I didn't watch the live broadcast of the game, because I felt that the team should not be a big problem, and the strength of the opponent was obviously inferior to ours. While the online hype isn't good for the young players, they're not exaggerating to say that the young lads and girls in the team have a lot of potential, and in my years of experience, the top league is their stage.

But after losing the game, I was the first to hear the news. I know very well that a 0-2 ugly loss to the opposition in a match with good momentum like this, outperformed the opponent, must be a problem with the mentality. But I don't know exactly which link it is, and there may be a variety of reasons, and even if I ask, I don't think I can ask why.

To put it mildly, after so many years of playing professionally, I have seen too many winds and waves. The importance of mindset in esports cannot be overstated, and the more important the game, the more important the position it occupies. I've seen countless players who usually play well, but when it comes to a crucial match, they are so nervous that their hands are shaking, and then they can't play their strength, and unfortunately they fail.

So, in a regular season like this, I don't think it's a big deal to lose a game, and it's a good opportunity to learn from it. The previous seven-game winning streak was a bit too smooth, but it was a bit worrying. Because winning a game is good in terms of results, but losing a game can expose the problem and improve.

Since becoming the owner of this team, I have focused mainly on management, but I have also spent a lot of time reading some books on psychology in order to get the team back on track in time for this situation. There are two reasons for this, one is to save the money of hiring a psychological counselor, and the other is that the esports industry is too special, and it is difficult for non-senior practitioners to understand the psychological state of people in the industry, so instead of letting outsiders point fingers, it is better for me to come in person.

I prepared for half a day or so to determine what to say to them to save morale and mental state, and I thought that I was also facing an opponent who was not as strong as my own, and I unconsciously recalled the incident three years ago. It was this incident that made me determined to form a team and become my own boss after retiring.

That was what happened on the eve of the match between our Tianyuan Relic Team and the Shengtang Team, the Shengtang Team back then was about the same strength as the current one, and they all belonged to the league to accompany the runner. I didn't really understand what the purpose of a team like theirs was. Since the league was held, it has been two seasons a year, and it has never made the playoffs, and everyone from the players to the coaching staff looks a little "unmotivated".

I've always believed that there is only one purpose in playing esports, and that is to win championships. Of course, there will be income as a running companion like them, but to be honest, it's hard for me to imagine what it's like to mix up esports as just a normal job.

Although I was confident about the upcoming competition, I still trained late into the night every day. One day, I was the only one left in the training room, and then the coach suddenly found me, he sat down in the gaming chair next to me, stared at me for a while, and couldn't speak.

I find it strange that he must have something to say about his posture, but what is it that makes it difficult for him to speak? Although I am the captain of the team, the outside world will think that most of the star players like us are very big, and even if they are not the team leaders in the team, they will not listen too much to the coach.

However, the truth is the opposite of what most people think, most people who can become star players will put the results of the competition first. E-sports competitions cannot be won by one person, and team dominants will destroy the relationship between teammates and the chemistry within the team, and not listening to the coach's instructions will also affect the results. Therefore, as a star player, you should lead by example, so that your team will get better and better under your leadership.

But the coach's attitude towards me today is as if I am a team bully who cannot be criticized, which is really a bit strange. I put down the game and said sincerely, if I have any shortcomings, please feel free to bring them up.

But the coach waved his hand and said that it was not my problem, but his own problem, and he was sorry for me.

I feel very strange, in the previous game, the coach just helped us win the battlefield match through subtle command, and developed a new system, what is there to be sorry for us?

Then, as if he had mustered up courage, he made a request

"Zhang Guangyue, in the match with the Shengtang team the day after tomorrow, can you not do your best?"

Hearing this, I was stunned, although I said it very implicitly, but the so-called not doing my best means, isn't it a fake match and deliberately losing to the opponent?

At the time, I was under the illusion that this was some hidden tactic that the coach had just come up with, so I asked why.

The coach also seemed to be weak-hearted, and he told me not to ask more, because winning or losing a regular season game was not that important at all.

Yes, winning or losing this game does not affect our qualification for the playoffs. And considering that our team was good before, even if it was an upset, the fans would not be too harsh on us for winning or losing an inconsequential regular season, as long as we won it back beautifully in the next game. But a match-fixing is a match-fixing, and from the first day I was on the field, my credo was to give it my all in every game, and this should be the basic ethics that a professional player should have.

I was honest with my coach that I would never play match-fixing, no matter who it was for or for whatever reason.

The coach persuaded me for a long time, telling me not to admit death, it was just a game to win or lose, and I couldn't take my career for this matter.

At the time, the phrase "taking a career" sounded a bit exaggerated to me, but later on, I realized that I really took my career for this purpose.

I asked the coach if he was threatened and who was the other party. We can report it to the organizing committee and even to the police.

The coach disagreed with me, saying that some people have too much energy and we can't afford to mess with them. It's not a day or two since the organizing committee of the event has been inactive, and it is necessary to report it to the police with evidence. It's a tough one, and we have no chance of winning.

I ignored it, but the next day, the team leader found me again and tried to persuade me with the same painstaking advice. This made me more curious about the other party, but I made up my mind that it was useless for him to persuade anyone, and match-fixing was a matter of principle.

As a result, from the third day, I found that my network environment was very unstable, and it seemed that only my computer was very stuck playing games, and the rest of my teammates were normal. I'm not sure if it's the guy who asked me to play fake matches, if the other party can limit my internet speed through IP, it's really a bit disgusting, I don't know if it's to show my strength in this way, in order to force me to obey.

But my attitude is also very clear, it is absolutely impossible to fake a match, of course, this kind of network speed, I can't train normally. Anyway, the competition was not a few days away, so I simply left the base and went to a nearby Internet café to train.

One day, halfway through training, I suddenly got a call from the base, and they told me that the internet had been fixed so I could go back to training. As a result, on the way back, an electric car crashed into it, causing an irreparable hand injury while supporting the impact.

I'm a little unsure if this person was intentional or unintentional, or who bought him, but in the end, the traffic police handled it as a normal traffic accident. The other party compensates for the medical expenses and settles it privately.

I'd love to make the cause and effect of this incident public, but there's really no evidence of a causal relationship between the refusal to match up and the injury. And afterwards, I thought very clearly, let the team leader and the capital come to talk to me in person, and the request for match-fixing must have been instructed by a certain team executive, or even a shareholder.

Because I was last year's MVP, this year's team record has been breaking through, so the odds on the pre-game extranet about the victory or defeat of us and the Shengtang team were opened to 1 to 35. Any rich person who invests a million into it can make a lot of money.

And the strength of the Shengtang team is really not good, if they choose to buy my teammates, after all, it is an open competition, and in the case that my teammates "can't act too obviously", the other party knows that with my state at the time, it is still possible to change my life against the sky and forcibly change the result of the game by myself. So they have to start with me.

At this point, I found that as an esports player, you are very powerless against this kind of thing, and when you focus on the game, people calculate every step of the way. Even a so-called "star player" like me, who seems to be infinitely glamorous, has such a struggle behind it.

A few years ago, I heard about an affair between a female player on a certain team and the owner of that team, and I always thought it was made up by good deeds. But now from my own personal experience, everything is possible, there is no need to say that money can make ghosts push the grind, if you want, let the grind push the ghosts.

Since then, I have been inseparable from the team, and the reason why I have been fighting for another three years is nothing more than a little responsibility to the juniors of the team. Seeing that he is getting older, it is impossible to fully recover from injuries, and he is getting farther and farther away from the championship trophy, it seems that there is no other choice but to retire.

However, I know that retirement is not the end, and retirement is a new beginning for me. I knew that if I wanted to change this new industry, it wasn't enough to be a professional player, I had to have access to the more core intelligence and resources in the industry. So, the idea of becoming a team boss came about after this incident three years ago.

Later, Wang Jingluo, who also had a bad career, came to me, and I learned the insiders and management methods of many industries.

In my conversation with him, I understood the necessity of the existence of such a team as the Shengtang Clan.

That day, he told me straight to the point that a champion like me is good, but if the whole industry is full of people like this, then it is not good for the overall development of the industry.

I've never heard anything more ridiculous, everyone wants a championship to play at a high level, to provide a good competitive environment, and you shouldn't let the "bastards" dominate this industry.

Wang Jingluo said that in any sport, there is only one champion. If the proportion of "champion fans" in the project's audience is too high, it is harmful to the entire industry.

Imagine that everyone in the league is a fan of the champion, so what about the other teams besides the champion team? What do they feed on? They can't make money, who fights the champions? Wang Jinglue wants the esports industry to be ethos: "Champions are great, but other people, even the worst teams, are not useless." ”

Only by doing this can we ensure that everyone in the league has money to make and the winner takes all the situation, which no organizer wants to see. In order to achieve this condition, there are three main ways, one is to rely on a long history so that almost every team has achieved good results, because as long as the time is long enough, then almost most teams will have a period of time to become champions or have the strength to compete for the championship, and the champion fans during that period will always retain some, even if the team falls into a trough, then even if the current results are not ideal, the team operation will have a "basic plate".

The second is to allow fans to increase their sense of belonging to each team, through the construction of home stadiums or regional publicity, so that the team can stably enjoy the dividends of the region.

The third is to stylize each team's style of play, so that each team's style of play is unique. Fans are diverse, some like personal violent fights, some like defensive counterattacks, some like strategy to win, and some like tacit cooperation. Let each team develop their own unique style that other teams can't imitate in a short period of time, so that even if the results are not good, you will be able to retain the fans who prefer that style.

Esports is a young industry, and it certainly can't do the first point. Massive capital injections have also been a matter of recent years, so the second point cannot be achieved at present. But as soon as the trainer system launched in this year's new version was launched, I knew that this was Wang Jinglue's plan to consolidate the third point.

Even if there is a change of players, or even a change in the trainer staff, the classic training environment that has been developed before will definitely be retained. Different people train in the same environment, and over time, it is naturally easy to form a fixed team style.

Therefore, when I chose Nuan Yang as a trainer, it was not just because of Chen Liao's recommendation, but because he was a very stylized player, adventurous, and in a way, similar to me. Then the training environment designed by this person is probably easy to cultivate the kind of players and team style who "dare to operate". After playing professionally for so many years, I think this style is easier to attract fans.

In order to gain more experience, in the last few years of my career, I consciously built a good relationship with the "negative typical" Shengtang team, and learned a lot of lessons from their management and operations.

And my current management philosophy is that I usually don't point fingers, but when something happens, I have to find a way to solve it.

So, I'm at the door of the training room right now, and I know very well that once I push the door in, I'm going to be greeted by a bunch of young people who are not yet fully mentally mature, who are suffering from the defeat and all sorts of reasons. As the owner of the team, I don't have time to investigate the psychological state of each of them, but I have to solve the current dilemma.

I don't want this group of gifted young people to repeat my tragedy. To do this, it is necessary to create a better environment for them, which is my obligation as an older generation of esports people, and this is also my original intention as the owner of this team. In my team, no one should worry about things off the pitch, they just have to play well.