"Do you remember the first time I spoke to you?"

How could I forget, because you were the first person I came to this world to take the initiative to talk to.

"I don't remember exactly."

Saying something casually, Shota paid attention to her expression.

"Ahh It's too much, but this is really Xiang Taijun's style. It's been so long, and it's normal for Shota-kun not to remember.

If I remember correctly, Shota-kun at that time happened to be bullied by Matsuyamaji and Iwai-kun.

It feels like time flies so fast, and it's only been a few months since then, and Shota-kun is already the school's student president.

Is there any secret that can be passed on to me? ”

"I think it should be personal charm, after all, I believe that Yan is justice."

"Hmmm! Yan is justice, hahaha!! ”

Kaoru was stunned for a moment, but when she saw Shota's serious expression, she immediately reacted, and the whole person fell on the wheelchair and laughed.

Seeing her like this, Xiangtai's heart was also a lot more relaxed, and sure enough, he was still ......

"Do you know why I took the initiative to find you at that time?"

"Is it because I'm handsome?"

"Don't talk nonsense, you weren't handsome at that time, and there was no shining place on your body, but even so, I still took the initiative to approach you, do you know why?"

Hearing this, Shota frowned.

Thinking about it carefully, things are really so strange, why did Kaoru Miyazono, who was already so dazzling in the class at that time, take the initiative to approach him.

You must know that he had just come to this world at that time, did she see something or ......

This made Shota feel suspicious.

"You did it on purpose?"

Other meanings began to appear in his eyes.

"You can say that, but it would be more accurate to say that it has been planned for a long time."

"What did you say!?"

Shota's eyes suddenly sharpened, and Kaoru Miyazono noticed this, but she didn't care, and the smile still appeared on her face.

"At that time, I had just been discharged from the hospital, and my heart was very confused.

I can't think about not only having to endure the pain of illness every day, but also smiling as if nothing happened to my peers! I really can't do it!

Just when I was about to give up, I found you......"

Listening to her narration, Shota didn't interject, he just quietly watched Kaoru vent the emotions that had been suppressed in his heart for a long time, and watched the changes in her expression Shota continued to remain silent.

"Actually, I knew it when you were locked in the closet."

As soon as these words came out, Shota's eyes changed again, and even his brows couldn't help frowning, but he still held back his words.

"I thought they were just locking you up as usual and you would come to class the next day, but I didn't think you'd kill yourself!

Maybe it's because of guilt, but I guess it's more curiosity. Since then, I have been deliberately approaching you. ”

Kaoru lowered her head and looked at her palms to tell all this, but her tone gradually became a little strange.

"I was surprised to see you appear at the school again, and I was curious about what kind of changes had happened to you, who had already died once, that would make you feel like a different person, so I went to greet you at the school gate.

Later, when I saw you who couldn't even eat, I felt very pitiful. But I'm more curious about the changes that happen to you.

Then I saw the conflict between you and Kawaguchi-senpai in the second grade, to the negotiation with Nana-senpai, and then until I got to where I am now.

Shota-kun, you've really become dazzling under my own witness. ”

This time Kaoru looked up at him with a smile, but in this smile, Shota noticed something flickering in the corner of his eye.

"Seriously, every time I see Shota-kun solve problems again and again and develop in the direction of keeping up with Gao, I will secretly be happy for you in my heart, but when I get home, I always can't help but cry for myself.

I was just curious about why you were able to live like a different person and contact you, but as time went on, I found that I seemed to be ...... I seem to ......"

"Enough!"

At this point, Shota finally spoke up and interrupted her.

Is it because of pity, or is it more of a sympathy? Do you want to say that if it weren't for this illness, the two of them wouldn't have come to this point, Shota looked at her face and there was also a complication in his eyes.

"Shota-kun, you don't have to be like this for me, it might be better if someone like me dies, after all, I ...... from the beginning"

"Yes! People like you really deserve to die. ”

Raising his head suddenly, Kaoru Miyazono only saw his back. Although she thought so in her heart, when she heard this come out of Shota's mouth, her heart was torn apart for a while, and even all her emotions collapsed at this moment.

But before she could react from her despair, Shota suddenly raised her head and looked at the sky.

"But you should die before I knew you, I probably wouldn't be alive now without your presence at that time, so it's really not the right time for you to die now."

To be honest, knowing that a girl approached you with an idea would be a little uncomfortable, and Shota would be no exception, but he chose to forgive.

With a long sigh of relief, he looked at the already small rain outside and reached out to catch them, but all that fell in his hand was some water.

"What you want to think or how you do it is your business, I only do what I want to do, the rest has nothing to do with you, you don't have to mind."

After saying that, Shota was silent, maybe he still had a lot to say. But when it comes to the lips, I can't say anything.

Just as he was about to turn around and push her away, something suddenly weighed heavily on his back.

"I'm sorry!! I'm sorry!!! I'm really sorry!! ”

Holding herself directly and clutching a piece of clothing tightly with both hands, her voice was crying at this time, and Shota could feel a wet piece on her back. Didn't speak, just stared up at the roof.

Bastard! What kind of building is this and why does it leak.

"Palace...... Cauterize! You ......"

"I want to live!! I want to live well, even in the face of such a mean and selfish me, I still want to live!!

I...... I really want to live!! ”

Finally let go of your heart and cried behind your back? Shota smiled out as he turned his back to her and felt the power coming from her.

"Live, then live well."

After she cried out hoarsely, all the strength of her body seemed to flow out with these tears, and as soon as her feet were soft, she fell to the side, and Kaoru was so tired that she fainted.

Just as she was about to fall, one hand wrapped around her body, gently picked her up and put her back in the wheelchair, the light movement was almost like treating a rare handicraft, but these Kaoru Miyazono himself didn't know.

Gently wiping the tears from the corners of her eyes with her hands, and tidying up her hair and clothes that had been messed up just now due to her mood change, Shota pushed her to the edge of the gazebo.

When he picked up Kaoru just now, he felt the change in Kaoru's weight, her weight was already much lighter than normal, and it seemed that she had really reached the limit.

Looking down at Kaoru, who was already asleep, Shota suddenly realized that this was the first time the two had had such an intimate contact in the long time since they had known each other, and it was still in a state where one of the parties was asleep, and Shota's mood suddenly became clear along with the clear sky outside.

"Faint thunder, hazy sky. Even if it doesn't rain, I stay here ......"

With a ray of sunlight shining through the clouds, Shota recited the short sentence of Thor's tanka in "Manyoshu", as if Kaoru Kaoru's face also showed a faint smile.

Looking at her face facing the sun, Shota said softly.

"We're leaving, Kaoru...... Sauce! ”