From the first slap he received from his father before, Lin Shishi's heart began to struggle.

He didn't expect his father to do this to him.

It's obviously the other party's fault, and it's obviously the other party's name that insults him.

Why did you go over and apologize to him yourself?

Moreover, isn't it the father who told himself, saying that his name represents strength and bravery, why does his father say that now?

Why say that everything is a lie to yourself? Does his name really mean nothing?

Lin Shishi couldn't figure it out, but he wanted to get an explanation, an answer, so he kept thinking about it along the way.

That's why when my father asked him about it, he would answer half a beat slowly.

And when he arrived at this place, after seeing his father's resigned apology, Lin Shishi suddenly thought of the answer.

To be exact, he understood one thing.

The child he beat was the child of a large family in the village.

His identity, at least in this village, is far inferior to that child.

So his father could only bring him to apologize, and he had to apologize to the child.

Even if the other party provokes him first.

However, after thinking of this, Lin Shishi was unwilling to accept this kind of thing, he never felt that he was at fault, why should he apologize to the other party.

Therefore, at this time, Lin Shi twisted up, he raised his head, and looked at the pair of men and women and the child with burning eyes.

Then he expressed to them, and to his father, what he really thought in his heart, he was right, he didn't need to apologize.

followed with a slap, and this slap completely stunned Lin Shishi.

In fact, the only thing he thought of when he said this was his father.

He still had a little luck in his heart, and he hoped that his father would support him at this last moment, and pat him on the shoulder to tell him that it was right.

And after that, he went home with his head held high.

But this luck was shattered.

The father, who was equivalent to the last bit of hope in Lin Shishi's heart, did not stand on his point and was not awakened by his words.

Didn't get him out of here as he thought.

Instead, he slapped him, and then even pressed his head to apologize to the other party.

and actually accepted the other party's unreasonable request.

Lin Shishi didn't know what the feeling in his heart at that time was.

Despair, perhaps exaggerated.

It should be a bit similar to growing up.

Recognize the reality and know what kind of identity you really are.

He and his father were both like that, they both belonged to the kind of people of low status.

Even if they didn't do anything wrong, they could only choose to apologize in the face of other people who were higher than them.

Because their status is lower than that of the other party, it can only be like this, otherwise, what the other party does casually is enough to make them fall into a situation from which they will never recover.

As for the meaning of his name, Lin Shishi didn't think about it anymore.

Maybe my father said it in a hurry at the time, or maybe he really thought so at the beginning, and just wanted to coax him to deliberately say it better.

But it doesn't matter anymore either way.

Whether the name sounds good or not, or whether it has a meaning, does not change the fact that he is a low-status person.

After this incident, Lin Shishi's family really moved to a shack as his father said before.

The whole family lives in this small space every day, and his parents have never put on a good face for him since then.

Obviously, they all think that he is responsible for the current situation.

Lin Shishi, since he was ten years old, has been growing up in the eyes of his parents.

There are also other peers in the same village, after they made compensation at Lin Shishi's house, they decided that he didn't dare to do anything to other people anymore, so they tried every way to bully him every day.

The truth was really as they thought, Lin Shishi really didn't dare to fight back, because he knew that he couldn't do it.

Once you do it, you will have to cause more damage to the family if you can't say it.

In this way, he endured in silence until he was sixteen years old, when his parents died in an accident.

Lin Shishi didn't cry, he wasn't sad, but he thought that even if he cried, he couldn't change anything.

His parents will not be resurrected, and there will be no change in his identity.

Moreover, this can be regarded as a relief for him, and he is finally relieved from the white eyes with cold eyebrows.

It also made those who had been bullying him since he was ten years old dare not do it.

They all knew very well that when they were bullied before, it was only because this kid was still worried, and he was still worried about his parents, so he didn't fight back.

But now that the only concern is gone, if he dares to do it, he will definitely be desperately counterattacked.

They don't feel like they can beat this person, let alone if the other party doesn't have any scruples.

This is undoubtedly another relief for Lin Shishi.

It also gave him the energy to build a grave for his parents, which was the only thing he could do.

Without anyone's help, he relied on himself and a shovel to bury his parents, and used the little money left by his parents at that time to erect a monument for them.

Afterwards, he knelt down in front of his parents' monument for a whole day.

This is the way Lin Shishi thought of reciprocating.

And the only thing he was able to do.

And during this time, he still did not cry.

It's still like that, it's not that he's not sad, it's just that he can't cry.

Because he felt that there was no point in crying.

He didn't eat either, he didn't drink water.

Again, he felt that it didn't make sense.

In the past, when his parents were there, he still had a concern, although they were more of a white eye on him, but no matter what, he never made more radical moves, and he was always raising him.

Therefore, Lin Shishi never hated them.

But now, that only concern is gone.

Lin Shishi even felt that his life had lost its meaning.

It just so happened that his life was so despicable anyway that it didn't have any meaning in itself.

Such a meaningless life, what do you need to eat and do now?

Let him continue to live meaninglessly? Do you continue to live in this world with that stupid name?

Forget it.

That's what Lin Shishi thought, so he was really ready to cut himself off here.

cut off his meaningless life.

This is just right, and before he died, he was still with the two people he cared about the most.

"That's probably the only meaningful thing I've ever done." Lin Shishi thought.

Then the smile that had not been shown for a long time after the age of ten finally appeared on his face again at this time.

With a smile, Lin Shishi knelt on the ground and looked at the tombstone standing in front of him motionless.

It was his last memory before he fell unconscious.

Lin Shishi didn't know if he had been attacked by someone, or because he was too hungry or whatever, in short, after he had just laughed, he felt his eyes go black, and the person also fell to the side.

......

When he woke up again, Lin Shi thought he was in hell.

Because he felt that no one would save him, and in that mountain, no one would save him, which was basically equivalent to death.

A random wild wolf could eat him.

And a meaningless life like him should go to hell.

Therefore, Lin Shishi regarded the room he saw in front of him as a hell, or a place prepared for people to feel the warmth of the sun one last time before feeling the pain of hell.

After all, no one can say exactly what it is like to go to hell.

Until the slightly chubby middle-aged man walked into the room with a bowl of things.

Lin Shishi initially regarded this man as the person who led him to hell, and as for the bowl of things he was holding in his hand, it was naturally regarded by him as the soup to be drunk in his previous life.

Although according to the stories told by his parents before, the person who took this medicine was usually a woman, but as he had thought, no one had ever gone to hell, so who knows what the situation was.

So he immediately said, "Will it pass after drinking?" ”

His question stunned the middle-aged man, who put the bowl in his hand on the table, and then picked the key point of his words and asked, "Where are you going?" ”

"Aren't you going to take me to hell?" Lin Shishi was also stunned by his reaction, and then asked rhetorically.

"Hell?" The middle-aged man blinked twice, and then asked, "Why did you think of these two words?" ”

"What do you mean?" Lin Shishi's face was even more strange when he heard the middle-aged man's question: "Isn't this hell?" ”

"Not here." The middle-aged man was speechless for a while and then denied: "This is an inn I run. ”

"The inn?" Although Lin Shishi's brain is not smart, he is not illiterate, so he can also understand what the other party means by these two words.

And after thinking for a while, he asked again: "Speaking of which, does it mean that I am not dead yet if I live in your inn now?" ”