I'm Severus. Snape, I'm the Potions professor at Hogwarts, and I'm the Head of Slytherin.

The weather was bad today, and my mood was even worse, but of course I didn't feel like I was in a good mood. The new wizards who have just started school are simply ignorant and don't understand anything, those pure-blood little wizards who think they have a family history but are all idiots who don't know anything, those wizards from half-blood and Muggle families are simply good for nothing but what they know about books, and they can't even make the most basic water of life and death, but although I hate stupid people, I hate Gryffindor even more! I deducted them another 20 points today because they were all wrong about potions, and while Slytherin was wrong, I was going to deduct their points because I hated Gryffindor!

I didn't want to stay in the academy anymore, and maybe I should go to the Leaky Cauldron for a drink in the afternoon, though I didn't think it was a good idea.

I regretted it when I arrived, I thought there were no people in the bad weather today, but I didn't expect it to be all people, the empty table I was looking for was quickly filled, although I was very dissatisfied but I didn't say anything, I could easily control my emotions.

I don't like to drink, whether it's spirits or fruit wine, it puts my brain in a mess and I hate that feeling. As always, I ordered a large cup of sherbet. After a few sips, I saw a little wizard in Muggle clothes walk in, he didn't look like he was 11 years old, I don't know how he found out about this place, and he was very familiar with it, and overheard someone talking about the child, as if his parents were Muggles, and he also found out about it by accident, but it has nothing to do with me, everything now makes me feel terrible, and I am not in the mood to think about some inexplicable people.

But soon I realized that I was wrong, I felt someone staring at me, and I turned my head away.

It was the little wizard just now, and when he saw me looking at him, he subconsciously wanted to turn his head, which was normal, but for some reason he didn't turn around, but walked up to me with my gaze.

I don't know what he wants to do, I don't want to know, I just looked at him calmly, he was very nervous, and then he still spoke, it turned out that he wanted to ask me a question, it was funny, another self-righteous Muggle wizard, I didn't know what to say after reading some books, and asked me questions!

I didn't want to pay attention to him and turned my head away, the sound of the wizards laughing around me made me uncomfortable, I don't know what was so funny about it, could they be so easily emotionally infected? I really don't know what to say. The Dementors must have an appetite when they see it!

Kindness? He also really asked, what did he say? He's already trying to make his own potion? Just rely on reading those books to make? It's stupid, I don't know how many herbs this will waste. But this is not like those megalomaniacs who only know how to read a few books and talk about it, at least they know how to make potions and try it.

I decided to give him a chance to point out his mistakes a little, I didn't speak, and when he told him about his production steps, I didn't expect him to be ready to go? I had no choice but to speak.

After listening to his steps, I think he is fortunate that he is not my student now, otherwise I would have deducted 10 points from him, such a simple potion making is actually wrong in so many places, and it is the most common mistake, but his mistakes are indeed not clearly written in the book, which proves that he has read the book carefully and made many attempts, but even then I think he is stupid enough, and he has done so many times without discovering these problems.

But after all these years, the wizard's textbook was as sketchy as ever, and when I casually told him his mistake, he seemed so happy that he wanted to try it at once, and it seemed that he was indeed a man who liked to do it himself. Then I answered him about the two potions that were wrong, but I was already a little impatient, and today I just wanted to go out and around, and I didn't want to teach anyone else.

It seems that he noticed this, and ended the conversation very consciously, and when he was finally ready to leave, he actually wished me a pleasant afternoon? Huh, pleasant? My life is full of darkness and misfortune, and the word pleasure is destined to be out of my mind, but when he is serious and willing to do it, I still stopped him and gave him my address, so that he could use the owl to find me directly in the future, and after giving him the note, I thought I must be crazy, I actually made such a move, and the eyes of the wizards around me made me a little uncomfortable, but it was nothing, and when the little wizard was about to go out, I warned him not to harass me too often.

After he left, I went back to my previous state, but I was a little absent-minded, and for some reason, I began to think about the past, and the boy just now reminded me of Lily.

Lily. Evans......

She was also Muggle-born, and seemed curious about everything, or did I tell her about Hogwarts...... Can't think anymore, can't think anymore, close your brain, close your brain......

I'm a master of Occlumency, if I want to, I can easily suppress my thoughts and prevent others from prying eyes, even Dumbledore and the mysterious people don't want to see the other side of me, but I still feel a little unable to suppress my emotions, it seems that memory is the biggest flaw, I drank a big mouthful of sherbet to try to clear my brain, I am a little distracted, I always can't help but think of the past, think of me, think of them!! My hands clenched, anger and humiliation filled my body, and I kept using Occlumency, which made me feel better. Just thinking of them made me think of her again......

It's so uncomfortable, it hurts, it's so hateful, it's so regretful, it's so powerless......

I don't know how long I've been lost in these emotions, the people around me haven't and won't notice it in the slightest, I just know that the little wizard is back at the bar, it seems that he has bought what he wants, I look at him and then I look back, I feel that he is looking at me too, but I ignore him, he doesn't come back to talk and leaves directly, I watch him walk out of the bar with my peripheral vision.

It's time for me to leave, I'm back to Hogwarts from the pub fireplace with Floo powder, I already feel something is wrong, I rarely have so many thoughts, especially the memories that come from seeing a strange little wizard.

I went back to my underground office at Hogwarts and locked the door with a Door Lock Charm. I was feeling worse and worse, especially when I came back and saw the torrential rain that was raining, which reminded me of the night Lily was killed.

"Ahh I curled up in my chair with my head in my hands, the Occlumency had no effect, I kept recalling what had happened, I remembered Lily, she didn't know about Hogwarts at the time, she was just playing pranks with her talents, she was so cute back then, I had such a good relationship with her back then, but why did she get to that point in the end, why did she like that idiot James.

James, that mediocre, arrogant, trouble-loving megalomaniac, what's so good about him? And what Lily would choose him!

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry...... Lily, I didn't mean to call you mudbloods, I didn't mean to, really! Please forgive me......" I muttered to myself in pain with my arms folded.

Then I thought about being knocked to the ground by James, Klein, Lupin, and being laughed at by them, why, why did you target me, what did I do wrong? Don't you hate me? Why did you save me then, why didn't you let me die.

I don't know why I'm alive, I don't know what the meaning of my life is, why I'm not dead, no, I can't die yet, I haven't avenged Lily, I promised Dumbledore.

I subconsciously took out my wand.

Expecto ? Patromum ! (Guardian of the Gods)

The gloomy basement lit up with a silvery glow, a bright silver deer emerged from my wand, I hugged her as if I were holding Lily, I'm sorry, I couldn't protect you, I really miss you...... Lily.

I am now as helpless as an abandoned baby, with remorse for the informants I once had, this is a punishment, a punishment for me, I will live forever in a world like this, without light, without laughter, without emotion, without love, without ... Friend...... I lived like a yin corpse until... That day...... The arrival of the arrival!

I don't know how long I was in this state, but I pressed these memories to the bottom of my heart again, and released the Occlumency to the fullest extent, and when I looked up, I had completely suppressed all my thoughts.

I opened the door and strode out of the office, no one will know what was just now, and I will not let anyone know, it will accompany me...... Go to the grave.

I'm Severus. Snape, my mother was a wizard and my father was a Muggle.

I'm a half-breed prince!