Every time I go home, my heart will be very heavy, when I was still in school, my parents would ask me how I was studying, whether I would be able to find a job after graduation, and I was always at a loss, because many of my homework had to be passed by failing the make-up exam.

So they always said, "Let you study hard in high school, go to medical school and come back to work in the hospital, and inherit our Yun mantle." ”

Our ancestors of the Yun family have always practiced medicine and walked the rivers and lakes, but it was broken in my father's generation, and only my aunt chose to practice medicine. Therefore, when I was in high school at that time, I became the hope of my family, wishing me to further my medical studies, combine the ancestral Chinese medicine with Western medicine, and carry forward the Yun family while inheriting it, and I have a long way to go.

My grandfather, in particular, was the one who most wanted me to work in the medical field, and he was so young and frivolous that he thought he could soar into the sky and look down on the whole world at the snap of a finger.

After retiring from the traditional Chinese medicine department of the county hospital in 04, my grandfather opened a Yun's traditional Chinese medicine hall, and I would go to help catch and cut medicine during the winter and summer vacations...

Sometimes I also recall that when I was a child, I followed my grandfather to the mountains with my cousin Lin Yuan to collect traditional Chinese medicine, and my grandfather would also tell us about the pharmacology of different medicinal materials and what kind of incurable diseases were treated.

Looking back now, my grandfather has been a doctor all his life, retired and did not live a quiet old age, but also chose to deal with medicinal herbs and patients, and saved many people, but he was an ordinary person.

After graduating, I deeply experienced the hardships of life, the hardships and boredom of sales work, and I even regretted it,... If time can be rekindled and let me be reborn in high school, even if I don't go to a conservatory of music, I can work hard to get into a medical school, at least practicing medicine is to fulfill my family's wishes, and what I do is also a contribution to society and has greater significance and value, after all, can sales be done for a lifetime?

Some things are in the past, and regretting what you get is just useless.

It's just that over the years, my family has put a lot of pressure on me, and now I'm okay, in a year or two, I will face urging to get married, get married and have children, but now I can't even support myself, how to protect and take care of the woman who has been with me all my life...

I used to think it was summer love, and I fantasized about marrying her, starting my own family, not going to a super first-tier city, doing an interesting career in a second-tier city, and living an ordinary life, but that... After all, it is the shadow of a dream.

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At this moment, my father called me, and I was under the impression that I hadn't talked to him for a long time, and his voice was a little heavy: "Xiaoqian... Is everything okay outside? ”

"Hmm!"

"What if... I'm too tired, just go home! Home will always be a castle for you to rest..."

"I know, Dad, I don't want to go home so early, I don't have the face to come back if I don't make some achievements..." ”

The other end of the phone was silent for a while, but I heard my father smile, "We are all good, you are not young anymore, you didn't let you fall in love with Qin Jing in high school before for your studies, and now you are not young... 23 now! In a few years, it's time to get married, your grandfather is old, he wants to watch you get married, and you fight for... Take a girl home early for the New Year... It's really not good, I'll tell you Uncle Qin..."

Qin Jing is my first love, her father and my father are good friends, I heard my mother say, my father was engaged to Uncle Qin when he was young, so when I was in school, I always used this matter to tease Qin Jing and tease her, who knows, and then we secretly got together.

"I... Dad, don't... That's all in the past, don't do that... I don't like Qin Jing now, after so many years, people have long had their own lives, in short, you don't have to worry about it... I'll try my best to fight for your son! ”

Over the years, I have seen that they like Qin Jing very much, Qin Jing is very gentle, belongs to a very well-behaved and sensible kind of girl, has good academic performance, and has two charming dimples when she laughs.

Our two families also come and go frequently, and it can be said that Qin Jing is treated as half a daughter-in-law, and I am afraid that even their elders did not expect that the baby relatives would be together. Therefore, I complained about my parents and quarreled at that time, and it was precisely because of that incident that I communicated less and less with my parents.

But then I thought about it, especially after experiencing the rules of society, I understood their feelings better... Or maybe I've grown up... If you can, you are willing to joke more with your parents and listen to what is in their hearts.

"Then you look at it yourself, I won't get involved in the affairs of your young people!"

Father vicissitudes of life: "Hey, now the project is not easy to do, in the past two years, the money for several projects has not been allocated, the workers are urging to pay wages, and your father's family has been cushioned all these years... I can't help you anything, Xiaoqian, you have to learn to rely on yourself! ”

"Dad, don't worry! I have hands and feet, I can support myself, I know that life will always get better..."

I only heard my father laugh twice, and he hung up the phone, and my father was still so cool, he always didn't want me to hang up on him first, and every time he hung up first... After thinking about it, I unconsciously looked at the phone screen and smiled.

Speaking of which, I haven't seen Qin Jing for many years, since she was discovered and educated by both parents in her third year of high school, she has become more and more distant from me, although I will still secretly look for her in private at that time, but she is a very obedient, not rebellious, and never dare to disobey the wishes of her parents.

In the years when I came to W City to go to school, when I went home during the Spring Festival, only Uncle Qin and Aunt Qin would come to visit, and Qin Jing never came again.

At that time, WeChat was not popular, I only had Qin Jing's QQ and phone number, after the college entrance examination, she was admitted to Wuhan University, I went to W City farther away, we still had occasional contact when I first entered the school, until the end of the military training, I met Lao Kang, Qiqi, Kun Kun We formed a band, and I devoted myself to the band.

Until the lead singer met Xia Qing...

The girl I will always remember at first glance, dressed up queerly, holding the microphone... The whole stage seems to be her world!

The distance between him and Qin Jing is thousands of miles, and it is difficult to continue the long-distance relationship, and the feeling gradually fades.

Later, QQ was used less and less, until one day I found out that Qin Jing was missing the contact on the friend list, I dialed the number of her former hometown, which was already empty...

I have searched for Qin Jing's QQ number, but I have never decided to add her, I think she has her new life, I wish everyone well.

At that time, I didn't know love, and I opened my mouth and closed my mouth to say many vows to Qin Jing that I would never do, that was the most hazy heartbeat, that was the most unadulterated emotion, and that was the deepest longing.

Many years later, when I think back to my high school life and the beginning, I still think about it as the truest, most beautiful, purest and sweetest.

However, it is only a memory buried deep in the mind.