Fang Hua had insomnia again.

Even though he knew he would have to wake up early tomorrow and go to class, he still couldn't sleep.

He originally wanted to send QQ to the four demons, but the four demons were probably already asleep, and it was not good to disturb him again, so Fang Hua didn't do that.

He thought he would be strong, and he would always smile when he was under pressure, and he thought he would always be like this; But reality tells you: you're wrong.

He suddenly remembered the summer vacation after his high school entrance examination, although 3 years have passed, and some details have been forgotten, but now that he thinks about it, he will still feel inevitably resentful in his heart.

"Dad, when I finish the exam, can you take me to Shanghai to play?"

"Okay, no problem. But you have to take the exam well and get a good score! ”

The agreement made by his father and himself before the high school entrance examination made him a junior high school student. For this engagement, he reviewed it day and night. Every day is a life of two o'clock and one line, and on Saturdays and Sundays, there is a whole set of cram schools, of course, Fang Hua will be tired, even if he is an iron man, this kind of life can't stand it.

However, when he thought of the agreement with his father, he couldn't let himself rest, because he had to get a good score in the exam and make his parents proud.

He was fortunate to experience the nightlife of Luzhou, because of the cram school delay, he did not catch the last bus bus, and he had to walk home without any pennis. A 5-kilometer journey may not seem like much to him now, but he was only 14 years old at the time; To make matters worse, it was raining, so he had to complain about the changeable weather while running, trying not to get soaked, or the cold would delay his studies.

Fortunately, halfway home, a familiar figure with an umbrella appeared in his field of vision, and it turned out to be his grandfather! In order to take care of himself who was about to take the high school entrance examination, he and his grandmother came from their hometown specially.

"How did you know I was going to walk home this way?" Fang Hua hurriedly ran over, he was a little curious, grandpa shouldn't know where he went to cram school, how could he know that he would go to this intersection?

"Silly boy, won't I ask?" Grandpa hurriedly took out a towel, "Wipe your head, look at you, it's like a chicken in soup." ”

Fang Hua took the towel, his heart was full of warmth, and his previous complaints were gone.

"Hurry home, your grandmother gave you the soup." Grandpa and Fang Hua dried their hair and handed over the umbrella again; An old man and a young man walked on the already empty street, and the street lamps stretched their shadows very long.

"Oh, your high school entrance examination is much more difficult than we were at that time." Grandpa sighed, "At that time, where we could go to cram school, we all read books by ourselves, or we would make papers, and some people even went to work before they finished junior high school." ”

"Although you don't have to worry about life now, but learning is also a lot harder, alas, too, today's children are very smart, much better than we were back then."

Fang Hua quietly listened to his grandfather tell the story of the past, listening to his grandfather tell the story, it was a little comfort for his busy life, he really hoped that time could be slowed down, he could open the test paper later, open the book, and memorize boring Chinese and boring words later.

"Fang Hua, have you ever thought about what you want to do in the future?" Grandpa suddenly asked Fang Hua, "I still remember when you were a child and told me that you wanted to be an engineer in the future, but now, do you still want to be an engineer?" He looked at Fang Hua kindly, expecting Fang Hua's answer.

Fang Hua was stunned for a moment, dreaming, this thing was a little strange to him; In his junior high school, there are only rankings and grades. Dreams, such ethereal things, teachers don't mention at all. From the first year of junior high school to the third year of junior high school, under the constant repetition of the teacher, Fang Hua was forced to accept an extreme fact, that is: grades and rankings speak for themselves!

He forgot his dreams. What I care about now is the exact scores on the papers, not the so-called "engineers", and if my grandfather didn't say it, he probably wouldn't have remembered it.

"Ahh In a hurry, he pretended to nod and prevaricated.

"That's good, the last thing a person can't forget is his dream, because that's the way forward." Grandpa nodded in satisfaction and smiled happily. He didn't see Fang Hua's lowered head and the lost light in his eyes.

The high school entrance examination ended quickly, and it was almost so fast that Fang Hua felt that the two months were like a flick of his fingers. It's still a rainy day, today is the first day after the end of the high school entrance examination, and I'm going to school to take graduation photos.

He stood at the very edge of the echelon, with no smile on his face, and when some of his classmates even hugged their heads and cried, he didn't feel anything, his junior high school was like a false empty shell, and there was nothing in it.

After taking the graduation photo, Fang Hua left directly, without saying hello to his classmates and teachers, there was no need for that. All he could think about now was the promise his father had made; Shanghai, I'm coming!

But when he got home and saw the prep materials on the table, he almost broke down, he tried his best to control his emotions, and came to the living room, "Mom, what's that on my desk?" There was an uncontrollable tremor in his voice.

"Oh, that's, that's the information for the preparatory class, you're about to go to high school, and the knowledge in high school is definitely much more difficult than in junior high school, so ah, I'm thinking about signing you up for a preparatory class, so that you can make the transition first, and it won't take long, about a month." Mom sat on the sofa and said while looking at her phone.

"What about Shanghai? What did my dad promise me before? ”

"Shanghai, don't think about it first, this high school entrance examination is just a small threshold, and the college entrance examination after three years of high school is the big threshold, and you must focus on the overall situation, so I will take you back to your hometown for two days, and it will be regarded as going out to play, okay?"

Fang Hua didn't speak, he clenched his fists, his eyes filled with tears.

He turned around and went back to his room, locked the door, hugged his head and cried, he felt that he had been deceived, that he had been deceived by his parents.

This feeling is unforgettable, Fang Hua still remembers it, he doesn't know why his parents can't even promise such a wish of his own.

The results of the high school entrance examination came down, Fang Hua's score was quite ideal, and his parents were also very happy, they invited their relatives and held a banquet to celebrate Fang Hua's successful promotion.

"Thank you, thank you, Fang Hua did well in the exam this time, please get together and share the joy." Fang Hua's father was full of smiles, he was indeed happy today, and Fang Hua's mother was the same.

After the middle tour, my mother pounded Fang Hua, she saw that Fang Hua's expression was not quite right, "What are you doing with a straight face?" Laugh a little. Mom quickly pinched Fang Hua's face, "You can also say a few words, don't always eat there all the time!" She handed the drink to Fang Hua.

Fang Hua felt that he had nothing to say, this dinner made him nauseous, he just wanted to leave quickly after filling his stomach now, it was better to stay in the cram school than to stay here.

"Say!" Mom smashed Fang Hua again, she was not too embarrassed to get angry in front of everyone; What's going on with Fang Hua today? It's like a different person, indifferent to his own words.

Fang Hua couldn't stand being pounded, he stood up, he originally wanted to say all the words in his heart, how he survived the anxiety before the high school entrance examination, how his parents promised before, and what he regretted later. He wanted to tell these things as they were, to say a happy one, to have a good time!

When you say it, you will feel comfortable, and you won't block it!

But when he saw his father's gray hair, his mother's wrinkles, the words that piled up on his lips could not be said anyway.

Yes, parents are in breach of contract, but why not for their own future? The decision was made so that I could have a little advantage before the start of high school and not suffer in high school.

His lips were a little dry, and his hand holding the cup trembled a little, "Thanks... Thank you for coming to this reception, everyone eat and drink well! You're welcome! ”

Finally holding back a few polite words, Fang Hua drank all the drinks in the cup, his mouth was not as dry as before, and the impulse from his heart also retreated. He took a slight breath and sat down.

"Aren't you usually able to talk about it, why don't you say it when you have a chance?" Mom was still a little dissatisfied, but as long as she said it, she didn't care about so many details.

After Fang Hua finished eating, he hurriedly said hello to everyone on the grounds that he still had classes in the afternoon, and left. It wasn't until he walked out of the hotel that he felt better.

Now he doesn't have so much resistance to cram school, although the preparatory courses are numerous and a little difficult, but the teachers and classmates are very interesting, and he also got to know a group of "brothers", one of them may be his classmates.

Then, military training, the start of school,

Freshman year of high school, sophomore year of high school.

Just walked over like this, Fang Hua didn't think about what he wanted to do, his life was spent in the same way of learning and playing, and sometimes he also thought about his own life, but it was all whimsical and unrealistic in the second secondary school.

My grandfather would occasionally call to ask about my situation, but my mother usually expressed it on my behalf.

Now that I think about it, my life is so monotonous, mechanical, like a programmed program, press the start button, and it will continue to execute over and over again, end, start again, end again, start again......

He gradually indulged in this seemingly beautiful circle of death, covering his heart with an illusion shell, and he couldn't even see his true appearance.

It wasn't until he came into contact with Steam and Rainbow Six during the summer vacation that he was able to peek into a real Fang Hua; For the first time, he knew that he still had a talent for FPS, a talent that many veteran players could hardly reach; He should give full play to his talents, whether it is the Four Demons or Lin Qian, they all say so.

The most important thing is that he has found what he really likes, he really wants to make professional players his goal, he is not only eager to compete on the international stage, he is also eager to stand on the stage of the Asian Games and represent China against his opponents.

In life, there are many things to try. This is their favorite phrase from their Chinese teacher. Fang Hua also wanted to try, he didn't want to wait until later to regret it, he wanted to move forward to the career path!

That's right, I'm going to be a champion! I want them to see that they can make a name for themselves when they play games!