purely a matter of fighting with one strength. I remember once seeing a senior brother being bullied by a senior brother of the same age, so I went up and gave those people a slap in the face. Later, naturally, as Yanagi said, he was beaten very badly in turn.

By the way, it was at that time that because of the fight, my senior brother and I were punished by the teacher of the school to stand in the courtyard outside, and then ...... I got into a fight with my brother.

As far back as I can remember, he was angry and told me he didn't need my help. Because he's a big brother, older than me, he can solve everything. He said that in the future, he will become the number one hero in the world, not only to hoe the strong and help the weak, but also not to be bullied by anyone. Then I laughed at him that he was just a little ghost, and the name of the number one in the world in the future would definitely be mine.

Then a fight ensued, and since then the relationship has been getting worse and worse.

At the time, I couldn't understand why he was so excited, but now from the perspective of an "outsider", it seems that he finally understands.

I seem to be relying on myself to be an "adult", and I underestimate my young elder brother too much. As a junior brother, he has the maturity of an adult/adult, compared to the senior brother at that time, he must feel very unwilling, right?

But I didn't notice this, but took everything for granted, and didn't think much about helping him when I saw him being bullied, because in my eyes he was just a ghost. But if it was me who was bullied, but it was the junior brother who protected me, and as a result, I was beaten and punished together, it would definitely hurt my self-esteem very much.

He had no way to vent this useless feeling of discomfort and pass on all these mistakes to others, so that he could keep himself.

Later, the genius of the senior brother was gradually revealed, and the reputation of the genius was getting bigger and bigger, and there was no one in his age who could compete with him. And I'm still just a piece of waste, and there's no way to compare with him.

In this comparison, he became a little proud, showing me how good he was to the one who saw him as a little ghost. And for me, it was his turn to hurt my pride. I'm a traverser, I'm an adult at heart, what's the reason to lose to a little ghost?

That's how I started to hate him, and even had the illusion that he had taken everything I was supposed to have.

He hated me, and I hated him, and this contradiction was never resolved, and the resentment grew deeper and deeper, until it is now.