41, Four Demons (2)
That Tao Jie is always against himself.
He is like himself in the mirror, he is the surface in reality, and the guy is the inside.
That guy, whose temper is completely different from his own, that guy, like the embodiment of anger and arrogance; He would always appear when Tao Jie was not looking, and in the most vicious language, mocking Tao Jie.
When he first appeared, Tao Jie was scared, and the person in front of him was exactly the same as himself.
"You, who are you?" Tao Jie's eyes widened in horror, and his voice trembled, which made the self in front of him quite satisfied.
"Who am I? I think you know better than I do. He laughed coldly, the evil in his voice that could not be concealed. I didn't think I'd ever be discovered by you, I thought you'd ignore me all the time. ”
The other Tao Jie turned around and glanced out at the balcony, after which he began to scratch his hair impatiently. "It's so boring, standing on the same balcony and looking at the same scenery every day, don't you feel bored?"
Tao Jie didn't answer, uneasiness grabbed his throat, and he couldn't speak.
"But looking at you like this, I'm afraid I can't say anything." Another Tao Jie sneered, "Isn't it very unpleasant to be robbed of toys by that person named Zhang Jun in the class today." He leaned against the wall and looked at Tao Jie playfully, "But I know you won't resist, because you don't want to fight at all, how tiring it is to fight, and you may not be able to beat him." ”
"And what you said before, I also heard it, what kind of fight is so dangerous, it's really funny; Men were born to fight, and they should fight. You look at you, like a dead man, sitting here motionless, and I think it's better for you to be a girl, and it will save you a lot of trouble. ”
After the other Tao Jie finished speaking, he raised his chin and locked on Tao Jie with an evil look in his arrogant eyes. "You want to refute me, right, but unfortunately, you will never be able to refute, because, I am you!"
He laughed wildly and disappeared.
There was only Tao Jie with a frightened face left in the room, his whole body was weak, his lips trembled, no one had ever spoken to him in such vicious words, but those vicious words could not be refuted.
He was afraid, afraid, and wanted to tell his grandmother about this strange thing.
"Oh, by the way, I know what you're thinking right now, you want to talk to someone else, let someone else help you; But you and I are one and the same, and if you don't want to be treated as crazy by your family and sent to a mental hospital, don't talk about it. ”
A terrible voice sounded in my head again, and it was already considered a threat.
Tao Jie's thought just now suddenly disappeared, and then, this guy will always be pestering him, and he doesn't know when this guy will leave.
Nightmares have always surrounded him.
This opposite Tao Jie seems to like to appear in the evening, whenever Tao Jie is in a daze, he stands silently against the wall, as if it is a natural thing for him to stand there.
He wasn't exactly humiliating Tao Jie, and sometimes he would give Tao Jie a little so-called guidance, although the words he said were indeed harsh, but at least they were not meaningless.
Tao Jie is usually the passive side. He could only listen to another Tao Jie's mocking words, wanting to refute, but he couldn't find a reason to refute at all. Each weak counterattack will be easily crushed by heavier words and more realistic reasons.
At this time, the other Tao Jie would be very satisfied, in his opinion, the expression of pain and guilt on Tao Jie's face was more exciting than honey, and after his sudden realization, the twisted expression that wanted to stop talking inspired him to mock even more brutally.
However, when the rabbit appeared, things seemed to change.
When another Tao Jie appeared on the usual balcony with the evening sunset, he did not see Tao Jie. Or rather, he didn't show up at all.
The next day, he did not show up.
Day 3,
Day 4......
Day after day, Tao Jie has forgotten the existence of another self. He had one or two friends of his own in kindergarten, and more importantly, the joy that the rabbit brought to him had long washed away the boredom and troubles that the other Tao Jie had brought to him.
People are like this, and it is instinct to avoid unhappy things.
He thought that his other self had disappeared, disappeared to the other side where he didn't know where or when; From now on, his heart is unified, and he will not babble into the air, or even be angry.
But now, there he was, just like he had done two years ago, walking quietly, still with an evil smile on his face.
Tao Jie thought he would still be scared, and he would be terrified of anything he said.
"Yo, is it still such an old-fashioned script? It's been two years, and it's time for you to change your tastes. The other Tao Jie twisted his neck, "What, standing there, are you going to punch me?" He hooked his finger at Tao Jie, and a touch of disdain appeared at the corner of his mouth.
Tao Jie stood firmly, with mixed feelings in his heart; It's been two years, what have you experienced in the past two years? I can't remember the cruel things he said at the beginning. I wonder if he has refined his taunting skills in the past two years?
If you change your life, will you also become a guy with a poisonous tongue, a rebellious character, and a little hooligan? Instead of being as it is now, a bit gloomy and introverted.
Looking at himself, the boy who was thin and weak, but unruly and unruly, and looked unyielding, maybe he was what he once wanted to become?
He smiled with relief, laughing helplessly, laughing freely.
If you can't get rid of it, why not accept it?
"What are you laughing at?" The other Tao Jie thought it was strange, shouldn't his appearance be painful for him? Why is he laughing?
Tao Jie was still smiling, he shook his head and didn't speak.
"Okay, whatever you want." The other Tao Jie shrugged his shoulders, he knew what Tao Jie meant. "But you have to endure it, and maybe you can exercise your ability to resist stress."
"Tao Jie, Tao Jie, what's wrong with you!" Mother was so anxious that she was about to cry, Tao Jie had been stunned for three minutes, he was really fascinated, he just stood there in a daze, muttering something in a low voice.
"Mom, please give me a reaction, okay!" Mother shook Tao Jie vigorously, and Tao Jie woke up like a dream.
"OMG!" When her mother saw that Tao Jie was sober, she quickly hugged Tao Jie into her arms, "It's all my mother's fault, my mother has too little time with you, I'm sorry, I'm sorry ......"
Tears seeped through the T-shirt and dripped onto Tao Jie's shoulders. Tao Jie calmly touched his mother's back, "It's okay, Mom, I'm fine." He reached out and wiped the tears from his mother's face, "Let's go home." ”
The days that followed flew by, Tao Jie would be reprimanded by another Tao Jie every day, he was used to it, and whenever he scolded himself, he would put on a smiling face. And the other Tao Jie is also a little bored, always scolding, which is indeed a bit excessive. The two gradually changed from arguing and scolding to communicating with each other, although the other Tao Jie's stinky temper and poisonous tongue remained the same.
Even if this is Tao Jie's secret, he has always buried this matter in his heart, even if it is his closest parents, he has never mentioned it.
It's another New Year, it's time for Tao Jie to go to elementary school, and his parents are worried again.
"Alas, this is going to elementary school, I don't know if Tao Jie can adapt to the class environment!"
Mother rubbed her temples, and Tao Jie was about to start the first day of her elementary school career the day after tomorrow, and she was still a little uneasy.
"Do you want me to talk to the teacher and let her take care of Tao Jie?" Father came up with an idea on the sidelines,
"No, this will cause the teacher's disgust, now the primary school teacher treats all students equally, and if the teacher takes care of Tao Jie, and the other students are unhappy, then Tao Jie will suffer?"
"That's right." The father nodded in affirmation, "So what to do?" ”
Father and mother both held their chins, worried about what would happen next.
"You're going to school the day after tomorrow, it's really troublesome, you still have to go to school." In Tao Jie's room, another Tao Jie knocked impatiently on the table, seemingly dissatisfied with school.
"If you don't go to school, you won't have knowledge, and you won't be able to pursue your dreams." Tao Jie was packing up his stationery while reasoning with his other self; He'd sorted out the pencil case five times today, each one sharpened by him, and the eraser was neatly leaning against the corner of the pencil case. He carefully slipped the pencil case into his bag, then zipped it up and leaned it against the edge of the table.
"You look like you're looking forward to it, I don't know what you're expecting." Another Tao Jie scoffed, "You've already checked that pencil case five times, will you have to check it again in a while?" ”
Tao Jie stretched, "Don't check, it's all ready." ”
"I hope so."
Tao Jie turned his head, and he was gone.
Are you ready?
Tao Jie felt that he should not have it, he did not want the situation of kindergarten to happen again, he was isolated, isolated, and did not have one or two close friends until the end of the day.
He wanted the other self to give some advice, even if it was a complaint.
It's a pity he didn't.