Tamura, who graduated from high school, is already a figure in the military compound. His standard attire is bell bottoms, a green military uniform, toad glasses, his hair is long, he walks and shakes it, and he looks at people with his face up, and he looks unruly. More often than not, he carried a tape recorder with two horns in his hand and went into the woods in the park with his classmates to dance "disco", the kind of butt-pounding and waist-twisting dance.

Tamura now dares to argue with his father, Deputy Army Commander Tian Liaoshen, Tian Liaoshen is now the deputy army commander, the forty-eight-year-old deputy army commander, not too young, not too old, he can command thousands of troops, but he can't tame his son.

In peacetime, Deputy Army Commander Tian was very busy, and everywhere he was putting things in order, and the troops had less political study and more formal training. Deputy Army Commander Tian is the deputy commander in charge of the training and management of the troops, and there are three divisions in one corps, and there are three regiments under the division, and the task is very arduous.

Yang Peipei is now the director of the outpatient department of the military organ, and people are calling Director Yang and Director. What she is worried about now is not the outpatient department of the institution, but the Tamura dangling in front of her. Now she was talking to Tamura in a completely consultative tone, and she was dealing with a half-sized man with hairy lips after all.

When Tian Liaoshen was not at home, Tamura looked like he was in charge of everything, gobbling up food at the dinner table, and slipped away after wiping his mouth. On this day, when he wanted to slip away again, his mother stopped him, and his mother said, "Tamura, can you stay at home for a while and talk to your mother?" This home is not a scum hole, so you don't want to stay?

Tamura threw his military shirt on his shoulders, shook the toad mirror in his hand, and said with a shake of his legs: Mom, if you have anything to say, say it quickly, in fact, I know if you don't say it, it's not just the old three, what is there to say?

Mother sighed: Even the old three articles I have to say, you have graduated from high school for more than two months, what are your plans for your future?

Tamura shook his hair and said nonchalantly: Whatever.

The mother looked at Tamura's face and said seriously: Yesterday I helped you register in the street, and Director Liu of the street said that you will be the first priority in the next batch of placement of unemployed youth......

Tamura interrupted Yang Peipei's following words and said indifferently: I know, what's the matter.

Yang Peipei was unhappy and yelled at him: What do you call anything? Do you agree or disagree?

Tamura ignored his mother's words, said "I'm leaving" to Yang Peipei, and went out with his hair thrown off.

Yang Peipei stood at the door, looking at her son's distant back, and could only let out a long sigh. What the child is, she hasn't tasted it until now. When Tamura was young, she was worried that Wang Guixiang would come to the door and take the child away suddenly, even after coming to the provincial capital, this worry was still present all the time, and she would dream of Wang Guixiang coming to the door at night. After waking up, she was still immersed in the situation in the dream, sobbing and crying for a while, until Tian Liaoshen woke up: In the middle of the night, what are you tossing?

She whimpered: I dreamed that Tamura had someone take it away.

Tian Liaoshen said impatiently, "You are really worrying", turned around and fell asleep again.

Yang Peipei couldn't sleep anymore, she looked at the night with her eyes open, and fell into sadness alone. Just day by day, Tamura has grown up, and he has grown to such a young man in front of him, but now, when she thinks of Wang Guixiang's family, she is still nervous. She didn't dare to think about it anymore, and she couldn't think of how it would end. She couldn't imagine life without Tamura.

After all, the child is not biological, she always has a sense of crisis, this sense of crisis is everywhere, like a sharp sword hanging over her head, which makes her heart feel hard.

Tian Liaoshen came back from the inspection work of the troops, and as soon as he entered the house, Yang Peipei sprinkled a nameless fire on him. She shouted at Tian Liaoshen: You still don't care about this family?

Tian Liaoshen said with a strange face: What's wrong? Was it a fire or an earthquake?

Yang Peipei said hatefully: The fire did not go to the house and there was no earthquake, Tamura has graduated for more than two months, and he is so idle every day, you don't care?

Tian Liao Shen breathed a sigh of relief: This matter is easy to do, let him join the army.

Yang Peipei glanced at Tian Liaoshen, who had a relaxed expression, frowned and said: You said it simply, let him join the army, can he be willing?

At this time, Tian Liaoshen also frowned: He is willing to go to college, can he be admitted like that? It's not that he hasn't taken the exam, and if he is sixty or seventy points behind, he won't be the material to go to college.

So what kind of material do you say he is? Is it the material to be a soldier?

In the evening, the family of three finally got together. Tamura was afraid of his father, and when he learned that his father had returned, he first took off his bell bottoms and put on a pair of military pants, and the toad mirror was also hidden. When his mother saw this, she pointed to his nose and said, "Are you still afraid?"

Tamura smiled at Yang Peipei and said, "Mom, don't tell my dad about me, please."

When Tamura came in, Tian Liaoshen was reading a report on the training of the troops, and he was writing and drawing there with a pen. Seeing Tamura coming in, he pushed the report aside. He looked Tamura up and down, left and right, and finally saw his hair, so he frowned: What do you say you are doing with your hair so long, is it for food or beauty?

Tamura lowered his head and muttered: Everyone else is like this, and I'm not the only one.

After listening to Tamura's sophistry, Tian Liao Shen slapped the table: Others are others, I can't care about others, I will care about you, you are my son. You're going to get my hair cut tomorrow!

Tamura lowered his head and did not say anything.

Yang Peipei brought the meal, and the family ate very dullly. Tian Liaoshen ate a few mouthfuls of food, and then trained Tamura again: When I was eighteen years old, I participated in the Liaoshen Campaign, first rescuing the wounded in the stretcher team, and then the position was fought for no one, so I became a machine gunner......

Tamura muttered quietly: Dad, you've said it countless times.

Tian Liao snorted and said: What's wrong with saying it countless times? You're 18 years old this year, what are your plans for the future?

My mom asked me to work, and you asked me to be a soldier, so you two can do it.

Tian Liaoshen glared at Tamura, knocked on the bowl in his hand and said: I'm asking yourself!

Tamura himself has no plans, he grew up in the army compound when he was a child, and the army no longer has any mystery about him. His dream was the same as that of the children of that era, dreaming of becoming a hero, the kind of man who dominated. When he grew up, he realized that it was now an era of peace, and the army had been preparing for war and famine, but it had not been fought, and the pride in his heart had long been discharged, and he could only do nothing, whether it was employment or joining the army, he really didn't care. It's employment, and I go to work with a lunch box every day, and I mix with those adults, which is boring! As a soldier, I shout and train all day long, but I have no battle to fight, and I have no energy to face an imaginary enemy all day long. Now he really can't tell what he wants to do, and there are only two roads in front of him.

He has nothing to do now, but he can't be idle forever, he understands that. For his future, he can only have an indifferent mentality and let it go. He could only say to his father: I listen to you, let me do anything.

My father said, "Then you should prepare and go to the army."

Regarding the issue of letting Tamura be a soldier, Tian Liaoshen and Yang Peipei had the following conversation-

I don't think it's good to be a soldier, so it's better to let him get employed.

Tian Liaoshen disagrees with Yang Peipei's point of view: employment and employment will know employment. In the future, he will have the opportunity to be employed, but he will only be a soldier this once, and it will be good for him to train in the army for a few years. There are no rules, there is no square circle, let him have a square circle first, and then he can learn to be a man.

Regarding Tian Liaoshen's idea, Yang Peipei could only accept it silently.

Tamura's role as a soldier is naturally a green light all the way, taking the household registration book to the military committee of the military headquarters compound to report his name, and then it is a physical examination, everything is logical.

One day, a military truck took the children who had passed the physical examination from the military compound and sent them to the 13th Division, the most remote part of the army. There were three divisions under the command of the army headquarters, and the 13th division was the most remote, and the conditions there were also the most difficult on the border line. This was arranged by Tian Liaoshen, and he wanted to let the children of these army cadres be refined into steel there.

On the day Tamura was taken away by the truck, he was like a nobody, talking and laughing with the children who were also in the army, they punched me, I kicked you, and laughed.

As soon as the car left, Yang Peipei couldn't stand it anymore, she first had red circles in her eyes, and finally ran home with her face covered.

Tamura, who had lived in this home for eighteen years, was gone, and the house suddenly became empty.

After Tamura left, Yang Peipei was in a trance for a long time, and Tamura didn't feel it when he was at home. When the child left, her heart was not in decline. When she came back from work, Tian Liaoshen hadn't arrived home yet, so she somehow entered Tamura's room. There were also two loudspeaker tape recorders on the table, bell bottoms on the back of the chair, and a toad mirror lying quietly in a corner of the table, covered with dust. Yang Peipei looked at everything in front of her, and seemed to have returned to the time when Tamura was a child, she hugged Tamura to nurse him, and the room was filled with joyful laughter. In recall, tears welled up in her eyes bit by bit, and Yang Peipei was immersed in the memories of the past.

Tian Liaoshen came back, it was already dark, and the lights were not turned on in the house, he looked at Yang Peipei sitting in the shadows: What are you doing? What's wrong? Why don't you cook at this time?

Yang Peipei came to her senses and was busy in the kitchen.

During the meal, Yang Peipei was in a daze again without taking two bites, and Tian Liaoshen said: I said what the hell are you doing these days, you lost your soul?!

I don't know how Tamura is in the army?

Tian Liaoshen said in a rough voice: You can rest assured, the Thirteenth Division is not going to him alone, everyone else is living well, what else can he do?

Yang Peipei looked at the rice in the bowl and said faintly: This Tiancun is at home, and I don't think there is one more of him or one less of him, but when he leaves, why is our family not a little angry.

Tian Liaoshen's eyebrows were twisted together again, he looked at his lost wife, shook his head and said: You, you, let me say hello. You worry when he's at home, and you're still worried when he's not at home, you really can't finish your heart.

Yang Peipei sighed: He has lived in our family for eighteen years, and in the past eighteen years, he has never left this home for a day.

When Yang Peipei said this, her eyes were wet again.

Tian Liaoshen was also a little emotional, he put down the bowl, looked at the empty room, and said with a long sigh: The child will grow up one day, and when he grows up, he won't need our protection, he wants to go away and build a nest by himself.

In those days, Yang Peipei would dream every night. I dreamed that she led Tamura to the park, and the child ran in front of her, and it was gone when she ran, and she chased and shouted at the same time, and woke up after shouting, and then sat up with a bone, and the emotions continued in the dream.

Tian Liaoshen comforted sleepily: Are you dreaming again?

Yang Peipei choked up and said: I dreamed that Tamura was lost, he was lost, and I couldn't find him.

The more Yang Peipei spoke, the more sad she became, and she whimpered and cried.

Tian Liaoshen also sat up, put on his clothes and persuaded: Dreams are all reversed, when I first became a soldier, my mother often dreamed, dreaming that I was either injured or dead, but didn't I live well? Don't think about it, go to sleep.

Yang Peipei lay down again under her husband's persuasion, but she couldn't sleep anymore, she suddenly said: I want to see the child.

Tian Liaoshen said in surprise: What? He's only been gone for a few days, and the recruit company hasn't finished yet, so you're going to see him?

Who made me it. Yang Peipei said willfully.

Tian Liaoshen's tone became tough: No, this thing will definitely not work! If I don't care about this deputy commander and don't think about the impact, I don't care about you, you can go see him now. But what does this make the troops think? What do you think about those recruits like Tamura? Most of those children are rural soldiers, and their parents are farmers, so they don't want children? But how can they have the conditions to see their children?

Yang Peipei stopped talking, Tian Liao softened his tone, and said: After a while, I will go to the 13th Division to inspect the work, and then I can just take a look at the child by the way.

Yang Peipei could only hide in the quilt and swallow.

On this day, Yang Peipei, who was at work, received a letter from Tamura. Yang Peipei's hands trembled with excitement, and it took a long time to tear open the envelope. Tamura's letter reads:

Parents:

Hello!

It has been more than half a month since I came to the army, and when I arrived at the 13th Division, I knew what a real army was, and it was different from the organ compound. This is a real army, I eat and live with my comrades, and I only now feel what a big family is. It's hard, it's nothing, I can also endure the hardships that the children of workers and peasants can endure......

Yang Peipei shed tears as she read her son's letter. When she put away the letter, she wanted to call Tian Liaoshen, but she had already told the switchboard to pick up Tian Liaoshen, and finally put the phone down. She looked at the letter again, the words "Yang Peipei personally received" were written on the cover, she seemed to see the child's youthful face smiling at her, she stroked the thin envelope, as if touching the child's face.

That day, Yang Peipei was very happy in her heart, humming a song in her mouth when she had nothing to do, and the same was true when she was cooking.

After Tian Liaoshen came back, she put the letter in front of him: her son has sent a letter.

How's the kid going?

Yang Peipei held her head high proudly and said: See for yourself.

Tian Liaoshen read the letter at a glance, and did not seem very excited, he calmly put the letter back in the envelope.

Yang Peipei stared at his face and said, "You're not excited at all?"

Tian Liao Shen said: What's so exciting about this, isn't it just a letter to report peace.

Yang Peipei was anxious: I only know now that my son and mother are heart-to-heart, and his first letter was sent to me, what does this mean? In his mind, it is still important for me to be a mother. Tian Liaoshen didn't want to argue with her, so he waved his hand and said: Kiss you, okay.

In those days, Yang Peipei's mood changed a lot. Tian Liaoshen fell asleep at night, she still wrote a reply to her son under the lamp, and after opening several heads in a row, she felt dissatisfied, she crumpled the letter paper into a ball and threw it on the ground. Finally, gritting his teeth and holding back tears, he finally wrote down the letter:

Dear Son,

Mom received the letter. The moment you left home, your mother suddenly realized that your mother loved you so much.

You are a part of your mother's life, and your mother can't live without you......

When Yang Peipei's letter was written here, she had already wiped her tears several times, she couldn't control herself, and she was about to cry at the mention of her dear son, so she wept while writing:

Son, my mother misses you, she thinks about it during the day and at night, and she thinks about it at night. People say that the child is the mother's heart, and if the child is uncomfortable, the mother's heart is also uncomfortable. Your dad misses you too, he doesn't say it, but I can see it. Mom and dad are looking forward to you, don't discredit our family, your dad is the deputy commander, he hopes that his children will have a chance and fight for his parents......

Tian Liaoshen is also missing his son who is far away in the Thirteenth Division. On the wall of the office hung a map of the strength of the whole army, and when he was free, he often walked to the wall chart and looked at the position of the 13th Division in a daze. He paced to the phone at his desk several times, grabbed it, and put it down again. This time, he finally couldn't help it, and said to the switchboard: Take the thirteenth division.

The phone was connected, and his heart shook violently, he used to talk to the Thirteenth Division on the phone, instructing this, arranging that, and he had never felt this way. He was in a daze for a while, until the switchboard of the 13th Division said: "Chief, your phone is connected, where do you want?"

Tian Liaoshen came to his senses, and he pressed the phone down hard, as if only in this way could he control his emotions.

There is no doubt that Tamura is not his own son, but the moment Yang Peipei took the child home, he regarded him as a member of the family. Time is the glue of feelings, for a full eighteen years, Tamura's growth every day, he saw it in his eyes, just like looking at a small tree, from the budding joint, this small tree grew in his heart, and finally grew up, broke through his shelter, through the wind and rain, and saw the world.

Tian Liaoshen is happy about his son's progress, and in his emotional world, Tamura is his hope and future.