Do you know what it's like to dream during the day? When you are not asleep, you live in a dream, every step you take is a little fluttery, and you often have to ask yourself when no one is around: "Is all this true?" Is it a real existence or a dream of nothingness? ”

This is a self-talk in the conversation between Long Xiaoyu and Han Ding, and it is also his past love mood. This dreamlike mood may also be due to the privacy of that love, and the secret process that that love has undergone. This state of secrecy makes the love between two people more exciting, more challenging, and more like an adventure...... This is something that Han Ding can also imagine. He has always agreed that love should be an adventure, it should be unconventional, it should be different, it should be impossible to make it happen.

In the stage of secretly falling in love with Luo Jingjing, it was also a period of smooth sailing and rapid development in Long Xiaoyu's career. Because Luo Baochun had never set up a full-time secretary before, he had never tasted the benefits and convenience of having such a full-time secretary. After having Long Xiaoyu, Luo Baochun's office became organized, and Luo Baochun's command of the entire company became more convenient and fast. In the past, the various reports, requests, letters and official letters that were piled up on the desk every day are now classified and clear at a glance. What situation does Luo Baochun want to check and what number he asks, Long Xiaoyu will soon be able to find out the report. Daily activities, such as what time to have a meeting, what time to meet guests, what time to have a banquet, what time to go on a business trip, what time to leave home, what things and documents to bring, etc., all do not have to worry about it, will not be forgotten, Secretary Long will arrange and remind them one by one, and prepare thoroughly. With such a capable, careful and hard-working secretary, Luo Baochun's daily work and mind are obviously much easier.

He liked and relied on this young secretary, and often watched him go in and out with admiration, watching him call to help him make appointments, help him transfer cars, help him order meals, help him sort out documents, and help him send him to usher...... After two months of Long Xiaoyu's secretary, Luo Baochun began to deliberately let him participate in some of the company's professional meetings and external business negotiations in addition to his daily secretarial work, so that he could gradually learn and understand the company's operating procedures and business knowledge, and let him get in touch with and get acquainted with some of the company's relationships and customers. Luo Baochun did this, and everyone in the company could see that the chairman of the board of directors was cultivating this young man with heart and mind, and was letting this young man enter the company's management system step by step. Of course, Long Xiaoyu is too young, he is only twenty-two years old, which is not enough to become a climate, although he has studied macroeconomic management for two years, but he is still far from experience, and he is also at a loss at the micro level. Perhaps because of his age, in the eyes of the incumbent backbones of the company and Luo Baochun's cronies and former ministers, he is still a child, so no one feels his threat, and no one takes his favor to heart. What's more, Long Xiaoyu's few words and loyalty make him popular in the company. Age and popularity have become his protective umbrella, effectively avoiding premature attention and making enemies on all sides.

The first thing Long Xiaoyu recalled to Han Ding that he had intervened in the company's business and even the company's core secrets was a preparatory meeting for the expansion project convened by Luo Baochun at the Yellow Crane Lake Villa. The meeting was held in Luo Baochun's study, and in addition to Luo Baochun, the only people who attended it were the director of the pharmaceutical factory, the chief accountant, the person in charge of the expansion project, and the manager of the company's sales department. Long Xiaoyu still remembered that it was a very cold afternoon, the hot air conditioner was turned on in the study, Luo Baochun had just finished taking a nap, and there was still tiredness on his face, Long Xiaoyu carefully poured tea for them, and put Luo Baochun's glasses and pen and paper in a conspicuous place on his desk, and when he was about to exit, Luo Baochun stopped him.

Luo Baochun said listlessly in a hoarse voice: "Xiao Yu, you also sit down and listen." ”

So, Long Xiaoyu didn't leave, he sat down in an appropriate corner of the study and listened to the meeting. Only then did he know that Luo Baochun's tired face was not that he didn't wake up, but that he was really exhausted, and he knew that under the glorious appearance of the famous Baochun Pharmaceutical Company in Pingling and the whole province, there were also many worries. The meeting on that day was easy and then difficult, first studying the issue of clearing the expansion site and the issue of tendering for the construction project, both of which sounded like they had been discussed more than once. Next, they began to focus on the source of the project payment. The expansion project of the pharmaceutical factory has been approved, the new pharmaceutical assembly line has also been ordered from the Canadian manufacturer, and the down payment of 5 million yuan has been remitted from the bank. However, the troops and horses have been moved, the grain and grass have not been raised, and all the work of the expansion project has been progressing smoothly according to the schedule, but the project money and land requisition fee have not yet been fully implemented. The chief accountant added the company's available deposits, the accounts receivable that are expected to be recovered in the near future, and the loans that the bank has promised to lend, and then subtracted the various costs, taxes, land use fees, loan interest due, and wages payable to the employees to be paid by the company in the near future. The most ideal plan is to revitalize the inventory and sell the inventory worth 58 million yuan as soon as possible. In this regard, Luo Baochun beat his spirits, raised his voice, and cheered up his subordinates with a red face, he said that with the brand reputation of Baochun oral liquid for so many years, the unsalable in the past few months is only a temporary low tide. He instructed the factory director and sales manager to increase sales efforts, if necessary, a new advertising film can be designed to replace the original old film, and the new film can invite Professor Liang Huilan, who has just been hired as a consultant of the company, to appear on camera in person to explain the miraculous effect of Baochun oral liquid. Professor Liang is a nationally renowned pharmacology expert, and her advertising will definitely get twice the result with half the effort, at least many hospital doctors will recommend it to patients. Baochun oral liquid also created a market miracle of 30 million yuan per month the year before last, and if we can strengthen the promotion and create brilliance, the inventory of 58 million yuan is not enough to sell in two months, so the prospect is very optimistic. Luo Baochun's outlook made the person in charge of the project and the chief accountant look excited, and even Long Xiaoyu was full of energy when he listened to it. However, the expressions of the factory director and the sales manager echoed a little reluctantly, repeatedly saying that the pressure is very high, the outlook is not necessarily so optimistic, and in case of poor sales, the financial problem should also find another way, so as not to quench the thirst of the near water......

The meeting lasted for two hours, and Long Xiaoyu didn't say a word except for getting up and pouring boiling water twice for the leaders. He can't interject in this kind of meeting, and it won't be his turn to interject. But he was still very excited, because he knew that he was attending a very important meeting today, and that being able to attend such a meeting seemed to be a sign of trust, a confirmation of identity. Now, the next development plan of Baochun Pharmaceutical Co., Ltd., the difficulties it is facing, the company's capital stock, the amount of inventory, all these situations that belong to the core secrets of the enterprise, Luo Baochun allowed him to listen to it word for word, without the slightest evasion. This made Long Xiaoyu not only feel proud, but even a little grateful, and there was a bit of impulse to die for his confidant.

Long Xiaoyu's mentality, Han Ding also had a similar experience, he was the head of the student union department in college, and he also made a few iron buddies, he has experienced how much spiritual power the trust between superiors and subordinates and friends can produce for a hot-blooded young man.

After the meeting ended that day, Luo Baochun told Long Xiaoyu that there was nothing for him to do, and asked him to go back to the city with the factory director's car. The factory director saw that Long Xiaoyu was very appreciated by Luo Baochun, so he was also very enthusiastic about him. Along the way, I also took the initiative to talk with him, asking long and short questions, showing the kindness and easy-going of an elder.

This is the spring of 1998, the sun in the sky not only becomes bigger and bigger day by day, but also goes later day by day, when the factory director sent Long Xiaoyu to the door of the company, the street lights on the street have just been lit. Long Xiaoyu later admitted to Han Ding very frankly that in those days, he was restless when he saw the street lights on, and his mind was full of Luo Jingjing's shadow. He thanked the factory director and hurried upstairs, went to the hut where he lived, changed into the suit he wore to work, and changed into a popular casual suit - denim pants and Versace's jacket, and even forgot to wear a sweater and ran downstairs. The company's office building was no longer occupied, and his leaping steps down the stairs echoed unbridled in the hollow building. This is the noisiest time on the streets of the city, crowded with people and cars coming home from work, but the small building of the pharmaceutical company is stacked at the junction of the two side streets by night, and it is actually crowded at this time. Diagonally opposite the small building, there is a small shop selling groceries, the lights are dim, the business is depressed, the boss sits behind the counter in a sculptural daze, only one woman is borrowing a phone in front of the counter, Long Xiaoyu just ran out of the company's door, the woman hung up the phone, turned around and called him.

"Xiao Yu!"

Long Xiaoyu suddenly stopped, stunned for a long time, before he recognized the face in the shadows against the light of the small grocery store.

"Siping?"

Siping stepped out of the shadow and approached Long Xiaoyu, she looked him up and down with a surprised gaze, as if she didn't know him. After looking at it for a while, he grinned and said loudly, "Yo, you're really rich." ”

Long Xiaoyu knew that she was referring to what he was wearing, the denim trousers and the very trendy coat were all things that Siping had never seen. The trousers are a fake brand he bought with his salary after work, and the price is less than 100 yuan, but he looks slender and has a very beautiful silhouette when worn on his body. Before buying this pair of trousers, Siping knew that Long Xiaoyu barely had a slightly more decent pair of pants, even if it was only a little newer.

Siping's gaze was more surprised by his coat, which she probably could see was a high-end thing. This was bought for him by Luo Jingjing before he had a relationship with Long Xiaoyu. At that time, Long Xiaoyu resolutely refused, and excused himself for a long time, almost making Luo Jingjing angry, so he accepted it with a red face. And this is Luo Jingjing bought according to his size, what if he doesn't accept it?

Siping said: "Hey, I'll talk about it, I haven't looked for you for more than a month, and you don't know if you tell me when you're living a good life, didn't you forget me?" ”

Long Xiaoyu stood there stunned, his heart pounding, but he couldn't say a word. That's right, what Siping said was really right, he really almost forgot about her, and forgot all about it.

After he went to work in Baochun Company, after he moved out of Nobita's shed, he and Siping naturally saw less, and Siping took the initiative to find him. Siping is a wild person, Long Xiaoyu is worried that it will not affect her to come to the company all day long, so he later had to make an appointment with Siping in three chapters: don't go to the company to find him, try to call as little as possible, the two sides will not meet for the time being, and wait until his work is stable. Siping was very reluctant, and after muttering for a while, she reluctantly agreed. They really haven't been in touch for more than a month.

When Long Xiaoyu and Han Ding talked about this episode, he emphasized that he agreed with Siping to reduce contact completely so as not to affect his work, and he didn't want to lose this hard-won job opportunity because of any mistakes. But Han Ding didn't want to listen to him nag about this kind of superficial reason, he sharply asked the reason behind it, Long Xiaoyu couldn't answer the reason behind it, in fact, he didn't say that Han Ding also knew, it was because he had another Luo Jingjing behind him.

Of course, the gap between these two girls is irreversible, but there is a love between Long Xiaoyu and Zhu Siping, in the most lonely and helpless days when he lost his father and dropped out of school, Zhu Siping was his only warmth and comfort after all. Although she has a bad temper, low cultural quality, and a bad personality and taste with Long Xiaoyu, that period of history has come like this. When Long Xiaoyu told Han Ding about his life with Siping, he could still see some warmth in his eyes: "The winter in Shaoxing is particularly cold, I live in the warehouse of the winery, and there is no fire. Fires are not allowed in the warehouse. Siping brought me a quilt and a hot water bottle from home, and she also brought her sauce duck and rice. I didn't have a mother or sisters since I was a child, she was the first woman who loved me and took care of me, I will never forget this, I will never forget! ”

Could Long Xiaoyu's words and the warmth in his eyes be fake, could they be pretended? To this end, Han Ding once used a series of continuous questions to try to explore the authenticity: "Are you a person who misses the old?" Are you a grateful person? Are you the kind of person who will always remember the kindness of others? ”

Long Xiaoyu's voice was not loud, but he said firmly: "Yes!" ”

"So," Han Ding said conclusively, "you're definitely not going to kill Zhu Siping, are you?" ”

Long Xiaoyu didn't answer directly, but he didn't change the firmness in his voice, he said: "If you don't believe me, if there is no evidence to prove me, if the law must let me die, I can only die." Death may be an opportunity for me, it is an opportunity that God has to give me, let me go to the underworld, go to Zhu Siping, and explain to her why I want to leave her, if this can compensate her......" Long Xiaoyu seemed to be tired and paused, but then he spoke again and finished this paragraph: "Then I can only go to the underworld." ”

Long Xiaoyu's answer, which was like a life confession, made Han Ding silent for a long time, and after the silence, he still continued his forced question: "When you get to the underworld, how can you repay her?" Let you love her again, why do you? ”

Long Xiaoyu was stunned for a moment, and then slowly shook his head: "No, I don't love her anymore." ”

"Then how do you repay her?"

"As long as I can let her ascend to heaven or reincarnate sooner, I can endure all the pain. I can go to hell for her, and be tortured by the imps of Hades. ”

"Does she deserve to go to hell? Did she do anything that deserves to go to hell? ”

"Nope."

"Why? When you get to the underworld, when you can never see Luo Jingjing again, you can no longer be with Luo Jingjing, you don't want to return to Zhu Siping's side, you don't want to fall in love with Zhu Siping again until you die, is there really such a deep hatred between you and her? ”

"No, we don't have hatred, I just don't love her."

"Why?"

"Does love need a reason?"

"To love or not to love, there is a reason."

"Okay, then I'll tell you, because I'm in love with Luo Jingjing, I love Luo Jingjing to death! So, no matter where I go, whether it's heaven or hell, I don't love anyone else. ”

Han Ding was speechless.

But Han Ding also guessed: Zhu Siping, that poor girl, she may love Long Xiaoyu until she dies. This young man rowing a black canopy with a handsome face and dark skin may have always been her heart's home. Every girl's way of expressing love is different, and Zhu Siping definitely lacks the charm and innocence of Luo Jingjing; Or Zhu Siping didn't expect that Long Xiaoyu, a man who lives from snacks and hardships and wandering, would also need the simplicity and softness of women so deeply; Or did she not expect that in such a real world, Long Xiaoyu would really bump into this kind of romantic peach blossom luck - a big boss's daughter, an urban supermodel who is as beautiful as a painting, will fall in love with Long Xiaoyu? It's a dream!

After a month of intermittent contact between her and him, she blocked Long Xiaoyu who was about to go out at the door of the pharmaceutical company. And it was on this night that Long Xiaoyu finally asked her to break up, and at that time she didn't realize that between her and him, there was already a third party who was almost invincible. When Long Xiaoyu said: "Siping, let's stop interacting with each other, and don't talk about each other in the future, let's break up", Siping also thought that he said this just because of the career he had just started, because Long Xiaoyu also explained this to her next. He said that now is the most critical moment in his life, and he must put aside the matter of male and female love, and he can no longer be distracted by such things. He hopes that Siping can understand him and support him, and also hopes that she can find a job as soon as possible, learn some skills while she is young, do some career, and don't waste her precious youth.

Long Xiaoyu thought that Siping would cry, make trouble, scold him for being ungrateful, and refuse his request to break up, and he was prepared for these. He also figured out how to persuade her and how to explain the reason. Love and marriage are originally consensual things, not used to repay debts and repay love. What's more, he also had affection and righteousness for Zhu Siping in the past, and he was removed from the century-old red wine factory because he received it on her behalf; After she went to Pingling, he devoted himself to taking care of her half-paralyzed mother; After he went to work in Baochun Pharmaceutical Company, every time Zhu Siping came to him, he gave her a little money, as little as fifty or as much as one hundred, and he also bought her two clothes. He had always wanted to buy something for Luo Jingjing, but he never bought it, firstly, because Luo Jingjing had everything, he really didn't know what to buy, and secondly, a considerable part of his remaining salary was spent on Siping, and he couldn't show anything to Luo Jingjing with much money. All in all, he remembered Zhu Siping's affection for him, but if he threatened her, he would tell her that he didn't owe her.

But he was all wrong.

Zhu Siping was really stunned for a moment when she heard him say the word "break up", but she didn't cry, or even say no. But she answered the conversation when Long Xiaoyu hoped that she would also find a job quickly and not waste her youth, she smiled and said, "Okay, I want to find a job, can you introduce me to one?" ”

Long Xiaoyu was stunned and said, "How can I introduce it, I don't know anyone." ”

Zhu Siping said: "I see that you are very angry now, you don't know others, and you don't know anyone in your company?" How many relationships did I go to the century-old wine factory at the beginning, and you forgot to get you in? Now that you've entered such a big company, you don't want me anymore if you don't have to worry about food and clothing? ”

Long Xiaoyu was a little sweaty, he seemed to have guessed the purpose of Siping's coming here today, he immediately resisted and said: "This is different from Shaoxing, our company is very formal, you don't have any majors, and your education is low, how can people want you?" ”

Siping said without urgency: "I'm not for me, I won't come to you for me, and no one will look for you if I look for me!" I knew you were a white-eyed wolf, don't worry, I still have this backbone. ”

Long Xiaoyu asked suspiciously: "If you are not for you, then who are you for?" ”

Siping was silent for a while, and they were already talking and walking, and unconsciously walked out of the side street and came to the avenue where people and cars came to pass. The lights on the avenue were bright, but Siping under the lights looked unrecognizable, Long Xiaoyu had never seen such a smile on her face.

"Who am I for?" Zhu Siping said, "I am for the sake of those Shaoxing people who work in Pingling, and I am for everyone to have food." I'm not like you, you don't want to help everyone if you can yourself. ”

Long Xiaoyu is a kind-hearted person, he can't tell whether Siping's words are joking or serious, he doesn't even know if he is innocent or really at fault. He instinctively tried to defend himself: "Why don't I want to help everyone ......" but couldn't find any more words.

Siping said, "Do you want to help everyone? All right. She approached Long Xiaoyu and said in a very serious tone: "Everyone asked me to come to you, there is something I want to ask you for a favor, can you help?" ”

Long Xiaoyu asked, "What's the matter?" ”

Siping didn't say anything, but asked again: "Can you help?" ”

Long Xiaoyu also asked again: "What's the matter?" ”

Siping said: "Nobita has a friend who runs a construction company, and recently wants to take over the expansion project of your pharmaceutical factory, and is ready to participate in your company's bidding." Do you know what a tender is? ”

Long Xiaoyu didn't immediately understand what she was going to say, he muttered, "Of course I know." ”

Siping smiled: "Oh, I forgot you studied economics. If Nobita's friends can take over the work of your company, they will use Nobita's construction team, so that everyone will have a job, won't everyone? So, now it's up to you to help. ”

Long Xiaoyu said: "I don't care about the bidding, I can't help if I want to." ”

"You can help! Nobita asks you to find a way to get to the bottom of that job. Siping's voice was amplified several times by the whistling of a heavy truck driving at high speed on the side of the road, and she asked loudly: "Bottom of the bid!" Do you know what the bottom of the bid is? ”