1

I vaguely remember that it was the winter of 1948, and that the battle was so fierce that it was dark. Patches of corpses make me sick, can the souls of those dead drift back to their homeland? I do not know. At the time of the surrender of Little Japan, I thought I should take off the uniform of the Eighth Route Army, put down the weapons in my hands, embark on a long road, and go back to Lei Gongwan on the edge of the Xiangjiang River to find Feng Santong's father and daughter, if Feng Santong is still alive, I will give him a pension, if Feng Qiulan does not remarry, I will marry her as a wife, and grow old with her. That was my most simple thought at the time. I thought that after driving out the Japanese devils, the world would be peaceful, but I didn't expect that the flames of war would be rekindled in this troubled land, and I would have to continue fighting, and I had no reason to retreat, although I was so disgusted with war, so reluctant to see bloody corpses, so unwilling to have nightmares. The smell of blood emanated from my body and permeated this cruel world.

2

That place is called a double stack. The People's Liberation Army surrounded the main force of Huang Wei's corps in Shuangduiji. The People's Liberation Army captured Dawangzhuang on the periphery of Shuangduiji. The position of Dawangzhuang is strong, the bunker is connected to the bunker, the trench is connected to the trench, it is the barrier of the double pile, Huang Wei saw that Dawangzhuang was captured by the People's Liberation Army, his heart was so painful that he wanted to die, and gave a death order, asking the 18th Army to recapture Dawangzhuang. The Eighteenth Army sent its most elite troops, the 33rd Regiment, also known as the "Tiger Regiment", to launch a fierce attack on Dawangzhuang.

Dawangzhuang was reduced to ruins under the bombardment of countless shells.

Shangguanxiong received an order to reinforce the brother troops who were defending Dawangzhuang, and it was necessary to hold Dawangzhuang and not let the enemy recapture Dawangzhuang. Shangguan Xiong ordered Sun Debiao to take the Tiger Regiment and the directly subordinate battalion to go up together, Sun Debiao said, the direct battalion stays, and our regiment can be on it! Shangguan Xiong roared: "Less nonsense, carry out the order!" Sun Debiao couldn't resist Shangguan Xiong, so he had to take the Tiger Regiment and the battalion directly under him to go up. Before Sun Debiao left, he told Shangguan Xiong's guard Hong Dawu amid the deafening sound of cannons: "Xiao Hong, you must remember to me, if Shangguan Brigade Commander wants to go, you must hold him down!" Hong Dawu said: "Don't worry, Commander Sun, I'm here at Brigade Commander Shangguan!" ”

The 33rd Regiment of the enemy, which was driven crazy, actually entered Dawangzhuang again. The 33rd Regiment was also a ruthless player on the battlefield of resistance against Japan, and it was a unit that made the Japanese devils fearful, so their title of "Tiger Regiment" was not in vain. The 33rd Regiment, which fought fiercely against devils, also fought the Chinese like wolves. Under the cover of tanks, they rushed into Dawangzhuang, and met a battalion of their brother troops, and the three companies of that battalion fought to the point that there was no one left, and the battalion commander cried: "It's a pity for my three companies!" "His eyes were bleeding, not tears!

We went up and started hand-to-hand combat with the enemy! Bayonet to bayonet, gun to gun strangled together. I wielded the ghost head knife, picked up the fierce practice, cut over one and continued to practice! The soldiers of the 33rd Regiment are really fucking ruthless, they are not afraid to fight to the last person, shouting and rushing up to fight you! After we repelled one of their attacks, most of our company was killed or wounded.

The XXXIII Regiment attacked again.

Still the tanks opened the way in front, and they rushed into the village.

Battalion commander Wang Shengli said: "Brothers, give me a fight!" ”

Suddenly there was a burst of gunfire.

When we run out of bullets, we throw our hands away**.

The enemies fell one after another, and my comrades around me died one after another.

When the hand ** was thrown away, Wang Shengli roared and led us to fight with the enemy with bayonets. My hands were numb, and an enemy soldier rushed at me with a shout, and a bayonet stabbed me in the thigh, and I felt no more pain, and with all my strength, I swung the devil's head knife, and chopped his head off his neck, and blood sprayed up on the section of his neck, and he fell to the ground, and the blood was still spurting, and I heard the sound of blood squeaking into the dirt.

……

The enemy attack was again repulsed.

The bombed-out houses in the village were littered with piles of corpses, all of which could not be distinguished from me. I found the body of the battalion commander Wang Shengli in the pile of corpses, his body had more than a dozen bloody holes, and viscous plasma was still bubbling outside.

In the entire Dawangzhuang, the smell of blood is so strong that it is suffocating.

Is it just me left, I am alone, and I have to get up and fight the enemy to the end!

Suddenly, I heard someone shouting at me, and I heard it clearly, it was the voice of Zhou Shuqing, an instructor in the battalion directly under me. I crawled over to him, blood was running from his head, and I tore a strip of cloth and bandaged him. He said to me, "Mazi, have all our direct battalions been sacrificed? I nodded. At this time, the head of the Tiger Regiment Sun Debiao was covered in blood, and he led a few people towards us, and I really didn't know whether the blood on his body was the enemy's or his own. He said to me and a few of his men: "Those of you who can still move hurry up and organize all the wounded people and fight the enemy to the end, Dawangzhuang must not fall into the hands of the enemy!" ”

At this time, Commander Sun Debiao had already led us and the rest of our brother troops to repel more than a dozen frantic attacks of the enemy.

We split up and went to find people and gathered some random weapons and ammunition together.

There was one wounded man who looked very young, that is, seventeen or eighteen years old, his left gill was broken, and he could not speak, but he held the gun in his hand tightly, and I held his head in my arms and said to him: "Bear with me, it will pass soon, you bear with me!" "I watched him die in my arms in agony, and I thought, when the battle is over, I must burn the bodies of my dead comrades so that their souls can return to their homeland. But in the end, my idea did not come to fruition.

We organized only more than 30 wounded.

We relied on the broken walls and some places to hide, and prepared for another frenzied attack of the enemy.

Commander Sun Debiao shed tears, he pounded his head with his fist, and said bitterly: "What the hell is this fighting, there are only these wounded and sick left in our battalions!" ”

After saying that, he said to me, "Mazi, see if the enemy is moving!" ”

At this time, Dawangzhuang was dead silent.

I said to Head Sun, "Head Sun, there is no movement yet!" ”

He said to me again, "Mazi, go and bring me that machine gun!" ”

I had just brought the machine gun over, and the artillery fire was coming back into the village, and the shells exploded in the pile of dead people, and the flesh flew everywhere, and my face was covered with flesh foam. I didn't have time to wipe the flesh off my face, and the enemy screamed and rushed towards the village! Sun Debiao said: "The 33rd Regiment of the Dog Day can really fucking fight!" Why can't you finish fighting, there are so many people! Dog, come on, as long as I Sun Debiao is here, you don't want to recapture Dawangzhuang! ”

As he spoke, he picked up his machine gun and fired at the approaching black oppressive enemy.

Bullets whizzed towards us. Half of the head of a comrade-in-arms next to me was knocked off by a shuttle bullet, and the ** sprayed me in the face, I went crazy, picked up the ghost head knife and rushed out, and strangled with the oncoming enemy.

There was fire in my throat, and I couldn't scream, just fighting mechanically. I saw Commander Sun throw away the machine gun in his hand, grab a rifle, and fight the enemy with a bayonet. Both the enemy and the enemy are red-eyed, and they are unwilling to give up, this is your life-and-death fight! Kill the sky dark, the ghost cries and the wolf howls! How long can we, the thirty or so wounded, fight against an enemy several times my size? Seeing that all of them were spelled out, Shangguan Xiong came over with dozens of people from the guard platoon and the brigade organs.

Sun Debiao fought with the enemy while approaching Shangguan Xiong. He yelled at Hong Dawu: "Hong Dawu, why don't you fucking hold the brigade commander, if the brigade commander has any mistakes, I will kill you alive!" Hong Dawu fought with the enemy next to Shangguan Xiong, and didn't pay attention to Sun Debiao's words at all. Sun Debiao said loudly to me: "Mazi, you go over and protect the brigade commander with Hong Dawu!" ”

I didn't really have much strength anymore, but I still fought my way and rushed to Shangguan Xiong's side, blocking several enemies who rushed over. I was speechless, only to hear Shangguan Xiong say: "Earth dog, we finally killed the enemy side by side together!" "He is wielding a ghost-headed knife, he is still as brave as he was back then, Shangguan Xiong at this time is not the brigade commander Shangguan Xiong who has become angry, but Shangguan Xiong who fought bravely with me in Songmaoling back then.

At this time, several enemy monsters screamed and surrounded Hong Dawu, Shangguan Xiong rushed over to try to relieve Hong Dawu, he did not get close to Hong Dawu, Hong Dawu was stabbed by two bayonets in front and behind, one bayonet stabbed him in the chest, the other bayonet inserted into his waist, and he fell to the ground dripping with blood. Several enemies surrounded Shangguan Xiong again, and Shangguan Xiong slashed left and right, slashing two enemies in one go. One of the enemies behind him took the opportunity to stab him in the back of the heart with a bayonet, and I couldn't see it, so I rushed over to block the bayonet, and the bayonet plunged into my chest, and I really had no strength, and my eyes were black and I fell to the corpse on the ground, and my breath was choked by the thick smell of blood......

3

I crawled hard in a dark cave and wow! When will I be able to climb to the mouth of the cave and see the light? An eerie voice came from the depths of the cave: "Mazi, you are dead, don't climb out anymore, it's useless to climb, you, like me, have sunk into a hell from which you will never recover!" "Who is the person talking to me? Is it Shangguan Ming? Is it Zhang Zongfu? Is it Janssen? Is it Song Qigui? …… But why can't I see them? If I die, I will be able to see them, and they will wait for me in hell! I collapsed in the blood, the stench of blood choked into my nose and mouth, into my trachea and throat, straight to my lungs and stomach, and I coughed violently, coughing so hard that my eyes were full of gold stars! My chest hurt so badly that it looked like someone was digging my heart with a knife. It was as if I heard someone entering the cave. Who are they? I lifted my head out of the blood and said, "Who are you?" "They didn't seem to hear me and didn't answer my questions. They were getting closer and closer to me, and I could discern the smell of their bodies in the smell of blood. It's the sweet smell of weeds, sunlight and river water, is it Qiulan? Could it be Feng Santong's father? Only Qiulan has that smell, I can't forget it, even if I go to hell. I shouted their names, and no matter how much I shouted, they couldn't hear me. I felt them just passing me, ignoring my presence, and I tried to reach out and grab them in the dark, but I couldn't. As they faded away, my heart trembled with every step they took away from me, and I became desperate as their footsteps disappeared at the end of the cavern! I howled like a wolf in a dark cave, and my terrible howl traveled through the ages......

In the haze, I heard a woman's voice: "He's awake, he's awake!" Shangguan, pockmarks are awake! ”

Whose voice is this? So familiar, yet so unfamiliar, the woman's voice is very sweet, sweet and greasy, this is not Qiulan's voice, no! I came to my senses in a state of thirst and pain, and I opened my eyes. The first thing I saw was Zhang Wenqing's face, which was so excited that I didn't know whether it was happy or sad, and there were clear tears flowing down her bright and beautiful eyes, and two clear rivers rushed out of her fair face.

I looked at the woman suspiciously. This woman who has always avoided me and despised me. I closed my sour eyes and held my rough palm with a large hand, which I knew was the hand of my brother Shangguan Xiong. My hands trembled slightly, and I felt the body temperature of my brother Shangguan Xiong.

"Where am I?" I say.

"Field military hospital." Shangguan Xiong replied.

"Are you alright?"

"It's fine, it's not hurt at all."

"What about Hong Dawu?"

"He didn't have as much luck as you, sacrificed!"

"He's a man!"

"A good comrade! Before he died, he often said in front of me that he wanted to test his marksmanship with you, but he didn't accept you! ”

"I know! What about Captain Sun? ”

"He's the same as you, he's seriously injured and lying in another ward, he should be fine, don't worry."

"Where's my knife?"

"Keep it for you, I still remember the words of Master Hu Sande, the knife is there!"

"The knife is in the man!"

“……”

When I talked to Shangguanxiong, I kept my eyes closed. Shangguan Xiong felt something later, he turned his head to Zhang Wenqing, who was crying, and said, "Wenqing, the earth dog is fine, you go out first, see if you can get some chicken soup or something, and add some nutrition to the earth dog." ”

Zhang Wenqing was also very interested, and left after listening to Shangguan Xiong's words. When she left, she also said to me: "Mazi, you take care of your injuries." ”

I let out a long sigh.

I opened my eyes and looked at Shangguan Xiong. His eyes were filled with complex sparkles, guilt, gratitude, warmth, and anxiety...... There is no condescending majesty, which is the minimum basis on which my gaze can meet his eyes. His hand was still holding my hand, still warming me. We looked at each other silently for a long time.

4

Soon, Shangguan Xiong led his troops south. He didn't come to say goodbye to me when he left, but had his new guard bring me a box of canned pork and my ghost-headed knife, which I knew must have been the spoils of the double-stacked battle. In the battle of Dawangzhuang, I suffered more than ten wounds all over my body, the most powerful was the bayonet I took for Shangguanxiong, if the bayonet inserted into my chest was half a centimeter to the heart, I would have gone to see the king of Hades on the spot.

We had a dozen sick and wounded people living in one of our large wards, and the stench was terrible. We sick and wounded are from all units, and I don't know any of them. When Shangguanxiong's guards brought in the box of canned pork and put it next to my bed, the eyes of the wounded and sick were glued to the canned box. At that time, there was a shortage of supplies, and our seriously wounded drank millet porridge that was so thin that it could be seen to the bottom, not to mention canned food.

They began to whisper.

"Who is this pockmarked veteran, and someone sent him canned pork, grandma's, it's not small, as soon as he sends it, he will send a box!"

"yes, how can he be specialized? Our battalion commander was lying on the hospital bed, and no one sent canned food! ”

"Damn, don't talk about the battalion commander, the commander of the Tiger Regiment lying in ward No. 3 doesn't have this treatment! Hell yes! ”

"This guy may be the brother-in-law who came to see him!"

I couldn't take it anymore, so I turned my face sideways and shouted at the sick and wounded man in a hoarse voice, "You're the fucking brother-in-law!" ”

As soon as I yelled, I coughed violently, and the wound was torn in pain, and blood was gushing out of my brain. At this time, a short, big-eyed little nurse walked in, and she said in a majestic voice: "What are you arguing about, are you too full?" "Those wounded and sick people see her like a mouse sees a cat, one by one honestly, this little nurse is called Zhu Xiuling, although she is short, she has a big temper, and she has a set of obedience to the wounded and sick, these soldiers who were born and died in the rain of bullets are also afraid of her.

Zhang Xiuling walked up to me and said to me, "You too, your injuries are so serious, what are you yelling at!" If you continue like this, you will be able to recover from your injuries and be discharged from the hospital in the Year of the Monkey, so let's be honest and recuperate! You can stand so many bayonets stabbing into your body, and the patients can't stand it if they say a few words to you! ”

Honestly, I hate this self-righteous little!

Good men don't fight with women, I closed my eyes, tried to calm myself down, I want to make my injuries heal as soon as possible, get out of this hellish place, I can't stand the smell of the hospital!

Zhu Xiuling's eyes fell on the box of canned pork: "Yo, it's really special, no wonder your temper is so big!" ”

I was speechless, and I didn't want to talk to her at all.

After listening to Zhu Xiuling's words, those wounded and sick people snickered one by one, and that kind of laughter sounded so obscene to me. I suppressed the fire burning in my heart, and I didn't know why my anger was so great. On the battlefield, these are my brothers in the same trenches! After Zhu Xiuling finished speaking, she walked out of the ward. The pain and inexplicable anger made my face distort, and perhaps everyone saw that I was in such pain, and they didn't say anything, and the hospital room fell silent.

When the food delivery man came, I left two cans of canned pork and let him take all the rest, and I said open all the cans, stew a pot of vegetables, and give it to everyone at dinner, and it would be a curse to stay here. My action stunned the wounded and sick in the same ward.

They were also impressed with me, and they didn't say anything about me anymore, and they cared about me.

They always wanted something out of my mouth, but I was so silent that I didn't want to talk at all, so they couldn't do anything. The more reticent I became, the more interested they became in me, as if I was a great secret, and even when I left the field military hospital later, and they sent me off, their eyes were still exploring something in me, and that unsatisfied curiosity seemed to follow me.

Because of his position, the head of Sun Debiao lives in a room alone. His injuries healed faster than mine, and before I could get off the ground, he was able to go for a walk in the courtyard outside the hospital. As soon as he got out of bed, he shouted and asked the nurse, "Which ward does Li Mazi live in?" The nurse asked him rhetorically: "Chief, is that Li Mazi?" He gestured and said, "It's the Li Mazi with a pockmarked face and half of his right ear!" The nurse said, "Chief, his name is not Li Mazi, his registered name in the hospital is Li Tugou!" Sun Debiao was impatient: "What Li Tugou Li Mazi, it's all the same, as long as he's there, tell me quickly, which ward is Mazi in?" The nurse said, "In Ward 6." Sun Debiao muttered: "I would have told me earlier, and I would have made such a big turn!" He muttered on crutches and limped to my hospital room.

Nurse Zhu Xiuling is giving me an injection in the buttocks.

Sun Debiao walked into the ward and said loudly: "Mazi, you are here, I miss you!" You're alright, I'm waiting for you kid to come and see me! Haha, I'm going to see you first! ”

Zhu Xiuling's eyes were staring at my ass, but her mouth was unforgiving: "Whoever is yelling there, calling like a donkey, don't look at what kind of place this is!" ”

Sun Debiao was so angry that he blew his beard and glared: "Little girl, it's against you!" ”

Zhu Xiuling turned around after the injection, stared at the big eyes, and crossed her hands on her waist: "Who do you say is the little girl!" ”

Sun Debiao said sharply: "Just talk about you!" Stinky girl! ”

Zhu Xiuling did not show weakness at all: "You are yelling at the donkey!" ”

When has Sun Debiao been hit like this, he was so angry that he raised the crutch in his hand: "Lao Tzu beat you!" ”

Zhu Xiuling is really not a good stubble, she pointed to her head and said: "Fight, fight here, a big man, what kind of hero is bullying a woman, if you are a real hero, sprinkle your anger on the head of the Kuomintang reactionaries!" What can you do in front of me! If you have a kind, you will beat me to death! ”

Sun Debiao was trembling all over, and the crutches raised in his hands were also shaking, but he couldn't fall. Sun Debiao said: "You, you, you-"

If it weren't for the fat head nurse who rushed over and blew Zhu Xiuling away, maybe something would have happened. After Zhu Xiuling left angrily, the fat head nurse said to Sun Debiao with a smile: "Chief, you dissipate your anger, this girl is not sensible, I will punish her!" ”

Sun Debiao said loudly: "A little girl, no big or small, lawless!" If it weren't for seeing that she was a little girl, I would have shot her! You have to educate her well when you go back, we are desperate on the battlefield, and we have to suffer such bird gas in the hospital when we are injured, who the fuck can stand it! You have to let your dean rectify and straighten out, if this continues, can the wounded and sick have a good mood, how can they recuperate without a good mood, and if the injury is not healed, how can they return to the team to participate in the battle? This problem is not generally serious! ”

The fat nurse nodded: "The chief is right in criticizing, I must criticize and educate her well, let her be examined in the whole hospital, and I will definitely report to the hospital leaders and do a good job in rectification." Chief, you are dissipated, we can't afford to be angry and ruined! Chief, don't you want to go to the battlefield as soon as possible, so you can't be angry, didn't you say it, you should be happy when you are in a good mood, you should be happy! ”

Sun Debiao was told by the fat nurse that he lost his temper and waved his hand: "Okay, okay, go ahead, it's okay!" ”

The fat nurse smiled and walked out of the door of the ward.

Sun Debiao walked up to me and asked me with a smile, "Mazi, how are you?" ”

I said, "It's not a big problem, let's take it slowly!" ”

Sun Debiao sighed: "Mazi, your kid has a big life, if you change someone else, your nine lives will be gone!" I never misjudged anyone, and from the moment I saw you, I knew you were a hero! Do you know, if it weren't for Brigade Commander Shangguan, you would have died. After the battle, it was he who turned you out of the pile of dead people and carried you to the field hospital, and you were out of breath at that time, and the doctor also said that you were dead and could not be saved. The brigade commander pointed a gun at the doctor's head and yelled, saying that if he didn't revive you, he would shoot the doctor with one shot. I've never seen that formation before. As a result, you kid suddenly got angry, and you saved the doctor's life! If you were really dead at that time, I dared to pack the ticket, and the Shangguan Brigade Commander would have killed that doctor with one shot! Scared the poor doctor out of the way! You kid has a big life, just like me, a big life! ”

When he was talking, the wounded and sick who could get out of bed and move around came over and gathered around him, listening to him, and those who couldn't move also pricked up their ears on the hospital bed, for fear of missing a word from him, and even the two seriously injured who had been humming and chirping all the time stopped **.

I said to them, "Do you know who he is?" ”

Everyone shook their heads.

I said, "He is the famous Tiger Regiment Commander Sun Debiao of our brigade!" ”

Everyone screamed and applauded vigorously.

At this time, I took out the two boxes of canned food from under the pillow, handed them to Sun Debiao, and said, "Commander Sun, this is from the Shangguan Brigade Commander." ”

5

The time I spent in the field hospital was the most leisurely time I have had in years. In addition to the pain in the body, you can also be with Captain Sun Debiao, listen to him tell a lot of stories, and occasionally secretly drink a little wine, which is enjoyable. After Sun Debiao finished drinking, he tearfully felt sorry for so many of his brothers who died in Dawangzhuang, and talked about the benefits of those brothers one by one, their heroic stories, and their weaknesses and bad deeds.

I miss Feng Qiulan very much after drinking.

Lying on the hospital bed, a fire will inexplicably rise in my heart, a flame of desire.

It's strange that since my lifeline was knocked out, I didn't dare to think about women, and although I occasionally had the kind of desires that men have, they were all extinguished by my feelings of inferiority and grief. My man's desires would be revived in the field hospital, something I could never have imagined. I always thought that I was a wasted person, just like a gelding boar, physically and psychologically hopeless!

That night, I was thinking about Feng Qiulan from my hospital bed, she was the closest woman to me, even though she was so far away from me that she was unattainable. I thought about the smell of her body, the plaintive and longing in her eyes, the fullness of her breasts that stood out as she ran in the wind...... I was burned all over my body, the surging tide of love rushed mercilessly in my body, and I felt that the remaining half of my life in my lower body also reacted, anxious, and uncomfortable as a cat scratch in my heart, and an inexplicable impulse...... What's wrong with me, what's wrong! Why am I like this, could it be that Sun Debiao put some medicine in the wine? In fact, I have never seen a woman's body, I don't know what is wonderful about a woman's body, but I actually stripped Feng Qiulan's clothes in my imagination viciously, and her body is a ball of white light, which charmingly emits a psychedelic fragrance of white light, which attracts me and makes me sin...... I grabbed my hair with both hands, like a drowning man grasping at a life-saving straw, I couldn't extricate myself from the abyss of desire, I wanted to howl, howl like a wolf! But my throat was choked with something as soft as cotton, I couldn't scream, my whole body was expanding, it was aching, it was burning, I was going to burst, it was going to burst......

I stretched out my hand and stretched out my hand towards the white light, I touched the soft and warm flesh, I held it tightly, I shouted Feng Qiulan's name in my heart, she is my dearest woman, the person closest to me in my soul, I have no shame, my inferiority complex has disappeared, I want to catch her, she is the dearest woman in my heart, only she is my land...... I suddenly heard a woman's scream!

That woman's scream brought me back to reality.

That's the scream from the mouth of nurse Zhu Xiuling!

I opened my eyes and found that my hand was holding Zhu Xiuling's hand? Her other hand was so hard at breaking mine that I almost broke her wrist. She was frightened, and she was no longer afraid of the usual domineering appearance, she screamed, and all the people in the ward woke up to her screams, and the fat head nurse also rushed into the ward with the nurses on duty.

How could I grab Zhu Xiuling's hand, I clearly grabbed Feng Qiulan.

My mind was confused, and the fire in my body was gradually extinguished.

I let go of my hand and looked at the tearful Zhu Xiuling with a blurry gaze.

Zhu Xiuling kept rubbing my wrist that was pinched red by me, crying and saying to the fat head nurse: "Head nurse, look, look, he went crazy and broke my wrist, you see, it's all swollen and can't move!" He's crazy, he's really crazy! ”

I don't know what she's talking about, my head is buzzing, I feel ashamed, I want to find a hole to drill into, how can I hold Zhu Xiuling's hand? Am I really crazy?

The fat head nurse said, "Xiuling, tell me well, what happened?" ”

Zhu Xiuling's tears flowed down: "Just now, I went to the ward to check on the ward, and saw that he didn't cover the quilt properly, his face was red, and he was talking nonsense that I didn't understand, thinking that he had a fever, after covering him with the quilt, I put my hand on his forehead, wanting to see if he had a fever, but as a result, he suddenly stretched out his hand and grabbed my wrist, he was so ruthless, he grabbed it so tightly, I died of pain, my wrist must be broken!" If you don't come, you don't know what will happen! ”

The fat nurse calmed down: "Okay, okay, it's nothing, Mazi didn't mean to pinch you, he may be dreaming of fighting with the enemy, so he grabbed your hand and treated you as an enemy, such things are common." Go back and let the comrades rest well. Look at Mazi nervous, you have to understand him, he won't forget the battle that hurt him so quickly. ”

After listening to the words of the fat head nurse, my heart settled down a little, but I still had a feeling of being a thief in my heart, and I had an inexplicable sense of fear, as if I had done something unseemly, afraid that I would be exposed.

Zhu Xiuling was unrelenting: "I think he is a hooligan!" ”

When she said this, things were about to get bigger, and the fat head nurse hurriedly pushed her out of the door: "Don't talk nonsense!" People are battle heroes! ”

Zhu Xiuling wiped her eyes and said, "Won't a combat hero play hooligan?" ”

Before the fat head nurse could speak, they heard a deep voice say, "No! I know Mazi, he's not that person, I just took a gun and forced him to play hooligan, and he won't! ”

They saw Sun Debiao standing in front of them.

6

One evening, Sun Debiao took me to a small river outside the field hospital, and we sat on the grass facing the setting sun. Sun Debiao smiled strangely at me. I plucked a weed, put it in my mouth and chewed it, and I chewed out the bitter sweetness.

He said, "You are a cow, and you have come to chew the roots." ”

I said, "In the year of famine, if you haven't eaten anything, it's good to have grass to eat!" ”

Sun Debiao said: "Nonsense! By the way, Mazi, I ask you something, you have to tell me honestly. ”

I said lightly, "What's the matter?" ”

Sun Debiao said: "Tell me honestly, have you fallen in love with that little girl named Zhu Xiuling?" ”

My eyes widened: "What did you say?" ”

Sun Debiao smiled: "Let me ask you if you have fallen in love with that little girl named Zhu Xiuling?" ”

I think Captain Sun must be joking with me, he usually likes to joke with me. I smiled and said, "What's going on?" ”

Sun Debiao laughed: "I said, otherwise how could a person like you grab that little girl's hand!" Thinking about it day and dreaming about it at night, it seems that this is not false at all. ”

Only then did I realize that he wasn't joking with me, he took it seriously. Before I could explain anything, he said to the guards standing aside, "Go, call Zhu Xiuling to me!" ”

The guard said yes and ran away.

I was anxious: "Head Sun, what are you going to do?" ”

Sun Debiao smiled: "You'll know in a while." ”

When Zhu Xiuling followed the guards and walked in front of us, the sun had just sunset.

The guard said to Sun Debiao: "Report to the head of the regiment, I invited Nurse Zhu!" ”

Sun Debiao waved his hand: "Stand to the side, don't come over without my order!" ”

The guard ran not far from us and stood there motionless, like a tall poplar tree.

Zhu Xiuling was a little afraid of Sun Debiao, but she still said to Sun Debiao arrogantly: "Chief, what did you call me for?" ”

Sun Debiao said: "Nonsense, can I call you if I have nothing to do?" ”

Zhu Xiuling looked cramped and uneasy: "Hurry up and say something, I have to go back to duty, and the head nurse will criticize me again when she sees that I am not there in a while." ”

Sun Debiao said: "With me, you are afraid of us, she dares to criticize you, I criticize her!" And don't look at what I'm doing good. Nurse Zhu, I see that you are not too young, and I want to protect you from a matchmaker. ”

When Zhu Xiuling heard this, her face turned red: "Chief, you can joke with me, I already have a partner." ”

Sun Debiao said: "You are not honest, I have investigated, you have no object at all, you can be deceived by others, and it is not so easy to get me Sun Debiao." I will give you a medium, it will not be wrong, you follow him, he will definitely be good to you, this is a solid-eyed person, a good martial arts, marksmanship is incomparable, and he is a combat hero, such a man is difficult to find with a lantern! ”

When I heard Sun Debiao say this, I knew what he wanted to do, and I was so nervous that I couldn't interject if I wanted to. I think Sun Debiao's joke is too big, how can I be with Zhu Xiuling, where is this, isn't this a messy mandarin duck score.

Zhu Xiuling looked at me, she was not a fool, she must have known that the person Sun Debiao said was me. She pointed at me and said, "Chief, you're talking about him, right?" ”

Sun Debiao said with a smile: "That's right, that's right, it's him, it's him!" What do you think? ”

Zhu Xiuling's face suddenly changed, and she said coldly: "Chief, may I ask, do you want me to tell the truth or lie?" ”

Sun Debiao pretended to be serious and said: "Of course I have to listen to the truth, I hate people who tell lies the most in my life!" Say whatever you want! ”

Zhu Xiuling said coldly: "Chief, I admire him for being a combat hero, but I don't like this person. I couldn't eat when I saw his face full of pockmarks, and the half of his ears made me scared. Also, also, he is such a eunuch, can I marry him? Didn't you disgust me and make me jump into the fire pit? ”

I didn't expect her to say such mean things, I stood there as if I had been hit in the brain by a bullet, cold and stiff.

Sun Debiao's eyes widened and he said in surprise: "What do you say, eunuch?" ”

Zhu Xiuling is indeed a bold and heartless girl: "Then you still need me to say, don't you know?" It can't be, who of the doctors and nurses in our hospital doesn't know? The doctors and nurses who operated on him weren't dead people, so they couldn't speak! ”

When I heard this, the new and old wounds all over my body ached violently, I felt the world spinning, I was not afraid of being shot, I was not afraid of being stabbed with a bayonet, and I was not afraid of death, but Zhu Xiuling's words crushed me, I was more uncomfortable than death, I howled like a wolf in the thin twilight!

Sun Debiao suddenly became furious, he called the guard over loudly, and without saying a word, he took out a box gun from the guard's holster, pointed the gun at Zhu Xiuling, and shouted: "You are still fucking human, if you don't marry, you won't marry, Lao Tzu didn't force you, how can you say such vicious words!" Soldiers can be killed, but not humiliated! You stinky, I shot you with one shot! ”

Zhu Xiuling was frightened and at a loss for a while. I saw that I was going to die, so I hurriedly rushed over desperately, hugged Sun Debiao tightly, and yelled at Zhu Xiuling: "What the hell are you doing in a daze, don't run away!" Only then did Zhu Xiuling react, turned around and stumbled away. I know very well in my heart that if I don't hug Sun Debiao tightly, he will really shoot Zhu Xiuling to death!

This matter was stabbed to the top, and Sun Debiao was punished for it. Sun Debiao felt very sorry for me, he knew that I had been hurt. He secretly found a doctor who usually had a good relationship with him and gave me a check-up, and the doctor said to me: "You can get married and have children, but it's a little shorter, but it doesn't affect you as a man!" "The doctor's words were a comfort to me, it was only a comfort, and instead of being happy about it, I planted the seeds of pain in my heart. Sun Debiao said: "Mazi, good brother, when the whole country is liberated, I will find you a good girl!" ”

Zhu Xiuling has since become silent, she has been transferred to the laundry room to work, we rarely meet her once, when we meet her, she will bow her head and walk briskly. My injuries were not completely healed, so I followed Sun Debiao, who had recovered, out of the field military hospital. On the day I left, Zhu Xiuling was waiting for us under a tree not far from the entrance of the hospital. When we rode past her, the horse slowed down, and the petite Zhu Xiuling raised her face, with tears in her big melancholy eyes, and she only said one sentence: "Mazi, I'm sorry!" "As we rode away, I occasionally looked back and saw that she was still standing under the tree, her face blurred, illusory in the pale sunlight.