Of course, it's important to be enthusiastic, dreamy, and respond to the expectations of fans, but these things have a similar effect to me now, which can make me excited for a while, but they can't keep me excited. Now the competition and training is a job for me, and after I really became a professional player, I realized that the so-called professional players are also a group of ordinary people, and since they are ordinary people, it is understandable to work hard to earn more wages.

Since our team is almost the most rigorously trained, the rest of the team except me is often miserable. Liu Chuanhao once told me that when he first started participating in the youth training, he was woken up by a dream every morning, and he got up to train at the end of the day, and he didn't need an alarm clock at all. Later, after he started playing in the second league, the first thing he woke up to was to look at the new messages from his fan base and fans on Weibo, and rely on their encouragement to get up and go into training. And now, the first thing he does when he gets up every day is to read his bank statement, relying on the numbers above to motivate himself to get up early to wash and train.

Wang Jingluo: "Then have you ever thought about what would happen to you if your current income was suddenly cut by 90%?" ”

Me: "I don't think it's fair to say that, I'm earning my income on my own, not only do I have to train hard, but I've also done a lot of work to get back into the game. You know this very well, I deserve this income, and your assumption is meaningless? ”

Wang Jinglue: "Oh, fair, let me tell you clearly, e-sports has never been fair. ”

"What do you mean?" Not to mention that e-sports is one of the sports that emphasize fairness and justice, even in sports, e-sports is the closest to fairness. Just imagine, football and basketball and other sports will also be interfered by the referee, if the referee's professional ability is insufficient or even wrong, it will still cause objective unfairness. But esports has almost no such problems, all damage settlement and victory and loss decisions are automatically completed by the system, and there are far fewer bugs in the game than human referee errors.

As a game developer, a practitioner and beneficiary of the e-sports industry, Wang Jingluo suddenly said: "E-sports has never been fair", isn't this a slap in the face?

Wang Jingluo: "Let me ask you, you can go from an amateur master to the core player of the top league runner-up team in just one year, and a strong contender for MVP this season, do you know what you rely on?" Do you think it's your effort? Yes, even if you Chen Liao is really hard-working, but there are many people in this industry who work harder than you, and even I can find a lot of players who can't even play in the minor league, they work harder than you, but what about their income? I'm afraid it's not as small as your fraction. How many people like you, whose strength, income, and fame have risen like a rocket, in an industry? You're telling me it's effort? Oh, this is the talent of Chiguoguo, it is God's reward to eat. ”

I didn't speak, because I knew that Wang Jingluo was right, in fact, since I met Lao Xu, I understood that failure is the norm in this industry. Although I was recognized as "the most talented" by him, a second-rate professional, when I was playing the game for fun, I was determined to go this way. Although I have gone through a lot of hardships to get to where I am today, it has been much smoother and more fortunate than I imagined.

Wang Jingluo: "Okay, even if you work hard enough, God can reward you for eating, but what if you were born 20 years earlier?" Well? Let's see if you're still so lucky. ”

Although I haven't known Wang Jingluo for a long time, in my impression, he has always been calm and restrained, and this time he talked about the topic of his ex-fiancée, which seemed to make him completely take off his mask and become the little programmer who could ignore the things he decided to do. When he said the phrase "born twenty years early", I knew that what he was going to say next must have something to do with her, his ex-fiancée.

Wang Jingluo: "I was a middle school classmate with her, my family was not rich in the early years, when I was in college, she was playing e-sports competitions, at that time she didn't have much prize money for the game, unlike you who flew around today when you changed venues, they basically had to squeeze in the green car for more than ten hours to play a game, you must know that the prize money at that time was basically the same as a plane ticket, if you flew around, basically the game was in vain, provided that you are strong enough to get the bonus." ”

Wang Jingluo: "At that time, the so-called team organization was also very loose, basically a few people with hobbies were grouped together, and the so-called coaches generally led the team part-time, to put it bluntly, they bought lunch boxes for everyone and booked tickets." There are no stable sponsors to sponsor it, and many activities rely on 'fate' in terms of costing in those days. But even in that case, she still made a lot of money from the competition, so that I could have a better life in college. The notebook I used during my studies was bought with her money, and from that time on, I silently swore that if I got ahead in the future, I would definitely let her live a good life. ”

Esports practitioners born around the 80s are indeed an amazing generation, and they struggled to survive the era when gaming suffered the most prejudice, and they almost supported the history of esports in that era through pure love. With their existence, we have one legend after another to brag about and show off when we look back on that flood era, and the moon god once told me that he was the one who worshipped the professional players of that era and embarked on the road of professionalism. If I had been born in those days, even if I had both hard work and talent to make a name for myself in a certain sport, I am afraid that I would not have had enough money to show off to my family and friends, let alone the precious years of my esports career.

It seems that as I saw in that snack shop, the time when Yang Ruiqi was most famous happened to be when Wang Jingluo was still studying and was most penniless. The employment in the computer field is very wide, and I don't know to what extent Yang Ruiqi was influenced by his path of game development. I know the story that followed, but the question at that time still exists, since the most difficult times have been survived together, why did they abandon him when they were at a low point?

I asked myself: "So the reason you two are apart is because you were swept away by the company and your income level plummeted?" ”