"Later, Team Xie retired, and I think it's all because of me, I didn't work hard enough, I didn't work hard enough, that's why these things happened. I feel like a piece of shit, if it weren't for my lack of ......."

Li Li poured himself a drink as he spoke, and in the blink of an eye, he fell directly to his stomach with a full glass of beer.

Many thoughts, he has never revealed to others, but today he doesn't know why, and he wants to say them all at once.

Probably because alcohol amplifies people's emotions.

"You wait a minute!"

Li Li stretched out his hand, not only stopping his words, but also stopping him from pouring himself wine, "If I'm not mistaken, you were just a substitute for Team Xie at that time, right?" I didn't get a lot of appearances......"

When he said this, he looked confused, "If you lose the game, it's not your fault as a newcomer." What responsibility are you taking on blindly? ”

"Team Xie said the same thing," Li Li took another sip of wine, "but I couldn't listen to it at all, and I couldn't help thinking about it for a long time." ”

For a long time, Li Li was devoured by the emotion of "regret", and she couldn't get rid of it.

Why is he so obsessed with chasing dramas (of course, except for the reason that some dramas themselves are very good), because only when chasing dramas can he temporarily escape the memories of the past, completely empty his brain, and get real relaxation.

And the situation faced by Li Li is even more cruel than him.

After all, when they lost to the South Korean team, the strength of the two sides was relatively different, and there was no room for luck afterwards, but Li Li was different. Qing Feng lost to Sky Wolf, and the loss was too close.

Just because victory seems to be within reach, but in the end it is missed, that the parties are easy to be frightened.

For everyone who has not gone all out, all victories are a fluke of death, and all defeats are deserved retribution.

"On the day Team Xie retired, he talked to me once, and I will tell you what he told me now," Li Li glanced at him, "I will only speak once, and it is up to you whether I listen to you or not." ”

"He said, 'You lost that game, you can't get over it all the time, I know what you think, you don't want to be reconciled!' Not convinced! I'm telling you, you can't think so, we don't lose at all! We're going to lose a lot'! Li Li drank with a big tongue, but the words he said were still harsh.

Li Li looked at him suddenly.

"I'm the same today, if the strength is really in place, there can't be any 'bad'! Every point of difference on the battlefield is an extraordinarily big gap off the field! You don't need to dwell on that kind of luck, Qingfeng lost this time, you should deserve it, Qingfeng's strength is not comparable to the wolf! Li Li obviously drank a little, and suddenly burst out like a machine gun.

"What you owe is not effort, but accumulation. I'll be honest with you," Li Li turned his heart to the end and said straightly, "Even if I play that game, I can't play better." ”

admitting in front of others that he has things he can't do is a very fatal thing for Li Li, but in order to break the "magic barrier" of Li Li's thinking as much as possible, so that he can stop being entangled and let go of himself, Li Li still did it.

Because he knows that regret will only make people fall into the whirlpool, and over time, it will wear down the fighting spirit.

Li Li nodded and shook his head again.

"I know, but ......"

"What do you know?"

Li Li raised her eyebrows, "Do you know that you still look like you're going to die?" In that game alone, you've played better than me...... It's almost like me! What's not to be satisfied with in this way? ”

Li Li: "......"

"If I can't win, it's useless for me to be the king of heaven," Li Li was unconvinced, "What if I play better than you, I don't work so hard to surpass you." ”

"Ho!"

Li Li was angry by his words, but he didn't expect this guy to be quite ambitious, and he lost himself enough face in order to relieve him. Who would have thought that he still didn't appreciate it?!

It's really in vain to worry. Li Li secretly sighed, the longer he spent with Li Li, the more he understood that under his nonchalant appearance, there was great ambition and potential to match.

Buzz - Buzz -

Li Li's phone rang, and he looked at the phone screen: "Lao Lin is almost here, and I'm ready to go." ”

"Have a good trip," Li Li said, he glanced at the luggage at Li Li's feet, and suddenly said, "Actually, I should go hunting." ”

"No way, who made me an 'imposter god', besides, how do you get there? You are Li Yue now," Li Li smiled and looked at Li Li with expectant eyes, "Hurry up and break through the college league, enter the draft camp, become a new star that everyone is competing for, be able to speak in the team, and then ......"

He solemnly patted Li Li's shoulder, "Redeem me early!" ”

Li Li: "......"

"The heavy responsibility of saving me from the cage of fire and water falls on your shoulders." Li Li finally said.

I'm kidding again.

Li Li knew that he was pretending to be relaxed in order to relieve his guilt.

Yes. Guilt.

For what Li Li did, Li Li was quite grateful. Qingfeng is over, but his pretending career can't end yet, and this scene seems to never be finished.

"Thank you."

A variety of emotions are intertwined, and in the end they are only two simple words. But these two words, when they came out of Li Li's mouth, they were as heavy as a thousand pounds.

Li Li dragged his luggage out: "Between the two of us, there is no need to talk about this. ”

……

As soon as the evening breeze blows, the wine that has been drunk begins to rise.

After stuffing the drunk Li Li into the back seat of the car, Li Li said to Lin Yuan, who originally planned to send him off, but now has to send his cousin instead: "Please help me send him back, I'll go directly to the airport." ”

"Are you doing it alone?" Looking at Li Li's red face and somewhat confused eyes, Lin Yuan asked uneasily.

"No problem, I got on the plane and went to sleep. Go back quickly, and be careful on the road. Li Li said slowly, he felt that he was very sober, but he didn't know why, his reaction and speed of speech were half a beat slower.

It's still a bit of a top.

Sitting in the back seat of the taxi, Li Li looked at the lights outside the window, the night in T City was as bright as day, even if it was the airport in the suburbs, it was also bright all the way, and there was no desolation.

Today's meal was very good. Some of the worries seem to have faded under the wash of alcohol. I don't know if it's because of alcohol, Li Li's mind began to have one irrepressible thought after another, and he suddenly had an understanding.

If you don't start drinking the first drink, you'll never get drunk, and if you don't experience defeat, you'll never win.

Uh, it doesn't seem to be the same thing.

Whatever, he's already a little drunk, does this still care about logic?

All the past is prologue; All the future is promising.