If people's fantasies or ideals could be realized, what would you make them real? A billionaire who manipulates the world economy? Or do you have the power to control society? Or is it to surround countless beauties and enjoy the happiness of wanting to die in heaven and earth? Or, is it anything that wants to indulge oneself, the ugly nature of man, that's nothing more than that, right?

I'm no exception.

Whether it's simple, dirty, the confession of the goddess, the first passion, or the sky will really drop a million, or the second disease will recur, fantasizing about becoming the savior of the world, it's ridiculous to think about it, I would actually accept this face that once disgusted me.

When I started writing again, I asked myself, what the hell do I want to write?

Now, I think, I have a new answer.

That's the memory I still have when I came back here, it's my last right, don't think it's ridiculous, it's really my personal experience, and it's the only spiritual pillar I can stay in reality.

The friends who have fought side by side with me, Yuheng, the Four Masters of the Heavenly Family, Kaiyang, and the one I can't let go of and forget the most, Yaoguang.

The world that seems ridiculous to you is an indelible mark on my return to reality and my life.

So, I wrote it in a journal to keep the memories I still have and to remember the days when I was in another world.

On April 12, the weather in Tianhe City was cloudy

The gray sky will make many teenagers with secondary diseases have a kind of apocalyptic fantasy, they will either think of monsters attacking humans, or thinking of aliens invading the earth, in short, it is especially suitable to cause illusions today.

And here, what can make the second disease think of is probably only the appearance of zombies, zombies, or vampires. After all, I was sitting on the side of the road, looking at my children in white filial piety clothes and crying, and many other people I didn't know but were crying. There was a coffin in the tent they had set up, and there was no doubt that the person lying in the coffin was me. After all, even if I don't know it, the black and white photo in front of the coffin is undoubtedly me.

Aside from the candles on both sides of the photo, although the fruit is abundant, I am not interested in it, after all, I was not a person who likes to eat fruit in my life, and I will not change anything after death.

I watched my funeral with my own eyes, but I felt a little fresh. is obviously a dead man, but there is still such a dusty heart, which inevitably disgraces the dead.

Speaking of which, perhaps only after death will you know some information, that is, those who take you into the underworld to determine the good and evil of your life and decide whether to reincarnate or not, it stands to reason that they will never be late, they will appear in front of your eyes at the second of death, not early, not too late.

However, I hid in the shade of a tree against the sun in the sky and waited for ten minutes for someone to be picked up.

For the soul after death, the sun in the sky will become a troublesome existence, and although it will not be burned to ashes immediately, the existence of the spirit body will be even more virtual.

"If I don't come again, let alone rush to reincarnate, I will really be burned into nothingness by the scorching heat of the sun, what is this called? Smoke in front of the coffin? Is there a complaint body in Hades? I'm going to give this a bad review! "I was thinking in pieces, complaining about why the damn usher hadn't come yet, could it be that he was also a pigeon?

Then my bad review is meaningless.

Squatting on the ground and watching his funeral on the side was lively, for fear that other people's families would not know about this dead person, and then looking at my children, one by one crying silently, I wanted to go over and slap each of them. Why didn't anyone take care of me when I was alive? I didn't even say a word of greeting, and I never went home to see it during the New Year's holidays. After I died, I behaved so filially, but I don't know how they will fight for your life in the only house I left, it really disgusts me.

What if they hadn't changed when they were young, never married, and never had unfilial piety?

Perhaps, it will be even worse than now. But it's also possible that you'll miss the one you'll love for the rest of your life.

Loving someone can't be a lifetime, because before you meet the right person, you will meet other people, and go back to love other people, you can't meet the most right person from birth, the person who can love the most, so the love for the rest of your life is the real responsible love.

Now, when I think back to my life, my spirits are a little cold.

stroked his beard and shook his head helplessly, after all, I am dead, and now I think about it, it is meaningless, just some expectations, the one she was alive will not meet again, know each other, and love each other like the vow.

"That" came a girl's delicate voice beside me, "Please, did you hear what I said?" ”。

"What are you doing? Don't you see me waiting for someone? I rolled my eyes, and subconsciously turned around to find that the delicate voice was indeed coming from the mouth of the weak girl in front of me who was not yet the height of my chest.

She looked very cute, with sapphire eyes under a ponytail with aqua blue hair, her cheeks were a little red from shyness or cowardice, and she looked a little twisted when she was holding a staff that was a head taller than her.

A white cloak surrounded a shirt with a red bow tie, a short skirt and white silk stockings, and I wanted to give her a good review when I was younger, and I had the urge to be a gentleman. But now, I'm just a dead old man, and my desires have long been smoothed out by the years. I just think it's a strange outfit.,I don't know, I think who's girl is playing cosplay.。

"Can you see me?" I pointed at myself with my withered fingers.

"Uh-huh," she nodded again and again, and hurriedly said, "I'm really sorry!" I am your guide to Hades! It's me late! Keeping you waiting so long! I'm really sorry!! ”

If it were when I was alive, I would definitely laugh at the appearance of this girl's second disease, and I would also think that all this is nothing more than a fantasy of comics and novels.

But now, I won't be surprised, after all, I'm dead, and after death, I also have a soul, and a soul has memories, which in itself is a miraculous thing.

I pointed to her: "Is this style popular in Hades now?" "If I hadn't read the mythological books about cows, ghosts, snakes, and gods in the real world before, I would have easily believed it, but who called the mythological story a household name, and the gap between me and me is still very big, no, it's quite big.

"Ahh Mr. Beidou, you may have some misunderstandings about Hades, but it's okay, I'll explain it to you slowly, but on this basis, I want to solve your blurring problem first" She looked at my lower body guiltily.

I looked at my lower body suspiciously: "I'll go!" What's going on?! Why is it gone? I don't feel it at all! And the transparent place gradually faces his upper body.

"I'm sorry! I'm sorry!!! Because the spirit has been exposed to the sun for too long, there is a problem of blurring! I'm sorry! I'm sorry!! She desperately apologized.

"Don't apologize yet! Think of a way! "It's inconceivable that I, who was no longer aware of the noise of the funerals around me and reality, had a great panic about turning into nothingness.

"This, this will help you out!!" She hurriedly pulled something out of the pocket of her short skirt, and her mouth was still in pieces: "It's not this, it's not this"

"Hey, hey, hey! Okay no!! It's almost up to my chest! If I continue like this, I'll be done with it! "I made a gesture with my hands held high, naïve enough to slow down the spread of nothingness.

"Find, find! A potion to restore the spirit!! As long as there is one finger left in the spirit, it can perfectly restore the original appearance of the spirit, eliminating the need for chanting and rituals, it is really worthy of a home trip, leading to the West Heaven, a must-have medicine" She excitedly took out a small glass bottle filled with purple potion.

"So, where can you buy it? Wrong!! When is it? Be your sister's introduction!! So what are you waiting for, hurry up!! "It stands to reason that the reason why I am so impatient when I am so old and hopeless may be the instinctive fear of nothingness.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry!" Her face turned even redder when she heard my complaints and urges, but she pulled out the cork and closed her eyes tightly to spill on me.

Sprinkling it on me! Give me a new lease of life! Sprinkle it on me!! Rescue the imaginary me!。 Sprinkle........ Yes!!! Yes!!! Yes...... Ahh

Sprinkle your sister!!

"Sprinkle your sister!! Will it be sprinkled! Where the did you spill?!?!! Looking at herself who was gradually blurring, and then at the extremely shy little girl in front of her, who claimed to be a guide, spilled the potion on the lawn on the side mercilessly, and there was not a drop left in the bottle.

If the soul has a heart, then my heart, at this moment, is sparse.

When she opened her eyes, she was also startled: "How can this be?!" Does the potion not work?!! ”

"Spirit, you're big!! Please, don't close your eyes when you sprinkle!! It's all sprinkled somewhere else!! "Watching the void gradually reach my neck, my sense of fear grew stronger and stronger, and my instinct to survive became stronger.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry!! I have another way! It's just" she rolled her eyes and looked at me hesitantly.

"When?! Don't hesitate, what's the way to use it quickly!! "I was really frustrated by her.

Is it over, is there no hope at all? I just want to look forward to a new rebirth, but is it going to return to nothingness?

I remember reading a book about it before I was alive. The weight of a person's soul after death depends on the good and evil he has done in life. And when the most sinful person dies, he will be reduced to nothingness, that is, eternal darkness.

Am I going to go down to darkness? If I don't do anything, will I stop there?

When I finally closed my eyes, thinking that maybe this was fate, and cut off all hope, in the haze, I saw that girl, the moment she rushed towards me, the color of her lips like a peach, the moment it touched my lips, the spirit body, changed drastically.

Immediately afterward, I saw only her panicked expression, and finally, the eagerness that lingered in my ears was mixed with a sound of ashamed concern.

I didn't expect that my soul would be in a coma after I died. So I'm nothing? Still is?

The sound of the waves sounded in my ears, but the air I breathed did not smell salty and wet, but it was very fresh. I slowly opened my eyes and saw the endless universe, the nearest is the galaxy in the sky, looking at the colorful and gorgeous nebulae beside the galaxy, like flowers blooming on the earth.

"Where am I?" I muttered to myself.

"Ah, you're awake!" The little girl, rubbing her moist and swollen face, appeared in front of me.

"I'm not dead? No, I mean, I didn't turn into nothingness? "I'm confused.

"It's a long story, but I need to explain it well"

I nodded in confusion, sat up, looked around, and realized that I was lying on the beach, and the sea with slight ripples in the distance reflected the starry sky above.

Even around the ground below where I was sitting, red flowers grew from the other side, and behind me was a cliff, and behind my multifaceted little girl was a lush jungle, and on the other side of us was an endless desert.

"Before, because of my negligence, not only was you late, but also caused you to almost turn into nothingness, I'm really sorry, but at this moment, I hope you can sit down, listen to my introduction, and I will also answer your doubts one by one, this is my duty, for what happened before, I really, I'm sorry again" She looked solemn, completely without the appearance of twisting just now, so I also sat upright and nodded slightly.

"As you can see, this is the entrance to Hades, but the entrance will change according to the deceased's fantasy of death, it seems that your fantasy of the entrance to Hades is really beautiful" She looked at the sky, and her jewel-like eyes seemed to reflect the brilliance of the galaxy.

I scratched my head embarrassedly: "After all, before I was alive, I didn't know anything except unrealistic fantasies"

"Yes, I think it's really beautiful," she praised again, as if she wanted to take in all the surrounding scenery in her paused eyes, and couldn't help but say in a somewhat regretful and somewhat desolate tone: "After all, some people will think of the Nai He Bridge, they will think of the desert, they will think of the fog and the Black Sea, they are all gloomy images, in fact, they are nothing more than their fear of so-called death." And this is the first time I've seen such a beautiful entrance."

It's just the business in front of her, which makes her return to the conversation after looking at the universe.

"I'm the same, the lead person will be born like some fantasy before you were alive, but I didn't want to fight, you still had this idea when you were alive" Although she tried very hard to say it seriously, but the red face had betrayed her shy heart at this time.

I also smiled a little embarrassedly, and quickly changed the topic: "Then how did I come back to life?" I mean, how did you not turn into nothingness but return to spirits? ”

"Because of the ritual," her face turned even redder, "because chanting takes time, and the potion happens to be only that bottle, so in a hurry, I can only use the ritual to help you recover your spirit, although I am once." ”

"Ritual?" I tried to think back to the past, thinking of the peachy lips and touch, and thinking of the first kiss in her mouth, I couldn't help but blush: "That's really sorry, after all, I'm also afraid of turning into nothingness, so I didn't think about it so much, I'm really sorry."

She also replied in a low voice: "No, it's okay, after all, it was also because I spilled the wrong potion, and there was no better choice at that time"

I scratched my cheek, and in order to avoid the atmosphere being so ambiguous and embarrassing again, I was ready to ask some serious questions: "So, I want to know if I'm dead?" If so, what do you do? "Undoubtedly, these are the two questions I want to know the most.

"Well, I'll tell you slowly, first of all, you're not dead, you're born again"

"Reborn?"

"Well, although in the earthly human world, people's definition of death is the end of life, but after all, they are not spirits, nor are they really dead, so they will not know what the definition of death is in Hades."

"So what is real death? Am I counting this? ”

"True death is to return to nothingness, to darkness, and to be endless, and most human beings seem to have a very vague definition of this, so they think that human death is death. But for the soul, having a spirit body does not mean death, so it is not an exaggeration to say that you are alive again."

"So what do I mean?" I heard it a little foggy, and I didn't understand it for a while.

"You can understand that you have died in the earthly human world in your dimension, but you still have a spirit left, and you can choose to return to the earthly human world to be born as a baby, or you can continue to live as a creature in another dimensional world or a creature on a different planet in the same dimension, so can you understand?"

I shook my head.

She was patient: "You can understand that on the earth you know you are dead, but your soul is still there, and you can also have the right to choose where to continue to live, the right to continue to live the life you want, which is called rebirth, so you understand?" ”

I nodded as if I didn't understand: "So, what should I do to be reborn?" ”

She seemed to be a little happy that she had finally gotten down to business, and in my opinion, after all, she was a little girl who couldn't hide her true feelings: "This is what we do in Hades, and we take over the responsibility of leading people."

"You mean, you're going to help me be reborn?"

"Hmmm! After all, the world of Hades is also very limited, and everyone will not be allowed to go to Hades to wait for the opportunity to be reborn, so there will be such an existence as a guide, not only to help people go to Hades, but also to have the power to send souls directly to the world of rebirth, which will relieve Hades of many pressures that cannot be immediately and effectively arranged for rebirth because there are too many souls."

"It seems that no world is easy," I scratched my head.

"After all, Hades is also a world, it's just a responsibility to help souls be reborn, human beings are too mythologized to Hades" She stood up and straightened her clothes: "Without further ado, I think we have to prepare for your rebirth immediately, is there anything else you need me to do before that."

I got up with her and thought, "Can you know the world that girl is in?" ”

She shook her head: "I'm sorry, this, I don't know, no, I don't have the right to tell you, we are responsible for the soul of the soul, sorry"

"It's okay, it's okay, I'm just asking casually" I don't know why, in my heart, a little lost, if the world after rebirth, without her existence, what should I do, how to survive: "Then I still hope to promise me one thing"

"Huh?"

"Can you save my memories, even if I am reborn in another world, I don't want to be able to forget"

She just smiled and shook her head, and I understood what that couldn't possibly mean, and smiled wryly.

"Then I don't have any other questions" Although I am a curious person, when I know the answer I want to know the most, I will not seem to care so much about other things, but I am eager for a new beginning, to end this sad and joyful memories of my life.

"Alright, then I'll open the door to a new world for you," she held her staff aloft, the sapphire set at the tip of the staff shimmering, and she could see the spells swirling around the gem.

Between me and her, an oval-shaped door of light gradually emerged. The inside of the door was shrouded in light mist, and I couldn't see the world inside the door, but I felt that this light door didn't seem to be dangerous, but on the contrary, it also made me feel close to wanting to get closer and walk in to find out.

"Walk in and you'll know what world you've been born again," she said again.

"Don't you know?"

She shook her head, "The world inside the door is based on the world you thought and longed for before you were born, it is both a reality, but it is illusory in a sense, so we don't know about the world you hoped for in life, but what we can tell you is, please rest assured, the world inside the door, although it is your desire in life, is also a real world in other dimensions, or on other planets, so, it seems to be a dream, perhaps, that's what it means" She said a bunch of words that I didn't understand.

"Then I'm just going to walk in, right?"

"Well, walk in, your new life will unfold, and we will only know what world you live in when you walk in"

I still couldn't understand, but I still nodded: "Thank you, although there are some hiccupes, but I think you will be more suitable for the job of leading people, after all, it is different from the fierce gods and evil gods I imagined."

She was also ashamed, but nodded happily: "You too, much kinder than the souls I have met before."

"By the way, I haven't asked you what your name is?"

She smiled: "What is the point of knowing or not knowing?" ”

But I smiled as if I understood: "Then I'm leaving."

"Well, I wish you happiness and joy in your new world"

Although I still have thoughts about the earth and my life, the moment I walk towards the door, it seems that everything will be simply let go, and all the past will be happily forgotten. It was in me, in the door of light.

With the disappearance of the Gate of Light. The girl looked at the sky and smiled: "It's really beautiful, I may never forget this scenery for the rest of my life, maybe, we will have the opportunity to meet again in the future, Mr. Beidou."

Suddenly, the cliffs disappeared, the deserts disappeared, the woods disappeared, then the shores disappeared, the stars disappeared, and even the sandy beaches covered with flowers at the girl's feet gradually disappeared into darkness.