After learning that my mother would have surgery at 10 o'clock tonight, I was extremely conflicted and struggling on the bus back to school, expecting and panicking at the same time, hoping that my mother would get rid of the disease as soon as possible, but I was afraid that the surgeon would say a sentence after the operation: "I'm sorry, I've done my best, the surgery is ......" I couldn't even think of those words.

Li Xiao saw what I was thinking at a glance, took my hand and said, "Cousin, it's going to be fine, auntie, she's a good person." She told me that the fortune teller said she would live to be in her 90s. ”

When I heard this, I felt a little relieved, and comforted myself: "Yes, my mother is so good, and she burns incense and worships Buddha all day long, and sincerely asks for blessings, there is no reason why God will not favor her." ”

In addition, Li Xiao told me something else: she asked the head teacher for leave on Sunday night, only saying that I couldn't rush back to school in time for a trivial matter, and said the same to others, so even if I knew Zhang Ke, Wu Lili, Zhang Wen and others well, they didn't know the inside story. She handled the matter very well, almost exactly as I had in mind. Zhang Ke and Wu Lili are not careful people, so they will not notice. It's just that Zhang Wen noticed something unusual, and when I left the examination room in the morning, she looked up several times, because she knew that I was not a person who liked to hand in papers early and be in the limelight.

Another thing is: I don't know if Li Xiao's appearance at the cement factory that night was too far from what it is now, or Sisi was too frightened, or if he didn't pay attention. When the two met, Sisi didn't recognize Li Xiao, but said that they were a little familiar. But it's good that way, and it saves a lot of trouble with explanations.

In the afternoon, when I took the math test, I was concerned about my mother's surgery tonight, the pen was like flying, and it took less than half an hour to open the book, I handed in the paper regardless of the shocking world, but there was always some absent-mindedness during the period, 60% of the numbers that were vital to my mother's life and death flashed in my mind like a warning light, and several fill-in-the-blank questions were filled in like a ghost, until I found out when I checked.

After the exam, I still went straight to the hospital, and Li Xiao couldn't get out of the paper in advance this time. When I arrived at my mother's ward, my aunt and my father were there, and I could see that they were smiling and laughing very unnaturally, but my mother kept comforting them.

I walked in and said, "Mom, your surgery will go smoothly." "At this time, you should give your mother a little more confidence to encourage.

When my mother saw me, I said, "Xiaolin, have you finished the exam?" ”

I sat down in front of her bed and said, "I'm done with the exam, more than an hour earlier than everyone else." Mom, you see how smart your son is now, just rush here, you must watch me be admitted to a key university to show you. ”

When it came to key universities, my mother suddenly became bright, her face returned a little ruddy, and she smiled heartily: "This kid knows how to coax me." "The leap forward in my studies has been the most gratifying thing for her over the years, and I know that the idea of watching my son go to college must have been ingrained in her heart and will be of great help throughout the procedure.

I figured this out in the car, for medical experts, these 60% of surgeries are just objective judgments from the perspective of their medical field, but do not take into account other subjective factors, and for psychologists, it is not a problem to raise this 60% objective probability to another level through mental stimulation. The influence of the human spirit on the physical body is sometimes immeasurable, and there have been some terminally ill people, even the doctors have declared that they have no power to return to heaven, but they have survived with their tenacious will, and there are not even examples of them being cured without medicine.

If the miracle of getting two million in two days has happened to me, what else can't happen? I had always been crushed by the title of "expert", and I only felt that what he said was the truth, and he said that 60% of my mother only had a little more than half of the chance of survival, and she could only resign herself to fate, completely losing the idea of fighting.

But now I am completely out of his shadow, he is an expert in medicine, yes, but he is only a man, not a god, his authority in the field of medicine is unquestionable, but in psychology he may be far inferior to me. At least I have seen first-hand the power of the human psychic power, and I am a living example of it when I come back from the dead. And when I was in the cement factory, I had a huge power beyond the reach of human beings due to rage, and then I was still weak and unstable on my feet, and I walked for more than two hours on my back to return home, which supported me with a belief: to send Sisi home safely.

I am not a psychologist, but I know better than psychologists what my mother cares about the most, that is, my future, every mother wants to see her children babble, grow up, be sensible, study, go to university, work, and finally start a family. Therefore, I sowed the seed of this belief into her heart, which will invisibly stimulate her will to survive, making it possible for the success rate of surgery to exceed %, or even 90%.

Looking at the happy smile on my mother's face, I was also full of confidence that the operation would be successful. Fate is not completely ruthless, it just depends on whether you fight for it or not. Dad and Auntie also smiled, this time it was a smile from the heart, Dad was very pleased, I have indeed grown up, and I am already a man who can take on any heavy responsibility.

"Auntie, you look much better today." Li Xiao appeared at the door with a smile.

Mom was even happier when she saw Li Xiao: "Your cousin said that he wanted me to watch him go to college, how could I leave him alone, and you girl." ”

Li Xiao glanced at me, saw that I was no longer depressed, and said with a smile: "That's it, the operation will definitely be successful, you can rest assured." ”

Since we had to study at night and had exams tomorrow, at 6 o'clock, my mother insisted that we go back to school, so we had to listen to her in order to make her worry. When I arrived at the bus stop at the entrance of the hospital, I said, "Cousin, you can go back first, and by the way, ask Zhang Ke to help me ask for leave." ”

Li Xiaoqi said: "What about you? ”

I looked up at the south of the city and said, "I'm going to a place." ”

When I stumbled up to the zenith, it was nine o'clock in the evening, it was already dark, the moon was covered by a thick layer of clouds, I walked purely in the moonlight through the clouds, my hands, feet, neck, and other unsheltered places were scarred by thorns, and my coat and pants were full of small holes the size of beans and pieces of torn rags.

Shaking off the grass clippings and mud on my body, I walked into the temple, there were no electric lights in it, only candles, under the blowing of the mountain wind, the flickering candles were uncertain, and a long shadow twisted and dancing like a snake was dragged behind me, and the statue in the center was even more majestic in the dim candlelight. In the futon, there are monks sitting cross-legged in the evening class, holding Buddhist beads in their hands, and their mouths emit a sound of chanting that seems to contain some special rhythm.

I threw the remaining 30,000 yuan into the donation box for out-of-school children in the temple, which was set up for some children from poor families in the mountains to receive education, hoping that this act of accumulating virtue and doing good deeds would bring me good luck.