Chapter 30: I Don't Look Forward
The setting sun rises silently from behind the tall buildings and shines on the dark red lacquered signs on the platform. When a tram enters the station, as soon as the door opens, the setting sun pours a faint light onto the floor covered with human figures behind the door, and as soon as the door closes, the pale red pillar of light slowly disappears, leaving only a car of twilight and tired people returning home.
Hoshino got on the train and waved at them, and then the train quickly disappeared into the twilight, and Hoshimi stared blankly at the crowd walking in the opposite direction.
"Why does Miho think it's useless to pray for blessings?" Asuka Saito sat beside her and asked coldly. "It's obviously called hoshimi (Hoshimi), hoshi (hopeful) don't you want it?."
"How can you cut names like this, and when did you become as fond of breaking casseroles as Ikuta?" Hoshimi leaned back, his hands on his sides, and quietly looked at the non-silent Asuka and felt strange.
Asuka Saito just shook his head and turned his head to look in the direction where the train was coming, "It's okay if you don't want to say it, I'm just a little curious." ”
Hoshimi felt a little funny, but he also asked abnormally, "Do you believe in parallel time and space?" ”
Seeing Asuka Saito looking at her with a puzzled expression, Hoshimi frowned and tapped his fingers at the grooves of the seat under him, "Although Asuka usually likes to read books and likes things like philosophy, he shouldn't be interested in the multiverse theory." ”
"I, in fact, prefer a single universe, a single universe is cleaner and more refreshing, and I can also wantonly hope and make wishes, and expect everything to go in the direction I want. But no, the Multiverse may exist. Hoshimi straightened his legs, his heels against the floor and shook gently.
"But does it have anything to do with making a wish?"
"There is a relationship. So it's the Multiverse, and you can't expect to always get good results. There is a saying that every time we do a probabilistic question, such as whether I think about whether to join Nogizaka, for example, I think about whether or not to do my homework, our decision will cause the universe to fork, and another universe and another me will make a different choice. Just as there may be a universe with no starry plank, the fundamental volatility of the universe forces us to make such a choice. ”
Hoshimi paused, turned his head to look at Asuka who was still confused, and smiled, Asuka looked down the tram tracks behind him and could see a corner of the city, and the lights of the city's thousands of homes reflected in Hoshimi's eyes only added to the loneliness. "So, I can expect everything to go well for me, and expect everything to happen according to my ideas, but all the accidents and misfortunes are actually just happening in different parallel universes, happening to another me."
"So?" Asuka nodded, as if he understood something, and as if he was trapped in a powerless whirlpool and could not extricate himself.
So, for me, for me who believes in the Multiverse, hope and expectation are just the reasons for the birth of the next victim of the Multiverse. Hoshimi lowered her head and asked herself, the backs of the crowd returning home were staggered and blurred in front of her, and a trace of burning breath began to evaporate in her heart.
"But you're in this universe, and the Multiverse is just a hypothesis. Wouldn't it be painful to live without hope? Asuka's voice was filled with powerlessness, a sense of powerlessness that gradually watched his companions sink to the bottom of the water, but could only stand on the shore and cry out in despair.
Hoshimi felt the strong aura in her heart, and her body fluttered with each heartbeat. "No, because I have obtained the most precious thing, and the thing I wish for the most is already in my hands, and I am already lucky, and it is the luck that God has stolen from me by closing his eyes." Hoshimi looked up at her, and his face did not have the sadness and loneliness that Asuka Saito expected, only relief and happiness.
"Stolen? Why was it stolen? ”
"You're really possessed by Ikuta today, it's just a feeling, why are you kid asking like that?" Hoshimi waved his hand impatiently, but a smile appeared on the corner of his lips.
"We're the same year, aren't you also a child."
"Yes, but although I'm a child, I don't know how to ask, this is a sign of my maturity, learn a little."
"You!"
"What are you, your car is here, go home. See you next time, remember to take a good look at your mistakes, it's outrageous. Hoshimi picked up the schoolbag beside him and handed it to Asuka Saito, who was standing and arranging her skirt.
"You have to take care of it!" Saito took the schoolbag handed over by Hoshimi and echoed indifferently.
"You don't want me to care, so why are you running here today?"
"I'm going home, you moldy kiwi!"
"Let's go, a musty kiwi is better than a chirping bird! And why am I a kiwi! I'm not green at all, okay! Hoshimi got up angrily and looked at the birds that were running towards the door.
The warning bell remembered just in time, interrupting Hoshimi's unfinished dissatisfaction, and the tram galloped away with a gust of wind that raised the hair on her forehead.
"What." Hoshimi shook his head, picked up his schoolbag with his right hand, gently hooked the strap of the schoolbag with two fingers and put his hand on his shoulder, as if he remembered something, he quickly put his hand down, carried it in a proper manner, and walked to the opposite bus stop.
I don't know if it's because of time, but there are very few people on the platform today.
The headphones were just hanging on her ears as before, Hoshimi leaned her head down on the stone pillar of the platform, her bangs were slightly longer and could gently sweep her eyes and face, and she was thinking about whether to go back to trim herself or go to the barber shop another day, when a shadow hit her, and a few pairs of men's shoes appeared under her eyes, which looked like they hadn't been cleaned properly for a long time.
Hoshimi looked up silently, there was no sound in the headphones, and she could clearly hear the sneering voices of the boys around her, it was very ugly, and she began to regret that she didn't broadcast anything, and her English listening was good, at least better than the voices of these fools.
"What are you looking at? I've never seen such good-looking people as my brothers, why don't you go play with us for a while? The man facing Hoshimi had a cigarette in his mouth and squinted at her.
"yes, you've had enough fun with us, we'll send you back in a while."
"Don't speak?" She pulled the schoolbag she was carrying in her hand with a strange yellow hair, and when she saw the student card hanging on the schoolbag, she smiled and asked, "Yo?" Among the Ochanomizu girls? There are no boys in your girls' school, right? What about the eldest lady? ”
Hoshimi tugged at his schoolbag, dodging the boy's hand playing with his student card, "Didn't your mother teach you not to touch other people's things?" Your hands are so dirty, I'm not ready to change my card. She raised her eyes and glanced at the boy coldly, looking at the other party's slightly evasive appearance and feeling very bored.
"It's bad for you to come out like this? Do you have a bad relationship with your parents and teachers, and you are going to take them to send people to find scolding? Hoshimi leaned against the stone pillar and looked up at a few people slightly, and the slightly stunned reflections of a few people were reflected in his clear pupils, "Pinch the cigarette for me!" Don't you know how to talk about civilization and new style? ”
Hoshimi was about to continue teaching the stunned few people when he heard a familiar female voice coming from a distance, "What are you doing!" Let her go! ”