Chapter 180: Sleepless Night (Part II)

It was destined to be a sleepless night.

Zhong Cheng put his hands in his pants pockets and whistled out of the elevator.

There was a person sitting on the seat in the club hall, and whenever he saw this person, Zhong Cheng immediately restrained his rogue image.

Yu Xiao always gives people an image of concentrating on thinking, she lowered her head and looked at the smooth ground in the hall where bright lights were reflected, her eyes were already distracted, it seemed to be thinking, but it was more like she was making up her mind.

No matter what time or angle she looks at, Yu Xiao gives people the feeling of being quiet and reserved, and her long hair that falls down makes her unintentionally very moving.

It was this girl who took care of Zhong Cheng for a long time during his hospitalization and during the training time in the rental house, which made Zhong Cheng unforgettable for her.

She is not pretty, but her beauty is by no means in appearance; She doesn't like to talk too much, but everything she does makes Zhong Cheng feel that she is a good girl; In his Zhong Cheng's eyes, Yu Xiao is really a lady and a virtuous person, which is exactly the type he likes.

Of course, he Zhong Cheng is not blind, he knows that what Yu Xiao has done is definitely not for him Zhong Cheng, but for Lu Fei.

Whenever he thinks of this, Zhong Cheng always sighs: Damn's good deeds have been taken up by the elder brother alone.

The problem is that Lu Fei's emotional entanglement is annoying enough, although everyone usually eats and drinks Lazar together, but everyone never mentions this aspect.

"Ah, the weather is so nice today, the moon is so big and round." As soon as Zhong Cheng said this, he wanted to slap himself, damn it, the sky is full of dark clouds tonight, is there a moon?

Yu Xiao was awakened by his voice and raised his head: "It's you." ”

"yes, yes." Zhong Cheng hurriedly replied, "Come to find Lu Fei?" ”

The second sentence immediately made him secretly scream: This stinky mouth, it's not good to say anything, but to say this, it's really a pot that can't be opened.

Yu Xiao was not embarrassed, she just smiled slightly: "No, I came to find Mr. Green, but he hasn't come back yet." ”

"Oh?" Zhong Cheng was curious, he imagined what could happen if he didn't find Mr. Green?

Could it be that she and Mr. Green ...... so late? Zhong Cheng thought in surprise, and then immediately secretly scolded himself for being "despicable and shameless", how could he think so? But curiosity made him reluctant to leave.

"Mr. Green has gone out with Bos and them, and it may take a while to come back, and it will be boring to wait alone, right? I'll be with you. "Zhong Cheng is not like Lei Ming Lu Fei, who is stunned by these feelings, if he likes someone, he doesn't care so much about you, he can love as much as he wants.

It's not the same as Xiao answering, he sat next to the people with a hippie smile.

Yu Xiao also smiled: "Hehe, look at you, you're very happy today." ”

"That's that, we won SK today, and we can't sleep." Zhong Cheng hurriedly replied.

Yu Xiaodao: "Hasn't Lu Fei slept yet?" ”

Zhong Cheng's eyes immediately dimmed: "Brother Lao, he hasn't slept yet, and Brother Jian is still studying today's game demo." ”

"He's such a hard worker." Yu Xiao's eyes looked at the murals in the hall, his eyes were full of yearning and appreciation, "He is the kind of person who is always striving for his goals, and he never gets tired." ”

Zhong Cheng looked at her for a long time, and said slowly: "I didn't expect you to know him very well." ”

Yu Xiao turned his head and said with a smile: "From the first day I saw him at Western University, I knew that he must be a master with a lot of ideas, but now it is not just a master, I read the comments on him on many websites today, and they all call him a hero." ”

Yu Xiao said slowly, without any emotion in his voice, as if he was telling a very simple thing.

But Zhong Cheng could still hear the feelings contained in her words, and he could hear her love and admiration for Lu Fei.

Many times a woman's love for a man is generated from appreciation and admiration, this love can last for a long time, and it can even make a woman have a strong motivation to pursue.

Zhong Cheng looked at her quietly and did not make a sound.

Yu Xiao continued: "If you want to walk into his sight, it is never enough to be behind him, you have to really enter his world and attract his attention. ”

I don't know if she said these words to herself or to Zhong Cheng.

Presumably, in the dead of night, people are more able to surge some emotions that they usually don't look at.

Zhong Cheng was listening, he already knew that he was ten percent useless, but he still said, "Thank you." ”

Yu Xiao was surprised: "What are you thanking me for?" ”

Zhong Cheng said seriously: "You will only say these words to me when I am a friend." ”

Yu Xiao smiled: "I'm bored alone, I just felt it just now." ”

Zhong Chengdao: "But I still thank you. ”

Yu Xiao looked at him, also looked at him for a long time, and said, "I didn't expect you to be a very thoughtful person." ”

Zhong Cheng's heart was weak now, and he snorted: "I'm a sniper of CHN, and snipers need keen observation." ”

Yu Xiao smiled: "You still have to practice, and you can't hold CHN back." ”

Zhong Cheng scratched his head embarrassedly, Yu Xiao was right, now Zhong Cheng's strength in CHN is indeed the weakest, he, a sniper, can't stand alone, his absolute strength is not weak, he has a foundation, but compared to the entire CHN, he is still a little unable to keep up with the rhythm, which is a burden.

"But I think a good sniper should be imaginative." This is a little different from Lu Fei's sniper concept.

Zhong Cheng was curious: "Huh? ”

Yu Xiaodao: "Because imagination is enough for you to deal with many situations, you can see that your current sniper rifle is extremely strong in long-range shooting, and it is quite a loss in close combat, which shows that this is not a problem of marksmanship, but a problem of not being able to deal with it, that is, a problem of imagination." ”

Zhong Cheng was a little surprised: "Wow, you know a lot." ”

Immediately, he suddenly realized that Yu Xiao was also a member of the Phoenix team?

But how did he know, Yu Xiao's hard work is not known at all, except for seeing Lu Fei's set of things in Xidali at the beginning, and after Lu Fei commanded the Phoenix vs. NIP battle, plus she always pays attention to Lu Fei's CAL, ESC and other events, in fact, she is also a very thoughtful player.

Zhong Cheng immediately became interested and immediately asked Yu Xiao for advice.

However, Yu Xiao did not answer him, because at this time, Mr. Green had already appeared at the door of the hall.

Zhong Cheng had no choice but to run out to buy cigarettes.

The elevator door opened, and Green and Yu Xiao walked in together.

"So, why didn't you go to the party with Alva?" Green laughed, "Lynn is looking for you everywhere, so you're here." ”

Yu Xiao smiled: "I prefer to be quiet, and I am not very suitable for that kind of occasion." ”

Green smiled: "Looking for me so late, there must be something important, come, come to my room and talk!" ”

"Okay!"

On the coffee table in the room, Green brought a pot of freshly brewed tea: "I am very interested in your Chinese tea ceremony culture, because with it, I have abandoned the original coffee." ”

Yu Xiao took the teacup handed by Green: "Thank you." ”

Green sat down and said with a smile: "Yu, are you looking for me because you have encountered some problems?" ”

Yu Xiao put down the teacup and said, "Mr. Green, you are going to leave China in a few days, right?" ”

Green smiled: "Yes, I am very happy every time I come to China, because you are with me, which makes me feel very happy, if nothing else, I think I will return to Washington next Wednesday." ”

"You came to China alone this time for Lu Fei, right?"

Green said: "It's not all, mainly because of Mr. Zhang's invitation, I am not very relieved about Lu, but now I am completely relieved and can go back with peace of mind." ”

Yu Xiao was silent for a long time before he spoke: "Mr. Green, I also want to go to the United States." ”

"Well, are you going on a trip?" Greenway.

"No, it's going to study in the United States." Yu Xiao replied.

Green was curious: "Learning? What do you want to learn? Didn't you study at Saikyo University? ”

Yu Xiao said word by word: "I want to go over to learn CS." ”

Green showed a surprised expression: "Learn CS? So, you're so humorous. ”

"No, I'm not kidding, I really want to go to the United States and see the CAL league, maybe I can find what I'm looking for there." Yu Xiao replied seriously.

Green stared at Yu Xiao, Yu Xiao really didn't look like he was half-joking, with a resolute and decisive expression.

Green was even more curious: "So, I never thought you were a fanatical person about CS, do you want to put down your studies in China and go to the American league to go alone, just like Lu?" ”

Yu Xiao said lightly: "I'm not going to break through, and I don't need to become famous, I just want to learn, and after I finish studying, I will come back." ”

Green was even more surprised: "Well, it's not like the one I know at all, please tell me, you give up so much, what do you want to get?" ”

Yu Xiao fell silent again, looked at the cup on the coffee table and stopped talking.

Green smiled: "It seems that you don't know what you want for yourself?" ”

"No, I know, I always knew that." Yu Xiao said resolutely, "It's just, it's just ......"

Looking at her expression of wanting to speak and stopping, Green immediately understood: "Hehe, are you for Lu?" ”

Yu Xiao raised his head and said, "No, I'm not for him, I'm for myself." ”

Green was stunned.

Yu Xiao muttered, "I don't want to be a person who doesn't have any weight in front of him. ”

Green didn't understand this, because he really didn't understand the thoughts of these young boys and girls, so he had to mumble: "Maybe I'm really a lot older, and I don't know the minds of you young people, so, I'm sorry, although we are also friends, but I can't help you with this kind of thing, because the old Green you know is not an expert in love." ”

Yu Xiao said sincerely: "Mr. Green, you can help me." ”

Green was stunned again.

"Why?"

Yu Xiao said in a deep voice: "I hope that this time I can go to the United States with you, I want to go to a club, I don't need to be an official player, even if it is a very small club, I just want to be an idle student there, learn a little something, and increase my knowledge." ”

Green hesitated: "So, did you give up your studies in China just to learn CS?" ”

Yu Xiao nodded.

Green said: "But, don't you want to be famous? If you don't become a player, what should you do if you have financial difficulties? ”

Yu Xiao smiled: "Don't worry about this, my material environment is very rich, and I won't become a really useless person in the United States." ”

For a while, Green was even more stunned, and it took a long time before he spoke: "Yu, tell me what is the ultimate purpose of your doing this?" ”

Yu Xiao raised his head, his gaze was even more gloomy: "Mr. Green, I just feel that I will never be able to integrate into his world if I continue like this, I am not willing to be a passerby in his life, I want to go out to find my dreams like him, one day I will come back as one of his strongest opponents, stand in front of him, let him re-examine me, I will not be silent like other girls, I will fight for what I want, with my hands." ”

Green was completely stunned, he had never seen Yu Xiaoru's soft and rigid side.

In her, Green also seemed to see something as shining as Lu Fei.

"So, do you think you'll be able to blend in with his world by doing this?" Green stared at him.

Yu Xiao immediately retorted: "Mr. Green, in his eyes, is there only CS?" ”

Green was silent and said, "Yes, it's true, he can sacrifice everything else for CS." ”

Yu Xiao continued: "Then Sister Ai, Miss Alice, Miss Huo, did they do the same? ”

Green immediately stopped, and now he finally fully understood.

Yes, these four women all fly around the landing, but among these four women, only she Yu Xiao is the least advantageous and unoutstanding, and she has three of the most powerful rivals, Erin, Huo Xixian, and Alice.

Erin and Lu Fei seem to be born together, and he can see that Lu Fei likes Erin very much, after all, it is a person's first love.

Although Huo Xixian is a few years older than Lu Fei, people up and down the club can see that Huo Xixian is intentional, but Lu Fei seems to be ruthless, and he knows better than others that Huo Xixian is really the successful woman behind Lu Fei's success, without Huo Xixian, Lu Fei would not have been able to say that he has achieved such achievements in this year.

But Alice is not so easy to deal with, she has the advantage of age, appearance, and youth, the key is that Alice has a great background, the formation of this Meiya club, Alice's help is absolutely indispensable, she may be naughty, but no one can deny her feelings for Lu Fei, not even Lu Fei himself.

However, in comparison, what about Yu Xiao?

She Yu Xiao has no advantage, except for the sincerity that she believes in, can she compare with the other few of them? What did she use to impress Lu Fei?

Relying on moral support? I don't know how many tragedies of youth have been caused by this kind of thing.

Relying on the time when they were in the rental house, she and Yuan Qing supported them like housewives every day? Maybe these sweeping, scrubbing the house, washing the dishes, and serving water, even including driving, holding a sun umbrella, even fainting from heat stroke, doing it for one year, two years, three years, four years...... None of them are as important as Huo Xixian Alice forming a club with a big wave of his hand, and maybe Lu Fei is more inclined to those who are really helpful to him.

You can accuse him of being selfish, or you can accuse him of not knowing feelings, but isn't everyone coming into this world just to ask for it? And love is the best of selfishness.

Yes, if she Yu Xiaoruo wants to stand out, only if she really enters his sight and integrates into his world, maybe only when she reaches that level, will the opportunity come, and Lu Fei will face her squarely.

This is the tragedy of unrequited love.

But I know that this may be a tragedy, but why do people still have no turning back?

Isn't this also the charm of love?

Green looked at her and said, "So, you are a smart person, and because you are a smart person, you should understand that it is actually very unwise to do this, I really don't approve of it." ”

Yu Xiao wiped away his tears and said, "Mr. Green, have you ever loved someone?" ”

Green was silent again, the last thing he wanted to talk about in his life, and of course he had, the lover of his youth.

In order to pursue her, he was no different from Yu Xiao now, he was willing to do anything for her, pay any price, even if it was just to get a chance to get close to her, he was willing to work hard for several years......

It's a pity that Green's lover died forever in a car accident, and the teacher never married, and kept love alone for the rest of his life.

Green suddenly said, "So, I find that I'm starting to understand your thoughts a little bit. ”

Yu Xiaodao: "You are a good teacher and a good friend, I think maybe only you can understand." ”

Green sighed: "But Yu, I really don't agree with you doing this, it's not that I use your traditional Chinese concepts to look at you, you can imagine that in the CS world, the players who promote mainstream development, are men in the majority or women in the majority?" ”

Yu Xiao said in a deep voice: "But didn't the Korean diva Yin Xinxuan also succeed?" ”

"She's just an individual phenomenon, not representative of the public. ”

"No, she's not alone."

"Oh?"

Yu Xiaodao: "She can succeed because she has tenacity and perseverance, and great determination, if you don't see her clearly, you can't understand the world of CS, there is no distinction between men and women, old and young, so she is not an isolated phenomenon." ”

Green looked at her quietly.

He once found a spirit in Lu Fei, a spirit that the United States lacks; But today, he sees another spirit in this Chinese girl, a spirit of yearning for success.

"So, you go back first, let me think about it, okay?"

"Then Mr. Green, I'll take my leave." Yu Xiao had no choice but to stand up and walk out the door.

When the door was about to close, Green stopped her again: "Yu! ”

Yu Xiao stopped.

Green sighed: "I hope you can remember my words today, and don't forget it in the future, if I really agreed to you, not because of your determination, not because I sympathize with you, but because I once had such a helpless love, so I can understand your feelings very well, maybe the best way is to go to the United States, let time forget this past." ”

"Mr. Green, I will definitely remember what you taught today."

With a "snap", the door closed softly.

Green sat on the sofa and let out a long breath, and in the dark, he remembered the poem of Cangyang Gyatso:

That night, I listened to Sanskrit singing for a night, not for enlightenment, but for a trace of your breath

That month, I turned all the prayer cylinders, not for excess, but for touching your fingerprints

That year, I kowtowed and hugged the dust, not for the Buddha, but for your warmth.

In that life, I turned the mountain again and again, not to cultivate the next life, but to meet you on the road......

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