Tamura spent a long time in the General Hospital of the Military Region, and his eyesight still had not been restored, and everything he could see was a blurry shadow. His current appearance is obviously no longer suitable for working in the grassroots army, so he has become a supernumerary cadre. At this time, instead of thinking of his own broken eyes and situation, he was still immersed in the grief of losing Shi Lan.

In the first days, he had been holding the portrait of Shi Lan, sitting in a daze, not crying or laughing, and the world seemed to have disappeared from him.

At Shi Lan's memorial service, he was also holding Shi Lan's urn, motionless, as if if he moved, Shi Lan would slip out of his arms.

Yang Peipei stood in front of him and said with tears in her eyes: Child, if you want to cry, cry out, if you don't cry, you will be suffocated.

He didn't cry, and even squeezed out a strange smile at his mother. When his mother saw him, she couldn't help but cry sadly again.

Tian Liao looked at his son in front of him and said in a low voice: "Son, you raise your head for me."

Tamura looked up at his father, but his eyes were blurry.

Father also said: Shi Lan is a soldier, she died on the front line of firefighting, you should be proud of her, haven't you always dreamed of becoming a hero?

His father could only enlighten him in this way.

Shi Lan's father also walked in front of him, took the urn from his arms, held it in his arms, and muttered: Xiaolan, let Dad hug you again. When I was a child, my father was busy and didn't hug you a few times, but this time you asked my father to give you a good hug.

Lao Shi endured resolutely, not letting his tears roll out. He patted the daughter in his arms and said: Xiaolan, you are the most glorious ending for a soldier, who made you a soldier, Dad has been a soldier all his life, but the fate of a soldier is not perfect, you are perfect this time, let a veteran come to see you off......

Lao Shi's tears finally fell heavily, and after handing the urn to Tamura, he raised his right hand and slowly saluted his daughter.

The words of his relatives echoed in Tamura's ears over and over again, these words should have been said to him, he always wanted to be a hero, even if he was a martyr, but fate did not fulfill him.

At the place where Shi Lan sacrificed, he repeatedly measured with his feet, and on the right side from the place where Shi Lan fell, there was a fire ditch, with a distance of more than 20 meters, if Shi Lan gave up the wounded, she could run to the fire ditch within dozens of seconds to save her life. But Shi Lan still chose to rush forward with the wounded, maybe because she came here, she couldn't carry the wounded on her back, so she used her body to protect the wounded, and finally was suffocated by the smoke.

Tamura always felt that Shi Lan was more like a soldier than himself, and he admired her in his heart and was jealous of her.

Tamura had been thinking that if Shi Lan and his fate could repeat themselves, he would not hesitate to replace her as a martyr. But he didn't become a martyr, but he lost the vision of both eyes, and it is unavoidable to regain sight by replacing the cornea. He will not be able to return to his beloved company until his eyesight is restored. Such days made him depressed, and even had a feeling that life was worse than death.

Soon after Shi Lan's sacrifice, the great disarmament began, Tian Liaoshen and Yang Peipei retired, and Master Liu also retired. They were all announced to retire early.

After retirement, the two old men had nothing to do, and they were idle at home all of a sudden, and Tamura felt empty, and he wanted to cry when he saw his parents doing nothing. He felt that his parents needed comfort more than he did, and he didn't know how he would live without them and after leaving this home. If he lived by their side, their lives might have more content and color, and he would at least be able to find a job in the army. So he said to his parents: I want to leave the 13th Division and transfer to you.

Yang Peipei looked at him in surprise and said in surprise: Really? Son, what you said is true?

Listening to Tamura's words, the muscles on Tian Liaoshen's face twitched imperceptibly, and his heart was very complicated, on the one hand, he hoped that the child would not live in his own shadow and go as far as possible; On the other hand, he also very much wants to keep his children by his side and bring him some comfort. If he didn't retire, he would never agree to Tamura's transfer under his nose, so that others would gossip, and it would not be good for the growth of the child, and now that he has retired, he will no longer block Tamura's transfer.

Yang Peipei cried all of a sudden, she hugged Tamura and said: If you had agreed to leave the Thirteenth Division, Shi Lan would not have ......

She still wanted to continue, but was stopped by Tian Liaoshen, and he said loudly: Shut up, other people's children are not children? When the country needs our children to rush forward, we have to rush forward without hesitation, how can you, a soldier, say such a thing?

Yang Peipei didn't dare to continue, and hurriedly diverted the conversation: Okay, wow, as long as you agree to come back. There is a policy in the organization, we only have you as a child, and now you are injured like this, and it is more convenient to be transferred to the army and see a doctor. Organizationally, it will take care of it.

Soon, Tamura's transfer was transferred to the 13th Division, and he was appointed as a company commander in the military guard company. But he has no way to work, this is just a kind of organizational care for him in the current situation.

Tamura was about to leave the 13th Division, and before he left, he called Liu Dong to his dormitory, and he wanted to have a good chat with Liu Dong. In the same year, there were only two of them left in the 13th Division.

Liu Dong looked at Tamura, his feelings at this time were very complicated, for so many years, from enlistment to the present, they had never been separated, and they had come all the way with grievances. If Tamura hadn't risked his life to save him from the fire, he might have been buried in that fire. He suddenly felt very ashamed of Tamura, Tamura was about to be transferred, and he wanted to say something to him.

Tamura seemed to have guessed his thoughts, and immediately said: Don't mention that fire, don't mention my eyes, I would do the same if I were someone else. I am performing the duties of a soldier, you should not have any anxiety, it should be me who is uneasy, if you didn't donate blood to me back then, I may not be alive today. Now we're even.

Liu Dong was stunned for a moment, and nodded for a while.

Tamura smiled at Liu Dong and said, "I'm leaving, let's talk about something else."

Liu Dong said: Tamura, I always thought that your life was better than mine, and you walked ahead of me every step of the way.

Tamura listened to Liu Dong's words, stunned for a moment, for so many years, he had never compared himself with Liu Dong, hearing him say this, he hurriedly asked: What about now?

Liu Dong lowered his head and muttered: I think you have gains and losses.

Tamura understands what Liu Dong means by gains and losses.

Tamura looked directly at Liu Dong and said: I didn't want to mention Shi Lan at this time, but I must say it now.

After saying that, he reached out and took out a bottle of wine from under the bed, bit the cap with his mouth, and poured it into the glass in front of him. After he took a sip first, he pushed the cup to Liu Dong, but Liu Dong didn't take it.

Tamura continued: I know that you also liked Shi Lan at the beginning, but I have never regretted it since I married her, she is not suitable for you, and you are not suitable for her.

Liu Dong picked up the cup and took a sip of wine: I know this, and in the end I chose to give up.

Tamura took a few more sips of wine and said: It's useless if you don't give up, from the time you joined the army to the present, you have always regarded me as an opponent.

Liu Dong wanted to stop him from going on, but Tamura waved his hand: You listen to me finish speaking, you envy me and hate me, I know this; But I know that since I joined the army, I haven't asked my family to help me anything. On the contrary, my father helped you when you were promoted, and it was he who recommended you to the Thirteenth Division.

Liu Dong's eyes widened in surprise and muttered: I have nothing to do with your father, is it because of the last time I donated blood for you? But that day, all the people of the company came, and it was the turn of anyone to donate blood for you.

Tamura shook his head: I don't know why, maybe my father found out that you are a talent.

Liu Dong shook his head in bewilderment.

Tamura continued: I am telling you this today, not to ask you to thank my father, or to thank me, I didn't know at the time, it was after the fact, Senior Liu, your father-in-law inadvertently said it, I only found out about it.

Liu Dong took a sip of wine fiercely, looking at Tamura with his eyes open, he didn't know what Tamura would say.

Tamura smiled: Let's not talk about it, let's talk about something else.

Liu Dong suddenly remembered Su Xiaoxiao in Xiematun at this time, he didn't understand why Su Xiaoxiao was so infatuated with Tamura, why Tamura didn't marry her. So he blurted out: Why didn't you marry Su Xiaoxiao and choose Shi Lan instead?

Tamura was stunned, he didn't expect Liu Dong to mention Su Xiaoxiao at this moment. As soon as Su Xiaoxiao's words rang in his ears, his heart suddenly had mixed feelings, and he couldn't tell whether it was because of his mother's pressure or his own reasons that he didn't marry Su Xiaoxiao in the end.

Liu Dong's wine strength was a little high, and he said to Tian Village with red eyes: You are sorry Su Xiaoxiao, she is so good to you, you have failed her heart. You can't answer, but I've thought about it for you, you don't look down on her because she is a rural girl, and you look down on rural people in your bones.

Tamura listened to Liu Dong's words, his face turned pale, and he asked in his heart: Are you really because she is from the countryside?

Liu Dong looked very sincere after drinking, and he confessed: I thought about it at the time, if I couldn't do it, I would go to her when I went back to demobilization, whether she agreed or not, even if I begged her and knelt down for her, I would let her marry me.

Tamura looked at Liu Dong and asked curiously: Then why didn't you go in the end?

I already have Liu Sanhuan, and if I didn't have her, I might still be looking for her.

Tamura approached Liu Dong: You say what is in your heart, do you really like Liu Sanhuan?

Liu Dong nodded: I am down-to-earth with her, and I have never been so down-to-earth.

Tamura said with a puzzled face: Others say that you married Liu Sanhuan because her father was Master Liu.

Liu Dong smiled, he didn't want to answer Tamura's question. He can't tell if there is this factor in it, but in his heart, Liu Sanhuan is Liu Sanhuan, which cannot be replaced by others.

Liu Dong smiled bitterly and said: Don't talk about me, you are leaving, I advise you, if you have time to see Su Xiaoxiao, you will rush at her infatuation with you.

Tamura shook his head, raised his glass, and swallowed the wine in one gulp. Things are people, will Su Xiaoxiao still be the same Su Xiaoxiao as before? Before he got married, he sent a letter to Su Xiaoxiao and told her the news that he was going to get married, and he never received a letter from her again. With Shi Lan, Su Xiaoxiao gradually withdrew from his heart. That beautiful past has become the deepest memory in his heart.

He admitted that in his days in Shematun, he sincerely liked Su Xiaoxiao, and she was his first love. After leaving there, everything changed, the environment changed, and the status changed, he had thought about what would happen if he combined with Su Xiaoxiao, but he couldn't imagine what Su Xiaoxiao would be like when he arrived in the city. After all, she belongs to Shematun, she is a dazzling wildflower in the mountains, she does not belong to the city.

Ever since he met Shi Lan on that vacation, he suddenly found that Shi Lan had always occupied a very important place in his heart. He couldn't let go of her, when he went to the hospital to find her, she didn't accept his affection, but at that time he didn't think about it more, he just felt that this female soldier had a lot of personality. When his mother introduced her to him, he was also conflicted and confused in his heart, he liked Shi Lan and Su Xiaoxiao, but he understood that marriage was practical, and his mother solemnly introduced Shi Lan to him, and in his mother's opinion, they were suitable and suitable together. And what about Su Xiaoxiao? He also knows his mother's attitude, not only his mother, but also in the eyes of many people, he will feel that he and Su Xiaoxiao are not suitable. So, Shi Lan came into his life. He knew that he couldn't live up to Su Xiaoxiao and let down her heart. In the early days, he harshly denounced his conscience, and later tried to comfort himself, Kwon regarded Shematun's first love as a romantic interlude. Before getting married, he wrote a long letter to Su Xiaoxiao, and he sincerely wished her a happy life, because she was a good girl. He believes that she will slowly come out of the shadow she has brought her, find her own life, and have a good home.