The expressionless faces showed unprecedented disgust and horror, and it was clear that I was different, and that my presence affected them.

When the subway finally arrived, I got out of the smiles on the faces of those people and ran forward!

At the turnstile, I saw a man and a woman who had an argument with the security screener, for unknown reasons, and it ended with a slap in the face of the security screener.

He's beating people!

The woman was smiling, her face the same as the old man's, swaggering, either the pleasure of bullying or the satisfaction of reverence for violence.

- Since I'm a dog, let me live like a dog!

I don't know when, the black shackles fell from the sky, brutally imprisoned my body, running with shackles, I felt my skin being strangled to pain, and the intense pressure made some strange things continue to surge up from my abdomen, and I couldn't restrain the discomfort.

"What the hell am I doing?"

I don't know, I just feel like the days are going by strangely!

I kept running, running through the wilderness, through the darkness and blood, never stopping, not knowing where I was going, not knowing when I was going to stop, the hot shackles of my body gradually embedded in my body, flesh blurred, bones shattered.

- Run! Forward! Forward!

The voice came to my ears again, shouting and calling.

"Where? Where is it? ”

I cried out from the bottom of my heart, blindly searching.

The sky is spinning, and the surrounding light and shadow are like dust gathered in the wind, flying away into the distance, out of reach.

"Sir, you wait!"

"Get out of here!"

Roaring uncontrollably, my mood was already boiling.

Ignoring the obstacles, I flipped over the turnstile and ran to the only place where I could see the light.

- Hurry up!

- Hurry up!

- Hurry up!

When I entered the light, I jumped high, and in the moment I passed the light, I fell, and this was not the light, but the dark abyss of death and curse.

"Ahh

I cried out in horror as darkness wrapped around my body like a viper, corrosive chills and pain coming from my shattered skin, fear like venom entering my body and then wandering all over my body......

The space was replaced, I broke free from the darkness trembling violently, and after opening my eyes, this was the gate gate, and the security inspector faced me with a helpless expression.

"How long have I been standing here?"

"A few seconds left!"

I took the subway ticket out of my pocket and stuffed it into the ticket machine, and I left the subway station.

"What did I start with?"

I have not been able to find an answer to this question.

I don't know when I opened the door, but every day when I open my eyes, I always feel that something is getting farther and farther away from me!

Walking through the streets that I have walked countless times, I always have to stop in a particular place, look around, and look aimlessly.

It was as if at every point in the past, I had lost something very important here, and although I don't even remember what I had lost, the painful feeling of longing was always affirming it to me, and I was indeed searching, both in fantasy and in reality.

Countless faces passed by me, some of them still had a sense of déjà vu, but more of them were strange and indifferent, like those distorted faces shouting to me, "Hey, what does this have to do with us? ”

I'm tired of it, I cover my ears, I don't want to hear anything like this again.

- What are you doing?

- Why are you covering your ears?

- What are you running away from?

He or she was still pestering me, constantly throwing out questions that I couldn't understand and couldn't answer.

"Who are you?"

- Don't you remember?

- Did you forget?

- You forgot!

- You forgot!

I don't know what that mood means, but standing in the middle of the crowd, I reach forward, and the people behind me will bump into my body from time to time, so that my outstretched hand will never touch the right direction.

"Hey, what are you doing?"

"You're sick, why are you standing in such a place?"

"I'm causing trouble, do you understand?"

……

I don't understand!

I don't understand it at all!

It's obvious that you're getting in my way, don't you understand?

I turned and roared at them, venting my anger, and they looked at me strangely, like they were looking at a flood beast, I was a species they couldn't understand at all!

I'm human!

I'm a brute too!

- Have you forgotten?

I forgot!

- Don't you remember?

I don't remember!

- Who are you?

Who are you?

I ran, running with no purpose at all, where I was going, I didn't know, I just felt like I had lost something, I needed to get it back, that painful feeling of longing always told me, that familiar voice always told me!

"When did I start to crumble?"

Looking ahead, I wanted to reach out and pierce the barrier that separated me from that world, was it that what I wanted to find had already arrived in that world?

I didn't know it, but the voice fell silent and stopped talking to me.

Pushed forward by the crowds, I imagined that there were tracks under my feet, and the tram tracks of the last century stretched forward......

Old things are always different from now, like me and these people, like the voice that has always haunted me.

Is there any difference?

- Probably, it is not different at all!

What is the reason for this?

When I turned my palm over, I saw the mirror in my palm, the face in the mirror was still so pale, I don't know if it was an illusion, I saw tears rolling down my cheeks.

"What the hell is this?"

I can't understand this feeling of loss, am I not looking for it? Haven't you found it yet? Why do you feel the pain of loss? What exactly have I lost?

The space under my feet collapsed instantly, and I fell into the darkness, as if a hand reached out in front of me and above, taking away a tear that belonged to me from my cheek.

My eyes widened to see what it was, but that vague feeling kept affecting me, I couldn't see, I couldn't see clearly, I couldn't even see the outline, why on earth was that?

What exactly am I looking for?

What is the feeling of loss when you wake up?

Why am I alive?

Strangely, the voice reappeared.

- Most of the people are meaningless in life, but you are different!

Why am I still different?

I've asked this question many times, and every time he or she gives the answer "it's not different at all", but now, I'm really different!

Fierce floods and savage beasts--great scourges?

Suspicious?

What the hell am I?

No one knew the answer, but a faint voice in my heart told me:

You're a monster!

You're a monster!

You're a monster!

I...... Is it a monster?

That's right, I'm a monster!