1736 What can I do... (Ask for a commuter pass)
The time is getting closer and closer, so that the start time of the BoB competition is coming little by little.
And just when Luo Zhen calmed Asuna and the others, in a café in Tokyo, Shino was also holding a cup of coffee, looking at the pedestrians coming and going outside the window, and unconsciously saw God.
"Aada-san... Aada-san... Aada-san...! ”
I don't know how long it took for such a voice to reach Shino's ears.
"Ahh
Shino came back to her senses and looked across from her.
There, Kyoji sat helplessly.
"What are you thinking? Aada-san? ”
Kyoji looked at Shino, his eyes full of worry.
"I... I wasn't thinking about anything! ”
Shino smiled very reluctantly at Kyoji, and denied it like this, but it only made the worry in Kyoji's eyes even stronger.
"Since I asked you out, along the way, you have lost your reaction like this several times in a daze, and it was the same just now, suddenly looking at the scenery outside the window, not at all like you usual." Kyoji looked at Shino very hesitantly, and finally said, "Is something happening?" If you need my help, please let me know it's okay. ”
Kyoji's expression of Shino is as close and gentle as ever.
This made Shino secretly blame herself in her heart, she was so abnormal, which made Kyoji worried.
In fact, Shino also knows that his current state is very wrong, not at all like his usual self, so crisp and unkind.
But poetry just can't be controlled.
In my mind, yesterday's conversation resurfaced.
"If I don't kill it, it will be my turn to be killed, and even the people around me will be killed."
The boy made such a declaration directly to himself.
"So, I have to kill, I have to kill anyway, even if I do it again, I'll still choose to do so."
These words set off a huge wave in Shina's heart, and he couldn't calm down.
Because, these words resonated in Shinai's heart.
Shino thought so.
(Originally, I wasn't like that...) )
As a result, she is her current self, a girl who must constantly struggle to overcome the biggest weakness in her heart.
However, Shino and Luo Zhen are the same.
Even if you know that it will become like this, let Shino choose again, Shino will still choose that.
The reason is simple.
(If I don't, it will be my turn to be killed, or even the people next to me to be killed...) )
So, in addition to being the same as Luo Zhen, Shi Nai must be killed, no matter what, is there a second choice?
No.
Therefore, Shino does not regret making that choice at all.
It's just, there's a little, really only a little...
(If only someone could understand...) )
Shino couldn't help but think about it a few times.
Although, over the years, many people have said to Shina, "I understand, it must be painful, it's really hard for you", but Shino is listening to it while repeating it in her heart.
"Have you ever killed anyone?"
If not, then how can you say you understand?
This makes it difficult for Shinai to trust a person, so he will always be so withdrawn.
And now...
(If it's him...) )
If it's the boy who can say something that resonates with him, then he must be able to understand, right?
Find out how much pain I have.
It was precisely because of this thought that Shino couldn't help but catch up with the boy and talk to the boy before.
No, even now, Shino wants to talk to that boy again.
I want to ask him, since he has never regretted it, and he will still choose it again, why can he keep himself all the time, and not have such a shameful weakness like himself?
Is it because he's strong?
It must be, right?
It is because he is so strong that he can overcome such a thing, and even if he kills like crazy in the land of death, he is still so calm and calm.
So, here's the problem.
(How on earth do you have to be as strong as him?) )
Shi Nai kept thinking about such a question, so much so that he lost his mind so many times today.
(What the hell should be...) )
Shino involuntarily became so distracted again, and he didn't notice it, and Kyoji, who was sitting opposite him, looked at him more and more worriedly.
Under such worry, Kyoji's eyes also showed uncomfortable emotions.
No way.
“...... Is it because I met that person that Asada-san became so strange? ”
Kyoji whispered such an inquiry.
"What... What the? ”
Shi Nai was suddenly slightly stunned.
Looking at Shino like this, Kyoji's eyes became even more uncomfortable.
"I'm actually a little worried." Kyoji said in a disappointed tone, "Because Aada-san's is different from usual, it makes me feel as if you may run far away at any time." ”
Such words made Shi Nai feel a little uncomfortable.
Because, this is no longer a conversation that will occur between friends.
Shino feels that what Kyoji is longing for now is not himself as a friend, but for a deeper relationship.
This made Shi Nai feel a little uncomfortable.
At the moment, poetry can only be perfunctory.
"Where can I go? Isn't it still here? ”
Shino is already a little confused.
But this made Kyoji look at her, and his eyes began to burn.
"I just hope that Asada is still the same person as before." Kyoji's voice seemed to be hot: "It's still the one who is always very cold and detached.,Won't be shaken by anything.,Very strong self.。 ”
"It's... Is it? Shi Nai couldn't help but look away and said, "Maybe it's just that you're mistaken, I'm not strong at all." ”
Speaking of this, Shino's tone also became low.
"You know that, right?" Shino whispered: "I have an Achilles' heel that cannot be called strong, and as long as that weakness remains, I will always be just the same me who lived in the past." ”
It's rare for Shino to reveal what is in her heart.
It's just that in exchange for Kyoji's more enthusiastic reaction.
"However, Asada-san in the game is different." Kyoji said eagerly: "Asada-san in the game can freely operate powerful weapons, and he is also such a powerful sniper, obviously I led you to play the game GGO, but you have unknowingly completely surpassed me, even when I persuaded you to assign the ability value to AGI (agility), Asada did not completely listen to the advice of me, an old player, but according to his actual situation, he presciently improved STR (tendon strength). ”
This kind of poetry is already one of the strongest players in GGO.
At least, in the Sniper, there is no player stronger than Shiina.
"I think that's what Aada-san really looks like."
Kyoji's voice and gaze grew hotter and hotter.
"That ruthless sniper Fang is the real Asada-san, and I've always believed that."
Hearing this, Shi Nai slowly lowered his eyes.