After a while, Jiang Qiao and his sister converged at the entrance of the venue.

Jiang Xueka had an extra 3,000 yuan, and specially bought eels, pork ribs and a lot of snacks.

The moment he saw the eel, Jiang Qiao suddenly remembered that yesterday a certain idiot cried and said, "I want you to make braised eel for me again." ”

I remembered that the soul under the moon just now said that my sister had begged him to practice on the spot. Of course, Xiaoxue didn't lie to him, because at that time, his mother died of illness and he had just dropped out of school, and it was really difficult for them.

Along the way, the brother and sister talked and laughed, and the journey of more than an hour felt like it was over in ten minutes.

Jiang Qiao's home is a small two-story building surrounded by bamboo on three sides and a dam.

As soon as he got home, he went to the field alone, wanting to be alone. Because of the lot of words in the past two days, he has been stimulated a lot.

Maybe in the past few years, I have really collapsed myself too tightly.

At present, the slopes of the village are deserted, there is no longer the sound of joy when I was a child, and there is no longer the busy farming scene of green in April and yellow in August, and there are only a few fish ponds and a few vegetable fields scattered under the hillside.

Jiang Xue looked at her brother from a distance upstairs, and felt very happy inexplicably.

In fact, she began to contact League of Legends as early as when she graduated from elementary school.

Because my brother has become irritable and irritable since that summer, and has become completely different from himself.

She wanted to know what her brother liked and cared about.

What kind of power does a game have to turn one person into another?

Because of these thoughts, she often went to her classmates and Internet cafes to play secretly, and secretly used Jiang Qiao's notebook to meet a big brother named Qinghu.

With his help, his skills have improved by leaps and bounds, and he has been mixed below silver for two years, but he has hit the first and second in less than half a year.

When she was in junior high school, her knowledge was relatively simple, and she was able to do both academics and games, and finally got into one of the best high schools in the city with the third grade score.

When she arrived at the Municipal No. 1 Middle School, she learned about the gap between the district and the county and the main city. The league is also playing less and less, only playing orders during holidays.

But as she grew older and had a deeper understanding of League of Legends, Jiang Xue gradually understood some of the meanings of "e-sports", and knew why her brother had changed so much at the beginning.

Now, her only motivation to play the league is to hope that she can have a common topic with her brother, and even let him get back the heart that he once had, fearless of anything for the sake of his career.

So she started trying to save money.

I want to celebrate his special birthday, travel to Shanghai, and watch the game of the king team. There is not a day that she doesn't imagine when her brother sees her hand holding the ticket to the King's Tournament......

She just wants Jiang Qiao to know that she is not an obstacle to his dreams and career, but a driving force. The elder brother can make all kinds of sacrifices and compromises for the sake of his sister, and he is equally willing!

On the field, standing in the wind for a while, Jiang Qiao, who had been sluggish for a long time, suddenly felt something.

In that moment,

He couldn't help but run to his fish pond to see if the branch of the cherry tree that had been broken by his sister many years ago had healed;

Look at how much artemisia grass is left in the bird's nest that was dug up by the brother and sister before;

Go and see if the loquat tree you planted together when you were a child grows taller than him......

He walked on almost every ridge, stepped on every bluestone slab, and visited every big tree......

Those memories that belonged to the brother and sister were so warm and so lovely, he had forgotten how long it had been since he had been so relaxed.

After another while of wind, Jiang Qiao's mobile phone rang with a prompt tone, and when he opened it, it turned out to be an email sent by Han Yao.

So he squatted in front of the fish pond and read it carefully.

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Jiang Qiao:

Hello.

In fact, I invited you to go to the Internet café to play the league together, and I played until the early hours of the morning, because it is really difficult to find a quiet night at home to reply to your letter to me.

Maybe I can call it a gift!

Thank you very much for your comments and encouragement.

Please also get used to my undescriptive, unadorned writing, but please believe that my heart is very serious, very serious to describe my inner world to you, even though I am tired at this time......

Unable to respond positively to your letter, I also hope that our exchanges, ideas are on the same platform.

But you know, we're two completely different modes of life, like I said, the culture you're exposed to, the social climate that I'm used to.

We can only share and learn from each other's areas of expertise!

I was a precocious girl, and I knew what it meant to like and worship since I was in elementary school. I remember that I returned to my hometown from Guangzhou in the summer a long time ago, hehe...... It's been so long that I need to count on my fingers and memorize it.

The summer of Shuangqing is really hot, and at my grandmother's place, the power often starts to go out in the evening, in fact, I was quite squeamish at that time, and I would be troubled by the bites of mosquitoes in the summer, and I knew the chirping......

If I'm not mistaken, you were already very good at ridiculing at that time, and you knew that you were a top student when you were very young, and you may have been admired at that time, and there may have been an inexplicable liking, but it seems to be very short-lived. The memory is really faint and faint......

Are you surprised to hear it?

But I will tell you ruthlessly, even if it is, even if there are ifs, nothing will work.

Soon, I entered middle school, and soon I started my first love, although it was also a secret love, but it was my first love complex. I remember very well the kind of emotion I had for him at that time, I "loved" him so much!

Eventually, after graduation, we found a home for this special affection we gave each other, and we were in a different place, but we talked all night...... Talking about the past, talking about the future. But I also lost to the dopamine, hormones, which are produced by the novelty.

I know myself too well, until I'm about to turn 23 now, my temperament is not completely settled, this is also the factor that I am very distressed at the moment, how I wish I could be determined to think about what I want, how should I be? And how I am afraid of making the wrong decision again because of my incertainty.

So I don't know if I want to do something that others think is right because of social morality and responsibility, but I resist it in my heart...... The reason why I want to choose a completely unfamiliar city, an empty town, is that I want to stay away from these people and things that make me impetuous. Although, I clearly understand that everything depends on me.

Today's friend also talked about my personality, as if it was in September last year, she used a very popular sentence: Since then, you seem to have been struck by thunder, and you have changed your sex all of a sudden! I was stunned, because I had unconsciously been very unscrupulous in foul language, drinking, and jokes, which I was already comfortable with. I've never thought about whether these are good or bad, and I've never reflected on it, I just feel happy, it's good to be happy.

I don't know how to express the happiness that I need to get from the outside world, through alcohol, through meaningless meals, because of the hideousness and discomfort of my heart.

It's about self-confidence, it's about learning......

In fact, as long as I don't involve some deep cultural fields, I am relatively confident and a little arrogant.

Hehe...... I'm not the immature and innocent girl I used to be, I even have to use some cosmetics, lipstick, perfume, to hide the traces of my years, I am afraid to show my true self in front of strangers. Although I know that I look good with a plain face, in fact, I don't know what I'm hiding myself, maybe it's really just a habit, or maybe it's trying to adapt to this social atmosphere, because makeup is a sign of respect for people. Because we have to be in the crowd every day, no matter what you experienced yesterday.

Sometimes I don't know if it's right for me to blindly pursue what I like, my career. Will I really hold on until I'm old?

It's only when I stick to something with my heart that I shine in that place, not three minutes of heat, all, I guess I chose the right one. Because when many unsatisfactory and unhappy things happen in life, and you can't solve them, you will find that only learning will make you forget everything, only by achieving yourself, only by making yourself stronger, will you feel better in your heart. You can't calm yourself down through some books, it's counterproductive, and only by torturing your body, exercising, stretching more, until your muscles are already resisting, tired, you will get satisfaction, and that damn sense of accomplishment!

About Love.......

Sorry, I'm almost 23 years old and don't know what that thing is! I really don't understand and don't seem to have one. Before the age of 16, you should be very yearning and longing! Once upon a time, I really wanted to wait for someone with whom I really had a deep soul communication, the same hobbies, and a comfortable way to get along. Actually, it's really hard and difficult, and it really doesn't seem to be such a perfect person. Even if there is, you will find that he is either shorter than you, or has no strength, or is slightly older. It's been a long, long time since I thought about what true love is, because I think it's better to be happy in everything, and it's easier to be happy than to be sincere.

I was indulging myself, and I thought that if I was tired, really tired, then I would stop, stop and fulfill my responsibilities, obligations, filial piety, social morality, instead of carrying those social opinions.

Do you understand? What I mean by this, I've been out for eight years, and you really simply think that I'm really that simple, so noble, and even that you think I deserve mercy?

What about my child?

It's real, there's no way to get around, there's no escape, and everyone has to pay for the wrong things they've done in the past!

I'm not going to go back to the grass just for the sake of the so-called emotional foundation, and I don't know what the emotional foundation is.

Compound?

I'm thinking about this very seriously, but it's just because of responsibility, morality, and peace of mind for my family, and nothing else exists. Oh, and he is kind to me, my tolerance......

You won't understand and won't understand.

I'm at this stage right now, and if that person appears the best, it means I'm lucky, after all, some people don't necessarily have love until the moment of death. If not, then I won't be stupid to wait, I have to do what I have to do, no one will always wait for you in the same place, time, distance, it's a terrible thing. It's been a year, and it turns out that I seem to be back in place after going around, and I haven't gained much, just learned some routines, hehe....... I'm not going to ask people if I'm right to do that.

Loneliness is really the norm......

I will read your letter often, and I will do it this year, and I will bother you to teach it. I'm just writing a simple explanation, and I haven't thought about what you'll do if you read it, maybe I'm just venting my emotions myself.

Thank you for the invitation, I'll try to make some changes.

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Jiang Qiao is a very sensitive person, and he reread Han Yao's letter several times.

Looking at the decayed and quiet field in front of him, for some reason, a strange voice suddenly echoed in his mind.

Under the blue sky, are we really willing to be ordinary?