BGM：《I'm Tired of Feeling This Way》

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When God threw the same soul into the physical world, he split it into two bodies, and they learned and grew together until the time was ripe for them to meet again, which was the destined meeting of their souls.

The first time Nanase Nishino saw Yumi Wakatsuki was in a dark and cramped room, lying flat on a boxy table, with a white cloth spread under her, and wearing a small dress that she didn't like so much. Her limbs were unconscious, only her head could twist slightly, and every inch of movement of her spine was a tingling pain, and beads of sweat the size of beans slid down her sideburns and dripped onto the white cloth.

Just as tears and sweat kept wetting her face, she saw Yumi Wakatsuki.

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Later, my mother told Nishino that everyone in the world has a soul mate, and there is only one person, and before they meet, they may both meet countless people in their respective circumstances, and then after climbing the lonely peaks, they complete the encounter of fate, and since then there is no you and me, before they meet, they fall in love with each other.

Nishino proudly told her mother at the time that she was lucky to have found her soulmate without meeting too many people.

Nishino believed that in that unknown box room, the moment she opened her eyes, she had completed the encounter of fate, and the palpitations brought by that glance were like she had loved that person for a thousand years.

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In that square and closed box space, tears blurred Nishino's eyes, and the pain in his back was like a pinprick deep into the bone marrow. Wakkatsuki and her lay side by side on the square table, watching her cry blankly, and there was only a palm-wide distance between the two, which was easily broken by Wakatsuki's outstretched hand.

Wakatsuki was wearing a hospital gown and smiled at her with a pale face.

Her hand lifted up and stayed on Nishino's face, helplessly helping her wipe away the tears from her face, and repeating two monotonous words anxiously in her ear, 'Don't be afraid. ’

Clumsy care is what children are best at, Wakatsuki clumsily held the back of her hand and put her palm on Nishino's face, and finally her whole hand was wet, and she didn't know what to say when she blushed, so she could only bite her lip and endure the pain on her body, hugging her equally delicate body.

Nishino looked at Wakatsuki's shining eyes and pursed lips stupidly, tears seeped into Wakatsuki's fingers, and were brought to her cheeks, cold and cold, like summer shattered, ice cream melted on her hands, and the originally bitter and wet tears turned into a sweet sea salt taste.

She just shrunk into Wakatsuki's warm arms, like the moon actively hiding in the white clouds, and for a moment she didn't know who was shining, but both of them snuggled up to each other and fell asleep.

4

Nishino sits in the penultimate row by the window, the standard protagonist position, diagonally in front of Wakatsuki, who is talking with friends and discussing summer vacation plans.

The first encounter in childhood seems to be remembered only by Nishino, and countless side knocks have not gotten any information from Wakatsuki's mouth, as if this memory is like a dream she had.

Nishino often dreams, with Wakaki, without Wakaki, she does both.

But Wakakatsuki's dream was different, Wakatsuki was like a flame lit in her black and white world, jumping alive and printing a warm red light, and as soon as she got closer, she wanted to reach out and hold the fire firmly.

Nishino often dreams, dreaming of the day she first met, 'Don't be afraid,' Wakatsuki said, and in the dream she finally replied firmly, 'I'm not afraid.' As long as she clenched the fire in her hand, she was not afraid of anything.

Even lying on that unknown square table, in a dark room. Even if her body stopped moving except for her heartbeat, she was not afraid of anything.

5

"Senior sister? What are you looking at? ”

Nishino shook his head, smiling and not answering.

There are only two members of the Astronomical Society, and in addition to Nishino, there is only one senior sister who is one level lower than her. Approaching graduation, Nishino will also think that after she graduates, her junior sister will be very lonely, and she will be left alone in the Astronomy Society.

If your hand has been firmly held by someone, that person will hold you and run forward without purpose, but your heartbeat tells you that you like to follow her like this, wherever she takes you, every fingertip that does not leave a gap between the ten fingers is an unknown sense of heart-to-heart.

Nishino saw the schoolgirl pluck up the courage to confess, and looked up at the rooftop soaked in the glow, she was looking at the constellation Cancer, which she couldn't see at all, and the news said that there was a Cancer meteor shower for the second time this month tonight, and she wanted to make a wish, and the wishing meteor would bring her twin lights back.

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Nishino sat silently in front of the astronomical telescope, and the rain dripped densely along the eaves, darkening the whole tomorrow, the originally clear tomorrow.

She sat under the eaves with her knees crossed, silently guarding the telescope, not knowing whether she was looking at the rain or the invisible meteor shower, she suddenly remembered Ruoyue on the day of the breakup, and Ruoyue that day also sat on the riverbank with her eyes closed and sat silently.

Does Wakatsuki hate herself? Hate herself for stealing her kisses, her time, and even the value of her life.

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A pair of children who grow up side by side will always have a common secret space.

Wakatsuki took her hand and walked into the silver-white warehouse for the first time, the warehouse was like an alien spaceship, Wakatsuki squinted and teased her, scratched her nose, and then lied to her that as long as she was here, time would stop.

Nishino believed it was true, and asked her if it was real? She is willing that time will stop forever, as long as her twin lights are by her side.

Wakatsuki smiled close to her cheek, teasing her, and admitting that it was a lie.

Later, she returned to the small warehouse, but their safe cabin was only a deserted place, everything was long gone, as if it had never appeared, the warehouse, the doll, the balloon, and her twin lights.

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Nishino only learned that secret after his mother's death, the true secret hidden deep behind the 'twin flames'.

Her father asked her to decide on the school she transferred to as soon as possible, and in that summer, packing everything and leaving her safety cabin, leaving her twin lights, she and her father quarreled again and again, and finally could only cowardly tears to pack their luggage.

She packed up her mother's materials, both of which were well-known researchers, and the materials were piled up throughout the study, but the researcher's busy schedule did not give her father the opportunity to pack his own.

Nishino neatly put the materials into a cardboard box, and in his mother's research notes, a photo slipped out, and the familiar room on the photo made her distinguish at a glance, Wakatsuki's clear eyes, her tear-stained appearance in the other party's arms, were all taken extremely clearly, so clear that she trembled.

The 'twin flames' in her mother's mouth, if the soul is divided into two, are all nonsense, they are all liars, she is just an android, an android created by researchers.

But why make her? Nishino opened the notes with trembling hands, and each stroke was like a sharp knife on her body, and her flesh and bones were slashed into her blood.

When I closed the book, it was day and night, and the white light tried to drive away the darkness, shining on Nishino, she stood in the first ray of sunlight in a daze, but the person was shivering with cold, like a handful of dead branches, which broke when touched.

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Twin Flame Project:

Use bionic people to build soul mates for humans, let androids go through the same growth and training period as their masters, and cultivate their personality traits according to the needs of their masters. For example, constructing a dependent partner for a serious and reliable owner, satisfying the owner's sense of dedication and control, etc.

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Experimental Group No. 46: Yumi Nishino Nanase Wakatsuki

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Research progress: There was no one, the 46th android had a physical accident in the early stage (6 years old), recovered once to participate in the maintenance and then put into the experiment again, in order to improve the success rate of the experiment, the anesthetic owner brought into the laboratory to match the second genetic test with the android.......

Half a year ago, it was discovered that the android had physical problems again, and it was recommended to start the recycling process, and the experiment was terminated.

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Nanase Nishino didn't show up at school, she packed her bags and hid in her safety cabin, she huddled in the shadows, afraid to see the sun again.

That day, Yumi Wakatsuki appeared in the safety cabin of the two of them at night with a flashlight, and when she opened the door, she saw Nishino like that. Her eyes were empty black holes, her lips were pale paper, and she lost consciousness after being impulsively held into her arms by Wakatsuki.

Wakatsuki had never been so scared, she was afraid of Nishino's paper-thin shadow, afraid of her sea-cold cheeks, she hugged her in confusion and called her.

For a long time, Nishino seemed to have a sweet dream that was warmed and dyed by the flames, and woke up from Wakatsuki's arms with a smile, not knowing whether it was himself or Wakatsuki's tears on his face.

At that moment, Nishino thought, it was worth it. She's Wakatsuki's android, and it's worth it, she can't hold the fire, she'll be burned, but the wound is also worth it, as long as it's Wakatsuki, as long as she needs her, everything is worth it.

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Wakatsuki insisted on staying in the safety cabin.

They have a party together in the safety cabin, holding hands in the sunset and stepping on the unconvinced wave, watching the stars by the fire, watching the Cancer who guards Ruoyue, and looking at the Gemini who guards her, looking forward to a clear tomorrow together.

Nishino thought that her tomorrow had never been so clear, and it was clear that she was trapped in a cage, but whether it was a prison or a cage, she was willing, everything was fine.

She thought that one day she would be destroyed, maybe another Nishino II would appear next to Wakatsuki, but she had already given her heart and left it on Wakatsuki, which could not be recycled, and when she thought of this, she was no longer confused, nor sad, she could embrace the flame forever.

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Soon, seabirds hovered overhead, and the sound of the waves was a parting horn.

The father found Nishino, and when he saw Wakatsuki, who was guarding her tightly, he angrily grabbed her and walked away, and slapped her awake from her dreams.

But in the next second, the dream still grabbed her, she was firmly held by Wakatsuki, the clasped hands trapped her heartbeat, she hoped more than once that Wakatsuki's words were true, that time could stop, that she could be frozen on Wakatsuki's side forever, running in the sunset no matter where the destination was.

But the road has an end, and even the sea has an end. Exhausted, she fell to the ground with Wakatsuki.

The setting sun tells her there is no tomorrow.

Facing the light, Nishino knew how hot the flame was, and she could only keep crying when it was hot, leaning over to kiss Wakatsuki's lips, using all her strength.

"In this way, whether it is ten years or twenty years from now, I will not forget it." If you can, never forget me, Wakatsuki.

Nishino still left, not because she accepted her fate, but she hoped that Wakatsuki would always remember Nishino Nanase, not her android, she was just Wakatsuki's Nanasai, nothing more.

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"Liar."

After Nishino left, Ruoyue slowly opened her eyes, she didn't have to look for it, she already knew where Nishino would go, she didn't have to chase it, she had already understood that she wouldn't live long.

The fingertips with force and anticipation only grasped a touch of nothingness after all. Crumpled into a ball by Wakatsuki and pressed in the palm of his hand,It's Nishino Nanase's transfer intention form.,

Wakatsuki didn't lie to her, because Wakatsuki's time stopped forever, in that silent summer, with the last only green kiss.

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Nishino really transferred to another school, and she was not sent to an unknown laboratory halfway, she didn't dare to ask, so she could only wait, waiting for the time when she would be destroyed.

Until the school year, she couldn't straighten her waist because of her longing, and she trickled down from the branches that had already been bent by the snow.

Nishino returned to her and Wakatsuki's school with the unreturned astronomical book, and there was an extra astronomical book on the shelf, and the senior girl from the photography department walked into the library at the same time as her to return the book.

Nishino waited until the other party left and spread out the book curiously, and the name of Yumi Wakatsuki was written on the library card, but it was decisively crossed out, and the borrowing time was stuck a year ago. She suddenly remembered Wakatsuki, who was wearing a hospital gown on the day she first met, and herself in a private suit.

The crow rested on the branch and spread into the library with a gloomy sky, and the mournful chirping could not wake up the man who had indulged in fear and sorrow, and there was no way to arrange for her to meet the sun again, for her time was gone even with the fleeting flame.

The crow spread its wings and flew away, and the dead leaves were flown down by the crow fan.

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The father confessed everything to Nishino.

For researchers, science is more important than everything, even if they let their children join the experiment, they are willing, after all, in their hearts, the existence of androids is beneficial and harmless to Nishino, she is just an existence born for Nishino, an object with a clear price.

However, as a father and mother, whether it is anesthetics or blood sample drawing, it is normal to be soft-hearted, and unwilling to let children be affected by more physical influences.

So when Nishino woke up in the middle of the laboratory when he was 6 years old, it was also the result of their soft-heartedness.

Nishino smiled palely, no one knew when her heart died, only she knew, she handed it over for no reason, her only beating heart was handed over to the researcher in front of her for recycling and destruction.

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The Cancer meteor shower was hidden in the rain and mist, and Nishino was like a physical ghost, allowing the rain star to extinguish half of her soul fire.

When the rain stopped, Nishino packed up her telescope, and the school she didn't want to set foot in again sent her a letter with a photo of her, a picture of Wakatsuki, all taken a year ago.

Nishino trembled as he pinched the photo, and wiped his fingers on his clothes again and again, for fear that fine sweat would stain a corner of the photo.

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Nishino saw the school girl who returned the book that day again, and it was Wakatsuki's school sister.

Nishino knows a lot, and knows that Wakatsuki transferred and left after she transferred to another school, but her things were left in the photography department, and the senior sister directed Wakatsuki's things from the utility cabinet in the photography department.

The letter sent to Nishino was also sent by the school girl, and the address was sandwiched in Wakatsuki's camera bag.

Nishino went home with his bag, which contained all the memories of the two of them, and perhaps Wakatsuki knew that it was the only corner that could ensure that these memories would not be destroyed.

Nishino saw the yellowed paper ball, which was his letter of intent to transfer to another school.

Turning the yellowed paper over, Nishino's tears finally broke the embankment, but there was no clumsy hand that would just help her wipe it evenly on her hand.

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"I hate being android, I hate Nanase Nishino, I hate this world."

"I hate Yumi Wakatsuki, who still has a heartbeat for Nanase Nishino."

"Liar, ten years, twenty years, remember to forget me."

"Liar, next time, don't just kiss me."

"I can't say I'm here."

"But don't be afraid."