He told himself over and over again that he needed to get enough sleep after a long journey, and that he just couldn't let himself fall asleep.

Something like this hasn't happened to him for a long time,

At first, he blamed the air conditioner in the room and the closed doors and windows, and the air in the room was too stuffy. He immediately turned on the light and got out of bed, walking barefoot on the uncomfortable plastic carpet, looking everywhere for the remote control of the air conditioner, but could not find it. He simply pulled out the latch of the air conditioner and opened all the windows in the room that could be opened. The cold night breeze immediately poured into the small room. But he soon realized his stupidity, and hastened to close most of the wide open windows again—the late autumn cold after nightfall was not an easy thing to deal with, and it would be too much for him to lose if he was careless and had a cold and fever.

The air in the room was much fresher, but his mind was still chaotic, and he couldn't be quiet for a moment.

It must have been the newspaper report that it ruined his sleep. Gao Jinsong thought through gritted teeth. The New Era Club – which we now know is the majority shareholder of the provincial real estate industry, Sunshine Group, – failed in his plans to enter the First and B Leagues, and he had to continue his sporting career in other provinces for the sake of his future development. The uncertainty of the future dreads him, he is afraid of the city that is completely unfamiliar, he is afraid of the club that is completely unfamiliar, he is afraid of the unfamiliar faces, he is afraid of ...... He couldn't think about it anymore. He scoffed at these blunt excuses for his irritability, and even had a sneer on his face. How could he be afraid to join a League B club? It's as ridiculous as a fish being afraid to drown in the water. As long as it is for the sake of football, he will not refuse to go anywhere, no matter how difficult the conditions in that place are, he can cope with it - even if it is to Tibet, which is known as the roof of the world, as long as there is football, as long as the team there can provide him with a higher sky, he will not refuse......

He immediately laughed at the thought of his own. There doesn't seem to be football in Tibet, and Tibetans don't necessarily throw a lot of money into football......

The smile disappeared from his face. He finally realized where his impetuosity came from. Or, in other words, he finally admitted the fact that he didn't want to admit and didn't want to admit - Jiang Yan, and the waitress at the fast food restaurant, the complicated eyes they looked at when they paid for him-

It's not envy, it's not jealousy, it's just a kind of knowing and understanding, and a little shame. They were ashamed that he was someone they knew, and they were blushing at the stupidity he had done!

As soon as he closed his eyes now, their eyes immediately came to his mind. No, it can't be said to be an emergence, but an imprint, and their eyes did not fall on his wallet and his face, but directly into his heart—the dark side of his psychology was undoubtedly exposed at that moment, and even now when he thought about it, he was still red-faced, and he longed to shrink his head into the bed. He knew that this incident would be with him for the rest of his life, and that at any time, no matter where, as soon as he remembered this humiliating event, he would regret and be ashamed of his stupidity......

He was so remorseful now that he couldn't beat himself up. How could he do such a ridiculous act? He'd never done anything like that before......

He couldn't give himself a satisfactory answer.

But he needs another answer, otherwise Jiang Yan's eyes will keep looking at him somewhere in his heart, leaving him with nowhere to hide and no place to be ashamed.

But he couldn't find the answer. Even as he examined what he had done over and over again, he still couldn't find a reason to convince himself. And this self-reflection made him realize something even more terrifying—he had not been doing it for a day or two. A little earlier, he had done something similar: when he paid a deposit for a house in the small county town of his hometown, he didn't even frown, and counted out a thick wad of banknotes from his wallet, which stunned the salesperson who thought he had just looked at the house first and hadn't made up his mind, and also made Xie Xiaoli and Liu Chang, who accompanied him to see the house, speechless. At that time, their eyes were full of deep envy, and that look made him feel very comfortable and happy. Earlier, it was the night when he just returned to the county seat, his sister and brother-in-law invited all the relatives who could come to pick up the wind and wash the dust for him, and finally he rushed to pay the bill, and when he paid the money, he was so happy that he didn't even look at the detailed bill handed by the waiter, and said very casually and indifferently: "...... I ate a thousand four. And in the two days before returning home, he feasted a few acquaintances in the provincial capital......

He didn't dare to think about it anymore. Just remembering these few things made him want to slap himself twice. How can you do that?!

But why did he do that? If it weren't for Jiang Yan and them, would he continue to do this?

He had no answers to either question.

It was not until the second half of the night that he fell asleep in a daze of the fatigue and distractions of the journey, and recalled his foolish actions over and over again in his sleep......

In the afternoon of the next day, when we saw this young man with whom we were already very familiar again, we couldn't help but be a little surprised, he did not wear that bright designer costume today, but a very ordinary dress: a thin black sweater with a half-high neck, a beige kakka, and a pair of dark pants, all of which were no different from other ordinary young people. The only thing he didn't replace was the pair of leather shoes on his feet, which he knew were expensive at a glance - he had been wearing them for almost a month, and there was not even a trace of wrinkles on the upper - but we can also understand that he had to do this, who would bring an extra pair of shoes when they go out? It seems that he may have reflected on some of his past actions and is trying to correct his mistakes, but this correction seems to be only superficial......

Gao Jinsong stood in anticipation at the door of the hotel for a few minutes, finally stopped a taxi with empty lights, and got into the car with an inconspicuous cardboard box sealed with adhesive tape. Inside the cardboard box was a clay pot containing the soybean sauce he had brought from home. His eldest sister Gao Chun is the best at making this thing, and every year she will make a large jar full of Yingying, in addition to eating it for her own use, she will occasionally give it away. His enlightenment coach Shen Yuanshun and his wife both like this kind of sauce, especially Coach Shen's wife, she will even ask for it by name, so every time Gao Jinsong goes home, he has to bring some to them.

The taxi passed through the city until it was almost at the old east gate, leaving the busy main road and turning east and west into a quiet and tidy street.

Gao Jinsong asked the driver to park in front of a fruit shop, and then paid for the car and got out of the car. It was only a few steps away from Director Shen's home, and it didn't take him a few minutes to walk there, and he couldn't just carry a jar of sauce to visit his enlightenment coach, he had to buy something more.

He bought a net of fresh fruits, thought about it, and went to the small shopping mall across the street to buy a few boxes of tonic products that are overwhelmingly advertised on TV nowadays, weighed left and right, and then walked towards the small red brick buildings in the distance.

The porter at the gate of the old dormitory area of the Provincial Sports Commission obviously knew Gao Jinsong, he just glanced at Gao Jinsong from a distance, then lowered his head and continued to concentrate on feeding the kitten on the table. It was a small creature he had found in the corner outside the gate in the morning, and he didn't know if it had been thrown there by a ruthless fellow. The kitten's fur was dusty, not watery, and its eyes were half-open and half-closed, so that there was no look in sight.

Gao Jinsong's eyes didn't have any brilliance, and the corners of his eyes were bloodshot. He hadn't been able to rest well all night, and now he looked a little aggrieved. And he hasn't been able to completely get rid of last night's thoughts yet, because he was in a trance while walking, and at the entrance of the second unit of Building 3, he almost bumped into someone head-on.

"What to do?!" The woman who was almost hit said angrily, but she immediately recognized Gao Jinsong, "It's you......" she raised her face and smiled.

Gao Jinsong was also taken aback, and first said an apology, and then smiled: "It's you......" His face was a little hot. It wasn't because it was a young woman talking to him, but because he knew the woman — the fast food waitress with a good memory. I didn't expect this woman's home to be here, it was far enough away from where she worked. He asked, "...... Do you live here? He immediately reacted that this question was inappropriate, and hurriedly changed his words, "You, this is going to work?" ”

The woman saw that he was unnatural, pursed her lips and smiled, and said generously, "I don't live here, I came to see my aunt." She glanced at the large bag of things in his hand and asked, "Are you here to hang out?" ”

Gao Jinsong, who was a little embarrassed, immediately showed a knowing smile. "String the door" is a local slang term that only exists in his hometown and a few counties in Linji, and people in other places rarely say it. He and this woman are still close to each other. He asked, "Which county are you from in Huoyuan?" ”

"On the river. …… What about you? ”

"Me too. On the river. Gao Jinsong became more and more happy. He didn't know a single Shanghe person in the provincial town, but now he has a real fellow countryman. But he immediately noticed a problem, and he didn't know what he was going to say next. If only the fellow were a man, then he could leave his paging number now, let him contact him after work, and then the two of them would sit down together and have a few drinks—he was now thinking of having a few drinks with someone who was unfamiliar with him and who had some kind of topic in common—whatever he said. The stone that had been hanging in his heart since the previous night was so heavy that he was almost out of breath, and he needed to relax himself with alcohol.

The woman obviously didn't know why Gao Jinsong was so happy, and she didn't know what to say, so she paused before she said, "I have to go to work." ......" She staggered out of the hallway beside him, and seemed to think that this did not seem to be good, so she added, "See you later." ”

"See you ...... when you look back," Gao Jinsong replied with a smile. He suddenly had a mischievous thought, since she said "see you later", then he was going to see her when he turned around, and he knew where she went to work anyway. It's good to talk to this little fellow, otherwise he will be bored to stay alone in the hotel. Little fellow? He turned his head again to look at the tall figure who was about to walk out of the dormitory. Well, she is indeed a little fellow, and she must not be as old as herself when she looks like her.

This little episode made his mood much better, and his steps were a little brisk when he went upstairs.

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